I have a solution: pepper spray and a possible restraining order lol. That should do it.... IF the official systems way of dealing with that violent oldster doesnt work. 

jerk on green line-agism

 This jerk (probably a perp/) thinks advocating  for elderly/disabled people is funny. 

 

in fact this entire group did nothing but get in the way the entire time that an extremely crowded train I was trying to get elderly and disabled people into the seats designated for them. 

The conversation I had with another gray haired woman about how to advocate for herself and show her pass and make younger people get up out of the seat she had bad experiences where people told her things like it's not about you. Typical Gen z bbullshit. 

They just thought this was hysterical.  

Experienced Trans Discrimination At Shelter Last Night/We All Need to Write Our Books On Homelessness Bcuz Things Still Need To Change

I witnessed something terrible last nite. 
When going down the hallway towards the room I was supposed to be in upstairs in the shelter I heard a woman screaming  "security!!" and a trans person was fleeing down the hallway saying "she's saying I'm a rapist and calling the police". It was a young person, obviously someone born male but identifying as female, trans, binary etc. 

As I arrived in that room the staff women minding that floor looked annoyed but did very little to even address the situation much less rectify it which surprised me. 

This made it harder for me to get my bed ready because I usually do so when people are asleep and I am quiet and dont wake anyone. 
My nightly ritual is a bit involved. I had gotten a case of head itchies that I immediately recognized as early head or body lice from going to southern California for many years as a Traveler. I know how to  get rid of it before it progresses but I don't want to get it again so I have a way of making my bed that prevents it. Theres been no sheets late at night  for a long time now anyways. 

My pillow is a plastic bag with my hoodie and vest in it which gets disposed of the next day and so on. My boots get tied to the bed and the bed gets wiped down with wipes. It doesn't take that long but most women just drag their sheets into the bare mattress and pass out. 

There's cameras in the place nowadays but years ago basically if you left anything in your bed (wonderful comfy old fat mats thrown on bunk beds) to go to the bathroom for 5 minutes when you came back guaranteed it would be gone.  I was raised up old school being houseless and I did my time in shelters off and on as a young kid and then after 9/11 to supplement my traveling to be safe if I got stuck in the winter.
 I do things in the old school way which is partially what I learned in shelters and then from traveling. 
To remain clean and to prevent people from stealing your stuff while trying to be polite to other people who might be sleeping. 

The problem with this place now which is near Mass and Cass in fact the problem with a lot of homeless places nowadays is that they no longer kick you out at 6:30 am. Which in some ways is a good thing but in some ways it's a bad thing.
In the old days if you had to leave at 6:30 in the morning you weren't going to have bags and bags of crap with you. Nowadays in this particular place it's almost like transitional housing instead of homelessness on a day-to-day basis.
When I'm go into these rooms especially on the upper floors where there is more room for people's stuff I'm shocked at what I see in the bed. They have all this stuff as if they're in their apartments or something. It's all over the bed and it's all over the window sills and I've seen women basically take up the entire area so you can't get up to the top bunk the bunk bed. It's almost like they've become completely oblivious that it's a shelter and someone else is going to be living near them or above them for the evening. 
So in a way it's become like transitional housing opposed to a night shelter. 

They're not even thinking about other people and that isn't something that I've ever seen before in homelessness in shelters. People usually mind their own business in a night shelter and follow staff.

Another thing I have never seen before is people challenging trans people. 
Which doesn't also make sense in the situation that happened because it's a hell of a lot safer nowadays.

 years ago when it was a  co-ed shelter (men and women on different floors segregated of course) they allowed trans people in the shelter.  In fact they were the only shelter in Boston that would allow trans people in there.  

I can only recall one distasteful incident probably around 2010..the mid-2000s at some point when you had this old school Puerto Rican hooker trans person who was sitting there keeping everyone up all night bragging about how good their bjs were. And you can just do the whole thing in your head with the accent as well, which is kind of amusing. If you're old enough to remember you know the person I'm talking about one of those Spanish street trans girls from the old days. Harmless but still it's obnoxious that someone's keeping up women at night talking about this crap however it didn't happen that often and no one really said anything because it wouldn't the polite thing to do. Because regardless of who it is the person obviously needs a safe place to stay at night regardless of how they're acting.

Nowadays it's much safer with cameras everywhere.  Theres cameras in the halls, day areas and sleeping areas.  The trans person did not look dangerous or like a problem person at all. She had long blonde hair and glasses and looked like a student. 

The supervisor did indeed try to put the person in another bed but the person was so freaked out that they just didn't want to be in the building. So the people in charge are usually pretty good in this place it's some of the people that are minding the different floors sometimes and it's definitely a lot of the guests in there.

To add to that overly dramatic stressful incident now  because the women were awake now they're realizing I'm coming in late and I have to make my bed. Now they're going to notice any noise because there used to people just coming in dragging a sheet and throwing it up there and passing out instead of having some kind of ritual or a certain way that they make their bed and now this is going to bother them even though it happens every single night and nobody even notices. So now one of the older women starts bitching about oh God and talking to God and all this shit because here someone now having to make their bed and they just want to sleep. well of course I'm a little freaked out as well so I started saying things like "well maybe you shouldn't have screamed at the trans person and people wouldn't be awake right now"  "I usually do this at night and nobody even notices or wakes up."

It was eerie they all suddenly seem to stick together ironically except for the mentally ill white woman who's the one who screamed at the trans person and caused all this to begin with.( I noticed after I came in the room after she had screamed she started pointing at the cameras being paranoid of the cameras on the ceiling and then she lay down and went to sleep and covered her entire body with a black blanket look like a dead body. Of course that only added to how disturbing this whole thing was did she now looks like a trouted dead body in her bed).

All the other women try to ganging up and basically trying to push me around. One of them actually started on me and said "well what are you doing over here if your bed's over there". well the problem is is that I need to use a flat surface called a table because you women have all this crap everywhere and you bring your entire fucking house with you instead of getting a goddamn storage like you're supposed to be homeless and treating this like transitional housing so therefore there's no flat surfaces so I have to go over to this other table that isn't near my bed because everyone's selfish with their damn space and strangely inconsiderate of other people considering that we're all homeless. 

For someone to ask me that question and start trying to push me around and then the young girl with the earphones who has all these toys and all this nice stuff. If this chick had all this crap in the old days she would have had it taken from her immediately when she walked outside the shelter. 

After 40 years of dealing with this crap I'm dealing with the same crap I dealt with 40 years ago during bussing. Except now it's dressed up in a politically correct costume. I'd rather deal with the old homeless scene. Behavior the core behavior hasn't changed. In fact it's gotten worse because these are not street people.    

And by the way if I went to any other part of the United States I wouldn't get this behavior I could go to New York City and people act much cooler than this. I could go to the West Coast and people act like adults who are urban. It just never fails that Boston continues to perpetuate this behavior and continues to use corruption as part of the system and then covers up for it and makes excuses. 

Because I'm older and because I'm looking towards writing books and having a career maybe with podcast and speaking engagements about mind control and programming and like everyone else who gets to write books I know now that I have to be diplomatic  so I simply talk to the supervisor when he came up and I asked him to just move me to another floor and that's the end of it. 

What was also stressful to me is the lady who didn't respond at all to the person screaming at a trans person looking for shelter for the night in an inappropriate manner,  when she had to come back into the room because the hens were cackling at me she started saying "I'm going to put everyone downstairs for the night" but she kept looking right at me again.  So thank goodness an adult male came upstairs it was in charge but this is what I mean about it's no longer about homelessness it starts becoming about like the neighborhood and this is not a neighborhood this is a homeless shelter it's supposed to be night by night. 

The people who are in charge in this place are fair and a lot of the staff are actually very good there's just one or two bad apples and I noticed they rotate people so you don't have to deal with bad apples for very long. There's some solid people there that are there usually that you can depend on. And there are people there that have heart like the old days surprisingly. 
When you get a bad apple in the middle of a bad situation it's stressful and I know I can handle high stress especially being mobbed by a group but I am getting old and I don't want to deal with it anymore. In menopause I no longer have the estrogen or the hormone to cover for the stress that is created by this.

Nobody should have to put up with this behavior at all. Trans people shouldn't be being screamed at and sent out into the cold. You know what there's overtolerance of besides drugs? Disruptive mental illness.

Years ago in the mid-2000s when it was a men and women shelter segregated, in the women's dorm if you even acted out in some of the ways I see in this shelter now they would call BMC and they would have the men in the white coats come and take you away until you learn that you couldn't behave that way and be what's called disruptive. 

what I learned from observing that in the mid-2000s at the shelter is that even the most mentally ill person-like any mammal, can be trained through conditioning. 

So the mentally ill person who you think can't control themselves can because if you keep having the men in the white coats come and take them away then they stop the disruptive behavior. I came up with a saying which is 'if I do this I get taken away, if I don't do this I can stay'. That's what a lot of these people learned and they were quiet after that and they didn't do that behavior anymore. 

Another disturbing thing was that the women dominating the room started talking about God. And then I think I said something about "God has nothing to do with it"  and then I tried making it clear to them that we can stay up all night or go to sleep it's up to them.
Then I felt somebody looking over my shoulder at my vest with my metal patches from black metal bands and stuff on there and I sense this really disapproving vibe. 
So now we're dealing with people that have this culture that might be a Christian culture within their old community ways and they might actually believe that men identifying as women don't belong in there and neither does anybody else. 

By the way this is the first time I've seen this. Usually it's peaceful in there and women that are competent enough to communicate do so minimally and in a friendly way or that nobody wants any trouble. 

There is one or two women in there that seem to have a hard time with people picking on them and I just try to be nice to them or stay out of their way. One woman in an elevator was expressing that she wants to take the elevator by herself and keep to herself because people make comments to her all day long and mess with her in the shelter all day long. I didn't share any theories with her because I don't think she's up to it. However I did show support as she was talking to a nice staff woman and just agreed with her that it does get annoying day after day after day when people start with their comments and messing with you. 

