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Please be advised that this written work is theory. It's theorizing, pondering and amateur research. For legal reasons I state that I have no actual belief in these theories as fact, if I did I would have sought legal recourse. Until that occurs this blog can only be considered theory. If it does then any and all actions PAST AND FUTURE that have been taken against me during the years producing this work will be labeled war crimes under international law and any other legal protections that apply.
I am a writer, an activist and artist. I claim my RIGHT TO EXIST legally under US Constitution and international law.

This is an educational blog for awareness as well as sometimes a telling of candid personal experiences to demonstrate theories as they might be experienced by a person who theoretically is existing under such conditions. Thus the 'candid' expression, poetic license and marketing myself as product or character. This is NOT a journal or diary.
Being a reasonable person of sound mind if I had concerns for my safety or others I would take responsible action for self care as my established medical history can demonstrate.
Any actions taken against me by others questioning my sanity or competence based on my produced work will be construed as activist/dissident intimidation and whistle blower retaliation and proper legal action will be taken against you by my family and support system.

Be warned that no further interference with my production of meaningful work as an artist and activist will be tolerated.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

DavidRaymondAmos1 is imposter..yes I know

"This may be some sort of smear campaign on David R... This may be some sort of smear campaign on David Raymond Amos. There are two Youtube accounts. DavidRaymondAmos and DavidRaymondAmos1. DavidRaymondAmos1 was just created on September 26, 2009 and DavidRaymondAmos has been around since April 8, 2007. Reading through the comments on both sites, it seems that the person who sent you and the other TIs this message might be an impostor. "

I figured that out already, that is in part why I posted it..

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

OK kids its time to open the ever amusing HATE MAIL bag again!

(from YouTube mail. The photo that was sent was of some emo looking young girl and I can imagine its a stock pic. If not this is the stupidest pedophile in the world)

 I am sorry for the gangstalking that has happened to you. I am sorry for the gangstalking that has happened to you.
I am sorry for the gangstalking that has happened to you. It all started when I decided to fondle my daughter. I accidentally fell asleep with my hand cupping her breast. I ran a Hells Angels drug den out of my mechanics shop. I woke up to see my wife freaking out and knowing her brother was the sherriff I ran to my shop stuffed drugmoney in a bag and ran! I crossed the border into canada and was stopped by the RCMP who offered me protection if I stalked people. I have no official place to confess since I know law enforcement is corrupted. It is my hope that I will be forgiven! My original account I stalked with has been taken over by the stalkers I do not know how to start over or what is going to happen next.

David Raymond Amos

David Amos222  (photo of emo girl)
I Amos forced this girl to have oral, anal, and vaginal intercourse with me, as well as participate in sexual acts with other grown men and her brother. I should be locked up already!!!
Sent to: mindyourmind, davidraymondamos, nitecruzer10, ongangstalking, marsboy683, gangstalkingwatcher, stopgangstalking, platooncommander, fatwagar, theninthtrust
(block user)
(mark as spam) Reply Reply All Delete "

Is anyone bored yet? I was the second I looked at it.... ameteur. 
Good for a quick laugh however.
Also I would like to alert the Hells Angels that someone is claiming to be a member and making them look bad..I dont know how things have changed but I grew up with stories of a major rock band leaving Altamont with a bag of cash on a helicopter and a singer being especially cautious in his travels for the rest of his life for offending this group.
Lets see if Raymond our buddy attracts any attention for his affront.
'Nite kids.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Why Obamas administration is no different..perhaps worse//feminist rant// more TI perspective, daily rant
Alright this has to be dealt with.

Yes its true that by the time Obama came into office TIs who were targeted heavily starting in 2003 were so whipped and beaten that we were hoping that the torture would be stopped by a new president. Alot of us knew the facts however: that no matter who is in office, gang stalking continues and certain people are targeted for life.

However certain things bothered me about him.
-his obvious sexism and claiming to know the hearts of women- claiming that generally white women are afraid of aggressive black men..instead of being honest and realistic about the fact that black men ARE aggressive alot of the time to women they want attention from. When Barack wakes up being 5'8" and 160lbs of solid and 'thick' with a butt and tits but with white skin THEN let him deal with black men across the USA. Do you realize what its like when they look first set eyes on you? Its a cross between 'Who the hell does she think she is' and 'What the hell is that doing here?' Its like they spotted something in the wild...and then they come in for the engagement..and on my level of society its not pleasant believe me. So I have my insults ready and my armaments. They get scratched they go away, often confused like children as to why they did not gain female attention. Becuz some women do not like being pounced on as such. Its unattractive and as a female warrior it puts my cred at risk and you must be chased off..or every idiot out on the street will think he can disrespect me. It gets in my way..and I dont know about black women but Irish, Italian and Slavic blooded women DON'T like it. White men know better and to be quite honest I am very tolerant of black men becuz I just figure they dont understand different European backgrounds. If a white man ever approached me with the same nonsense as I get nationwide from black men, CLEARLY after I put out body language and eye signals that I am NOT up for your b*llshit, they would be trashed beyond recovery for at least a few moments afterwords.

