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Please be advised that this written work is theory. It's theorizing, pondering and amateur research. For legal reasons I state that I have no actual belief in these theories as fact, if I did I would have sought legal recourse. Until that occurs this blog can only be considered theory. If it does then any and all actions PAST AND FUTURE that have been taken against me during the years producing this work will be labeled war crimes under international law and any other legal protections that apply.
I am a writer, an activist and artist. I claim my RIGHT TO EXIST legally under US Constitution and international law.

This is an educational blog for awareness as well as sometimes a telling of candid personal experiences to demonstrate theories as they might be experienced by a person who theoretically is existing under such conditions. Thus the 'candid' expression, poetic license and marketing myself as product or character. This is NOT a journal or diary.
Being a reasonable person of sound mind if I had concerns for my safety or others I would take responsible action for self care as my established medical history can demonstrate.
Any actions taken against me by others questioning my sanity or competence based on my produced work will be construed as activist/dissident intimidation and whistle blower retaliation and proper legal action will be taken against you by my family and support system.

Be warned that no further interference with my production of meaningful work as an artist and activist will be tolerated.

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

I'm. Ok. Will be posting soon. Thanks for your support.

Wish me luck again today

As usual I'm going in but never know if I'm coming out again.

Stay strong everyone and keep up the activism. Don't lose focus, don't give up and DO NOT fall for diversions or baiting.

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

The Propaganda Machine Strikes Out Against Targeted Individuals
The Propaganda Machine Strikes Out Against Targeted Individuals
"In the wake of a tsunami of “lone nut” shootings that have flooded the United States in recent months, mainstream news sources are at last publishing extensive articles that dare to mention the formerly taboo word known as “gangstalking.” As could be expected, the “journalists” responsible for these articles distort the facts for the purpose of portraying innocent victims of organized government harassment as paranoid schizophrenics."
The Nightmarish Online World of 'Gang-Stalking'

July 22, 2016 // 10:05 AM EST

This might shed light on the VICE article linked above:
"u/Neoleftist 137d, 2h
I've been a reader of vice for about three-four years now and overall I just think the quality of their articles have declined."

"lucasbelaq • 133d, 21h
You do know that Rupert Murdoch has a stake in vice news now, right? It's about to become a very diluted click bait site...if any alternative news site becomes very popular, they won't allow that to exist."

"fauntlero • 107d
Well now it makes sense. Shit."

"In the Williamsburg That Vice Helped Build, Sudden Barbs From Bands and Fans
Growing Media Company May Struggle to Keep Its 'Streets' Aura"

Just sayin......😯

O-m-g..I am So Afraid To Check The Comments For Moderation

...I am mortified at what I may find. Our friend the stalker leaves the absolute nastiest, most abusive stuff.
Don't worry. I won't abandon true TIs.

Monday, September 19, 2016

Gambling Addiction Is A Terrible Thing..Isnt It?

Sectioning From February Was Illegal

(Per usual the same disclaimer applies. No threats verbal, directly, physical or by any means of communication will be sent by me at any time in relation to this post. If such a thing does occur its in the interest of justice to seek out the true sources of such communications-for myself and the victims of such crimes).

The entire time I was in this place I refused to speak to anyone other than the standard questions 'do you want to harm yourself or others?' to which I answered "no". I was once asked if I had access to guns to which I replied "no". The only info give was of my contact with the ACLU, my physician and a long time friend/character reference. I repeatedly stated that I was working with the ACLU on a case involving HUPD and that I did not want to state anything at that time due to my ongoing legal case.

I repeatedly stated this to the intake nurse at the hospital as well as the psychiatrist and her resident who were part of the team that continues the evaluation over the three day period.

I was approached repeatedly and asked about a treatment plan, my living situation and other things which I refused to comment on.

One day after I arrived at the hospital I was basically ambushed coming out of my room into the hallway by a nurse on that day's team who asked a leading question: "Are you hearing voices Rachael?" to which I ignored her and complained to the physician working the floor. This ceased immediately and did not occur again. Where does it state anywhere in any paperwork that this is a concern?
Also, I was (illegally) sectioned supposedly to evaluate my 'dangerousness'. The stay at this facility should not have been used for any other purpose.

So I guess all you have to do is put someone's name on something threatening and you can terrorize them, lie to them and manipulate when you approach them to apprehend them, never even ask if they sent the threatening communications to begin with and then put them away for five days, traumatizing them for life.

BTW I didnt even know why I was dragged off the street and put into an ER until I asked the nurse in the ER why I was there, hours later.