I just didn't give her any information about working with these theories. She's older and she just seems like she's not too far gone but she seems as if she just couldn't handle it right now which is very sad. Sometimes she talks about her past when she's babbling to herself on the bathroom and it sounds like a sad story. To have a sad story and then to have people mobbing you and picking on you all day I just can't take it My heart can't take it. And it makes me feel so glad that a lot of us found the stuff on the internet where we can work with theories and make it so that we have lives and we don't end up like that. 

I am going to do some activism in the area by putting up flyers for a domestic violence as well as human trafficking as well as meeting lists and of course some information about GS which I'm sure immediately will be ripped down. 

The one thing I am not going to be quiet about is what I saw last night. I'm going to make a video with advice to trans people of what to do in Boston if this happens to them. I've also been speaking to local health centers that I know focus on the trans and gay community and asking them what can be done about this. 

How would these women feel if I came in there and started screaming the n-word?  And I didn't want them in the room with me because of the way they look or who they are or what if I started saying I don't want fat women in the room or what if I started saying I don't want any Asian women in here or I don't want any lesbians around me or anything like that do you think that that would even fly? No and it would be wrong. 

Plus there's another problem where they're hiring people that stay there to clean and the place is never clean because staff used to clean it and now you have more women and less people cleaning in a way that seems the way it's supposed to be done professionally. There should be a night shift of cleaning as well. 

. One thing I can say that's good about the place is that they have a grievance policy nowadays and it's very clear and the papers are right there in front of you I've actually done it once when it was clear-cut that there was a ridiculous problem and I did have someone call me but begrudgingly but they did call me and take my complaint with a forced teeth clenched smile you could hear over the phone lol. But they do have a process and it does get done properly. 

The other good thing about the place is that there are women who are disabled and elderly and seeing them in the shelters years ago I always used to feel so bad for them because these are women that belong in nursing homes at this point or they belong in memory care are they belong in elderly housing and they used to use the shelter just as housing and they're like 80 years old carrying the suitcase around every night I used to feel really bad about that well now they've improved another shelter has an over 55 program and I know that they've improved conditions for women by keeping bottom bunks for them making it so there's a more beds that are on the ground instead of top bunk which I don't like cuz I like top bunk I sleep better I'm like a cat I like to be up high however they are a accommodating people who are disabled and old which is nice also they have a sitting room during the day that you can actually sit down in inclement weather which I don't like it because it's causing this let's call it the pine Street effect where women get clicky and caddy and think they own the place however it's good for women to not have to leave at 6:30 in the morning. A lot of women are not capable of doing that. 

The reason I call it the pine Street effect is because any old days pine Street has a lot of problems because it was mail staff and female staff with all women and then the women could stay inside all day with that you get pimping going on saving beds for working girls a lot of corruption and over familiarity as well as the girls start to get clicky like they're in a neighborhood or they're in a tenement building because they're there constantly all the time so women naturally start to form little groups etc. 

And I don't agree with any mail staff working with women and women setting unless they're over the age of 40 years old I'm sorry I just don't. There have been some younger males there that are very questionable and I don't see them now so like I said they seem to find out who the bad apples are pretty quick and rotate them out. 

Last thing we need is pimpin gangstas in a women's shelter full of disabled mentally ill drugged out and old women or women like me who are in a situation that with a relationship that's difficult and there's no DV beds. 

One thing I can say about the place is when I go there I do feel safe and they're always there and there is a lot of staff that check the rooms every 15 minutes so you do feel safe. There are problems but a lot of these problems were created it looks from administration and from people redesigning the building that had fantasies they were dealing with women that have home training in how to keep a house which they don't or weren't mentally ill which they are because the entire bathrooms that they rebuild are completely ruined already. 

And some of the way that it's set up doesn't work because of the population you're dealing with but the renovation they did recently is a hell of a lot better than the first one that they did. 

When it was co-ed it was the perfect absolutely one of the most perfect shelters for sleeping I had ever been in in my life. He didn't have any LED lights yet and they had these wonderful lights that were in there from when it was a morgue or part of the hospital and somebody had painted the bottom of these round lights and they were soft and they didn't get in your eyes and it was so nice and you could just sleep. And there were other things about it that made it a good sleeping environment but you have to remember may or menino is in at the time and there's differences in culture between the way a Catholic Italian person is going to take care of wayward women and the current globalist approach. 

Also you're dealing with an administration back then that was probably connected to a lot of the organized crime in some way or fully aware of it and they had sort of a Catholic way of looking at it which is we know we help create a lot of these problems in this elitist place that forces people into these positions and leaves them no other options because remember there was no internet back then really so therefore we should help take care of them. 

There was a little more humanity and heart back then. The problem now is that the system is masquerading under this cosmetic renovation and even pine Street is doing this even the pine Street van has a cosmetic renovation but the heart has been removed. 

Let me tell you something about being out in Kenmore square at 2:00 in the morning still trying to panhandle in front of the 7-Eleven. And you're like fuck it I'm outside now I'm also just stay out here and I was younger and I was road hard and so I could just stay out there and I knew a bunch of people out there I'll just stay out here and get tired and panhandle. Well at 2:00 in the morning that van from pine Street would show up every goddamn night religiously all over Boston and you could depend on them and this was not a common thing back then with outreach as they call it now. This was a very special and unique thing and the people that worked in that van actually cared it wasn't just a job or they didn't have to mute themselves and make their responses muted or whatever they tell people now that makes them not fraternized with homeless people anymore maybe it's too dangerous now because of the meth I don't know people are very non-responsive and very they don't fraternize anymore. 

It was probably a different homeless scene then because there was no meth. 

People will come out of that van usually two guys an older guy and a younger guy would be in the back and they would ask you if you needed soup or socks or a blanket I mean these were absolute necessities we didn't have these programs where people just threw clothes around and stuff around as if it was easy I mean you had that emergency blanket and that was it. Things were scarce and the pine Street van was beat up it had dents in it and everything but we didn't care because it had a big heart. And the people were cheerful and they made things a little less stressful because they were hey guys how you doing and stuff like that and they would help you and move on it made you feel as if someone recognized you helped you and moved on they made actual contact which might be more important than a bunch of free shit everyday. 

Now that van was there because it was necessary. There's a lot of outreach I don't agree with nowadays because the places that they're going are supposed to be places where people are houseless because they're self-sufficient or travelers or selfish efficient urban campers. And now these places Yes like Cambridge are ruined because you've got home bums coming out there who can't care for themselves and depend on the van. And these are the kind of people that are going to leave messes everywhere and make a mess of like the library like they had in the last couple years they have it down to a low roar at least. I was aghast when I saw a couple bring one of those foldable portable couches out to the lawn of the Cambridge public library main branch. I thought I was going to fall over I thought to myself this can never happen here and it's happening. A friend of mine who's a regularly that told me the police finally came and put it into a dumpster themselves thank God. 

When people don't understand is that they're supposed to be different levels of homelessness that's supposed to be different kinds of homeless people That's how people naturally well self-determination if you will. You have to remember that going homeless is like going feral it seems like what they're trying to do is they're trying to prevent people from going into those primitive modes where they start to become either going back to their DNA which is now getting triggered and it's awakening and people start to act like their ancestors did to survive and so therefore that's when you're going to find out what kind of homeless person you are when you get out there and you have to make decisions based on experiences that are new because society doesn't give you any information so you have to depend on upbringing and your DNA. 

So someone like me goes into shelters when I was younger and it didn't work for me because the shelter rats are not like me. Like pine Street for instance these people enjoy fridaynising they enjoy sitting around creating little groups and clicks and they just enjoy sitting around doing nothing all day waiting for housing and they're annoying and it's like being in high school and the women pick on each other and I just don't have time for drama. I tried to be a bartender and a strip club and the same thing happened where I just cannot fucking stand female drama of course it's always when women are protected inside of a building with people watching them and they know they're safe that's when they create drama. If women are out in the challenging environment where there's no safety you're going to see women being self-sufficient keeping to themselves keeping their heads down focusing on survival dressing like boys and not screwing around with any drama because nobody wants any trouble because it might just get you put in a ditch. 

So that's what I don't like about female drama because I'm not in high school am I? And who has time for this but some people that's the way they are or that's the way their DNA runs they're not hunter-gatherers their farmers if you will. 

And by the way that's another solution that I wanted to come up with a lot of these people that don't do well like in Southie years ago that didn't do well and they have too much Viking DNA and all they know how to do is steal or fight? The reason that these people are wild-blooded people is cuz they're on farms also if you put people out in a farm environment and they have to farm to eat they're not going to have the energy to screw around all day and a lot of people can't be put in a classroom regardless of medication nor should you be medicating people if they're meant to be just on a farm. 

So when you get out into homelessness years ago you had to kind of find your way and you said okay shelters are not for me I don't like the stealing I don't like the dishonesty I don't like the drama and people are wasting their goddamn time in this place doing nothing so then you move on to going to different shelters around the country and you go okay this isn't working for me either I can't seem to find a place and these places are just as bad as the last other place is because it's full of shelter people which aren't the people that are like me. So you find out maybe that Urban camping might work but then you figure well it doesn't really work for me because what the hell are we doing out here again we're just wasting our time in one place again well then a drunk guy from a camp comes and takes you to rainbow and then he disappears off with his friends and you're just left in rainbow and you go oh my God this is so great this is just like the ancient days there's no money it's like trade it's like my Norman invader DNA is being activated I understand merchant trading I understand traveling I understand all this. And then you realize oh I'm a traveler You're not a trainwriter you're too old and you don't want to lose a limb and also I looked at some train writing videos lately and I totally would not do some of that stuff it's not safe I'm not that damn daring even if I was younger it's not my nature but there are other ways to get around and it would suit me better just because of my bills the way my brain works and the way I navigate things so you find your niche you find where you belong you find the kind of traveler or the kind of homeless person that you are. 