Then again Obama isnt a TI who has to stay in shelters when he looks good and is a built female..hmm. So then his generalization sucks big time and I am sure that all the white rich liberal yuppies who generally hate on whites like me more than they ever would blacks (yes it is generally true. They hate our class for some reason.) think its just desserts time or he is being cute.

Such is the country who is loving up RACE issues to cover up a CLASS war that is very destructive.

Obama has always struck me as somehow sexist. But I am sure every man who makes it as far as he has HAS to be sexist. Its a boys club up there I assume.

The only president who didnt bug me was Clinton. I dont see Barrack apologizing for human radiation experiments or even bringing up what Bush did. I see him extending it. I see him continuing to break down the country as Bush started the break down with the initial shock, trauma and break IN that is needed to do such a thing.

What I experience as a TI is just as present now as it was during Bush and more so than it ever was during Clinton. At least with being tortured severely during Bush I was certain that something was going on and a good portion of the country was unhappy and fighting as well.

This is no longer about Rep and Dem. This is about covert actions being used to take control of the population.

Which would you rather have? Repubs who at least respect the individual (just take out the Christian right insanity) and privacy and you making it by your own hand?
OR..socialism put forth with political correctness?

I feel both of these versions of the parties are flawed..WHY? Becuz notice how each one has a MIND CONTROL element in it. A system of brainwashing and control that has NOTHING to DO with politics or policy.

The last Republicans used the Christian Right to this end and with an almost eerie replay of the Crusades by including the Military as if connected to God.

The current Democrats use PC(political correctness) and the constant issue of race
as emotional, moral plays and controls that should have NOTHING TO DO WITH a system of governance. PC as it is might as well fall under the separation of church and state at this point.

If you look at other examples of socialist countries there are many and they are different due to culture. And how can we have the kind of 'freedom' we are used to under Democrats when 9/11 has made it into a police state basically?

The thing people need to look at is that as long as anti terrorism is the climate of this nation there can never be a free country as we knew it.

And each one of these administrations has USED this state of affairs to intimidate the public into following their agenda.

You cant smoke pot anymore..but really why? I know why, for medical reasons of coordination while driving and other such dangers...but do YOU know why? Its a moral judgment. And conversely the psych community is being given the powers of the church in the medieval days practically. They can try to medicate infants with bogus diagnoses and everyone is one you are on drugs but you are not allowed to take drugs.

Why are we not allowed to be free of unhealthy living altogether?

There is a creepy socialsim being applied to peoples very souls and spirits. The power of the group is much to prized and this has alot to do with the internet and reality shows. People seem to hate real talents who have any mystique at all. Everything MUST be accessible to The Mob or they get cranky.

It is assumed that hovering and nosiness is going to save the world and change the world and that nothing is private and ans long as it isn't there will be order if everyone's life is an open book.

The wealthy and elite are smart..this is the latest version of their old ploy to not only Divide and Conquer the peasants and the people but to Divert you attention from important matters.

Such as what THEY might be doing with their time and their money..or with YOUR money.

The public are not trained to be a self policing entity. If someone does not follow the correct PC ettiquette then they need modification or meds.

This is the most un FREE society I have seen during my lifetime of 38 years. Its ridiculous and it is NOT going to end up good for everyone and all the lies the public is being told.

Its sickening how many artists are being destroyed or free thinkers...just any one who does not agree with the power structure or its fans. I am my biggest fan and I have the right to make my life by my own hand.

This is why I do not care what an ignorant public may say about claims of gang stalking etc.
As long as the group stays purposefully ignorant on the subject matter, they can claim that it simply does not exist..and anyway, according to thier priests..I mean psychiatrists- its paranoid schizophrenia to think that people are 'out to get you' or that you are being persecuted or that your family may be in on it. I guess they dont teach history..or sociology.

The system is now set up so that you as a citizen are going to have to agree with things that obviously dont add up or make any sense. You benefit if you do so and anyone who is being targeted MUST be in the way of a great future for our country or is just a negotiable sacrifice for you/the group to get what it wants.

Alot of TIs including myself feel that now that a major battle is over for ones life that we are in a POW camp being modified or that its asked of us we 'forget' what happened to us..for the good of everyone of course.
There is a sense of either being finished off in this time or of giving in to behavior modification as part of making peace with oneself and ones life..and ones enemies/persecutors.

Really its the end of a MAJOR clean up effort as well as the greatest VICTIM WITNESS INTIMIDATION campaign of all time.

What is happening to me now is the system just using the harsh and horrible treatment I received under Bush and during the war, and using that as an continue behavior modification under a kinder gentler guy in a black hood. So they coulnt execute or destroy a few of us, so now its time to try to modify us at least.

There is something about telling the truth when I do so like this that frees me up from the psychological prison that was created and all of the things that continue to be used to try to keep me down-permanently.

