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2026 UPDATE ON VIDEOS:
PLEASE BE AWARE THAT AS OF 2026 I HAVE TAKEN DOWN ALL VIDEOS THAT SHOW MY FACE. THIS IS DUE TO ADVANCING TECHNOLOGIES IN OUR WORLD BUT IT IS ALSO DUE TO MY GROWING RESPONSIBILITY TO AGING RELATIVES AND MY DESIRE TO PRODUCE MEANINGFUL WORK THAT WILL SECURE MY FUTURE FOR THEM AND MYSELF. KEEP IN MIND THAT THIS BLOG WAS STARTED IN A DIFFERENT ERA WHERE BEING A CONSPIRACY THEORIST WAS SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE. For many years there were a few attempts to discredit the targeted individual community, such as infrequent, lone articles published by unsavory newspapers. However this was always met with resistance as well as a continued desire from many powerful factions such as academia to keep our community in a gray area. This is most likely due to the fact that back in those days academia had not been infiltrated or influenced by things like students being indoctrinated and then being used as armies against adults and institutions as well as other sordid things like the Jeffrey Epstein scandal. Educated and powerful people knew damn well that this situation is completely feasible. That level of society understood that we are victims of torture especially being aware of the exact nature of abuse of power opposed to the general public's vague impressions that they barely sense that they're being oppressed by in their daily lives anyway. Especially if it's connected to human experimentation or the theory that MK ultra is being continued under private contractors all these years academia and the powerful of all people would understand the levity of the situation. PEOPLE COULD NOT BE CANCELED AND DISSIDENT VOICES COULD NOT BE SILENCED SO EASILY. SOMEONE EXPRESSING A VERY ALTERNATIVE OPINION WOULD NOT IMMEDIATELY BE A POTENTIAL THREAT OR A DANGER TO OTHERS DUE TO CONTENT. SINCE THIS BLOG WAS STARTED, CONSPIRACY THEORY CULTURE HAS BEEN VILLANIZED AND WORSE CO-OPTED (EVEN THOUGH IT SEEMS THAT THE LEFT AND THE RIGHT POLITICAL PARTIES BELIEVE NOTHING BUT CONSPIRACY THEORIES AND THERE'S NO COMMON SENSE OR REAL POLITICS GOING ON). THERE'S SO MUCH CONSPIRACY THEORY GOING ON WITHIN POLITICS THE PROBLEM IS IS THAT ANYBODY THAT'S A REAL CONSPIRACY THEORIST THAT'S LOOKING FOR REAL ANSWERS OR THE TRUTH IS NOW BEING LABELED A PROBLEM BECAUSE SOMEHOW CONSPIRACY THEORIES ARE ONLY SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE AS LONG AS THEY FIT IN WITH...POLITICAL POLARIZATION?
 IT'S JUST A DANGEROUS TIME. I WILL ALWAYS PRODUCE WORK ON THIS BLOG UNTIL I AM INCAPABLE OF DOING SO OR UNTIL MY BOOK IS WRITTEN.  SINCE I WAS FRAMED IN 2016 IT TOTALLY OBLITERATED MY AUDIENCE BASE. I HAVE TO WORK REALLY HARD TO GET THIS THING BACK. MY PERSONAL LIFE HAS BEEN INTERFERING FOR THE PAST 10 YEARS AND THAT IS ENDING NOW.. HOPEFULLY I CAN MAKE THIS BLOG WHAT I ORIGINALLY INTENDED IT TO BE AS WELL AS I CAN FINALLY COMPLETE WHAT I STARTED DECADES AGO AS A WOMAN IN MY THIRTIES. NOW IN MY '50S I WOULD LIKE TO COMPLETE THIS AND MOVE ON. 
 
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Thursday, November 12, 2026

If Looks Could Kill

 I love how people look at me like they want to kill me nowadays especially certain men for some reason. 

I cannot imagine the smear campaigns behind that one. 

 

Wednesday, November 11, 2026

Why It Pays To Pay On Public Transit

 If you do enough footwork you can get generous programs especially in MA. It's best to get the right pass programs if you're in need ans insist on paying at the kiosk on board. 

This is because there is then a legal record of your being on that bus or train. Also it shows good character while people who are not being shit on constantly and  smeared look like jerks for not paying especially when they have jobs and places to live. 

 There's a bad trend of drivers not turning on boxes or claiming they give free rides. Don't get sucked into this. 

No one iin their right mind would deny money to the very organization that pays them. 

There is something going on..it's a scam somehow.

Either they are trying to make it look like there's more fare evasion than there really is (by creating it) to get funding from Trump which includes fare evasion prevention or they are saboteurs who want to destroy the organization from the inside. 

The public are now taking on this attitude partially due to ignorance and partially due to misguided activism type mentality and of course a gross sense of entertainment that's been produced by the past 20 years of school indoctrination, fake activism and the destruction of society on purpose by design using purposeful negligence and  policies designed to fail and make people fail.

Ask the driver if he box is broken that usually starts a conversation-one they have to continue with. Usually they realize they have to be responsible in their position at that point and they will often reluctantly admit they did not turn it on. Ask them to turn it on or if they are going to. If you were on a train go to the other train driver on the next car and ask him to ask the other driver to turn it on.