The system is now making it so that the minute these people become homeless they are controlled and they're put into one tiny little area siphoned into another tiny little area and then they're totally controlled and then probably they're given housing or somehow some other way put into the system somehow. 

What bothers me about this is though even though these shelters are safer they don't allow for the kind of creative expression and sort of seeking out one's own destiny self-determination free will free association fraternization they just don't allow you to find out who you are and where you belong and sometimes people need to be homeless in order to have a reset like a computer button has a reset button. 

I understand that the circumstances in these areas where there's now meth which I wonder isn't sabotage in itself I understand they're dangerous and you need more control and more order but the overtolerance I think is a big mistake. And I think that allowing everybody into every area everywhere is a mistake. But I think you're wishing for the moon if you think that we're going to go back to say Harvard square or Berkeley or whatever being some exclusive area just for people that if they didn't have a bad upbringing or a drinking or drug problem probably could have went to those colleges because that's why people were accepted as being homeless around those colleges because they belong there. Nowadays people are going to these places that do not belong there and because of this they're building student centers with a students cannot fraternize with street people and they are becoming anti homeless under ignorant of what people are about outside of these controlled student environments which is also probably by design over time. 

Believe me I am not a fan of waking up in the morning and hearing a male voice That's one of the things that used to bother me about the shelter years ago when I had estrogen in my system and I was a younger woman and in the mid-2000s I must have been in my late 30s early '40s it was a little disturbing to wake up and hear the trans person's voice because it's it is a man's voice. And when you think you're going to wake up with just women around you and you're pumped with estrogen and you're younger it is a little disturbing but the person was nice enough and I think they had somebody in there that was their wife or something crazy like that so they just sort of got tolerated and they were nicest pie and didn't bother anybody. Tolerance is supposed to mean just that tolerance it doesn't mean that you submit to abuse or domination from other groups of people and their culture it doesn't mean that you give up what you're supposed to have so that they can have something did they want instead. 

Nobody should be being dominated by anybody and this is what I'm seeing now in this new shelter system I think it's because it's set up more institutional style I have no idea I can't put my finger on that I'm not an expert and I'm not analyzing it from that perspective but there are issues going on and it has to do with a very fake and very heartless sort of institutional feel to the way it's run and women becoming very spoiled in the way that they're homeless so they don't have to go out and test their meddle or they don't have to go out and find housing or they don't have to behave properly in order to stay somewhere  that's free. 

The thing that aggravates me about this is in the mid-2000s I had multiple people working in different shelters around the country telling me the problems with the system and what they thought needed to be done but they needed their jobs and they couldn't say anything and they thought that maybe activists like me could say something. 

Think I wrote about it a little bit but I just didn't have time with everything else going on. And now I look at the system now being back in it and it's actually worse. And the problems are so ingrained that you just can't address them now because now they have this fake veneer of a cosmetic renovation of the way it's run and the way it looks to make it look like there are no problems and if there are problems they can be addressed and solved which isn't true. 

The people that used to work in shelters were real a lot of them still are or they do the best they can to be real around this creepy institutional system now. I mean you're dealing with people that work in a shelter especially the day shift especially the people that work in the offices at advocates or whatever it is and you feel like you're calling customer service at a big corporation. You have to understand something The homeless industrial complex is a big business complex and we are the product. 

I have a few very strong memories about seeing things in homeless shelters that showed how much the people that work there were wired to care about other people. Not saying the people that work there now don't care but I'm saying that it was a humbling experience that showed the magic of human mercy and sympathy. Now it seems like there's a lot more evil being covered up for that could be fixed and could have been fixed in that simpler shelter system we had before. 
Shelter system now seems to be just something that was created to cover up for a bunch of people making money off of selling drugs dealing drugs and banks laundering the money of the people doing that in this area. So the taxpayer has to pay twice? 

I cannot believe that when we had the chance we didn't come up with a system where the more capable people could have come up with something that was more self-sufficient or something where it's like a homeless hostile where people pay to stay or do chores or can do work or something like that once they're feeling rested. That we could build something or we could co-op or we could have some kind of squat house like they do in California or Holland. (Sadly those places are now doing away with productive homelessness. And see it's an all around the globe thing. To make sure that people can't recycle or repurpose a space. Using the value of human energy and work. This is what shocks me about socialists nowadays they really don't seem to value the work that you do with your hands The work that you produce through your own energy and that's supposed to be what it's supposed to be about not neoliberal capitalist politics. )
 
I have an acquaintance who's an elderly Russian woman. I visit her sometimes. I've learned that the way she likes to be referred to is specific. She is either a Russian speaker or she is from Soviet Union. She does not like to be referred to as Russian. I try to use USSR or Russian and she corrects me in her strong accent and says "no, I am from Soviet Union. Soviet Union was better!". I don't think any Americans can understand why the Soviet Union will be better. 
She explained to me that in the Russian society prior to the Soviet Union it was run by the czar, I think she called it imperial Russia,  it was not good for Jews and they were segregated. So for a Jewish women her age the Soviet Union might have seen better.
 It's interesting how if you don't know the history of something or you don't know the old peoples experience you don't understand things completely you may have a limited view of something. 

 It seems where you were from in the Soviet Union was very specific and very important to your identity also. 
When we discuss different institutions she refers to them as 'human captivity' or 'medical captivity'. I agree with her assessment in many situations.  Somehow in her strong old Soviet accent it comes across a lot more convincingly.  As if to be taken more seriously.

I remember in the mid-2000 staying at the old version of the shelter the original version where I am now. One womens dorm on the second floor and men upstairs.  They had these round light fixtures that were held in these cross cross things and they were low lights that someone painted on the bottom half so it was low light for sleeping. No LEDs.  You got the best sleep probably becuz story was told that it used to be the old city morgue. It was always so peaceful.. when nobody was making noise. 

I remember getting up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom area and in the low lights when it was quiet I got a glimpse of the staff woman at the desk in the dorm. She was a foreign black thin older woman. She was quietly counting on her Rosary beads very intently. This is why she did what she did she had cause and she had purpose. This is how strongly she believed. And that is what motivated her to get through all of the hard times because believe me the workers in the shelters back then they should all be recalled for their service and given special recognition (except for the bad apples like the male staff at pine Street inn in that stole my ID out of my bag. you have no idea the stories I have to put in this book). There was no EMT in the shelter back then there was no mental health specialist and there was nobody to take care of medical emergencies you had to wait for BMC to come back then in the early days it was Boston City hospital. These people dealt with a lot of different issues that they absolutely had no training for. We needed medical people on site very badly back then but they just weren't provided. 
It's was her faith obviously they got her through it.

Just like it's our faith as people working with the TI theory it gets us through whatever happens and we find ourselves anew and reinvent ourselves or learn how to live in society with our condition. The person that becomes a traveler after being homeless for so long and learns where they belong tests their meddle and learns about the strength inside of them that is denied them by living in the structures provided  by mainstream modern culture. 

From every person who has ever been part of their upbringing that's taught them anything to every piece of DNA that's within their fiber that is now active and working to help them survive.
A lot of when I came up with when I was traveling- the ideas and the mechanisms and the ways that I would do things came from somewhere in me that I have no idea becuz it was never taught to me, it's all primitive..recall.

Another memory I have is from Pine Street Inn women's shelter maybe early 2000s. There was an old woman that was there that was I think from Haiti or maybe an African country but I think it was Haiti and she couldn't speak any English.  She was also a bit mentally ill and would talk to herself and hear voices it's pretty interesting to see somebody hear voices in the other language and talk back to them. She was also completely blind. The people that worked in that shelter specifically some of the men that worked there treated her as if she was their own grandmother. 

That woman was guided everywhere and she was helped everywhere and she was given everything that she needed by the staff. They were so gentle with her. 
Again that takes a lot of energy and effort and there should have been things like nurses or elder care or someplace to put her but instead other people had to take care of her.

The lesson that we have learned in these places and that's the lesson that I have learned while traveling with the traveler community you have to take care of each other. 
And that's the lesson we learned in neighborhoods as kids when there were neighborhoods. 

The first lesson I ever learned about crazy homeless people (I've probably told this store before) when Marcus an Israeli man from the 1960s culture of Israel was working and living in the United States here in a suburb or a borough of Boston that is very nice and used to be very Jewish, I had the chance when I was young to be tolerated and accepted even though I was on drugs no one ever said anything maybe I wasn't that bad yet and I didn't steal but I was given a job surprisingly in a bakery.
I did the best I could it didn't last very long because my habit progressed. 
During the time I was there I remember there was a man who would come in with a trench coat that was ripped up with writing all over the back of it that he done himself and it made no sense. He was the first person like that i think I ever saw up close in a place where you don't expect them to be.  

It turns out that he supposedly was a child in the camps in Germany during World War II and his parents were killed and he went crazy and he was crazy ever since. This is back in 199,  this person's probably passed away by now.
Everybody politely ignored him and Marcus simply sat him down at one of the tiny little cafe tables that everybody was sitting at, food was provided for him with no question asked he ate quietly and left. That was the way this man was treated everywhere he went in this Jewish neighborhood. 

With tolerance and a quiet human dignity that I remembered for the rest of my life and that was my first experience on how you should treat homeless people. 
I understand that was a different time, a different world. There were controls, there was strong culture  ethnic ties, there was reasons why he was treated with reverence and I understand that. 
The things I remember from when I was younger and the world today that just seems to be about being on your phone buying things and ignoring everything else and everyone else is such a sharp contrast. 

An amusing part of the story is because I was so young and I think I was traumatized which is why I was on drugs I turned to Marcus and I said "Marcus what's wrong with him?"  and he told me the story of the camps and how it happened and I became very upset and I think I started to cry a little bit. Marcus, being this sort of '60s person from Israel does not want to see a woman crying but he's also a Jew and wants to get back to work lol so of course what he did is he told me a joke. Now I've tried to repeat this joke to Americans and I got a lot of crap for it so I stopped repeating it but this you have to remember is the Jewish way of dealing with Hitler- is to make fun of him. That's what all those movies were about in the old days is to make fun of him so he's not so scary so the situation isn't so severe. 