No matter what happens it must be told..what was done to me as well as other TIs.
I believe that in future these technologies already being used will become common knowledge and that THEN we will validated. What is being done cannot go unheard becuz each Targets story, if coherent and articulate, is one more story that they will deny up and down but will hopefully raise eyebrows just a little more each time. If not then society MUST finally break through brainwashing and admit, to itself, that they are greedy and self seeking, selfish and animalistic and that being civilized is an illusion..if NOT this honest acceptance of the ape like nature of man, then people will further fall into brainwashing by believing that for the good of _____(fill in blank) the _____(fill in blank) MUST punish, penalize or get rid of certain people.

America has to grow up and get real finally or it will sink harder into a very cult like it seems to traditionally have been quite happy with sans June Cleaver. This society has patches of non growth and immaturity that is astonishing.

I dont think that there is ever going to be an end to whatever this system is that has been suspect in being used on artists, famous writers, performers, psychics...anyone with power to 'break' the system of mind control that keeps this stable.

The most dangerous and mentally detrimental thing that TIs face is the assumption on contact of this material that we are mentally ill. It is SO damaging. And psychiatric types coming after us abusing thier "educations" and thier authority is especially damaging. The one piece that was in the NY Times is an example..the tactic was to make TIs appear so dangerous and childlike that the psychiatrist stated that he must be very careful not to let on that he didnt believe TIs when in contact with them. It was perception management from the beginning..the assumption that we were all mentally ill was used as a platform or spring board for his campaign. Which means that all evidence in history books of such persecution is disregarded. Actually, he is trapping the audience that believes what he says from the truth, not the TI. Such is the art of deception.

Americans are deceptive the way cult members are...they do it so subconsciously that it comes as second nature. Americans just dont THINK. They dont apply logic as a weapon..they apply debate team and education as a weapon but it stems from defending the lies in question. Have a debate about this subject one day with someone and see how it goes. Everyone knows they are full of sh*t and what is espeically disturbing is that they seem to take a sportmanlike joy in being full of sh*t. Its fun to defend the corrupt authority figure, cuz deep down I am afraid, lazy and know life will be easier for me if I go along.

Some of us dont have that luxury.
The the more we fight the more this system comes after us or continues to use methods of torture and psychological warfare.

When you look at the battle over all often it is not clear even what the system wants anymore. Its like it has to be right at any cost or to prove it didnt make an original mistake by having you targeted.

All that TIs have lost and suffered through should not become memories that are lost to what amounts to psycho surgery creating amnesia. The system is not worth that and the power of human force and the Self as well as spirituality should be fought for til the end and validated finally upon winning.

I read a saying the other day- "If you dont give in you dont lose"..Fair enough.

When everyone admits that life sucked before just as hard as it does now but at least we had our privacy then there will be some truth in this.

There is an episode of the Simpsons where Bart loses his 'soul' somehow, represented in the show as a fellow or twin 'Self'. Ones self love/comfort or perhaps one's ability to keep oneself company through whatever is happening in our lives.(Its not a good rep of the soul as I believe the soul is such a solid as cannot be destroyed..but frighteningly perhaps altered by outside influence in some particular lifetime. The Spirit is what gang stalking destroys as well as The Self)
There is a scene where each child gets into a boat with their other Self but Barts boat is empty..(and so he goes to find a soul and freaks out that dumb kid Ralph.
This is kind of what gang stalking does to someone..they want you to become such a deprived monster that you turn practically vampire in nature..and I do mean its lowest form of expression. I also believe that alot of the abuse actually causes brain damage and brain lesions have been found in the brain scans of people who 'lose it' and go off becoming very violent.
It appears that this is an ANCIENT system of torture and behavior modification with new tech and chemicals at its disposal.)

The lack of privacy and the 'new' America the way it is worse for TIs as this is an easy system to go further with our demographic. In the process people like me have lost any sense of self love or company that we once had. The system only seems concerned with dumbing us down and keeping us from our potential.

For us to be concerned with the opinions of a bunch of brainwashed citizens who really dont understand the whole situation is destructive..but they are of use to the system. If they are made to believe that this somehow connected to good 'change' then they will go along.

Always remember that as a TI you are in a system that is just the same as any brainwashing program. The public as they are now represent the peer pressure part of brainwashing. Any indication from strangers in public of you and your situation or disregard for you as you are (not having conformed or changed as yet) is more coercion and psych warfare aimed at wearing you down into thinking that you must conform in order to make the disapproval stop. As the disapproval of the public hooks right into all the severe wounds that gang stalking and harassment has caused in you as a TI.

These campaigns are about self-righteousness not Righteousness.

Its odd to me that Republicans and rich BU kids can find reason to spew venomous hate on me just as Liberals and poor ghetto types can as well. There is something wrong with THAT many people hating on you..I just wonder if the public are targeted with remote influence and have not the control of Will that TIs seem to have.

