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Monday, November 12, 2007


Gangstalking: (also: organized stalking or group stalking).

Target: person being gangstalked;victim.

Perp: a gangstalking perpetrator.

TI: a term used by some targets to describe themselves. However this term is often vague as alot of TI's have different issues. Its a diverse group, its best to just desribe yourself as a target becuz the TI community has been associated in the media with high level technology harassment and hasnt been represented well.

TI community: alot of targets get involved with activism thru groups and each other. This is thier description of themselves. I have found this to be somewhat dangerous as the groups are infiltrated with perps and persons spreading disinformation. There are no checks and balances in these groups no real accountability. Also, if an issue is as covert as this and unofficial, who is anyone to represent a group of targets officially?

Note-gangstalking uses vocabulary specific to itself so terms must be defined to persons not familiar. Thus terms like 'perp'.

There are good websites that seem credible. If you survive being a target for many years you'll be able to tell which websites are helpful which ones aren't. There are websites with alot of info you have to sort out, and I suggest you only do so after you've studied gangstalking itself becuz alot of the info might not be pertinent or confuse the issue with too much detail and speculation.
There are alot of websites run by people I myself have had the displeasure of discovering are unsafe people.
Basically a general description of gangstalking that's simple is best. Only the target themselves knows the details of their own situation.

Trust no one completely. Question and analyze. 'Perps' come from every walk of life as do targets, that's a general rule to stick to.
Be very wary of anything that can be faked. How do you know I am who I say I am? You don't. After I write this, some perp may come out on another website claiming to be me.
Making video with some indication of continuum would be best.

I am writing a blog becuz I can't guarantee I'll make it any further.
I feel ill lately..something is wrong. I highly doubt if my life is going to extend much longer.

My name is Rachael O. I am a gangstalking target. I have been targeted in some obvious ways since 1996. In 2003/4 the activity seemed to become more overt and frequent. As of my discovery thru the internet of the term 'gangstalking' in December 2006 and a brief stint doing activism thru a group concerning gangstalking, the activity has become overt, frequent and 24/7.
I highly suspect, however, after many years being targeted and studying my situation that it is intergenerational.

Originally, I believed the targeting began in 2003/4 due to some unsavory associations of mine who were involved in a federal investigation in Boston MA. It was nation wide news and found corruption all the way up to the local FBI. News to the rest of the world, the normal northeast system to New Englanders and New Yorker s.

In 1996 I believed it was harassment due to an alternative lifestyle... and an angry shop owner I was employed by whom I refused to sleep with.

None of this matters. The only things related to this part of the targeting that matter is that it gaves the perps a HELL of alot to work with. The slander campaign against me was so easy for them it was like stealing candy from a baby.
Yet even enemies have let me know that everyone makes mistakes and I wasn't doing anything truly awful. I still get e-mails from unknown targets connected to an activist group trying to make it clear to me that I was represented in the worst light possible. I know that, but it's useless to try to clear it up. The public only remembers what they want to and this society has been not only looking for targets in a variety of ways for years now but targeting people thru gangstalking and cyberstalking seems to be on the rise anyway.

The cover stories are quite feasible. Yet, obtaining the information that supposedly GOT me targeted to begin with was done on purpose. The number of people who want me gone is numerous I assume and for different reasons, partly becuz when yer being targeted and you don't realize it yet, more and more people around you betray you and you become a sort of scapegoat as you go down. In other words, it becomes imperitive you die becuz more people have sold you out or you know unpleasant truths about them.

Yet, looking back...the targeting has been lifelong. As far as me being out of my mind ..this blog is for those other targets out there not for the ignorant or the perps.
A relative said to me that I could write a book but no one was going to believe me. The gangstalking system is so insidious that people either don't want to believe it, know it exists but won't help you becuz they are afraid of getting targeted themselves or they are perps and in on it. In other words, people can't afford to believe you or they benefit from the system/network so why would they? There are your detractors right there.
There is too much information and too many details for this to be paranoia relating to ANY target's claim. I envy those who are simply ignorant, I really do.
I am not worried about anyone other than Targets.
If you dont believe me, go read another blog.

If anything happens to me I want it to be known that the gangstalking system murdered me and that includes suicide. I want to live. I wanted to grow up, evolve. In fact, I was doing just that when I got slammed from all sides.

I believe whoever is doing this really sees us as slaves for life and we are never to escape that.
I now also see that the whole system we live in is surrounded by maybe even based on slave labor. We still have child labor produce alot of what we wear and use in our daily lives. We call them sweat shops and they are another country's problem and wrongdoing. I read about camps in the southwest for slave labor and have personally seen people on corners waiting for work in the morning who are going to get paid less. Prostitution can be a form of slavery and it goes on to this day with society still keeping mostly a blackout on the issue and if anything goes wrong-blame the girls(the labor,workers). There are areas outside the parameters, there is darkness. Some people are dubbed expendable the day they are born. Considering this is America..if someone is talented, creative, intelligent and attractive they should have access to the American dream more than anyone. But what fun a woman of this caliber is to destroy-for the weak, the ugly, the average, the uncreative/untalented. The sexist and the jealous..Oh, I mean perps!

Aside from my anger at being destroyed at the hands of judgemental, self-rightoues strangers,
ask yourself this: What target has ever really been interviewed or questioned about the details of thier alleged situation? If that hasn't happened then you should smell a frame-up from a mile away.

I have been tortured, humiliated, mistreated, lied about, set up, framed, betrayed and lost my health my youth and my future.

Now I am being gangstalked to death.

People can only gaslight, mirror you or do street theatre with info they have collected.
ITS VERY IMPORTANT NOT TO GIVE INFORMATION TO ANYONE. They will use it to give the impression they know more than they really will start to feel they control you more than they really do. Do not let them define reality for you.

However, it is difficult to fight collective human perceptions of the society you live in. Even if they are not true or based on disinformation they are 'agreed upon' by alot of people for reasons of security, safety, comfort, profit- whatever.

If you are targeted becuz you are a survivor of mc, ras or human experimentation the chances you will be believed are slim. There are stories about experimentees making claims, getting labeled and thier children still having to fight for thier names even though it came out years later it was true. One man's daughter even had his experimentee # they found in records put on on his gravestone becuz for years he wasn't believed.

Telling your story is helpful, even if you dont make it.

I want to say thank you to all the people with truly guilty looks in thier eyes, and true sympathy and care.This is a sign of health-it means you still have a conscience. Those who helped when they could and even some perps who felt so bad gave me clues or information.

I forgive everone who sold me out...this is the worst 'gang' on the face of the planet and it would be better to gain some favor than to suffer like me, I know.

I apologize for being impatient or stressed to anyone I've dealt with during the targeting being so heavy..being targeted is very difficult and hard work.

Making the Target look as bad as possible gives everyone a way out of having to look at these issues-especially becuz they are cruel human rights abuses. If truly legally we have any rights at all. I wouldn't know. I am smart but uneducated and poor(thanks to being targeted).

There has been wayyy too much outright abuse and cruelty to make my situation normal. That's the deciding factor for me..if I was just crazy then why have people had to be so cruel?

The cover story is great but ultimately it had to be created. These were not natural events.

Also, dont feel bad for me. I have lived longer than was planned and unlike most targets I know exactly what the truth is.

If I die soon I die free....

Can YOU say the same?