Marcus turned to me he said "Be quiet, be quiet for a minute.." in his Israeli accent. "Listen, listen, listen .."  "Why did Hitler kill himself?"  I said I don't know why teared up .."because the gas company sent him the bill and he couldn't pay"  followed up immediately by a sort of half-hearted hahaha but somewhat cheerful, then immediately followed by "Now get back to work! " Which wasn't so much harsh as it was part of the tailing off of his joke. 

Somehow this made this better. The humor alongside the compassionate way that this person I saw was treated. 

The problem with the cities nowadays is that people don't care their face is in their phone and the kids have not learned the value of whatever it is I see that they're missing and I just can't put my finger on it. 

I know part of it is they were put into this dimension that lives inside the internet and they live in the internet as if it's a real dimension and a real place and that's what they believe is the real world and I think the world outside of them escapes them. the world that we live in with other human beings and nature and trees the physical realm The emotional and mental realm that exists without the internet on the phone. I also have my concerns about video games. I've seen kids as young as 13 playing games where there's things like the dark brotherhood new murder people and stuff and there's actually no consequences at all but they're learning a reward system for underhanded or bad behavior. There's also deeper concerns about the video games I won't get into right now.

Our generation mimics our grandparents we simply use the phone as a tool and then we put it down. It's strange to think that a person could be a small child and have the phone and actually be immersed in it and now they don't understand the difference between reality in the physical realm or the realms of the senses and this other realm. 
Also hear kids talk about having trouble putting the phone down and the look on their face is very stressed and serious and that's something our generation can't understand- just put it down. It's really boring anyway. I look around and see everyone on the trains and buses on their phones and I wish there was something else. I try to remember what people on trains and buses were like years ago. I recall people doing crosswords or reading. My god! People used to have actual conversations on trains...or think..quiet reflection. To exist in that space on a moving vehicle. 

I think they've done to them with the phone and the internet what they did to us was television and it's very cruel. 
To this day I seem to require a TV on in the background if I'm housed. It's like a pacifier. It's like a comfort and it's wrong. It isn't real and it's bad for your brain. Gen x had an opportunity to try to get rid of television out of our lives but a whole bunch of things interrupted all the good things we were trying to do.

I don't know how to correct this I don't know what to do All I know is that something has to be done and now it's more complicated because the system of course has made it look like something has been done when actually it's probably worse now. 

All I can do is tell you what I've seen that's why I just collect the Intel assess it and then write it down That's why I'm just going to write a couple books I'm not a hands-on activist type of person I'm not strong enough I'm not bold enough and I lose my motivation to follow through on things when they involve real world stuff and dealing with people too long. 
An art project I could actually complete like writing a book or something. 

So I know this is too long once again but I think it's important. 

I don't know what's going on but the bottom line is is that it's not safe out there at night. Not without the old street scenes so I don't think it's right for people to somehow gain precedence over other people especially when the system is now is cold hearted machine that makes you feel like you're more invalidated than you ever were before. 

I think a lot of selfishness and callousness and cold heartlessness is  acceptable now and I think one of the reasons is because it's all too easy there's too much overtolerance and there's too much provided and that's fine for some people and if that's what the cities and the states want to do then let them. I would like to see something alternative but what's really creepy about this is that it seems it's getting less and less viable to create something alternative. 

I'll go back to that place tonight because I have to because it's raining but I don't like the way it makes me feel. I did feel safe at one time and now I'm starting not to and it's not because of the general population or the staff but I just don't like the feeling that I can no longer fight for myself but this is I guess part of getting old people just don't respect me anymore. I think that makes me more upset than anything else. 

There is one good thing about being an older woman which is if you can muster up the energy solutions are very obvious to you and you know if you really wanted to you could just crush the opposition even if it's 100 people in front of you who are younger in one swoop of your hand it's just the question is like do you want to deal with it do you want to bother with it? 

Maybe something can be done where there's some kind of rule like they can put a trans person somewhere that's a little more open on one of the other floors where it's not these tiny rooms with a women don't want to be in an enclosed space because that is something new. The other shelters have always been dorm style and that gives you a little more breathing room where people are not right near you or you're not in an enclosed space with other people so maybe they can make a rule like if anyone's trans and a women's shelter in the Boston shelters they go into an area that's more open so that there's more trust so that the women feel like the staff can watch more easily because they're in a bed where it's open and you can see them putting them into a small room of five or six women that's enclosed that gets checked every 15 minutes by a monitor might make some people become afraid so that might be a compromise of some kind. 

Don't they just have trans shelters I don't understand it? 

It used to be my dream to open a hostel / laundromat because for some reason I love laundromats I used to work in one. But now it's coming to the realization of maybe we should make alternative shelters and also maybe we should try to have the shelter system streamlined with federal oversight because some of these private company shelters are absolutely outrageous and I can't believe they're getting away with what they're getting away with I'm not referring to anything in Boston it's in the suburbs and some of the stuff I've seen around the country..

It used to be kind of obvious years ago that shelters were a white collar criminals dream and now that's getting subverted where people can't see that there might be corruption there because everyone acts like they're working at Macy's department store and smiling in your face so I'm not really understanding what you'd have to do maybe you'd have to do an audit or a full scale deep investigation I have no idea but something needs to be done. 

As it is as of tonight once again I'm just another nobody going in trying to get out of the rain trying to deal with a curveball being thrown my way where I have to be in a place like this again. Maybe the universe is making me go back to these places so that I can see what they're like now because maybe something has to be done sooner than later.

 As I finish writing this at the Arlington T-Stop ready to go downstairs there's a tree on the corner where a homeless man is panhandling. The cute little baby birdies are here the little house sparrows but there's a robin singing for me which just goes to show you that there's always a reward. After bad things happen

watch out for idiots in front of the doors at the hotels they're hiring morons now

 Be careful of the new ghetto doorman that they're hiring in hotels around Boston. Years ago they looked like people that were mob connected guys you know people whose friends got them jobs as doorman at hotels. Well now you're dealing with a lot of idiots there are Nice people because there's still some really well run hotels. Copley has nice hotels. Be aware of the doormen who work at an old aging relic called the Newbury in Boston. 

They'll take extra effort to pay attention to you when you walk down the street instead of paying attention to the guest just so they can fuck with you. 

It might be because that particular individual is in trouble or a jerk that wants something that he can't get legitimately as we know what the payoff system is 

But it could also be that the hotel itself is an aging infrastructure they probably has mold in it and it's on life support like a lot of buildings in this area every time I go by one of the old buildings or the old churches it's most like really bad mold it'll make you sick. 

This is why HUD is coming into Brookline and stuff like that because these infrastructures are aging to the point where now you'd have to knock them down and rebuild them to make them habitable. 

I have an acquaintance it was a little bit out of her mind but she's divorced from an influential doctor who now works for a big drug company on the West Coast. After knowing her for this long I know understand why her husband divorced her and there's other shady things about her that I remember now that I don't want to get into however she's been kind of a good acquaintance and a little bit helpful. She has a 2.5 million dollar condo in tthis infamous little place in Brookline. However if you go into the bathroom it's all mold. 

So what's the point of it being this name that means something locally and it worth that much money if these things are getting moldy? It's kind of a rip off because basically these are just old apartments that were basically in the '70s just apartments for regular people then they started making them into condos obviously to make it so that the infrastructure would be taken care of by the tenant and not an apartment building holder because it became too expensive. 

Well that's great but if you don't take care of it it's going to get bad 

And I think Massachusetts is one of the most horrible as well as New York for mold and not giving a shit about it not having any good mold laws and I should know because my health was ruined for life by mold in an apartment. 

So if I were you I would watch out for my health in these places and if your targeted watch out for the overzealous clowns. 

A lot of these people they're hiring belong in a stoop south of Boston in the hood instead of working at an expensive hotel The behavior is appalling. Nothing has changed they just dressed them up in a suit and put them in front of a hotel door which is absolutely disgusting demeanor and behavior for somebody working in Newbury Street. Welcome to globalism no class no taste and wealth has absolutely no culture. 

Go to one of the better hotels in Copley. The staff there regardless of what they look like are trained polite and classy. Not just fake it till you make iit. 

Is there a reason that you're bothering a homeless woman walking by trying to go to a 12-step meeting at the church next door to stay sober because she's in a bad situation and there's no bed so she has to stay at a shitty wet shelter down in mass and CCass? So she has to go to a meeting to stay to keep her sobriety of 30 years. 

So you're going to fuck with someone who's homeless and a domestic violence victim who's staying in a horrible wet shelter and needs an NA AA meeting and you're going to harass that person and take time out of your day to do this instead of paying attention to paying customers at the hotel. 

If it happens again the person's going to get cited for harassment. 

There's no need to bother me when I go by with my backpack and say have a nice day ma'am and make sure that you fuck around while you're doing it. 

And then he laughed about it because he's a ghetto piece of sshit. The addicks down at massencast and the homeless have better behavior than this clown. 

And if it happens again there's good absolutely be consequences. You Don't think so try me. How much escorting goes on in that hotel aanyway I'll have ice and the feds watching that place every fucking night of the week.

 

fireworks July 4th

 I'm so sorry. To all the animals and every veteran and all inside and outside pets. 

I'm sorry and I wish I could stop it.

Fireworks should be illegal world wide except for certain circumstances.

They also pollute the environment and aren't good for humans either.

Some day.. maybe...the world will make sense.  

More Creepy Kids Doing Mobbing

 Now we've got 16 yr olds claiming to be homeless from out of town obviously to see if I will take them with me. I remember this happening to my partner and I maybe about 5 years ago or so. There  this wayward girl that we found it was underage. We immediately called two adults females that we knew that had homes and had them contact the proper authorities we totally did not keep that girl with us 

These are obviously setups. So now it seems we're working with the theory that I am some kind of sex ppervert. 