If that were true then the extent of the possible damage that these technologies and weapons can cause is immense. NOW do you see why your story is important and why you, as a TI, need to keep fighting? (if you feel telling your story is what you want to do. Dont do it if it puts you in MORE danger)

Also I find the end results alot of us are 'guided' to as very curious.
We must either become (or in my case go back to ) being very selfish and materialistic in nature..perfect to support a consumer culture and corruption.. OR we must "Do good for humanity" and become Christians or at least very much in the helping professions as the focus of our lives with little concern for our SELVES. (this would 1) make a TI look reformed 2)give the TI and the gs system relief from having to deal with the loss of potential of ones life and memories of what happened
3) make people who are potential whistle blowers have some sort of job that suits thier nature of obviously wanting to improve conditions and 'care' for humans)

What I was aiming for in my life and working on is a Hermetic approach to life that is about balance and making one good and powerful through work and deeds. Selfish pursuits coupled with improving social conditions...this comes quite naturally to me and my using my years of occult study which was somewhat topical to start something in practice IN EARNEST was totally a logical next step for me.
This seems to be the biggest threat to the system along with people being secretive (power) or having privacy (confidence/safety).
Its simple..making sure I lived publicly as a victim takes away all power I would have had had I been allowed to pursue such a life through such a system.

Both of those other choices are very reactionary and in theory, if not historically, exist in constant battle with each other. I have been reduced to choosing and that is the biggest loss of all. I have a right to seek balance and dominion over my animal nature as well as my godspark. Any system of governance that rules over mans spiritual growth..

Should be the absolute enemy of Man until his days end.
And I MEAN that.

Its hard I know but keep fighting for a return to respect for Free Will.
True freedom. Not a bunch of fascist, partially religious nuts calling themselves "Republican" nor a group of peace mongering cult members who cant stand even the REALITY of the animal in themselves much less anyone else (while they express it passively) who are more than happy to suck the teet of the system as long as it brings peace..kind of like a suicide cult- labeling themselves "Liberals".

None of this should be so important...and its not. Politics has nothing to do with what is happening to people right now. The powers that be want you to THINK it does.
Mostly these are more diversions for a nation than for an individual.

There is a system of torture and intrusion into our privacy that is being utilized to silence certain people.
The worst offense is that these people will die without any acknowledgment of thier suffering and be disbelieved all their lives.

Its important that the TI be driven to only existing as cyber activist. It ensures that they are a faceless force on the internet not a human force in person. Also it subjects them to further surveillance and the collecting of information to be used against them. It may also futher subject TIs to behavior modification techniques/targeting through technology that they may be unaware of through the internet itself as means of delivery. The constant interference that TIs experience with technologies while trying to do activism is conditioning in itself, making the TI feel blocked, harassed, watched and just lowering self esteem further. The tech they are working with as the only means of voice and support is being kept from them making them feel further 'punished' and inadequate.

In this day and age your internet speed and its utilization are akin to penis size for instance. Your power is measured in how much you can keep up technologically.

It doesn't surprise me that when I was targeted I was working off a Gen X age appropriate idea that the internet was not necessary and that if you didn't like it, it just wasn't for you. I was also working on a social experiment utilizing my own life where I would cut out all PRLSI's (Pre Recorded Light and Sound Images) and try to exist TOTALLY in 'real time'. (I was even considering cutting out electricity but it really doesnt made me feel better and now I know why.)

After a life of really not living I was excited at the things I could do with my growth as a person and spiritually. Only things like concerts, comedy, plays conversation etc would be allowed as would quiet or private alone time activities. NOTHING in dead time. Live radio would be OK I that point I wished for a station on TV or radio that was live at all times.

With gang stalking as a reality an experiment like that would have been like walking into the front lines of a war without knowing it. Perps are in person.

But I just wonder if my wanting to separate so far from a Tech rules society was a threat itself.

Its like the system hates anyone who has a do it yourself attitude towards discovery..why what is the problem?

Silence is something monetarily poor people cannot afford but yes, I know it would be a much better choice.

The odds are way to unfair this time around. With the technologies that are available to corrupt entities and the public being corralled off by the psychiatric community and anti terror intimidation there is little way out.

I would be the first one to believe that there is no such thing going on and TIs are out of their minds crazy....if it wasn't for the stalking and harassment. Its so blatant and arrogant at times..who has hired this huge squad of goons in recent years? If it IS an intelligence agency I am ashamed for you. Its like hiring a bunch of monkeys to do covert work. Slinging shit is a bit obvious...oh thats right the public is too intimidated to say anything.
And they are soooo disgusting..I have seen whores with more class than this crowd that reeks of 'I is gettin paid'..ewww.

Please tell me that this is Obama's public security nonsense he has proposed already in progress so we can get lawyers and get rid of the would be interesting to see how their recruitment works.

In the end this is just a bunch of writing..a long winded rant from some poor woman who is houseless and discredited. Everyone hopes that continued systematic ignoring and time will take the campaign to its desired end I am sure.

My job is to write it all down until I am done and have nothing else to write on the subject. What the public does with it along the way or in the end is not my problem.

Friday, September 25, 2009

An interesting correspondence about TI's bio families/intimates

Sep XX 2009
see, my friends and family have that channel video link; I don't talk to any of them about this gangstalker, they'll know I'm being targetted...that totally sucks because now I have 2 delete the fucking does this everytime I post a video of any kind.

