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2026 UPDATE ON VIDEOS:
PLEASE BE AWARE THAT AS OF 2026 I HAVE TAKEN DOWN ALL VIDEOS THAT SHOW MY FACE. THIS IS DUE TO ADVANCING TECHNOLOGIES IN OUR WORLD BUT IT IS ALSO DUE TO MY GROWING RESPONSIBILITY TO AGING RELATIVES AND MY DESIRE TO PRODUCE MEANINGFUL WORK THAT WILL SECURE MY FUTURE FOR THEM AND MYSELF. KEEP IN MIND THAT THIS BLOG WAS STARTED IN A DIFFERENT ERA WHERE BEING A CONSPIRACY THEORIST WAS SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE. For many years there were a few attempts to discredit the targeted individual community, such as infrequent, lone articles published by unsavory newspapers. However this was always met with resistance as well as a continued desire from many powerful factions such as academia to keep our community in a gray area. This is most likely due to the fact that back in those days academia had not been infiltrated or influenced by things like students being indoctrinated and then being used as armies against adults and institutions as well as other sordid things like the Jeffrey Epstein scandal. Educated and powerful people knew damn well that this situation is completely feasible. That level of society understood that we are victims of torture especially being aware of the exact nature of abuse of power opposed to the general public's vague impressions that they barely sense that they're being oppressed by in their daily lives anyway. Especially if it's connected to human experimentation or the theory that MK ultra is being continued under private contractors all these years academia and the powerful of all people would understand the levity of the situation. PEOPLE COULD NOT BE CANCELED AND DISSIDENT VOICES COULD NOT BE SILENCED SO EASILY. SOMEONE EXPRESSING A VERY ALTERNATIVE OPINION WOULD NOT IMMEDIATELY BE A POTENTIAL THREAT OR A DANGER TO OTHERS DUE TO CONTENT. SINCE THIS BLOG WAS STARTED, CONSPIRACY THEORY CULTURE HAS BEEN VILLANIZED AND WORSE CO-OPTED (EVEN THOUGH IT SEEMS THAT THE LEFT AND THE RIGHT POLITICAL PARTIES BELIEVE NOTHING BUT CONSPIRACY THEORIES AND THERE'S NO COMMON SENSE OR REAL POLITICS GOING ON). THERE'S SO MUCH CONSPIRACY THEORY GOING ON WITHIN POLITICS THE PROBLEM IS IS THAT ANYBODY THAT'S A REAL CONSPIRACY THEORIST THAT'S LOOKING FOR REAL ANSWERS OR THE TRUTH IS NOW BEING LABELED A PROBLEM BECAUSE SOMEHOW CONSPIRACY THEORIES ARE ONLY SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE AS LONG AS THEY FIT IN WITH...POLITICAL POLARIZATION?
 IT'S JUST A DANGEROUS TIME. I WILL ALWAYS PRODUCE WORK ON THIS BLOG UNTIL I AM INCAPABLE OF DOING SO OR UNTIL MY BOOK IS WRITTEN.  SINCE I WAS FRAMED IN 2016 IT TOTALLY OBLITERATED MY AUDIENCE BASE. I HAVE TO WORK REALLY HARD TO GET THIS THING BACK. MY PERSONAL LIFE HAS BEEN INTERFERING FOR THE PAST 10 YEARS AND THAT IS ENDING NOW.. HOPEFULLY I CAN MAKE THIS BLOG WHAT I ORIGINALLY INTENDED IT TO BE AS WELL AS I CAN FINALLY COMPLETE WHAT I STARTED DECADES AGO AS A WOMAN IN MY THIRTIES. NOW IN MY '50S I WOULD LIKE TO COMPLETE THIS AND MOVE ON. 
 
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Wednesday, May 27, 2026

Has the Moon's Energy Been Altered By Artemis Missions?

 I've posted before that I do not believe we landed on the moon in the 1960s. However I do believe that these recent programs like Artemis are actually taking humans around space and the moon as they claim. 

