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(Minus the anarchy part lol) Don't stop resisting/don't stop fighting/don't let go/ don't give up/don't give in/keep trying/

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2026 UPDATE ON VIDEOS:
PLEASE BE AWARE THAT AS OF 2026 I HAVE TAKEN DOWN ALL VIDEOS THAT SHOW MY FACE. THIS IS DUE TO ADVANCING TECHNOLOGIES IN OUR WORLD BUT IT IS ALSO DUE TO MY GROWING RESPONSIBILITY TO AGING RELATIVES AND MY DESIRE TO PRODUCE MEANINGFUL WORK THAT WILL SECURE MY FUTURE FOR THEM AND MYSELF. KEEP IN MIND THAT THIS BLOG WAS STARTED IN A DIFFERENT ERA WHERE BEING A CONSPIRACY THEORIST WAS SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE. For many years there were a few attempts to discredit the targeted individual community, such as infrequent, lone articles published by unsavory newspapers. However this was always met with resistance as well as a continued desire from many powerful factions such as academia to keep our community in a gray area. This is most likely due to the fact that back in those days academia had not been infiltrated or influenced by things like students being indoctrinated and then being used as armies against adults and institutions as well as other sordid things like the Jeffrey Epstein scandal. Educated and powerful people knew damn well that this situation is completely feasible. That level of society understood that we are victims of torture especially being aware of the exact nature of abuse of power opposed to the general public's vague impressions that they barely sense that they're being oppressed by in their daily lives anyway. Especially if it's connected to human experimentation or the theory that MK ultra is being continued under private contractors all these years academia and the powerful of all people would understand the levity of the situation. PEOPLE COULD NOT BE CANCELED AND DISSIDENT VOICES COULD NOT BE SILENCED SO EASILY. SOMEONE EXPRESSING A VERY ALTERNATIVE OPINION WOULD NOT IMMEDIATELY BE A POTENTIAL THREAT OR A DANGER TO OTHERS DUE TO CONTENT. SINCE THIS BLOG WAS STARTED, CONSPIRACY THEORY CULTURE HAS BEEN VILLANIZED AND WORSE CO-OPTED (EVEN THOUGH IT SEEMS THAT THE LEFT AND THE RIGHT POLITICAL PARTIES BELIEVE NOTHING BUT CONSPIRACY THEORIES AND THERE'S NO COMMON SENSE OR REAL POLITICS GOING ON). THERE'S SO MUCH CONSPIRACY THEORY GOING ON WITHIN POLITICS THE PROBLEM IS IS THAT ANYBODY THAT'S A REAL CONSPIRACY THEORIST THAT'S LOOKING FOR REAL ANSWERS OR THE TRUTH IS NOW BEING LABELED A PROBLEM BECAUSE SOMEHOW CONSPIRACY THEORIES ARE ONLY SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE AS LONG AS THEY FIT IN WITH...POLITICAL POLARIZATION?
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Tuesday, October 6, 2026

public transit bus drivers playing games be aware

 So my ulcers are killing me after a chemical exposure from a defective product recently and I don't have the medicine I need for it so I was excruciating pain trying to ride the bus and the drivers for the last year have been playing games constantly with people who have cards or people who have walkers. 

If it's a wheelchair they have to accommodate it properly. And I don't think they're playing games with like old people with walkers they're just being really fucking llazy. But it might be on purpose you have to remember the way to get rid of people and to start your own little tyrant run society is to get rid of the old and to enslave the young and that's exactly what they're doing. You also have to get rid of all the artists and intellectuals which this area has definitely done or at least they've muzzled the intellectuals and driven out in priced out the artists. 

So this is on its way to being like China. Which the world economic forum has said is there fucking example of a perfect society which is why we have to stop them because they're completely fucking insane and the public don't understand what's going oon. 

So I lost it I'm usually composed I couldn't deal with it first of all you've got to fucking bunch of people from this school okay and I don't want to be hard on people but let me to put it to you this way if I was in the middle of the fucking Hood in the middle of Roxbury I would get better behavior from people and I would be welcome and people would be nice compared to this bullshit that I deal with in Cambridge I don't know what the fuck is going on I don't know why it's like this but we have to remember something it's called coin tell pro we cannot trust certain demographics especially near a college area because coin tell pro never ended. 

It's the same way it's the same way when I go to the north part of California in the summer when I used to go Berkeley is completely fucked it's completely full of cointelpro kids but when I go to Oakland it's totally politically aware and I don't have to be afraid of getting screwed with it aall.  

It's like the same thing here I wouldn't trust anybody around a major university because they're probably either a compromised or they being used as pawns and unfortunately the reality is is that a person can only take so much with being taunted all the time and having people walk in front of them on purpose. 