U have to make a decision whether to disclose what you believe with no care for consequences or if you give a sh*t about what some people think. I am fortunate. My family is in on this and would love to silence me about family involvement in prostitution, crime, jail and my aunt uncle and mother having been raised in a violent pedophile family. My cousin is a minister that goes to college to be a genetic engineer. She is what they want the family to be now...I only bring up what they really are.
I wonder if they sold me out years ago to get away from my grandfather being persecuted for some carelessness. Its the same old story.

Perps have said to me that my families cruelty to me is "infamous". One of the interfering factions told me my mother was "sick".

She made direct statements about the targeting saying it was part of a federal investigation that was going on around associates of friends of mine. Then she turned on me and said that I should consider if I was perhaps mentally ill. Other perps have told intimated with disgust that my mother likes money and wants it, like they were trying to tell me she sold me out for money. I believe this just becuz their disgust was genuine, not like thier intent was to lie to me as I have seen before.

Some people seem convinced that my mother is just in what she is doing, some sort of covert behavior modification program, that I should 'grow up' and I believe these people enjoy child abuse and power trips becuz at my age my mother should not be validated in any way for interfering in my affairs. She is just trying to silence me to preserve the illusion that my family is 'good'. She knows she has alot to answer for. I often wonder if some Christian crazies who are into my cousin being a Christian minister arent behind defending my family now that everyone is acting all conformist and nice. Its all part of the cover up of crime in this country. What better way to hide programming, mind control and her documented connection to radiation experiments in the 1950's than to make me a scapegoat and claim I am just nuts.

I have many factions close to me working together to make me discredited
-my family who has alot of abuse to answer for, my mother had crooked law suits
-my ex employer who does not want the public to know how the adult entertainment industry works or how screwed up her and scene really are or the way her business works, including police corruption
-ex boyfriend got busted and wants to keep the illusion that I got him into drugs and the lifestyle he got arrested for. Our mutual kinky sex life was attempted to be utilized as part of the atypical 'TI is a pedophile' bad PR campaign.

Everyone around me had something to lose if they did not co operate and all of them have GAINED reward via protection,gigs,fame, money or property/trucks, etc.
I was surrounded by abusers and controllers and they did not want to be exposed for the way they treated me. When people are as sick as that, they will honestly, like all tyrants, believe that their victim should never be free and that a behavior modification program is best to get the person in shape. People like this view the TI as a slave and often have treated them like one for the duration of their relationship. I had 3 major factions of people who had alot to answer for with the way they treated me. Certain parts of our society dont want it to be general and accepted knowledge that slavery through mind control and brainwashing does exist.(with the ex I can honestly say we both had stuff to answer for, but that should have been between us not NA or his lawyer/AA sponsor, and the whole damn world.)

Perps will also try to terrify me with the idea that my mother is trying to kill me. "..and some mothers kill thier babies" a perp mentioned on a Greyhound bus through TX. This is why perps are always inferior specimens of humanity- they GET OFF on the power trip they can be part of that is destroying someone who has some asset by birth and by nature. An artist, a beauty, a high intelligence..every TI has something about them that if you notice, people like the perps cannot compete with.The perps are usually weak and ugly humans that reek of cowardice and fear. They live for the group itself in a hive mentality becuz the power of the group controlling and keeping one INDIVIDUAL down gives them power. If they stood alone they would be destroyed by life and the world very quickly. have to decide if your family is partially the cause for all of this or if they are helping the system to do you harm or if they are a neutral party that is negotiable. If you want to protect them becuz they are valuable allies or of some importance to you then by all means be careful not to offend ties with them.

(yes I edited this on blogger..then I sent this version to the sender of original message)

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Sick enablers of gang stalking/validating the abuse system

People like my mother who seems terrified of whatever her part is in my situation in this mess, will stand by the police and the gs system by introducing doubt and using denial.

Like the system of hit and run I just posted. Some people will try to invalidate the victims claims as it being abusive by claiming that its for your protection, as in its to keep you safe. 

I can just see her saying something like that.  Stalking is a big part of my family's history.  It is a part of my families use of intimidation on each other and has been for years. My mother has pointed out that "this is what families do"..uh I always knew there was something wrong with that answer. Like it was bs for instance.

When cops were stalking me in my mothers hometown where she was residing in my grandmothers house, she minimized the harassment by saying " Oh Rachael, he just lives down the street"..yet I never gave her a description of the officer nor do I believe that someone in a cruiser would pull up to a bus stop and be so obvious in taking notes and running something through his computer. 
If he 'lives down the street' then why would he be doing such a thing to someone he knows as a frequenting local for all of her 36 years since she was born?  He looked young..gee maybe he didnt know that my great grandfather built that house and my grandmother is most likely going to die in it.

No this was more harassment.

You will get perps who you trust trying to help the system to back up any and all systems of brainwashing that are being brought down on you.

And remember...there are networks of pedephiles out there yes all TIs talk about it but there are networks of people who are child abusers and will take part in anything a parent will do to thier child becuz they also get off on it.  They know they are getting a show and it will cost them nothing in consequences. 