I didn't even see the horrid email until I was in NH and my lawyer showed it to me. Its awful.
 Why would I screw up my future like that, threaten innocent people and hurt my readers and fans?
I wouldnt. Becuz I havent for the ten years this blog has been in existence. Theres no reason for such a thing to occur now.

The ER doctor who saw me kept bullshitting saying things like "Well, I just think the community was scared..." of a middle aged woman with a $1.67 knife bought at Walmart, up against an entire police department, armed with the latest in tactical equipment as well as a knowledge of weapons and your standard issue of all police equipment and weapons? Grown men. Twice my size. Lots of them.

Are we absolutely serious?

He made things worse by asking to see my knife. Why wouldn't a doctor like that know that its standard procedure for police to take all weapons from a person being evaluated or a suspect of a crime at the time of being apprehended?  And what does the knife's appearance have to do with anything?

Getting Harassing Communications on Phone, Google Drive and Email

Whoever the stalker is thats set me up for criminal threatening with three different police depts might be responsible also for:
Hacking into my Google Drive and somehow putting dirty pics in there, sending never ending spam to my email on this blog and having text ads for Viagra sent to my phone.

Funny...I can think of only one way for someone to gain access to all my personal information. It could be a corrupt entity that had been entrusted with such info over the past year.

Funny how such entities are not concerned with protecting me against this very intrusive stalker...but would rather try to focus on my being a horrible crazy potentially violent person-without any solid evidence.

The odds that the latest threats case I'm dealing with can show I sent the communication is very high. Becuz I'm being hacked and stalked and the latest case concerns a very tech savvy institution.

Not only do they have to prove I sent it as my lawyer states but I say, with all this hacking, PROVE THAT NO ONE FROM THEIR END SENT IT EITHER.

The Traveler Or Adventure Gene (Alternative Theories For ADHD or The Neanderthal ADHD Theory)

Thursday, September 15, 2016

Why Am I Being Treated As If I'm A Potential Lone Shooter When They Are Always Male And I've Already Been Profiled?

Note all recent lone shootings are males. One woman with a male who were motivated by Islamic extremism is the only recent example of a female shooter.
I've posted this years ago-it has something to do with testosterone and estrogen. Women process abuse and stressful situations differently. Women would tend to instinctually not want to harm people or protect them. It also has to do with this male 'go out with a bang' suicide run type of process. Women seem to know there's hope after traumatic situations. There still a world out there to live in. Like after the death of a baby, we can always produce another.

I'm only putting forth what makes sense to me and I haven't researched this thoroughly.

As for profiling, I was told by someone with credible info years ago that in Harvard Square near the university our street scene was looked at by authorities partially due to OCCUPY and partially due to rises in terrorism etc. I was told that we HAD ALL been Profiled if there was indication of any threat. He said that one punk rocker kid who always talked about political violence was Profiled and it was determined he simply did not have what it took to actually commit such an act.
Others who were at OCCUPY and Profiled were put on lists and during say, the Regatta races on the Charles had a polite agreement with authorities to simply not be in the area during such events as a courtesy and to avoid trouble themselves.

It was never said to me that I was Profiled as dangerous or capable of violent acts and I am or was the most visible and vocal activist who was part of that scene around the university.

So why now?

It was also told to me that after the Boston Bombing security changed hands and cells of feda had come into the area to operate as security for Boston and Cambridge. people. I only have a vague understanding of the changes but it's obvious there's new a new security apparatus as well as alot of new people in key positions of power around the area.
Now I've experienced nothing but difficultly and corrupt practices from this new environment. So perhaps NEW people do NEW profiles or studies and fabricate whatever suits them and their purposes. They aren't honest.

That's exactly what's occurred in two of the criminal threatening cases I've dealt with where I have a reader whos a stalker and puts my name on threatening communications to police departments.

I'm not buying into any of this newly delivered bullshit and no one else shouldn't either. All this trouble just lately and not before. I don't want trouble and I don't think anyone else does either-unless of course you profit from it. Such as solving problems you created. Order out of chaos.

So if it's been established long ago I'm not a threat what IS going on lately?

How The Lone Shootings Trend Is Being Used With 'Pretzel Logic' To Finally Discredit And Frame Up All Targeted Persons

This article from a big newspaper is THE worst attempt I've ever seen to discredit and even frame up the TI community. WITHOUT THE RECENT SURGE IN LONE SHOOTINGS THIS WOULD NOT BE POSSIBLE.