It's no longer important to the moon landing of the 1960s to be a hoax because it's kind of like 9/11 at this ppoint-everybody knows by now and nobody wants to talk about it because it would interfere with the American narrative and there would be no point to it anyway. I agree that legal action could be taken and the truths could be exposed but in the world that we live in now it's a globalist world and other countries would just take it as a weakness. Unfortunately things have progressed to the point where you can't have exposure of lies and deception making the truth valuable for genuine change. 

We live in a world now that exposes fully all the human fallibilities that Make life unbearable miserable and eevil. If you want to use the term evil which is relative.

We know that things could be so much more but by now with things like the world economic forum in existence as well as globalism we cannot afford them to be. 

The concern is is that man is actually now really going out to the moon area and probably does have the ability now to break through the Van Allen belt. 

I'm not a scientist but anybody with leaning in the sciences that has any kind of wisdom and is connected to this Earth can tell you that it's there for a reason probably and we shouldn't go poking holes in it or messing around with it. I mean it's pretty important to be protected from deadly rays from sspace. 

I do agree however that mankind can't stay here forever and we need to learn to do things like we've seen in sci-fi movies all these years like terraform planets and carry the human seed out into space to look for new places to live-younger solar systems. It's hard to say however because the way the Earth is evolved over time it may evolve in the next million years and do a place where humans are very different or something exists here other than humans. If you want to understand being human and going out into space for a space exploration there are some very simple and easy YouTube videos though some people might find them time consuming and laborious to watch I enjoy them as they map out over a timeline The changes to the Earth since The Earth's early forming. This can give you an idea of how our oceans for instance used to be made of iron and were red. You realize that You're in this small section in the long timeline where you exist in a place that's made just for you Will you have air to freeze and trees on earth and everything works together. 

I think going out into space is a desperate attempt at surviving long-term. It isn't just a pollution that we create and it isn't just the fact that in a few million years our son is going to get really big and burn us up and they get really small and die, it's the idea that within that time frame even something could change in the environment and make it so this place is uninhabitable for human llife and even the vegetation in the air that they create for us and other animals. Even though I think we probably have secret systems  in place protecting us from asteroids there seems to be a strange intelligence out there protecting us but maybe one day one of those asteroids might make it here and then we won't survive regardless of how much we go out into space. For humans could survive in small numbers I ssuppose. 

So perhaps taking everything on the road I would into space might work humans may be able to morph into something eelse some other form and go elsewhere. 

What bothers me is that we don't enjoy the time that we have here. We left the powers that make things bad make us miserable and keep our souls eenslaved. I think most people don't see that. I've also discovered from aging this far as well as being a traveler and being targeted so I'm disconnected from society generally for many years now well of course trying to stay connected as much as I can this process has made me realize how much the animals and the vegetation especially trees here have much to do with human life on earth. Not only do we disregard this completely The new environmental movements are so tied into The new scientific environment which pushes transhumanism and the greed with real estate that people are actually getting away from nature and disrespecting it even more then in the recent past. 

I now have come to realize that the trees have something to do with human life on this Earth that is very..... unique. 

In ancient belief systems it seems that trees are very important and there's a lot of old paintings drawings and reliefs of trees and their roots into the ground as symbols that will revered by ancients. 

I think we should start looking at trees where we look at technology. Communication. if we have an intuition about something if something tells us to do something in prediction to avoid a mistake in later in the timeline that we're living in you feel there's wisdom or good advice coming perhaps it's trees? If trees and vegetation and plants communicate I think we should really look at this even beyond those old books like The Secret Life of Plants. As usual when dealing in the conspiracy theory community The view from the beginning of thinking about that would be probably The powers that be and those with with more resources than us already know the answers and seek to use it to their own advantage while making it so we lose access nature's power. 

The moon is also a source of comfort. The moon always was a source of comfort and that something up there was protecting us and that life will be okay. Those of us who were travelers who aren't exactly atheists but believe that the source of human comfort human life comes from nature itself The sun and the moon are very important. They're not symbols they're living things that we live underneath and are part of our lives. 

I feel since the Artemis mission in April  there's something wrong something has changed. I felt very depressed and I felt very let down and not connected to the skies the way that I used to be specifically the Moon. 