In my situation a mother abusing her daughter is especially erotic to men as well as women who are slighted by life and jealous can also get off on this. People like my mother will use a system of power and control freaks to get her way becuz they enjoy the same things.
Its closely connected to the pedophile rings as a network and in this case we can see how it works without the subject matter being too horrifying  thus causing immediate disbelief.

Just remember that the harassment is real and there is nothing 'good' about it. It is an extension of a controlling family or network of some kind.

the HIT and RUN stalkers and thier tactics

'Hit and Run' stalking is what I call a type of surveillance I have been getting definitely since my harassment turned 24/7.

I was art modeling once in Boston MA I was on a stage posing for a class.  It was a non secure building, as night classes are often in.  I saw very quickly a man in all black dash in through the door and out again.

Just now I was on the computer as I have been on here for a while. Often this happens when a TI is on the computer.  In the glass in front of me I saw someone quickly come up behind me, view what I was working definitely long enough to take in and judge what it was and quickly turn away and walk away.

A TI can often see this no matter how engrossed we are in our work and many TIs being sensitives can feel that someone is behind them without looking. 

The damage in this is that it re enforces the terror and helps actually maintain the  brainwashing process that the TI is going maintains a state of fear and terror. (You are being watched as you are guilty of doing something wrong.) Perhaps it backs up the idea that all TIs seem to be given that they are suspected pedophiles and must be watched for looking at porn or that in general they are loathe and suspect by society so must be watched.
Even if the TI gets a sense of being revolutionary by being an activist this action against the TI will only ISOLATE them further from society, which is really one of the main points of gang stalking. You are definitely someone that is wanted 'out of the way' and you are going to be denied the same access to society and thus opportunity as other people in the USA.

They want you to become the rebel or the permanently reduces your chances of success and happiness in American society. 

I have experienced the 'Hit and Run' stalker in computer labs, on stage art  modeling, supermarkets and stores are really big. I chased one a few weeks ago in Berkeley CA and he looked creeped out by his own actions and guilty of his crime.

The H&R stalker might be most damaging becuz they perpetuate the damage, the psychological prison that a TI is put in without the TI really knowing it.
It is one of the most dangerous parts of gs as far as damage becuz it is so subtle.

For those of you with DID or other due to programming issues, this will disassociate you without you knowing it..but the perps know exactly what they are doing.
Remember for whatever reason you are valuable and it seems especially programmed people are valuable for thier internal knowledge of the programming systems...the point is to keep info on this subject matter quiet thus YOU must be kept quiet.
Keeping you  disassociating is a way of doing just that.

If you  are a woman you will most likely encounter males doing this and for some reason they are younger or not unattractive. Why this kind of stalker I do not know.
\Its never been women or older men or kids.

Males doing this kind of stalking is enough intimidation to bring up violation issues and keep you down mentally without you understanding that is what it is. 
I mean who can take away from an intelligent woman focusing a great amount of mental energy?? Certainly not anyone BUT a young healthy white male your age range..but that is just my theory on the psych warfare front.

Believe it that you will get this nonsense and the men who do it are basically performing what feels like 'mini rapes'..this is also repetition to get you to feel more and more comfortable with being stalked and possessed by the gang stalking system itself.

Chasing that one once was not only very validating, it was great to turn on the predator.
Teach these people that they are indeed hunting something they should be afraid of..turn the game on them.

How a small thing can be devastating to a TI

TI's are victims of long term torture and behavior modification. Most times they have lost everything- thier whole lives. And been betrayed by intimates including lovers, friends, family, associates, co workers. Often they have had to give up most of thier worldly possesions.

I suspect that this makes being terrorized for behavior modification more effective (isolate the victim). Eventually your captors become your reality and thier system validated..if not internalized..etc.

When I had my phone taken by some stupid kid it had an almost devastating effect on me. It made me question my work, my motives, my validity and my mission. It made me entertain giving up and worse.


Becuz TIs cant take any more LOSSES or losing streaks or 'bad luck' or ruination or anyone getting the best of them in any way.

Our whole existence is fear now and we have to tip toe through mine fields even to do the simplest things ever day or so it feels. This is how capable, smart Targeted Individuals stay alive and get anything done at all.

I was once told to my face that this is a system that is 'keeping me down' and its on purpose. If people, especially smart ones, who want to achieve are not allowed to do so daily..if it is made so that no victories are possible then the person becomes docile(they are hoping)..meek and managable.

(Another obvious end to all these activities is something you heard alot about in relation to terrorism years ago--the neutralization of an 'enemy' target..its so similar with the use of psychological warfare,brainwashing and terror.)

TIs have been terrorized and also entered into a form of social control that uses fear and shame.

Phones, computers, internet and other objects and other such things become the TI's new security. Being human TIs naturally recreate thier worlds in adaptation of this new structure that houses them or adapts to limits. Many become transient and tools of communications are invaluable.

However when I dropped in to take a shower at a shelter today I knew that no matter what happened now I was glad to not be in one of those places. The women are so subjegated. Its so..depressing.
Things have got to change in the USA anyway as far as homelessness goes.
Another subject anyway.

