Iove how they believe they are winning this. Totally and completely.
That I am supposed to lose by:
-finally revealing all the info I know publicly thus endangering my life as well as finally looking like a rat which is what is done to most MK Ultra or RA/programming survivors. Like all the kids who came forward with Boystown in Nebraska.
Most of.us end up in jail or dead or committed. Or framed up to.look like we robbed banks etc. An informant told me they tried to frame me for that. They actually tried it. So, does that mean Fritz Springmeir was framed as well? Interesting.
- leave the country and leave myself totally vulnerable
-suicide
-give up and go quiet
-finally give in to going.into a psychiatrist and taking a label to discredit myself and fully validate all my enemies.
I DIDNT IMAGINE BEING HARASSED AND STALKED.DURING A LOCAL BOSTON FEDERAL INVESTIGATION. I ALSO DID NOT IMAGINE MY MOTHER WORKING.HARD ON GETTING JUSTICE FOR HER AND I BEING VICTIMS OF RADIATION EXPOSURE DUE.TO HER BEING AN EXPERIMENTEE IN THE 50's. I also didn't imagine her dropping it becuz she was intimidated.
You destroyed my future. You toyed with my family. You got in my way. You lie and you nurser and worst of all you think you are smarter than everyone else and you're arrogance is unparalleled.
I don't know what this new trend is with giving.a.shit what the public thinks. I respect them about as much as you do. But unlike you I believe they deserve at least a.chance to know the truth.
Becuz there are good people out there who care about things. Not just these horrid greedy citizens who could actually be behind my being destroyed, some sort of general consensus that I don't.deserve to live due to my being an experimentee.
Always consider the greed and selfishness of the masses. The citizenry. Those bastards might just agree largely that a person like me doesn't deserve to be left alone due to being an abomination in their eyes.
Not that the average person matters.
Boston has become so nasty and so inhosoitable that I may just have.to leave without any medical done first. Just go be sick overseas.
I can't take it here. Everyone hates me or ignores me
And lately I am being convinced that this has been done.to me becuz I.needed to be humanized and socialized.
THAT I can't allow most of all. Becuz its.not real growth of a healed human being. Its wounding someone until nothing.is.left then sealing.that up so the person is a totally average controllable citizen.
If the American public hate me so or ignore me so then I will just leave. At least let me get my shots or.whatever.first.
Then.I.am sure the Feds or whoever will lie.and.say I left to become a terrorist threat overseas or inform.whoever.that.I.am nuts and dangerous.
I think of.everything for the most part. We've seen what.these assholes do to victims like me who won't suicide peacefully and insist on standing.up for ourselves.
Don't worry. I.am not going.near the middle East. I am going.right to Switzerland.and anyplace or anyone who.will listen concerning war crimes here in the US.
Not that there aren't TIs in Europe. So who cares then?
No one is going.to take my life from me and then make me feel like I deserved.it.
This is all part.of the experimentation anyways. Even pushing.me to write this blot is part of.it. This is free info for them as.to how the subject thinks. The assholes in control of this get a lot from this blog. Which of.course.is also part of the torture which is part of the ongoing.MK Ultra warcrimes.
Geniuses aren't they?
It's like a dream I had as a kid, a dream I found disturbing. I was watching a kid struggling to play something at the piano, and she basically took the kid, crumpled him up like a piece of paper, and threw him in a nearby small trash bin. All the while, the kid was scared and crying. That's what the system views us as, and I imagine the dream is very much like what the system does. But the dream was like 1975 or so? Maybe 1974 or 1976? Somewhere in that age range when I was a very young child. Eech, but that is so much like what the system does. Like the young boy, the system targets people when they were young like the boy, and the mom trying to teach him piano but getting frustrated represents the system who determines the kid is expendable. I imagine there is a mechanism that drives the symbolism in dreams, but I know it was a premonition dream for many years later. Except such a system was already in place back then. Just not as many people involved. Maybe the CIA and other knowledgeable people. Not huge swaths of people like today. But when I was in kindergarten, already I was starting to become isolated with a couple people here and there in my class hating me. And my aunt was the teacher one year, and I found her unnecessarily harsh. I entered first grade, but since I was almost a year younger than everyone else pretty much, I got sent back to kindergarten for another year.
ReplyDeleteAnd perps know about the dream, and sometimes they allude to it by hinting to me "LOL you're trash", knowing that I am like the kid, being treated unmercifully like refuse to be thrown into the trash. But the one perp was a real "winner", she was very trailer trash in many ways. Yet she got off on the knowledge passed on to her about my dream and alluding to me being tossed into the trash, hence therefore I must be trash.
The system does think we're trash, and wants us to acknowledge this as we're being slowly killed.
Again, I know it sounds ridiculous, but at some point when evolving from apes into humans, we developed the ability to think in terms of symbolism. And the dreams have symbolism, but that capability progresses over time. But yet, the symbolism of that dream was not far-fetched. I just remembered that dream just now. I did realize that the kid was being murdered, and it was kind of literal in a real-world sort of way.
Now I know perps are going to be mocking and laughing at this free info I provided. Yet the system does murder people and throw them in the trash like this.
They just don't get it. They don't understand, yet they are given info about us to have us mocked.
I am realizing a lot of those disturbing or strange dreams referenced a time in the far future about the nature of the vicious system. And one perp also mocked another dream I had around the same time frame. Basically, at the end of the dream, had the realization that I am being chased by something very scary frightening and evil, I knew it was after me and was right on me. I was trying to escape from it, but couldn't get away from it. 1976 or so. Around 7-8 years old. Interestingly, I couldn't wake up from this dream, despite being REM. I almost died from fright. It was night out, being chased by something malicious yet invisible. So of course, they sent out idiots to mock this dream. Like the one I saw wearing a bright yellow vest at night was walking right behind me saying "oh yeah, I see it, the invisible thing but I see it". The way they trivialize a very important premonition. If only perps were smart enough or had the ability targets had to see these things in the far future in dreams. They are acting on info given to them by the system. Like the dreams are no big deal. Or the one perp hinted to me that she knew about the dream I almost died from at age 7, where I was being chased by what must be the System, and basically trivializing it like it was a funny event.