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2026 UPDATE ON VIDEOS:
PLEASE BE AWARE THAT AS OF 2026 I HAVE TAKEN DOWN ALL VIDEOS THAT SHOW MY FACE. THIS IS DUE TO ADVANCING TECHNOLOGIES IN OUR WORLD BUT IT IS ALSO DUE TO MY GROWING RESPONSIBILITY TO AGING RELATIVES AND MY DESIRE TO PRODUCE MEANINGFUL WORK THAT WILL SECURE MY FUTURE FOR THEM AND MYSELF. KEEP IN MIND THAT THIS BLOG WAS STARTED IN A DIFFERENT ERA WHERE BEING A CONSPIRACY THEORIST WAS SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE. For many years there were a few attempts to discredit the targeted individual community, such as infrequent, lone articles published by unsavory newspapers. However this was always met with resistance as well as a continued desire from many powerful factions such as academia to keep our community in a gray area. This is most likely due to the fact that back in those days academia had not been infiltrated or influenced by things like students being indoctrinated and then being used as armies against adults and institutions as well as other sordid things like the Jeffrey Epstein scandal. Educated and powerful people knew damn well that this situation is completely feasible. That level of society understood that we are victims of torture especially being aware of the exact nature of abuse of power opposed to the general public's vague impressions that they barely sense that they're being oppressed by in their daily lives anyway. Especially if it's connected to human experimentation or the theory that MK ultra is being continued under private contractors all these years academia and the powerful of all people would understand the levity of the situation. PEOPLE COULD NOT BE CANCELED AND DISSIDENT VOICES COULD NOT BE SILENCED SO EASILY. SOMEONE EXPRESSING A VERY ALTERNATIVE OPINION WOULD NOT IMMEDIATELY BE A POTENTIAL THREAT OR A DANGER TO OTHERS DUE TO CONTENT. SINCE THIS BLOG WAS STARTED, CONSPIRACY THEORY CULTURE HAS BEEN VILLANIZED AND WORSE CO-OPTED (EVEN THOUGH IT SEEMS THAT THE LEFT AND THE RIGHT POLITICAL PARTIES BELIEVE NOTHING BUT CONSPIRACY THEORIES AND THERE'S NO COMMON SENSE OR REAL POLITICS GOING ON). THERE'S SO MUCH CONSPIRACY THEORY GOING ON WITHIN POLITICS THE PROBLEM IS IS THAT ANYBODY THAT'S A REAL CONSPIRACY THEORIST THAT'S LOOKING FOR REAL ANSWERS OR THE TRUTH IS NOW BEING LABELED A PROBLEM BECAUSE SOMEHOW CONSPIRACY THEORIES ARE ONLY SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE AS LONG AS THEY FIT IN WITH...POLITICAL POLARIZATION?
 IT'S JUST A DANGEROUS TIME. I WILL ALWAYS PRODUCE WORK ON THIS BLOG UNTIL I AM INCAPABLE OF DOING SO OR UNTIL MY BOOK IS WRITTEN.  SINCE I WAS FRAMED IN 2016 IT TOTALLY OBLITERATED MY AUDIENCE BASE. I HAVE TO WORK REALLY HARD TO GET THIS THING BACK. MY PERSONAL LIFE HAS BEEN INTERFERING FOR THE PAST 10 YEARS AND THAT IS ENDING NOW.. HOPEFULLY I CAN MAKE THIS BLOG WHAT I ORIGINALLY INTENDED IT TO BE AS WELL AS I CAN FINALLY COMPLETE WHAT I STARTED DECADES AGO AS A WOMAN IN MY THIRTIES. NOW IN MY '50S I WOULD LIKE TO COMPLETE THIS AND MOVE ON. 
 
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I am a writer, an activist and artist. I claim my RIGHT TO EXIST legally under US Constitution and international law.

This is an educational blog for awareness as well as sometimes a telling of candid personal experiences to demonstrate theories as they might be experienced by a person who theoretically is existing under such conditions.
Any actions taken against me by others questioning my competence based on this produced work even those allegedly working for me or on any legal cases on my behalf will be sued or charged with activist/dissident intimidation and/or whistle blower retaliation and proper legal action will be taken against you by myself, family and support system. 