Just like the military is projecting on work to develop a self healing soldier, you must become self healing and very quickly..and dont think that TIs dont consider this very suspect on the list of possible human experimentation going on. That would explain why they are targeting healers thats for sure.
Now we need to know why they are actively supressing orgone and well be all set. fuk u.We all know why..

Monday, September 21, 2009

Rocketown in Nashville, TN

Rocketown is a youth and other services type of center in Nashville TN. A young street kid we know has brought us there a few times.

It was fine but today there were mostly 'urban' or 'inner city' kids there and it sucked but I ignored it.   My phone was plugged in and it got stolen. 

Obviously a young kid but stupid still considering its a 10 dollar phone.. but to a traveler its invaluable.

Now you see why PC is such bullshit and the stereotypes remain..and for every kid who wants to get out of the ghetto there are too many loud, obnoxious, theiving idiots to keep him or her down.   I would expect this in Boston but here it seemed people minded there own business more...however there were NO other people here today really.

The place is expanding so that the 'inner city kids' can have there own area at the new facility..and now you know why
It reminds me of Boston in the 1970's- their culture is so damn backwards down here compared to other 'urban' kids in other cities.   You gonna steal from me?  Good luck cuz yer gonna need it.

Anyone who can trace my GPS feel free. Its set so that only 911 works for GPS.  Hackers have a field day..
I called it and some 'urban' kid was talking in the backround.

 I sleep outside doing urban camping and I am writing a book on corruption in the homeless industry. The thief will probably be in jail by 21 and dead thereafter (we can only hope)..just look at the statistics. 

That little bastard probably goes home to a multi generational house with food and a bed and is going to be spoiled by special projects to improve his life for the rest of his youth...I on the other hand have nothing and little hope for any future.

Since getting harassed in Memphis in 2007 at Greyhound, the TN 'urban' population is loathe to date anyway.  They have a bizarre habit of thinking they might be the most badass 'urban' people in the world. It's still TN people- that says enough right there. In fact I will never forget or forgive what happened with an all 'urban' cast of perps in TN years ago.
 I have seen them talking to workers here in ways that would get them a slap in Boston...or at least beaten by Irish or Italian kids.  And the workers here tolerate it, this abuse they are given.  Take a Bostonian perocial approach to the child and see how long that attitude problem lasts.  Do what they used to do to us in the 70's during bussing at Charles Sumner School with the old clinically insane old Irish b*tches who kept poor black and white children down for the elite and connected populations there..make them put their hands behind thier backs in thier chairs for an extended period just becuz they have to stay inside due to rain. Then have the crazy old Irish bitch sit there and rave insanely with as much venom as she can muster over  what they used to do to HER in the old perocial schools years ago.

Kids today have no idea how spoiled they are with tolerance towards their bullshit as well as this non violence towards child rearing.  However after what I have seen in the populations of young people from very young to older youngsters lately I would say that yes, undue violence like I just mentioned is unecessary and unproductive. But.... being PC and not kicking ass to make kids understand how to respect adults and be civil is totally inappropriate as well. I think parents want to be lazy as well as indulgent by not disiplining thier kids. They are also total tools of the system nowadays that are brainwashed into letting the system control them AND thier kids.

It sucks when big pharma (psychiatry) and tied into child services agencies can threaten parents into behaving a certain way or risk losing thier kids. 

Its a great way to raise ever compliant sheep en mass who have no real inner sense of right and wrong beyond fear and compliance with authority as well as no true moral character.  This means no one will say 'no' to corrupt authority basically, as long as its the system that is telling you how to drug and raise your children--OR ELSE you will not have any.

Tell your kids to be more intelligent about who they steal from..unless you are SO horribly backwards that 'the man' you are trying to get back at is still judged by color  AND NOT CLASS.
And teach your children to get a f*cking clue.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

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"Targeted Individual

A victim of organized stalking AKA 'gang stalking'.

There are all levels of severity of a TI's situation.
It could be just psychological warfare via harassment/mobbing all the
way up to suspected use of technologies such as used in Psy ops( ELF,
microwave, etc.). The campaign could also incude good old fashioned
poisoning with chemicals used throughout the ages in covert warfare
or newer agensts such as mind altering drugs (LSD etc) up to neuro

The point is to use a combo of psychological warfare, chemical/bio
terror and suspected technologies to either silence a victim
witness/whistleblower all the way up to human experimentation or
behavior modification.

The common thread is that all these tactics are to be COVERT.

The TI or target is often hopefully labeled mentally ill and
discredited (especially from whistleblowing or testifying- which was
most likely the original threat to some powerful entity that got them
targeted to begin with).

In democracies like the USA this system is not even a concept that is
thought of as feesible except by those in politics, big business,
criminology or the crime culture itself. Most citizens do not have to
deal with such subject matter in thier daily lives and see this sort
of thing as 'paranoid'.

However if one does simple research into history as well as cultures
under strict regimes, as well as 'phenomena' as bullying and
workplace mobbing, one will readily have to accept that such behavior
is not only common among human beings but history shows that such
systems are documented as being utilized.