Human should pay attention to the message created here on earth before they start going out and messing with things they don't understand. Just because scientist understand how to build things llike rockets to go into space which is essentially the same thing as inventing a car to get around or an airplane to fly around the Earth is it necessarily mean they understand other things that might be important. If they don't understand those things on earth and don't take them to consideration they're not going to take things into consideration outside the Earth either. 

The issue of electromagnetic pollution is well as waste over cconsumption these other kinds of issues have to be solved before we responsible enough to go messing around in space. I understand how transhumanism would be important in trying to go out into space but that doesn't mean that you shouldn't consider the state of the human soul spirit etc and even how that ties into biology physiology and even anatomy. These things used to be common studies back in the old days the Renaissance man or the well-rounded person of science science progressed it became more important medicine and military were the focus and they kind of disregarded all this other stuff as quackery or put it under the heading of  'Occult'. 

I've noticed something in this life on this , the last thing the system seems to want you to do is to understand how much of a powerhouse you are in these bodies on this earth. And there does seem to be a concerted effort to make sure you reach your full potential or  your full size if you will.  

I posted a video last year or the year before when I was living in a nice suburb around breakheart reservation north of BBoston. There was a greater connection there to the trees into nature. And all woods are different by the way. Traveling around this country I feel that they're similar in many ways even maybe connected interconnected but each set of woods and has its own personality of course it all depends on the people buried underneath  and what that Flora has come into contact with to make it what it is over hundreds of years even thousands. Depends on who lives in the area what's around what kind of pollution is there etc. The weather there a whole bunch of different factors. Once you get out into the Southwest you get a little more at e because there's less human building and habitation going on and you can see things that set you free a little bit more and get you in with long-term timelines. When you go and see The water lines that that are on the huge stone structures in the desert and you realize it shows the progression of massive changes like that there used to be ocean here or water. You become a little more entwined with the finite and realize that you're part of something much bigger but you're not here that long and really everything is here provided for you while you're alive in this body. And life becomes more at ease. 

The video I just spoke about before I got distracted speaking about my beloved travels in the desert that I love to remember as I have not traveled there in 10 years, The video I spoke about wwas that compelled me to put it on this as I was very into air crash investigation as it's important to me to look at something and see people doing actual real investigations where they cannot lie and they cannot twist around the truth make excuses as they have done with a lot of things we've seen especially with the TI community. The approach to our situation has been so unscientific it's ridiculous. And the recent vilification writing everyone off as mentally ill without any kind of investigation at all or consideration is totally ridiculous. And by the way it was not always like this they would not be able to do this to us years ago because academia was not compromised by things like Epstein and all the blackmail going on and by the way if you did not know this I will let you know that the Russian organized crime organizations actually infiltrated our country in the late '90s or so and I won't tell you how I know that but an old friend of mine who's long said that unfortunately they're nice little business had been interfered with by the Russian Mafia coming in and demanding a piece of their action. And after that everything changed you can see it even in the cities things changed. Imagine you have a bunch of out KGB people with no government That's going to be pretty dangerous if they get involved in crime. There's actually a video a documentary out there that tell us how international criminals can now easily buy nuclear submarines from defunct governments like the USSR. So all of this tearing down the wall of East Germany and the USSR that you've seen it's not necessarily a good thing because these governments become destabilized and all it does is contribute to international organized crime which probably was the purpose by design. 

Anyway that aside now you have an understanding of how easy it is nowadays with surveillance and who's out there now to get blackmailed and then everyone is under control right? And we've seen academia be controlled just by a bunch of stupid kids who don't like somebody and get somebody canceled years ago even with workplace mobbing their own academic peers couldn't even get them fired if they had tenure. 

So years ago we were more protected and we were more tolerated because people in academia and old money and wealthy people knew that this is the way the world works and it is very feasible. But now everyone has to turn on us probably because everybody has skeletons in their closet just like everybody eelse. And the more rich you are and the more you have a degree and the more respectable you are the more important it is to make sure nobody knows those skeletons are there. 