First of all this something new and I'm sure this isn't the last time they're going to come up with something they'll probably come up with something new in 5 years or a few years they always come up with something new to accuse you of. 

And again I point out how is it that I'm targeted because I'm some kind of sex pervert if number oone when we started this whole nonsense after 9/11 I was traveling alone and stayed alone for basically four years. 

How exactly then is this about something or someone that I have known recently? Because this has been going on since after 9/11. Like right after 9/11

Also isn't this the same part of the country that let Jeffrey Epstein run around and do whatever the hell he wanted at the colleges as well as like fuck around in p-town all the time and no one seemed to care and give him everything he wanted? 

So how are we just letting him run around and do whatever he wants but I'm constantly being accused and fucked with? 

Again face reality I'm the good guy I'm the superhero The people doing the mobbing are the bad guys.  and lately it seems like there's a lot of really slow-minded people you are a very susceptible to cult control involved in these games or a bunch of young kids that will do anything anybody tells them if it's a thrill or they get paid or get out of trouble for something involved in this stuff. 

I have no idea what the new motivations are. It could be anything from I'm a sex pervert to I'm a racist too I'm Hitler or some stupid shit. Whatever their new premise is they're going to push it. 

Another thing you have to remember is that when this whole thing started after 9/11 there were no race issues either because that started with Obama. As far as causing racism and polarization.

We were all pretty much united against Bush and the war.. in in the late '90s it was the chance the only chance that we had to all get along and make a society that functions it's the polarization that has caused the Racial Cold War.  

If any Target seems racist at any time you can guarantee that it was induced over time by assholes constantly f*cking with them. Different Targets have different weak spots that these jerks work on. I've noted some males seem to be very anti gay and it's probably because theres some weakness or sensitivity in them about the issue. This sort of person likely will be targeted by loads of obnoxious gay men or trannies messing with them which only renforces bad feelings until they become resentful and guarded and even hateful towards whatever demographic they are sensitive to. 

Then of course the assholes who spread rumours and handle the public.(Or mobbing groups)  can then freely spread it around how 'anti gay' and 'hateful' they are towards this group of oppressed people. 

People don't realize they've been being tormented (and over.time it does qualify as torture) by people that are trying to get that result so they can then validate hatred towards the targeted person..

Keep in mind they 'test' you early on and they always have your history and seem to get to know targets' weaknesses by observing and perhaps like the old COINTELPRO program they have a psychological profile. If you suspect your parents are targeted as in the harassment is intergenerational they have been known to try things on a child that worked on the parent(s). 

It's like throwing something against the wall and seeing if it sticks. If it works they will use it to death and that expression is probably a pun because your death and destruction (or submitting to working for them) is their goal and they will never stop. Ever.

Also this is the way it goes with changes of the guard. Depending on who's in what position of power (office) it changes either in intensity or structure. Some places change seasonally. (Summer tourism/student fall and winter etc). 

So now I have to be mobbed by children for years on end because this new crap isn't stopping. It could be because I'm a certain age or dont have any children of my own. It could just be the way they are doing things now..I'm so glad some.asshole somewhere believes that using east German stasi tactics is great for America lol. 

Wonderful.

This is why they have over 55 communities and no kids cruises even towns.

Always work around things lol 

 Whenever I go through Brighton Massachusetts which is a borough of Boston where I lived after 9/11 I I always think to myself " This is where they took my life away" but then I remember everything that happened to me in the beginning when this first started and it really did happen. 

 Nowadays they'll try to convince you that none of it happened or to forget about it and move on. 

 

WIRED-Spying Through Appliances

 Hysterical.

 

CIA Chief: We'll Spy on You Through Your Dishwasher  

https://www.wired.com/2012/03/petraeus-tv-remote/

 

Hmm. I always suspected  the fridge more so.. 

important warning about continuing use of neuro interrupters spraying targets in public

 Some years ago during late Bush/early Obama there was a few posts I made about the use of what was described to me as 'neuro-interrupters'.

I was at a certain university where I had a former friend who could easily compromise one of the female professors there. In other words I wasn't welcome there because I knew too much about certain people at the university (as was the case in many colleges around the area at that time).

There was a lot of stuff going on that would be shocking to people now.

There were people going around spraying something out of perfume bottles. They try to spray me in the library of the uuniversity while I was using the computer. I believe it failed however because of my past experiences I had learned quickly to avoid tthis spray or perfume bottle tactic/action. 

They also looked really out of place and obvious and I think they just left because they got noticed. 

However before then it's hard lesson was learned in two horrible ways. The first incident was sitting in the doorway of an empty business in Kenmore square panhandling because of course I've always been kept dirt poor in this ggame and I recall someone coming over to me sitting down in front of the closed business in the doorway and looking down and just spraying me and then walking away. I was 100% vulnerable sitting in that doorway. 

Within a few minutes I I was dozed out with something that made me forget everything except my name and I couldn't really use my brain and I couldn't think at all I had no thoughts in my head I was like a zzombie. That lasted for many hours half the day actually. Until it wore off. 

The other incident was much more frightening. I had gone to another state on a bus because I was traveling trying to figure things out. I was also traveling to Southwest USA to try to save my health from a moldy apartment or I had experienced extreme life and health altering mold exposure to various kinds of mold. 

I believe the place I came back from was St Louis I don't remember I remember being on a bus. One day I'll get into how horrible the All American bus line was back then because remember there was only one bus line for a very long time they did all the major rroutes. I believe I was staying in a hostel. When I put my pants on I I got on the bus and my legs started to burn My complete lower hat with a genes touched my skin burned. I didn't really understand what was going on but I had the same effect as being sprayed with that perfume bottle except it was much worse. 

I literally was a drooling zombie that could only remember my name for hours. When I arrived in Boston I immediately went to a hostel it took the pants off and took a shower and it cleared up. When I took the pants off I noticed that the skin underneath the jeans was entirely red and bburned. 

The example I used in this original blog post explaining this story references the movie Elizabeth about Queen Elizabeth I. Where a lady in waiting puts on one of her dresses for her former lover to pretend that it's her in the hallway of the palace and they begin copulating as they do so she begins to sweat and the pores open up in her skin letting the poison in from the dress that was meant for Elizabeth by arrival spy for enemy of the crown. It killed the lady and waiting but it was lucky for Elizabeth. 

When we were growing up in the '70s and in the '80s our parents used to tell us about the LSD days and Jimi hendrix's headband is rumored to have been laced with liquid acid so that when he began to sweat as he played the LSD would enter his sweating open pores and he would begin to trip while he played on stage this is an old hippie trick but it's based on the actual science of how the body can ingest a chemical through the skin. 

I have not seen this happening for many many years. However the atmosphere recently has been extremely hostile specifically just in the last week or two and it's eescalating.  It wouldn't surprise me that this tactic would become commonly used in this very hostile environment right now in this area. 

I have to say that the effects have been refined. The smell isn't as shocking it smells just like a heavy perfume but it's way too heavy to be normal perfume and it's not coming from the person it's going in your direction You're the intended victim which is what I experienced before. After the spray bottle you have to remember that either Cheney or the other guy in that administration put out some kind of law or some kind of statement that said that this was unacceptable behavior to spray bottles and it was considered terrorism. 

Therefore it stopped with The spray bottles and being overt. However you could smell the same smell and you got the same effect in a year or two after that but I posted that you could no longer see the delivery system. It seem to be coming from somewhere that you couldn't tell. Now you're dealing with James Bond type stuff. Little gadgets and things like that little hidden probably. 

Since then it hasn't been a part of what's going on and I haven't seen or felt anything like that in many many years that surprisingly a very long time ago that I last posted anything like that. 

However I certainly just experienced it and it is like I said much more rrefined. The effects are more refined it is not such a knockout where it's kind of like you can't think and you're a zombie and you can only remember your name. It's more of a quieting of the mind almost like an antipsychotic or a psych med. 

And the smell really does resemble somebody's perfume however it has the same heaviness and that same thing where you can sense it's a cloud of chemicals coming toward you not emanating from somebody's pperson. 

Whatever this chemical is this agent of covert warfare it has a very distinct body to it in a very distinct heaviness to iit were you definitely know it after you experience it for the first time the problem now is that people probably won't even know they've been hit with something because it's very subtle now. 

Wish of course mirrors everything else I'm seeing in this world today All the overt stuff that they did after 9/11 absolutely not they're not doing all that and that's now I see in every corner 

 It's interesting that this is being sort of subverted and subdued and made to be more subtle and hard to detect because that's like everything that's going on right nnow. Things that are still corrupt organizations and systems that are still corrupt are just getting cosmetic makeovers so nobody can see the corruption still but it's the same corrupt system lol. 

So be aware that that is happening once again now. And if you experienced it during 9/11 era you're much luckier than whoever is being newly targeted or hit with it now because they're probably not even going to know what's going oon. Those of us that are seasoned veterans are going to recognize this chemical in its new form because it was so heavy hitting an extreme in its original form after 9/11. 

You're going to feel different and your mind is going to become closed down. It's the same zombification process but you wouldn't notice iit it does make the world look cloudy and dull and it once again is almost like a horrible imprisoning of the mind like the last experience many years ago with the post 9/11 versions. 

It's interesting when you read serpet in the rainbow not the movie but the book that college is were sending people to go and find the secret of how Haiti can make zombies out of people. You can't tell me that somewhere along the line with all of tthis kind of researched if they didn't put it to good use in this kind of warfare lol. 

podcast: Candace Owens-Charlie Kirk Targeted

 There may be other places to watch this I don't know. 

TRUMAN SHOW-Proof Charlie Kirk Was Targeted 

 https://open.spotify.com/episode/4dg66rGyvqCVEmkVDrhans?si=Lb3xdBAQRe6Ttq7uxFsolQ

If you like Candace Owens work Spotify has her Daily Wire shows as well as her new show. You can watch video or switch to audio.  