Now the drivers of the buses what they're doing is they're either giving you a hard fucking time when you want the ramp or you want them to come close to the curb so you can lift your cart and I see them do it to old people with walkers as well. What they're doing is they're making a big gap between the bus and the side of the sidewalk so that old people have to live their carts and old people have to lift their walkers or if you're young and they don't think that you're disabled and they want to play games with you oh it's not say for what the reason is is for whatever reason I'm not going to get into it here you know this is all theory the point is is they are playing games. The last bus ride I had a guy pulled up to an Asian woman with her fucking kid on 6th and Cambridge and she was in front of a tree he actually saw me getting off with my card and pulled up to this woman where there was a tree right there how in the hell am I supposed to get off and he's not even pulling up to the curb then what he did is he made sure that after I said I needed to get off and he has to get up to the curb he tried to tell her to come on first which would have blocked me from getting out that's another game that they're playing lately they're making sure that they tell people to get on the bus before they let you off which makes no sense because they can't fit by you. 

I have had multiple bus drivers and the last 6 months make a massive huge deal about putting out the ramp or coming up to the curb they look at me they act nasty towards me they Snicker at me they act like I don't need it and it's getting to be obvious that it's a game if I were you I would film these motherfuckers right in their goddamn faces get a hidden camera and film everyone you film these bastards. 

You have to remember something about this public transit system around here everybody is new 62% of the bus drivers are new that is what an older guy told me that drives the buses now those people have to get their foot in the door they're going to make their bones they're trying to establish themselves now who knows what they're going to do to do that and so maybe they might do something crooked so we're having a lot of fucking problems with these new people lately. 

And also that I talk to one of the guys that does the training they only give him like a week and they put them out there and it shows because they can't fucking drive. 

So now we have to go to war with this new army of new people at the local public transit because they want to play games or they're not qqualified to be driving because they don't have enough training. And the trainer actually told me that this is after they've actually increased the training time so if in the old days you had less training and I didn't see this much incompetence it sounds like they're hiring incompetent unqualified people and they have to give them even more training and it's still not working so what do they do to keep their jobs right? 

Yep you guessed it. 

What do unqualified people that can't make it due to compensate? I think you have an idea of what I'm saying. 

So because we have an army of buffoons driving us around and they want to keep their jobs but they're unqualified or they don't have the personality for it or the nerves for it or whatever it is now you're going to have to deal with people doing stupid shit to you when you have a cart or it seems like they're also playing games with old people that have walkers they don't come up to the curb but old people are too nice and they go oh it's fine I'm not going to do that. 

Just like a couple of years ago they played games with the trains on the green line on the d line they played games and even if you showed your pass right in front of them and waved a cane in front of the window before they showed up to the train station they refuse to open the back to let you in if you had a cat if you looked houseless but now they'll open it for anybody and then I'm even enforcing the fares.

And I don't want to hear about it how I lost it you can completely go fuck yourselves this game is over. 

And I did some AI research I finally understand what happened in 2016 as well but sadly a human being couldn't explain it to me around here because that's how corned and fenced in I am so I had to have ai explain it to me now I understand what happened and I'm going to fucking do something about it with lawyers and writing stuff down I'm not going to put up with this bullshit people are taking advantage of the fact that I'm actually not a criminal mind and I'm not even innocent and good and people are fucking walking all over me and this is over now. 

You better get ready because when I come after everybody I'm going to hit you with everything I fucking have. And that doesn't mean you little fucked up fantasies about violence that means you're going to get exactly what you deserve because this is what you've sown and that's what you're going to reap legally and through being exposed. 

Tuesday, September 29, 2026

what the hell is that peanut smell over in Chelsea here

 Teddy peanut factory is supposed to be closed for manufacturing at 3:30 p.m. everyday. Why am I all the way over in Chelsea next to Everett and I can smell heavy peanut smell? It's the only thing in the area that would smell that way and by the way I've never smelled the teddy factory this far out so what the hell is going on? 

If I had known this was going to happen I would have taken Benadryl last night and this morning. Wtf? 

All these factories that make things that people are allergic to nowadays should all be put far away from the public out in industrial areas by law. 

The superior nut company is absolutely ridiculous they should be taken out of Summerville or Cambridge or whatever it is it's right next to three freaking hotels can you imagine being allergic to nuts and peanuts not understanding that that's right nearby and then renting this hotel and getting in there and realizing that you're having an attack in the morning because of the stupid nut ffactory? I don't know how people are getting this. 

Everything should be moved to an industrial area away from hotels and awsy from residences