I posted a video because I was interested in airplane crashes. There's something paranormal about it. What they call holes in the swiss cheese when they do an investigation The different factors that make it so the plane crashes whereas maybe if one or two things were absent the plane crash would not have happened. 

All these factors have to be involved in all these incidents. Well what makes it so One plane crashes and another doesn't? Just like I wondered about death what makes it so one person survives right next to the other guy that dies? One such example is a gentleman from Massachusetts who was driving a truck in New York City and as he was driving something happened underground and one of the manhole covers in the street became airborne with great force went right through his windshield and lodged deeply directly into his skull vertically. Now what are the goddamn chances of that happening seriously? Why him why on that day? 

I've even looked at the victims of serial killers and stuff like that and I wonder maybe if there was something faded about their deaths even the people that were in these airline crashes like the pilots. Did someone want to get rid of them is there a reason that the universe had to get rid of them for the timeline to continue in a certain way? 

Even traffic accidents. Why do you things happen a certain way at a certain time? Is there a formula or algorithm to death iitself? 

Of course that's something you should think about and then get away from and because I don't have a math degree I actually have a math disability it's probably for the best. 

In the video that I posted it showed a man from India filming on his cell phone on an airplane and that video was the last moments before the plane set on fire and crashed but the video actually continues after the crash. Once the plane crashes and the fire ddisappears The video clearly shows Flora and trees in the area where they crashed and there's an eerie dead silence but there's something in the background that you can hear not with your ears but with your super hearing or something like that. Something like the trees and the flora being disturbed by a sudden event such as an airplane crashing and fire and humans dying. 

At the time the video of the death itself was what was compelling because you actually get to see it but now moving further in my evolution I can see that my focus was more on the trees and the flora in the background. That's what attracted me to the video more so. The contrast of what was living opposed to what had died also that there's communication bbetween plants that goes on even after we die. And even while we are alive and this is something we need to start considering very seriously. 

Until we start considering things like this and taking over consumption waste and pollution very seriously and stop messing around with pseudo movements and complete idiots like GGreta and all these diversions and politics and social media and sensational culture we have no business going out into space. I've seen interviews with scientists they're asked about the pollution that something that they're working on causes. And it's the typical reaction of people in a position where they can afford to be wasteful. It's not the reaction of someone who takes pollution seriously and is responsible. The reaction of the scientist and the interview that I saw was he rolled his eyes and I had a childish boyish grin and everyone kind of laughed it off that this thing he was working on was left in the ocean and it should be taken out cuz it's going to cause permanent pollution. He just reacted like rich people react to things like this he didn't react like a responsible scientist. 

So you have to realize humans are human before their scientists that might make sense and be llogical first and foremost. 

I live a chaotic life and my personal life has become something that takes me away from my work and I wish I had the ability to take all these things that I've seen and all these references and find them for you. Years ago if you look things up on Google you could do that you could find something that you lost that you were thinking of that you saw now everything is geared towards buying things and everything's flooded with bullshit so it's hard to do research to find references. 

To be fair about technology I hated the idea of AI answering my searches but now I found it useful extremely useful but only in a utilitarian way. It has its limitations because it only answers things within the framework of what is socially acceptable. But for day-to-day stuff it does mmake things more easy to get day-to-day things done that are hard to deal with that get in my way faster I can get day-to-day dumb stuff done the more I can get on to the more involved stuff. I am amazed at how AI answers questions about cooking and that you can ask it a full sentence now and it will answer you. 

The downfall is people my mother's generation who tend to be lonely because of divorce rates and mistrust of the system when they were yyounger they're starting to get into things like Gemini a little too much. I don't know what Gemini is My phone keeps getting me to try to use it and I keep dismissing it it sounds like it's probably just another beefed up version of Alexa or something. I think it bothers Gen x for us to talk to something that we know is dos. You have to remember the world is frustrating for us because we remember all this stuff and its creation and we don't have a lot of time for bells and whistles and all the pretty colors because we just want to get to to the basics because we know that technology is supposed to be a tool. Like our grandparents from world war II down in their workbenches in the basement all their tools You're supposed to pick something up use a tool and put it back neatly and in order to wear it belongs. You're not supposed to carry it around with you all the time and live in it like it's another goddamn dimension like the damn phones nowadays and I feel bad for these kids where they've been forced to be born into the phone. I didn't miss word that you know I'm articulate literally I mean that they were born into the phone. The world that is on the internet on that phone. They believe that it's actually another dimension and they live in it. I don't know if there's any way to correct that but I think it should be corrected with the next few generations. 