Its a matter of perception management. The facts to deduct via logic
that TI's exist as well as organized stalking is readily available.
Democracies CHOOSE to not accept this systems existence. To the
Targeted Individual such willful ignorance is compliance with the
actions of the perpetrators.

Often the TI is systematically ignored by citizens and
society(purposefully or out of fear): a tactic used in the behavior
modification of children and infants.

Anyone who is smeared, gang stalked, mobbed at work or bullied can be
referred to as a Target, targeted or a Targeted Individual."

(Maybe it was too long..who cares).

Friday, September 18, 2009

a TIs clothing/ do abusive men have special pheromones that give them an edge as predators?

There is much involved in organized stalking and harassment that only TIs can relate to its so complex. Its best just tell the rest of the world that its a sophisticated psychological warfare system and its about stalking and harassment.

If those of us with really horrible experiences told the world about human experimentation as well as poisoning and gassing it would really be 'unbelievable' for them.

I have no scientific or medical experience but it occurs to me certain things about being targeted that just make sense. 
For instance being targeted is like being hunted. Due to fear and the actions of the gang stalkers a TI, I am sure, goes through biochemical changes as well as adrenal etc. You can feel it.

I think that this is all known by the perps and the system. Its probably an ancient system improved on now with tech as well as improvements in chemicals.

I have experienced that clothing in my case has an effect on my health as well as being targeted.
If I wear the same things too long I can feel something on the clothing that is detrimental to my well being especially depending on where I travel.
It could either be pheromones or something that humans excrete off thier skin. It could also be pollutants from wherever I am traveling.  I  speculated at one time maybe it could be somehow related to the tech but I know so little of how the different parts of that work.

There is something that remains on clothing and its not good.

I know from experience that pheromones play a part in how an abuser keeps hold of a female.  I personally could not get away from one real idiot I dated who was in on this and sent to get info out of me for a fed investigation going on around friends of friends..he served some sort of purpose like that becuz the cops of the same precinct I think sent someone similar another time years later upon my return but it didnt magic tricks all of these tactics, once they are revealed, become useless as the victim now knows how the trick is done.  This moron was the text book abuser and I was vulnerable. Anyway, he was controlling  but what made him effective? My situation, my conditioning and programming, his tactics and technique- all true. But there was something else. The way he smelled. It was like a sedative at times. I would think of getting away from him and would end up getting near him or leaning on him and the very thought of leaving would subside.

I had an idea for a comical but still effective to invent called ' ManAway'. A woman could spray it on the abusive male or in an area and his pheromones would no longer be effective. Like the Simpsons episode where Lisa has the anti bully spray (which turns out to be salad dressing to mask the nerds smell that angers bullies so much). 

I borrowed a friends leather once and felt better after just sleeping in it.  I read an article that claims that pheromones stay in leather especially and that females can actually have brain cell growth from the pheromones of a dominant male.

The effects of the chemicals that a TI puts off thier bodies has to be looked at.
My friends all think I am some sort of clean freak but I know what works for me for my level of health, age and my being targeted.  Some people I am meeting in certain circles seem to like dirt and being dirty as part of thier way of life. They claim thier clothes feel better on them.  I have gone without showering for a few days and it just makes me depressed.
A TI is not a healthy person by the time many years of this have occured.  TI's often stay alive due to sheer Will power and a natural reserve of energy...most likely thier vital life energy. People like me look eerily young into thier older years..I wont get into why this is becuz I am not really sure.  But if you target someone like me you can see from photos that aging becomes evident and accelerates. Why? Becuz we are no longer relaxed or healthy. We are not longer saving that reserve for old age.
Its like Gattica...saving nothing for the swim back is how you achieved what was supposed to be impossible.
TBMC survivors often have alters or fronts that can appear calm when all else is true under the surface.  The gang stalking makes extra stress on someone who is already handling a heavy stress load from internal issues.

I think the point in trying to destroy survivors is to overload thier systems.

So just a curiosity and another lead. I dont have enough knowledge about the subject and I cant do research right now. If you as a TI notice that your clothing is affected by wearing it after a few months then its an important part of your preserving your health.  You may be housed and its not an issue as you dont travel alot..however it could be from coming off a TIs skin itself like pheromones or other things excreted, and that makes me wonder what one would be excreting when one is under stress and being hunted or has lost alot of vitality due to being targeted.

Thats the best I can explain it as far as being a TI. As far as being a victim of domestic violence I would suggest taking note that it might be for that reason that its hard to get away from certain men.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

On the road

On the road with no internet access...will work as I can.  Thanks everyone.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Tech that allows for 'listening' of key strokes

Guess what? I bet you they do it anyway or under special order. Um, havent many agencies with this sort of tech available in the past abused it and gone outside legal perameters..uh..yah.

And one must think about the fact that the capability simply exists...not who is supposedly going to monopolize using such tech or if they will be legally allowed to do so.

Women in charge of potentially violent situations make them more peaceful..well DUH

Havent we been trying to tell them this for ages??   I just dont know how the art of systematically avoiding truths and fact (stupidity) can reign so long.  Ho hum.