The way battles usually go in this world, if we can keep fighting and advocating through this, there will probably be a breakthrough. This is the action of a rival who has become extremely opportunistic and thise in power seem very nervous.

Also keep in mind that presidential candidate Hillary Clinton's husband, former president Bill Clinton presided over the PRESIDENT'S ADVISORY COMMITTEE ON HUMAN RADIATION EXPERIMENTS in the mid 1990s and that included his public apology to victims for not only military radiation experiments but other entities performing mind alteration, behavior modification and thought control experiments utilizing drugs and psychology. This was known as MK Ultra.

I can think of no other area of the country that would want Hillary as president than the seats of the Liberal elite such as Boston, NYC etc.

All they are doing is using the fear inspired by the lone Shootings which are very prevalent lately, to intimidate and frighten people into being forced to accept the theory that all targeted persons are potentially dangerous and that the community at large presents a danger due to it being isolated from society.

The entire piece is created with a sort of 'pretzel Logic' where facts and projections and info is twisted and manipulated to suite the writer's purposes. At the heart of the article's power lies the horror and fear raised by the phenomena of lone shootings.

If one deconstructs this article it's plainly manipulative and self serving. If people are scared and nervous enough they will stop thinking if you will, because when we are made afraid, emotion and survival mechanisms take over and cognitive thought, reasoning like critical thinking ability is lessened.

For example first they claim people arent being targeted, then try to make out actual past lone shooters as PART OF THE TI COMMUNITY simply becuz Targets have theorized that a shooter may have been targeted?? THAT explains why the person lashed out in violence? Becuz they were mentally ill like the rest of us? Whaaa?
So the shooter suddenly becomes part of the TI community simply becuz he was the focus of pondering and curiosity by people claiming to be Targets? Intelligence operations usually include disinformation specialists. I've heard people on TI conference calls from FFCHs who you can tell are suggesting violence on a regular basis to infiltrate, discredit, agitate, provoke-all the fun stuff activist groups have to deal with anywhere they exist.

It's absolutely ridiculous if you look at it. Why aren't they using science and technology to study the patterns of lone shooters and shootings collectively? Algorithms, patterns, math, predictive technology, psych profiles etc. These are used in business all the time for marketing and in criminology. There's even TV shows based on it like Criminal Minds.

And theres only been ONE study done (lol)? And based on this one study these accusations are being made? And the social acceptability of many Targets being doctors, lawyers, former military, police etc etc is totally discredited becuz of the article using as a crutch ONE STUDY?
Is it peer reviewed? Becuz if you read Mark's work, author of the Hidden Evil he actually gets peer reviewed to gain cred and to be responsible to his readers.

So a big monolith newspaper is going to tower over this small community of vulnerable people along with all the other bold intimidation lately and force TIs into silence? Is this for real?

For those who don't know my mother is a documented radiation human experimentee both parents were US Marines. I myself have been subjected to the worst most overt, brutal intimidation of my life time as an activist in the past year. And it has been outrageous the system's ability lately to outright lie or commit criminal acts against Targets and have that covered up by other parts of society.

Look at it this way. I'm not politically savvy enough to know what could be motivating this but whatever is going on, the power structure is scared and therefore desperate.
They are actually screwing THEMSELVES becuz if they don't win this and gain absolute power, a heavy hand and strict police state like laws that forbid questioning corrupt authorities the truth or some semblance of it will be revealed.

With all the documentation that exists on relevant subjects like MK Ultra, Project Paperclip and a history of war crimes, outsourcing military actions and intelligence operations to private companies so there's no oversight or transparency as would be with government actions, plus loads of other info like Nick Begich as well as other scientists explaining the theories on the technological aspects of the TI theory, why would it even be possible to release an article like this nowadays?

Becuz when people are scared they become a mob tha no longer thinks or reasons and that is what the powers that be are now depending on. Think of it as lone Shootings being used to threaten you to go along with whatever is said or whatever is proposed to stop such activities and make you 'safe'.

Take into account the timing. It's like the judge who ended the case in NH said to the Prosecutor when the case ended-that why is it I've been "wandering" the country for 10 years but I don't get into trouble? Why all this only in the past year?

Let me reveal some information that may help explain the compliance in this recent trend.
Now I am only presenting a theory.
My family's past and my own gives me a bit of an insight into the world of organized crime and this is nowadays largely hidden from the public.
When I left the adult entertainment industry years ago I did so partially becuz it appeared that too many criminal organizations were coming into the area and gaining access to my friend's business. It's as if she didn't control anything anymore. I also suspected she was being coerced into turning to blackmail as a way of generating revenue. It was disgusting and I wanted no part of this new way of doing business. As an example just look at Charlie Sheen whos admitted to having to spend millions to keep his HIV status quiet for years.
Look at the former Hollywood star Quaid and his wife who claim there are criminals who create set ups or operations to get celebs money and destroy them.