Be warned that no further interference with my production of meaningful work as an artist and activist will be tolerated.

Wednesday, September 2, 2026

Why Do People Take Things They Know Others Need Badly

 I have now lost a sleeping bag that was important to my survival. Due to being distracted by a person who I was trying to help that can be very difficult and scares me 

People were nice enough to try to help by seeing if I had it with me or didn't in certain locations but it seems I may have left it on a bus. I only took one bus yesterday and it may have been left in a store. 

 I NEVER get my things back from the public transit system here. Never. Even when it should be easy. 

Why do people take other people's things when obviously it's someone needy who has misplaced it?

If I left my gear under the rt 5 bridge freeway in San Diego I used to come back hours later and IT WAS STILL THERE.  

In Japan if you misplaced something even something expensive it is the cultural norm to LEAVE IT WHERE IT WAS LEFT until the person comes back for it. No one takes other people's things.

It took me til night time to realize i had lost it also. 

People eirher just take people's things to be greedy assholes or people throw them out without putting them into lost and found. Tney may take it on purpose so you cant get it back.

I misplaced my compression sack between 4pm and 5:15 pm on August 31, 2026 (Monday). I went to star market in Cambridge on McGrath highway and then on the mbta 87 bus going to market basket in Somerville ma. When I went into the market basket store in surveillance cams I did not have my compression sack with me. 

I can't remember the sequence of events but I should have had it boarding that bus. There's one more time frame  i didn't investigate. Sadly many people act as if my possession isn't important especially a sleeping bag but it's imperative to my survival right now because it's just the right weight and temp. My back and muscles arent strong in menopause so I use a folding cart sometimes because I can no longer carry my gear like when I was young. I do it only when I can. 

I tried the shelters but they have become horrible and unclean. there is one place that's ok sometimes and there are some genuinely helpful people there. It's funny years ago shelters were somewhat safe for targeted people. Now they aren't because it seems funding is so important for every other kind of homeless person that  it's not a safe environment for us anymore. 

I've seen the transit system kiss butt to some upper middle class mommy who lost her iPhone but I lose gear for survival and everyone acts like it's an unimportant issue and a waste of their time (one person was nice today but everyone else was rude). 

Once I find out about one more time frame if it's the bus I have to push because they just do not care and I need to know if it was left on that bus. What's so frustrating is that if I did leave it on there why wasn't it turned in? Who takes a compression  sack? 

It's a Sea To Summit white compression sack with black top and straps and a yellow bottom. I havent had money to clean it so it's off white now lol you got to use OxiClean on gear like that cuz if you try to use bleach she'll destroy the rubber inside it is a rubberized compression ssack that's another reason I want it back it cost me $50 for that compression sack. Because it waterproofs your sleeping bag from the rain. I've had it a long time and I hold on to my gear and take care of it  )

The sleeping bag is a legacy bag it's a Coleman from the old days and I'm really pissed because you can't buy them like that anymore as you know it's if it's free covid it's going to be quality. Needed to have more stuffing put into it but you can have people refurbish your sleeping bag I think if it's quality. It's a red and gray 50° bag. 

The sleeping bags that you used to be able to easily pick up in Walmart are so bad nowadays that they're actually using left oover small tiny plastic fibers from some kind of recycling bullshit to put inside the sleeping bags of stuffing and they're claiming that this is environmental recycling and when you try to use the sleeping bag the stuffing pokes out of the material and falls everywhere because it's shredded up recycled plastic or something like that so don't even bother to buy a sleeping bag from Walmart that's their brand. Target doesn't even make them anymore which is a damn shame. 

There is one or two good choices from Walmart I'll go over it at some point. 

When you're trying to be extremely frugal it's just easier to buy something decent and take care of it and have it for 10 years or more then it is to have this modern attitude of buying new stuff all the time. On this budget it just isn't possible. 

That's why losing something like this hurts so much because I depend on these bags and unfortunately having to take care of two people especially one of them was taking up my time and money I didn't stock up on gear the way I should have when I had a sponsor helping me. 

So every item I have is precious. 

I live in a wealthy country and I live like I'm living in a third world country. But that's the way it is and I've made it work. 

If anybody can help me find my bag let me know  I'm going to try to find one last piece of the timeline and then I'm going to try to push to try to see if it was on that bus and who took it.