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Please be advised that this written work is theory. It's theorizing, pondering and amateur research. For legal reasons I state that I have no actual belief in these theories as fact, if I did I would have sought legal recourse. Until that occurs this blog can only be considered theory. If it does then any and all actions PAST AND FUTURE that have been taken against me during the years producing this work will be labeled war crimes under international law and any other legal protections that apply.
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Saturday, July 25, 2009

Cuture of corruption, and the corrupt use of psych warfare to control only certain people while the big fish get through the net
"It's a general idea that has taken hold in police departments, some of which have combined tough law enforcement with intensive hearts-and-minds campaigns. The Boston Miracle, the famously successful public-private antigang initiative from the early 1990s, is one of the better-known examples. Now scholars are trying to figure out how to use this sort of cultural warfare to weaken corruption and habits of everyday rule-breaking.Continued..."

First  of all its ironic and laughable for this article to come out of Boston which I can personally testify is a culture where corruption is a deeply ingrained part of the system.  The fixing of corruption in Boston is usually for show where select people or big fish get away unscathed. The system manages crime it never truly solves it. Its a joke.  
People want drugs they want whores they want guns they need underage drinkers and smokers and worse. This country bullshits every time it claims to be weeding out corruption.  Thinning out undesirables in the crime circuit perhaps but never solving the problem.  What would the USA or any other culture do without its black market economy? Nonsense.

The "hearts and minds" is simply a childish layman's way of saying 'psychological warfare' and is often used in publications I notice that cater to 'the public' who are usually not schooled in such subject matter. 

And HOW DARE THEY claim that it is a good thing to be altering people with cultural warfare (psych warfare/ behavior modification) like getting people to change thier "every day" habits of law breaking, when the system is still very much f*cked up and corrupt at top levels.  

Sooo this means the elite and militant factions decide who is a problem and needs modifying. According of course to their own standards and needs.

Again its just gang stalking..for protection and profit.  How dare an authority figure ask of us what it will not ask of itself. Especially after the last administration's b*llshit.

We are not children and perpetually corrupt factions like fire,police and any union employees potentialy or any faction military in nature who by thier very NATURE remain corrupt, how dare they dictate who is worthy of covert warfare and who is not.

As a victim of behavior modification as well as victim witness intimidation articles like this make me sick.  Its picking and choosing who gets 'managed' and who does not.

These factions can go f*ck themselves. Its a joke and everyone needs to see that training the public with terror while still covering true criminals asses at higher levels just becuz they can pay or are connected is NOT a way to run a society.  

Smart Mobs
"Smart Mobs are sometimes manipulated by the dispatchers who control the 'mobbing system' (ie, those who own the contact list and the means to forward instant messages to a group) and induced to cause distress and aggravation to individuals who have been targeted or singled out for whatever reason.
There is a tendency to keep the dynamics of smart mobbing 'covert', and not to discuss such incidents on the internet."

This would be the way alot of TI suspected that the system works. Its to obvious that tech has advanced to the point where it can be utilzed in this manner.  Once again there is proof  and anyone who says you are crazy or delusional simply refuses to do thier homework and/or get with the program as far as admiting to the way the world is nowadays.

This double standard or whatever one would call it makes it so groups can covertly operate and at the same time deny thier actions by using old standards of judgement and perception of how society is set up and operates.

Its intersting how many people seem unaware of these developments in thier own world.  That so many live in a vacuum where they are still percieving the world by out of date pre tech standards.

THIS IS THE SEGMENT OF THE  POPULATION THAT THEY DEPEND ON TO JUDGE THE TI OR VICTIM INSANE OR DELUSIONAL.  The ignorant, the lazy, the uninformed.  Prisoners in thier own society by way of thier own ignorace, used against the Target.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009


In another city. Cop pulled up for jaywalking..I crossed and noticed too late that everyone else was left at the curb.  The cop car pulled right up, and as the officer popped out of his car he said "Why cant you cross the street like everyone else?".  I love being greeted like a child and very unprofessionally by public servants.

So, being approached in an aggressive, idiotic fashion I responded in kind on reflex I suppose.  I said that it was becuz in Boston people just crossed the street as they pleased sort of as opportunity arose, sensibly of course.  I added that in all my travels crossing the street had not been an issue.

He then discusses how everyone in elementary school is taught how to cross a street.  I describe the environment in Boston my hometown concerning this issue briefly and with some amusement to all this.

He said he was raised in NY so "..the bs isnt going to work on me". 

I responded that in NY they would indeed run one over but in Boston there were just so many students.
He has to one up and flirts that they only run you over in NY if your from NJ.  Was this a serious issue or not? Annoying.

Then this home bum guy spare changing has to join in to try to diffuse the situation basically.  Saying he was doing me a favor and all this kiss ass bs. 
Then he runs my ID.  He then writes my info down in a little pad he owns. I ask what is he doing with my info -to make sure he isnt a stalker (or a very careless perp).

The homeless guy says something  and the officer says have a nice day and leaves.

The homebum then states that the officer saw him jaywalk just seconds before and that I was probably pulled over for such a thing due to the fact that I was an attractive female and that street was known for prostituion. He was hoping to get me on some warrants or whatever he could get.