Be stubborn and try to pay when you get off. 

If ever you need to report a tRANSIT incident be aware that the cameras on the busses are actually Homeland cameras and they are live feeds that lead to X also known as Twitter so if you have an incident that's an emergency or a fight or something scary going on always just go to X and report it I mean if it's a real emergency of course call the police but something that you want them to see in real time that would be a bit more convenient that way you can go on to X with your ex account also known as Twitter and the cameras they can look at them in real time. It is more effective over the long term to give them your email your phone number get logged into the system and make it so your complaint gets logged and you get a receipt E email from Public transit.

Be aware in this part of the country people have a tendency to complain about stuff that shouldn't be being complained about only complain about stuff that is legitimate in other words Think if you were in a courtroom and you had a lawyer. Try to think about it that way and then make a report make it short and sweet and always have them read it back to you especially with the commuter rail because I've had them miss write reports to make me look like the jerk Maybe they don't do that anymore but you never know what's going on at these places and who who's outsourced to answer the phone. And remember to be fair and impartial even if you're the one that was wronged however you have to report stuff that is wrong and a lot of people don't actually know what's right and wrong writing the public transit system right now.

 What's going on is really sad because they're losing a lot of money on trains and the commuter rail I the busses to me seem a number brainer but people just aren't paying Even if the box is on but I notice it's not as much of a problem as with the trains. And some of the trains just by design There's just no way to enforce payment. Which is another thing that's upsetting because there's a bunch of people they hand cherry picked it seems from train drivers and they made them into these fair enforcement people that they pay like $10 more an hour to sit around in the morning mostly which they're just getting going doing it i've seen these people around off and on and they just aren't doing anything they're wandering around downtown not doing anything and I tried to talk to them and they really just seemed like they don't have a solid position. What they do seem to have in their character which is why they're cherry picked is one of them usually has this personality that's authoritarian but sympathetic but a bit sort of cynical or dismissive but they can hide it really well the other one seems to be more sympathetic good cop bad cop usually a bigger dude like the muscle and they seem to be in agreement with the customer about what's going on but they have this weird thing where it just seems like it's this round and round and round game and no one's really getting anything done That's nice that they enforce the fares in the morning but what kills me about that is that those are the people most likely to pay I think because they're working and they're going to work The problem is people getting on the back of trains and people not turning boxes on and these poor guys on the commuter rail who are working by themselves and they can't collect affair or they can't get through the train to collect a fare.

Yet Keolis is the same train system that will hire urban thugs who suck with bad attitudes (old men and skinny young females so it's not threatening) to deny you entry or exit without a ticket or receipt in North station.  

The transit system here has become lax in enforcement and yet there is selective enforcement that's aggressive. During rush hour the same people that give you a hard time about getting in or out are actually not present so you can just walk out behind other people which is what I was instructed to do the other day when I wanted to buy a ticket and the guy said he wasn't selling any because he was working alone on the train A passenger just told me to walk behind someone else to get out that is a horrible feeling to feel trapped inside somewhere where you can't get out and it depends on if a gatekeeper is there or not and they keep changing the rules.

Another reason I'm posting this and I'm going to do some activism on it later is because I have a feeling that this is deeply unfair due to the way that I and somebody with me a companion was treated back in maybe 2022 in the winter time concerning the issue of fare evasion or enforcement.  This was on a very specific route of 1 of the specific color trains. We had a group of people that decided that they were not going to open up the side door for us even though that's the law and even though there's disability passes involved and somebody with severe mobility issues involved . We would wave passes and My companions cane at the approaching train and they would absolutely refuse to open the side doors to the disabled access car. Not only did we have a cart with our stuff in it the person I was with cannot climb stairs and had to go in through the side door and they would pass us by or stop the train and not open the doors and absolutely refused to open them and then keep waving us up to the front which isn't even realistic for my partner as he couldn't climb stairs. So I have a very sore spot and I'm very bitter about this because we were discriminated against many times in the past for absolutely no reason at all and it's almost like it's being used as a cover to bully people So now I see a bunch of people just wandering right into the side door that have no disabilities or no cart full of stuff experiencing houselessness at all. And it strikes me as deeply unfair and I plan to do something about it to make sure that we do not continue with this selective enforcement and complete abandonment of ADA compliance based on if you like somebody or not or if you decide that you and a bunch of other people are gonna work on a certain train that season and form a little mobbing group for whatever your **** reasons are. Unlike today I didn't have time I was taking care of two people that depended on me and I just couldn't make the complaints which I should have. 

 If you're new or you're young going to school or living in Boston let me remind you of something or let me tell you something if you didn't know : this is one of the best most comprehensive transit systems in the entire country when you go to other parts of the country all you get is a light rail buses God damn down south there's only places that have motherfucking shuttles and shit and some places don't have anything at all. 

In order for things to run there has to be fuel and money is fuel. I understand it might not be handled properly I understand there's ways there might even be corruption the point is is that you can't not pay for stuff and expect it to keep running. 

you can try to make the structure ADA compliant all you want.  You need to start getting the drivers and even the public to be ADA compliant. 

And I don't want to see any emails under my name saying that my motive is that I'm bitter about some stupid **** from a couple of years ago Because I haven't named any specific names of anyone or any particular company.