She goes alot further with theories in her new show. It's interesting and  she has the journalistic experience as well as the access to research to go further and be more accurate than a blogger.

However keep in mind her husband is British with a father who has a powerful position. Enjoy the show however just use caution.  I recall posting her shows for the first time then immediately afterwards she did a horrible show themed about sex workers where she kept repeating certain words with seething disapproval. So...sooometiimes...I juuuuust wonder exactly who she works for or what is up really.

I did feel bad for her when she sat before Congress or Senate I forget which and she got attacked by one of them for saying something about Hitler and she kind of fumbled the ball but handled it. She was younger then. 

However we DO need conservative young women especially women of African descent. 

Alot of what we do is co opted by people connected to media. I always hope she's genuine. 

Fox News and the alt right was a lot more fun and interesting during Trump's first presidency. It seems that now no matter what you expose or theorize no one wants to hear it.

She goes in a lot of directions in this podcast but the way that she identifies military personnel and the crowd is interesting. 

 

vid: TIs, Gang Stalking, MC-Truth Frequency TV-the Kev Baker Show

 https://youtu.be/kKjyBTRbuEw

 

DOCTOR ERIC T. KARLSTROM - TARGETED INDIVIDUALS - GANG STALKING & MIND CONTROL

 

This seems to have some decent information. However as usual always use skepticism becuz anyone at any time could be a disinfo agent or anything else for that matter. 

However when the information is being gone over in this video the speaker does use considerations such as saying "I don't know how true that is" and a lot of it is just information for your consideration.

Anyone who says they ultimately know the truth or fact without documentation or real proof is either disinformation or they are unfortunately misinformed and probably being used to repeat or parrot information ultimately for that purpose. 

This actually seems pretty good you might find this useful. Again use caution who you discuss things with understand other people are not the same page, or informed or up to speed about these tthings and discussing it with people maybe a waste of your time or even cause legal issues for you such as being sectioned or being accused of something. Having it used against you in any kind of legal battle or to make you look crazy whatever it is. A hysteric or seeking attention all the old stuff to frame targets is still being used while they can still use it because a lot of people are coming out making these videos that are confident and they have the money education and resources to do it whereas people like us do not.

So just watch out for the old tactics of oppressing targeted individuals. And anyone who does seem keen on this information well or they seem like their allies don't trust them 100%. Looking at it as theory is probably the safest legal approach at this point. 

Btw according to the info in this video this would explain a lot about Boston this summer:

https://www.state.gov/diplomatic-security-service-a-critical-link-for-fifa-world-cup-2026-security 

An Acquaintance's Passing

 My relationship with my partner kept me grounded. Now that has turned into something thats become very harmful and not helpful. It's hard to keep going

 I have someone whos been a nice acquaintance passing away right now from a terminal illness and it really puts things into perspective. About how grateful we should be that we have life or health. 

The last person who passed I didn't get to even talk to on the phone. It always haunted me. 

This time even in the midst of all this chaos with being on my own again and shelters being screwed up I at least got a video call in but I should have done it earlier. I should have had time to see this person when they were coherent enough to say goodbye, to talk about memories. 

I've had enough of wasting my life running in circles with ghosts chasing me and people being selfish playing games. 

There's people in need of real help in this world and our time is being wasted with diversions and mazes.  

OMG... Malden Mass

watch out for this thing running around Malden. this person obviously is dressing to draw attention to themselves and to stand out so that you'll look at them and pay attention to them The person immediately starts trouble picks on you tries to get you in trouble with anybody in a store or something like that and then if you say anything the person will come over and actually confront you and call you a crackhead or say you're on drugs and make fun of your teeth and all this personal shit so this person is like superpe okay and if they're not then they're just a complete asshole who's unbalanced pick one or both.

 There's absolutely no reason to be out of counter in a store and keep looking over and laughing at someone unless you're trying to get them pissed off and aggravated. 

so if you see this circus clown and their circus elephant be more than aware and be ready to be attacked I mean verbally attacked and harassed directly I have never seen anything this overt in a while. and like I said this is only a theory that we're working with if it's not that then the person is just out of their minds either way watch out for them.

Vid: Scapegoating

 This video is useful becuz it describes a lot of what people working with the targeted individual theory go through. It may be part of your psychological profile and if the mobbing system understands this, they may play on your vulnerabilities.

It's Nice to See Decent People in Boston Again

 Lots of nice Scottish people. Kilts everywhere been helping people who are lost in the city with public transport.

Only one bad experience. This morning a girl kept getting in my way and switching her standing position and I had move. Then when I got up she just in the way again. I was coughing and that didn't go over well either so her young male companion said something..I may have been baited amd I fell for it. A cop was waiting at the next station (another sign it's entrapment which is like their favorite thing here in this area including framing me 3 times in 2016 which people attempted to warn me about before it happened back then, using the term 'entrapment' specifically in conversation. ) what I did is made a phone call to someone and describe to them what had happened on the train and the minute that he heard that I was being messed with first he stopped his little buffalo stance of arrogance and he walked away. I'm very disappointed in the transit police in the past 10 years or so because the guys that are the regular cops used to be really really nice guys. The only people that would fuck with me were the guys dressed in black that after 9/11 they had the machine guns and they have the dogs. The special forces MBTA police. The regular police were really nice normal people. But within the last 10 years many have become victims of maga brainwashing which of course is just another form of mind control like the woke on the left both of which are disinformation or they're just straight up messing with people. After I was framed I tried to sleep in Harvard in the bus station you could still do that and they kicked everybody out just because of me and one of them turned to me and said "there's people in here that aren't supposed to be here namely you"  and said something about" it has to do with the governor" which at the time was that man who was a moderate Republican which Even though obviously was causing me some trouble I'd rather deal with him than the lady in office right now. Somehow it was easier I don't know why. 

But yeah when you expect someone to cause trouble because you know that's troubles being caused for them it isn't really that hard to get the result of the person looking like they're causing trouble.. this is the formula that they use in Boston they cause a problem and then they're sit right there and act like the person's a troublemaker I'm getting really sick of this childish nonsense around here. I don't know why you're bothering cuz I'm still going to write my books and blow the lid off this whole fucking thing. And the whole world is going to know exactly how this place works and how disgusting it is. Just this is the area that let Jeffrey Epstein run around and do whatever he wanted while I was sleeping in doorways and living out of a storage and traveling and suffering. Let them be as arrogant as they want because they know they're wwrong. And they know that somebody has dirt on them. So they're going to keep fighting forever and ever and ever especially after framing me they have to just keep on trying to disprove an oppress me and make me look mentally ill like I'm imagining all this crap as if Massachusetts is a wonderful place that's never been corrupt give it a break. 

I fell for this today becuz my expectation was based on all the nice people I met yesterday. So it in theory it was easy to trick me today. 

Remember the people you're dealing with with this theory that you're working with are ruthless and will get results by any means necessary it's very very military or intelligence in nature. That's why they use people that are nasty pieces of human garbage that are compromised to begin with or cause stalkers that are religious. The most unfortunate cases are people who were targeted themselves and gave in to becoming harassers and stalkers in order to stop being targeted. 

No matter what the price and the restrictions on your life, NEVER give in if this deal is offered to you. It's not worth it and you'll be a slave for the rest of your life. 

I have been curious lately about perhaps infiltrating their ranks by pretending to give in and then exposing their system which if you have the training and the ability then you can certainly do that then as it would be a great freedom fighting move. Ive often wondered if one of them could be captured could their secrets be extracted from them somehow but most of us do not have the manpower, connections or resources to do this. It's not like the good old days where the mob guys could take someone to a isolated warehouse and do what needs to be done. Lol..

So dont get baited with  an expectation formed by a good experience with certain people becuz it can be turned on you.

One thing I did notice is that the  NICE Scottish people yesterday were healthy, tall, decent normal people. The backstabbing jerks today were scrawny, short, little cowards and the girl looked like a fucked up person who's been abused. Unfortunately that description is all that's really left in Boston of who the locals are now. Short, fat or scrawny weaklings. I don't hardly see any healthy decent people around anymore which is very telling..

Will keep moving forward.. 

enjoy The World Cup Game Time! It's Clear Days All The Way!

Yes it appears to psycho management has either been turned off or adjusted it's sad we can only live our llives when there's a tourist thing going on. 

 Prepare to live a normal life of happy vibes a positive future and living in the moment. 

But beware: so...many.... gangstalking....retards. 

But this is the rule of thumb I've been writing about for years: 

Wherever there is more psycho management or remote influence or management of the environment through chemicals and/or technology or both then...there is most likely less organized stalking by human forces.

Wherever there is more in person harassment by human forces or 'management' of the environment using this method then....there's most likely less use of technology/chemicals for managing that environment or area.

You see these changes when you move to different locations. I haven't traveled in about 10 years to check out the effects of different places but it's probably still the same some places you use more human forces in some places use the other mmethods. 

But if your seasoned you've done this before and you can just enjoy it like a vacation. Just keep the creeps off your ass and avoid them.  

 I see signs for human trafficking awareness on the subway trains and commuter rail trains. 

Why aren't there any down in the drug and homeless areas?  

When Cities Fail Should Larger Etnities Step In/Homelessness As One of the Last Human Rights Frontiers

If a city cannot take care of an institution then shouldn't it become under state or even federal control? 

Also what kind of a physician focuses on social or political issues when there's quality of life health issues not being dealt with?