The problem is that I was crossing with a group and it was obvious I was not aquainted with the laws as I broke from the sheep herd to make my way across the street..I wasnt alone to start with.

He then informed me not to walk on this particular street as I would be harassed and ID checked repeatedly by police due to the way I look and them trying to get anyone on anything.
I informed him if that happens that I would march my ass down to thier seargent as well as internal affairs and stop that activity from happening.

Another example of some peoples sick idea of fun due to thier power position, their misplaced hunting instincts and aggression as well as thier perception that certain people are weak and easily victimized.

What uspet me most about it was not the easily remedied unprofessional way I was approached and handled, but the fact that when I look at all the lives of the real criminals that were in my life, what they got away with..what they still get away with and how many of them, including my own family members, were protected and even rewarded in some cases, and I, having to live in the street and on the road..
it just seems pretty unfair.  That I have to be sighted to follow rules this closely and seem always harassed for doing very little yet other people have gotten away with not having to follow any laws at all.
OLNICK did not seem to have to follow any laws even though they were filtering HUD money. Nor did the people in my life who were my intimates who were criminals.

Yet I live houseless, and get harassed for jay walking in a disrespectful unprofessoinal manner.

I hope that cop did  NOT know who I was. I can only hope for his sake that he thought I was just another shapely poor female who does not know what her rights are who can be treated like a child and flirted with....

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Hitch hiking, will post soon

Going  across long distance no full  access to tech. Will return soon.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

What do others think of me?

Sometimes this actually effects me..I try to not let it.  Everyone in my life made thier choices and took thier sides. They were and are mostly cowards. And they were fools.  I knew damn well how nasty the system was and I know the extent of human evil and aggression.  The people around me are either brain washed, naive about the true nature of what was going to happen to me (illusions of control) and the extent of how far the damage was going to be taken or inflicted..or I have to admit that some of those around me are just plain bad people. They knew what was going to happen to me and they went along anyway.  I personally was surrounded by scum anyway..hiding out under money.  All with something to lose, but also a few key people had thier ideas of some sort of control over me and the thrill that brought them over my lifetime.  Most of those people are survivors of abuse still being handled that are not strong enough to face thier own sh*t in order to break free.  Therefore what they think is irrelevant.

The best any of these clowns can do is to keep trying to push claims or perceptions of mental illness.
Sometimes I imagine what they must be throwing around to keep themselves sane and/or credible. Lying to themselves..just like they have been doing for years to survive anyway.  Boring really if you ask me.
Maybe they read my blogs and say to each other and their little fan clubs  things like 'isnt it a shame she is so crazy'.  I cannot imagine what any of those f*cks could possibly come up with to cover up the inconvienient facts like that my own mother tried to accuse me of being nuts AFTER agreeing with me that the harassment was due to the federal investigation surrounding friends of associates of mine. Hmmm, a bit sketchy, that someone who knows too much goes nuts during a fed investigation into money laundering.
And theres more under there as well.

People have no idea of how dark there world is nor do they care to know. People who go along with this sh*t are sheep who think the mob and the corrupt arrogant cops are hip and cool.  I hope other forces continue to crush them as well as let them know that they are only ALLOWED to exist in this world by forces much bigger and older than they are.

So I dont give much concern for what others think and mostly its becuz they have either written me off anyway or they dont have all the info. 

The TI has to maintain a position of non existence. That the worlds perception of them is non existent and basically that the world itself and all its people do not exist.  Its not hard..look how low quality people are. Look how they have treated TI's. Like they deserve our consideration at all anyway. 

Maintain the facts, the Truth and the real story..not some gaslighted lame ass story that is the result of a bad PR campaign that, pathetically, never ends. 

Others are going to fall into different categories. Some people know what is going on and others just have some of the story but are sympathetic anyway. 
There are those who are so guilt ridden by thier part in the TI's demise that they have to maintain a position of believing/perpetuating the worst about the TI. The only people who believe them or make appearance to are those that must also hold that position or want to be on that side of the battle for whatever thier motive is..some sort of gain I assume. 

As I have said before the most annoying are the people who look in your eyes like they know something and feel bad or sympathetic. This is the most annoying reaction becuz it undermines fight and activism mainly becuz THEY arent doing anything to help you nor are they giving you a nod of solidarity or 'hey fellow soldier' or the like. They dont help morale and they only serve to remind the TI of what has happened to ruin their lives.   These people dont 'think' at all I suspect and they certainly arent fighters...avoid them. Bigtime.

The only people who can still say TI's are crazy are people who hold an interest in that being an accepted perception or stupid/lazy/afraid people who dont want to do any research on the subject matter.

A German blog on organized stalking that relates well to the Stasi and thier methods

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Still traveling

Trying to perfect my life on the road as it is obvious I can never expect to have some sort of stable, successful life.  And I am not whining.  If you havent notice I dont sing the blues all that much.. I try to at least.

I am tired and very worn but yes I am still going.  Write a bigger post when its more convenient.
Once again keep going to other TI's and  thanks for you support in all the ways possible.