With the technology that exists nowadays this is totally feasible. Communications, training. Even street gang members can be dumb as nails and be an effective part of a criminal organization, as long as they follow "the way it's laid out" as one black male told me once. This is where knowledge of cults and cult control is useful.

Keep this in mind then take another example into consideration- in the county jail I was in, the women were part of a very tight knit local scene. I was told my first judge was a john who had a kinky sex life. Thus it could be assumed he's potentially easily compromised thus cooperative in whatever corruption is put forth.

Take this theory and then imagine how many people's activities could be monitored and then threatened into compliance, considering security, surveillance etc. Remember we as a nation have militarized a system of authorities that were corrupt to begin with and that never changed. Authorities still work with organized crime at certain levels etc. Criminals and authorities think alike. The criminal mind is superior and it's also very predatory.

It's totally feasible that in vulnerable areas, corrupt authority that's monitoring activity and doing surveillance could assist in setting up a mark for a robbery or other crime.

I suspect I've experienced this in both Austin,TX and San Diego,CA. I had traveled to these locations to avoid winter conditions up north and as part of my wanting to see the country and also keep doing activism as well as for health reasons. I could tell I was being cased out on the street but also by other means to see how much money I had with me and more importantly how much I was going to get at the beginning of the month. I was more careful than usual and I also put word out on the street about my suspicions. I also was very vocal and short about not allowing such a thing to occur and that someone was going to get hurt in a robbery.

Whatever the nonsense was it ended after that. Exposure and awareness, like a porch light deterring a would be burglar.

So let's theorize that private security firms from big to small have the POTENTIAL to be capable of corruption. From big to small. Let's say, organized crime infiltrated or let's reach further and imagine, created such companies. The potential to turn gathered info over to criminals is totally feasible.
Isn't a large part of Russian organized crime former KGB due to the fall of the USSR.

From history one can learn an important lesson-always keep The Guard busy and paid or else they will find other endeavors to undertake. Even Samurai wandered the countryside seeking mercenary work. People's nature doesn't change just becuz conditions do, even countries falling.

Articles like this show up every few years but this is the most damaging I've seen yet. People getting killed is an effective motivator to sway the public especially if they don't care and just want convenient scape goats as well as to perhaps rid society of some group of unwanted people or perceived undesirables.

In a culture now where the people are not allowed to question corruption and deception, they will lash out at innocents becuz of their inability to take on the oppressive power structure.

TIs should simply make it clear that 'we ain't the ones'...that we are not going to be scapegoated.
Go find someone else.

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

How Acceptance Of The Lunar Landing Hoax Conspiracy Theory Can Set You Free

So these sentiments are (or were) understandable. The poem takes the Lunar Landing event and reframes it as a costly expenditure that excludes common people's needs and even takes tax money and seems to waste it on something outlandish and expensive when there are so many concerns here that need to be dealt with.

The thing about the black community is that people romanticise it but tend to leave wisdom when the business of daily life and survival come into play, in their own lives, in their own class or reality. Nowadays the culture seems to fully embrace whatever expensive, wasteful project is in the works as long as African Americans can be part of it.
Such is the way of becoming legit, mainstream and socially acceptable.

This is not my focus however in this post. The wonder of this poem in bringing the Moon Landing down to earth also can produce a darker effect which is probably why people abandon the sentiment quickly and simply go along with what America is doing or has accomplished and the either take on an 'oh well that's just the way it is' attitude or drift into social acceptance and side with American progress.

Accepting the moon landing as reality has the effect just undercurrent the poem-a complete hopelessness and sheer disbelief that a world could be so grossly unfair and frankly-insane. Even with works like this pointing out how ludicrous it would be to spend money on something so literally and figuratively speaking-'far out' or removed from the concerns of common people and plainly-life HERE ON EARTH, people still cannot fully seem to grasp or accept how totally ridiculous such an project would be, if it were actually real.

That's becuz it's not. It can't be. Doing something like this in the 20th century would be akin to ancient Pharisees building pyramids or half mad emperors sacrificing multiple human lives just to construct temples or structures in their own honor or to glorify something fantastic.

The sheer stupidity of it, the barbarism, it's as if civilization never evolved as far as the 20th century should have taken humanity.