""Racism as diversion" refers to the phenomenon where racial issues, inflammatory rhetoric, or identity politics are intentionally used by politicians, media, or institutions to distract public attention away from systemic economic, social, or governmental failures (such as wealth inequality, corporate corruption, or failing infrastructure).The concept operates on several distinct levels:Political Manipulation: Elites and political figures often weaponize race to divide working-class coalitions. By focusing public discourse on cultural or racial grievances, systemic policy issues—like stagnant wages, lack of affordable housing, or corporate deregulation—are sidelined.Historical Precedence: This strategy has deep roots in American history. Tactics like "red-baiting" (accusing civil rights leaders of communism) and "dog-whistle" politics have historically been used to block interracial labor solidarity and progressive economic reforms.Institutional Distraction: Corporations and institutions may utilize highly visible, superficial Diversity, Equity, and Inclusion (DEI) initiatives as a "diversion." This gives the appearance of addressing systemic inequities while avoiding substantive changes to their business models, labor practices, or wage disparities.Sociological & Academic PerspectivesMarxist & Conflict Theory: Scholars argue that racial conflict is a tool of the ruling class used to maintain hegemony. By fracturing the masses along racial lines, the majority class is prevented from recognizing shared class interests and uniting against economic exploitation.Media Studies: Media outlets frequently prioritize sensationalist, race-centric cultural clashes because they generate higher engagement than complex, nuanced reporting on structural policy, corporate lobbying, or fiscal mismanagement." 

 

 

Just a basic note to everybody I had a meeting today with this place that I'm staying at because I need it a little bit of a help with a medical issue. Everything was done amicably and we came to an agreement or we made a deal as The assistant in charge described it 

. There was no threatening behavior or language and I am not mentally ill nor did I behave that way or did I show any signs of being anything other than a reasonable person in charge of my faculties by legal ddefinition. 

Forwarding Phone calls to police as form of intimidation tactic

 This is a new move that I've noted.. and we have to remember the World Cup is coming so they want this new heartless system of herding drug addled human chattle to work perfectly in line with the agenda every city has when a large tourist attraction comes to town: clean up the homeless! 

That's nice but I don't care. Well.. I care enough to refrain from doing a piece about a major health issue that's probably effecting the homeless and probably by sinister design but I am considering waiting just until the World Cup is over to post it. And your fuckin lucky because it would probably not look so great  

I don't want to the story to loose importance because of some event. I want it to get to people because it needs to.

Be aware of this new tactic. One shelter I called for beds in the North shore had this bullshit person answer after a guy told me to call back. She was new and young and stupid-an epidemic everywhere nowadays. She kept stalling and brushing me off. Two call backs later she claimed there was someone with her same high pitched tone and Indian accent working in that location...yeah, right. With the same name even! "Maybe there are two people here!". One thing I know about Hindi people is they make the absolute worst most implausible excuses for things not getting done I've ever heard from anyone.... any where. It's actually a source of amusement-there should be a website (Not Sehks. They are ancient warrior class..they don't make excuses for themselves they just handle it which is why they are left in charge of things often).

On the next callback I was transferred to 911. I got an oddly aggressive "what's going on" as opposed to someone sounding as if I may need help so I immediately asked them if they wanted to file against whoever transferred me for wasting their time as well as filing a false report. That got the tone back to normal rather quickly. It ended quickly.

Called back. Informed them that using such a resource as a form of intimidation will not be tolerated. That wont happen again believe me. I also immediately informed little miss that I have absolutely no problem coming down to the shelter in person tomorrow and seeing who's in charge and reporting all of it. Again, the crap stopped. 

So it seems that due to heightened security for the upcoming event, people seem to be getting  very bratty and overdramatic. 

You're going to have to think quickly and I have phone experience and I have years of working with these theories (basically-getting harassed in extreme, fucked up ways) so if you can't handle it at least don't get triggered, fall for entrapment or get framed up as some security threat. They love entrapping and framing people who are inconvenient around here, believe me I know.

 

 

So I kept calling back. Eventually,  

Enforce a Drug Free Work Place in Homeless Shelters

 May I remind everyone who works in shelters that it is federal law that employees be drug free due to the safety issues involved in such a job. So if any employee shows suspicious behavior I will not hesitate to go above and beyond to get human resources or other departments to drug test them. 

 

the serious warning for people who are newly homeless and the Massachusetts and Boston area

 https://homelessti.blogspot.com/2026/06/a-serious-warning-about-changes-to.html

Btw: more people in a workplace = more organized stalking and harassment.

In the old days there were a few bad people within these places along with the true heroes but now it's so saturated with people who work for a massive system and need to keep their jobs your going to be literally mobbed now. 

I mean they will keep clients and employees coming at you constantly. 

Unfortunately some of these places are now no longer safe spaces. Yet some have retained that and you will just have to put up with the usual bad conditions..

 Also I ate at one of the major daytime drop in centers in Boston (which is now constant mobbing) and the food did not seem drugged. I've posted before about experiencing overt cases of this in southern CA and small town Connecticut. Everything from passing out cold to obviously being dosed with antipsychotics. 

If you want to be sure then have it tested. 

I forgot to issue a warning about a meal program called Moms Meals in MA. I was told by someone they had one of the meals and felt like they were on a mood stabilizer. Anything to keep elderly people quiet I guess. 

Has the Moon's Energy Been Altered By Artemis Missions?

 I've posted before that I do not believe we landed on the moon in the 1960s. However I do believe that these recent programs like Artemis are actually taking humans around space and the moon as they claim. 

It's no longer important to the moon landing of the 1960s to be a hoax because it's kind of like 9/11 at this ppoint-everybody knows by now and nobody wants to talk about it because it would interfere with the American narrative and there would be no point to it anyway. I agree that legal action could be taken and the truths could be exposed but in the world that we live in now it's a globalist world and other countries would just take it as a weakness. Unfortunately things have progressed to the point where you can't have exposure of lies and deception making the truth valuable for genuine change. 

We live in a world now that exposes fully all the human fallibilities that Make life unbearable miserable and eevil. If you want to use the term evil which is relative.

We know that things could be so much more but by now with things like the world economic forum in existence as well as globalism we cannot afford them to be. 

The concern is is that man is actually now really going out to the moon area and probably does have the ability now to break through the Van Allen belt. 

I'm not a scientist but anybody with leaning in the sciences that has any kind of wisdom and is connected to this Earth can tell you that it's there for a reason probably and we shouldn't go poking holes in it or messing around with it. I mean it's pretty important to be protected from deadly rays from sspace. 

I do agree however that mankind can't stay here forever and we need to learn to do things like we've seen in sci-fi movies all these years like terraform planets and carry the human seed out into space to look for new places to live-younger solar systems. It's hard to say however because the way the Earth is evolved over time it may evolve in the next million years and do a place where humans are very different or something exists here other than humans. If you want to understand being human and going out into space for a space exploration there are some very simple and easy YouTube videos though some people might find them time consuming and laborious to watch I enjoy them as they map out over a timeline The changes to the Earth since The Earth's early forming. This can give you an idea of how our oceans for instance used to be made of iron and were red. You realize that You're in this small section in the long timeline where you exist in a place that's made just for you Will you have air to freeze and trees on earth and everything works together. 

I think going out into space is a desperate attempt at surviving long-term. It isn't just a pollution that we create and it isn't just the fact that in a few million years our son is going to get really big and burn us up and they get really small and die, it's the idea that within that time frame even something could change in the environment and make it so this place is uninhabitable for human llife and even the vegetation in the air that they create for us and other animals. Even though I think we probably have secret systems  in place protecting us from asteroids there seems to be a strange intelligence out there protecting us but maybe one day one of those asteroids might make it here and then we won't survive regardless of how much we go out into space. For humans could survive in small numbers I ssuppose. 

So perhaps taking everything on the road I would into space might work humans may be able to morph into something eelse some other form and go elsewhere. 

What bothers me is that we don't enjoy the time that we have here. We left the powers that make things bad make us miserable and keep our souls eenslaved. I think most people don't see that. I've also discovered from aging this far as well as being a traveler and being targeted so I'm disconnected from society generally for many years now well of course trying to stay connected as much as I can this process has made me realize how much the animals and the vegetation especially trees here have much to do with human life on earth. Not only do we disregard this completely The new environmental movements are so tied into The new scientific environment which pushes transhumanism and the greed with real estate that people are actually getting away from nature and disrespecting it even more then in the recent past. 

I now have come to realize that the trees have something to do with human life on this Earth that is very..... unique. 

In ancient belief systems it seems that trees are very important and there's a lot of old paintings drawings and reliefs of trees and their roots into the ground as symbols that will revered by ancients. 

I think we should start looking at trees where we look at technology. Communication. if we have an intuition about something if something tells us to do something in prediction to avoid a mistake in later in the timeline that we're living in you feel there's wisdom or good advice coming perhaps it's trees? If trees and vegetation and plants communicate I think we should really look at this even beyond those old books like The Secret Life of Plants. As usual when dealing in the conspiracy theory community The view from the beginning of thinking about that would be probably The powers that be and those with with more resources than us already know the answers and seek to use it to their own advantage while making it so we lose access nature's power. 

The moon is also a source of comfort. The moon always was a source of comfort and that something up there was protecting us and that life will be okay. Those of us who were travelers who aren't exactly atheists but believe that the source of human comfort human life comes from nature itself The sun and the moon are very important. They're not symbols they're living things that we live underneath and are part of our lives. 

I feel since the Artemis mission in April  there's something wrong something has changed. I felt very depressed and I felt very let down and not connected to the skies the way that I used to be specifically the Moon. 

Human should pay attention to the message created here on earth before they start going out and messing with things they don't understand. Just because scientist understand how to build things llike rockets to go into space which is essentially the same thing as inventing a car to get around or an airplane to fly around the Earth is it necessarily mean they understand other things that might be important. If they don't understand those things on earth and don't take them to consideration they're not going to take things into consideration outside the Earth either. 

The issue of electromagnetic pollution is well as waste over cconsumption these other kinds of issues have to be solved before we responsible enough to go messing around in space. I understand how transhumanism would be important in trying to go out into space but that doesn't mean that you shouldn't consider the state of the human soul spirit etc and even how that ties into biology physiology and even anatomy. These things used to be common studies back in the old days the Renaissance man or the well-rounded person of science science progressed it became more important medicine and military were the focus and they kind of disregarded all this other stuff as quackery or put it under the heading of  'Occult'. 