I know that we're a species that knows that we're going to die soon we have the curse of knowing what's going to happen to our planet and we also know as animals not humans The God spark and the brains we know as dumb animals that were killing ourselves and polluting ourselves to death and that we shouldn't be doing it but it's hhappening. We are a species in panic but we act like we're not every day 

And we need to get right with what we really are who we really are and where we live on this planet and in space and if we can do that we can make peace with all this and then maybe we can go out into space in a way that's actually productive and not just screaming and yelling as you're drowning in the sea not expecting to be rescued but fighting for your life because that's human instinct. 

Speaking of the Russians they have a very sensible and wonderful saying which is "Hope is the last thing to go'

 Instead of americanizing Russia what we should be doing is taking advantage of all of their knowledge and all of their culture and all of their wisdom. I have the advantage of being Eastern European in part so therefore I'm more comfortable with this or maybe I understand it a little bbetter.  I didn't say I like their system of governance in the last couple of hundred years I didn't say I like their culture now but there's an ancient wisdom to be tied into that we're going to miss out on. 

My personal conspiracy theory with the East is that we've always been threatened by them especially the powers that be the keep us controlled with long-term systems of control like the church which if you didn't realize is the real reason you think white people are sick. White were pagans like everybody eelse thousands of years ago. It took almost 2,000 years to make us slaves and some of us luckily are not. In order to not have that long-term source of control of the people interfered with I believe that the powers that be had to beat down the Oriental cultures in the east and had to make sure there was no fusion between our cultures I believe they allowed African Americans to have white people get their groove back and for them to help us do that with their music and culture only to the point that they could use it as a weapon what you create things like AIDS and then The cultural fusion that would have saved everyone was stopped and has now been turned into polarization and a racial Cold war. 

And forget Africa itself they would rather you look at African American culture than African culture any day because African culture would actually be really useful in a fusion like a spice in a recipe or an ingredient. 

I believe that there was a huge tthreatwith the meeting of cultures between Russia and the West. 

The term cultural survival should not just apply to people of color it should apply to all peoples. Because remember Europeans were some of the first people enslaved and had their freedom and their religion taken away from them. It iisn't unusual that they would spread that misery around for hundreds of years. 

That is another blog post I can provide you with examples of how Early Europeans that were not ruled by the church in fact it had not been invented yet roamed around even in the Americas and got along fine with native peoples because at that time they were more similar in culture. 

I've also heard horrible things about how this space exploration is nothing more than the militarization of space like that's what we need more militarization. 

If you haven't noticed we already live in a culture now in America that's basically a soft core military dictatorship through cculture an ideology and identity politics. 

Let's fix the misery here before we bring everything out into space. Because just like the Tower of Babel in the Bible you won't be able to reach God up in the skies because you're not building it rright. perhaps you should start thinking interdimensionally instead of mechanically. and the portals to those dimensions begin with facts and wisdom about science nature being fused with technology. 

I'll miss the moon giving me comfort. I'll just now have to depend on the open ssky. Hopefully they can't take that away. 

Sunday, May 17, 2026

 I would like to hear from Survivors of. RA and programming who have been in recovery from alcohol and drugs for many Years. Leave comments on this post.

I'm trying to see if like myself childhood memories are mere flashes or out of body and if there's no memory at all from certain time frames especially during any time spans of substance abuse. 

I cannot recall much of my 20s and she to deprogramming even my later 20s in some instances. I recall people vaguely but don't recall things like where I lived, what my daily life was like etc. in some time periods I only have flashes of memory much like before the age of 7 yrs.

This may also be genetic and due to gene variations. 

I will have an email soon for people to write to me. 

Thanks