Looking at it this way-that it's one of the most successful media pay ops ever, illusions or deceptions it gives back hope in humanity and this world we live in.
The insanity is gone. Only a slight amusement at how costly a scam a govt could perpetrate long ago and the fleeting images of perhaps a Nixon history tells us was crooked anyway, being president during such a scam on the public. (Though I often wonder if he wasn't exposed simply because he interfered with the progress of bio and chemical warfare projects).

Our world seems hopeful again. They aren't separate from the common or poor people-they are just scammers. Deceivers and there are legit political reasons at the time for such a hoax to be politically necessary.
To manifest JFKs vision of a space program to beat Russia.

Perhaps to spur on mankind to begin actual genuine technological progress in this direction by setting a standard or proving its possible with this event, though faked.

It certainly sets a standard for the US to be extra ordinary at producing works of media that are impressive-as well as psychologically effective.

So...seeing it this way the world is not so unfair, even the big boys who are supposedly better and run things are simply prone to being crooked-and it tends to be very expensive.

What matters once again is life HERE-not out there.

Maybe the effect the bad guys wanted was to get people to focus on life 'out there's and stop focusing on what's important here on earth among our human family-like cool poems, changing bad conditions for the better and just living HERE, NOW or for now-in THIS time and space.

It feels alot better doesn't it? And its alot more sensible.

Saturday, September 3, 2016

Why Is It So Important To Try To Deny I Have Allergic Reactions?

(Please note I am dealing with a stalker who is a reader and has threatened authorities under my name multiple times. I am working with lawyers and authorities and if anyone receives any further threats it's in the best interest of justice, getting the crime solved and in assisting to protect me from any further damage to my life, health and reputation to take all the steps you can to collect evidence immediately that can help determine the true origins of any threats being sent in this manner.

No threats or any other actions will come from me in relation to any information on this blog or at all. I've had this blog for ten years with out any such incidents.

I was harassed mercilessly in the jail by officers as well as inmates concerning my allergic reactions to peanut butter and latex and other things. I've had epipens for years and my PCPs have put myreactions down on my medical records but in jail the doctor created doubt by saying I've never been medically tested for these allergic reactions.

It's occurred to me that over the years when. I've gone to hospitals connected to a certain college locally for a reaction they've actually denied I was having one even though I presented with symptoms.

I never noticed this before but a recent visit to an allergist to get this done was so horrific along with how this was focused on in jail, it seems pretty important to someone that I appear delusional and am invalidated about having anaphylactic reactions.

Which is extremely cruel considering this condition acquired from full blown anaphylaxis from Bactrum (sulphate drug) in 2009 has interfered with my life, traveling, health upkeep, sex life, feeling of safety and other issues.

I'm now wondering if this could be coming from insurance companies that don't want to pay out on a future lawsuit. If the statute of limitations hasn't been reached.

I've had people on buses sit near me and eat Reese's peanut butter cups and I had to get off the bus immediately and doing so these very people exclaimed "oh, Shit!" and looked dejected as if they lost some game because I had to leave out of urgency to avoid a reaction.

I had someone very nasty in a place I stayed in January in San Antonio TX in 2011 smear peanut butter on the bottom of my mattress probably to cause a reaction.

The allergist I just went to recently in Brookline but part of a hospital network mentioned that I wasnt imaging things in my head When I felt I had reactions. Why would he feel the need to make any reference to my sanity?

Also the Secretary wasnt a nurse but insisted on taking blood and she stuck both arms, didn't get any blood, left bruises and said I "wasnt flowing" and blamed my drinking coffee that morning. Yet I went right down stairs to Quest Diagnostic and they had no trouble getting blood right away.

So it seems like there alot of Intimidation, denial and attempted silencing of me in relation to this condition I've had stemming from anaphylaxis from Bactrum.

I've suffered greatly due to this condition.

In jail I had to go through constantly trying to find COs who would put me in with anyone indigent or with the same allergy to avoid being in with inmates who get peanut butter and would eat it in the cell.
A horrid nurse at the jail I was in her answer to when I was trying to get a cell change possibly through medical and stated I shouldnt have to live in fear, her answer was "then don't get in trouble and come to jail to begin with".
The jail is extremely corrupt and even the inmates who know the officers locally and familiar with the area can't figure out why this jail gets to be so corrupt compared to any other jail in NH.

The allergic reaction condition has made my life considerably more difficult over these years and it's unbelievable that people would try to deny I even had this condition to begin with.

But I see now that people have always been very interested in blocking any lawsuits I could have (and they are numerous) stemming from the overall situation.