I've noticed something in this life on this , the last thing the system seems to want you to do is to understand how much of a powerhouse you are in these bodies on this earth. And there does seem to be a concerted effort to make sure you reach your full potential or  your full size if you will.  

I posted a video last year or the year before when I was living in a nice suburb around breakheart reservation north of BBoston. There was a greater connection there to the trees into nature. And all woods are different by the way. Traveling around this country I feel that they're similar in many ways even maybe connected interconnected but each set of woods and has its own personality of course it all depends on the people buried underneath  and what that Flora has come into contact with to make it what it is over hundreds of years even thousands. Depends on who lives in the area what's around what kind of pollution is there etc. The weather there a whole bunch of different factors. Once you get out into the Southwest you get a little more at e because there's less human building and habitation going on and you can see things that set you free a little bit more and get you in with long-term timelines. When you go and see The water lines that that are on the huge stone structures in the desert and you realize it shows the progression of massive changes like that there used to be ocean here or water. You become a little more entwined with the finite and realize that you're part of something much bigger but you're not here that long and really everything is here provided for you while you're alive in this body. And life becomes more at ease. 

The video I just spoke about before I got distracted speaking about my beloved travels in the desert that I love to remember as I have not traveled there in 10 years, The video I spoke about wwas that compelled me to put it on this as I was very into air crash investigation as it's important to me to look at something and see people doing actual real investigations where they cannot lie and they cannot twist around the truth make excuses as they have done with a lot of things we've seen especially with the TI community. The approach to our situation has been so unscientific it's ridiculous. And the recent vilification writing everyone off as mentally ill without any kind of investigation at all or consideration is totally ridiculous. And by the way it was not always like this they would not be able to do this to us years ago because academia was not compromised by things like Epstein and all the blackmail going on and by the way if you did not know this I will let you know that the Russian organized crime organizations actually infiltrated our country in the late '90s or so and I won't tell you how I know that but an old friend of mine who's long said that unfortunately they're nice little business had been interfered with by the Russian Mafia coming in and demanding a piece of their action. And after that everything changed you can see it even in the cities things changed. Imagine you have a bunch of out KGB people with no government That's going to be pretty dangerous if they get involved in crime. There's actually a video a documentary out there that tell us how international criminals can now easily buy nuclear submarines from defunct governments like the USSR. So all of this tearing down the wall of East Germany and the USSR that you've seen it's not necessarily a good thing because these governments become destabilized and all it does is contribute to international organized crime which probably was the purpose by design. 

Anyway that aside now you have an understanding of how easy it is nowadays with surveillance and who's out there now to get blackmailed and then everyone is under control right? And we've seen academia be controlled just by a bunch of stupid kids who don't like somebody and get somebody canceled years ago even with workplace mobbing their own academic peers couldn't even get them fired if they had tenure. 

So years ago we were more protected and we were more tolerated because people in academia and old money and wealthy people knew that this is the way the world works and it is very feasible. But now everyone has to turn on us probably because everybody has skeletons in their closet just like everybody eelse. And the more rich you are and the more you have a degree and the more respectable you are the more important it is to make sure nobody knows those skeletons are there. 

I posted a video because I was interested in airplane crashes. There's something paranormal about it. What they call holes in the swiss cheese when they do an investigation The different factors that make it so the plane crashes whereas maybe if one or two things were absent the plane crash would not have happened. 

All these factors have to be involved in all these incidents. Well what makes it so One plane crashes and another doesn't? Just like I wondered about death what makes it so one person survives right next to the other guy that dies? One such example is a gentleman from Massachusetts who was driving a truck in New York City and as he was driving something happened underground and one of the manhole covers in the street became airborne with great force went right through his windshield and lodged deeply directly into his skull vertically. Now what are the goddamn chances of that happening seriously? Why him why on that day? 

I've even looked at the victims of serial killers and stuff like that and I wonder maybe if there was something faded about their deaths even the people that were in these airline crashes like the pilots. Did someone want to get rid of them is there a reason that the universe had to get rid of them for the timeline to continue in a certain way? 

Even traffic accidents. Why do you things happen a certain way at a certain time? Is there a formula or algorithm to death iitself? 

Of course that's something you should think about and then get away from and because I don't have a math degree I actually have a math disability it's probably for the best. 

In the video that I posted it showed a man from India filming on his cell phone on an airplane and that video was the last moments before the plane set on fire and crashed but the video actually continues after the crash. Once the plane crashes and the fire ddisappears The video clearly shows Flora and trees in the area where they crashed and there's an eerie dead silence but there's something in the background that you can hear not with your ears but with your super hearing or something like that. Something like the trees and the flora being disturbed by a sudden event such as an airplane crashing and fire and humans dying. 

At the time the video of the death itself was what was compelling because you actually get to see it but now moving further in my evolution I can see that my focus was more on the trees and the flora in the background. That's what attracted me to the video more so. The contrast of what was living opposed to what had died also that there's communication bbetween plants that goes on even after we die. And even while we are alive and this is something we need to start considering very seriously. 

Until we start considering things like this and taking over consumption waste and pollution very seriously and stop messing around with pseudo movements and complete idiots like GGreta and all these diversions and politics and social media and sensational culture we have no business going out into space. I've seen interviews with scientists they're asked about the pollution that something that they're working on causes. And it's the typical reaction of people in a position where they can afford to be wasteful. It's not the reaction of someone who takes pollution seriously and is responsible. The reaction of the scientist and the interview that I saw was he rolled his eyes and I had a childish boyish grin and everyone kind of laughed it off that this thing he was working on was left in the ocean and it should be taken out cuz it's going to cause permanent pollution. He just reacted like rich people react to things like this he didn't react like a responsible scientist. 

So you have to realize humans are human before their scientists that might make sense and be llogical first and foremost. 

I live a chaotic life and my personal life has become something that takes me away from my work and I wish I had the ability to take all these things that I've seen and all these references and find them for you. Years ago if you look things up on Google you could do that you could find something that you lost that you were thinking of that you saw now everything is geared towards buying things and everything's flooded with bullshit so it's hard to do research to find references. 

To be fair about technology I hated the idea of AI answering my searches but now I found it useful extremely useful but only in a utilitarian way. It has its limitations because it only answers things within the framework of what is socially acceptable. But for day-to-day stuff it does mmake things more easy to get day-to-day things done that are hard to deal with that get in my way faster I can get day-to-day dumb stuff done the more I can get on to the more involved stuff. I am amazed at how AI answers questions about cooking and that you can ask it a full sentence now and it will answer you. 

The downfall is people my mother's generation who tend to be lonely because of divorce rates and mistrust of the system when they were yyounger they're starting to get into things like Gemini a little too much. I don't know what Gemini is My phone keeps getting me to try to use it and I keep dismissing it it sounds like it's probably just another beefed up version of Alexa or something. I think it bothers Gen x for us to talk to something that we know is dos. You have to remember the world is frustrating for us because we remember all this stuff and its creation and we don't have a lot of time for bells and whistles and all the pretty colors because we just want to get to to the basics because we know that technology is supposed to be a tool. Like our grandparents from world war II down in their workbenches in the basement all their tools You're supposed to pick something up use a tool and put it back neatly and in order to wear it belongs. You're not supposed to carry it around with you all the time and live in it like it's another goddamn dimension like the damn phones nowadays and I feel bad for these kids where they've been forced to be born into the phone. I didn't miss word that you know I'm articulate literally I mean that they were born into the phone. The world that is on the internet on that phone. They believe that it's actually another dimension and they live in it. I don't know if there's any way to correct that but I think it should be corrected with the next few generations. 

I know that we're a species that knows that we're going to die soon we have the curse of knowing what's going to happen to our planet and we also know as animals not humans The God spark and the brains we know as dumb animals that were killing ourselves and polluting ourselves to death and that we shouldn't be doing it but it's hhappening. We are a species in panic but we act like we're not every day 

And we need to get right with what we really are who we really are and where we live on this planet and in space and if we can do that we can make peace with all this and then maybe we can go out into space in a way that's actually productive and not just screaming and yelling as you're drowning in the sea not expecting to be rescued but fighting for your life because that's human instinct. 

Speaking of the Russians they have a very sensible and wonderful saying which is "Hope is the last thing to go'

 Instead of americanizing Russia what we should be doing is taking advantage of all of their knowledge and all of their culture and all of their wisdom. I have the advantage of being Eastern European in part so therefore I'm more comfortable with this or maybe I understand it a little bbetter.  I didn't say I like their system of governance in the last couple of hundred years I didn't say I like their culture now but there's an ancient wisdom to be tied into that we're going to miss out on. 

My personal conspiracy theory with the East is that we've always been threatened by them especially the powers that be the keep us controlled with long-term systems of control like the church which if you didn't realize is the real reason you think white people are sick. White were pagans like everybody eelse thousands of years ago. It took almost 2,000 years to make us slaves and some of us luckily are not. In order to not have that long-term source of control of the people interfered with I believe that the powers that be had to beat down the Oriental cultures in the east and had to make sure there was no fusion between our cultures I believe they allowed African Americans to have white people get their groove back and for them to help us do that with their music and culture only to the point that they could use it as a weapon what you create things like AIDS and then The cultural fusion that would have saved everyone was stopped and has now been turned into polarization and a racial Cold war. 

And forget Africa itself they would rather you look at African American culture than African culture any day because African culture would actually be really useful in a fusion like a spice in a recipe or an ingredient. 

I believe that there was a huge tthreatwith the meeting of cultures between Russia and the West. 

The term cultural survival should not just apply to people of color it should apply to all peoples. Because remember Europeans were some of the first people enslaved and had their freedom and their religion taken away from them. It iisn't unusual that they would spread that misery around for hundreds of years. 

That is another blog post I can provide you with examples of how Early Europeans that were not ruled by the church in fact it had not been invented yet roamed around even in the Americas and got along fine with native peoples because at that time they were more similar in culture. 

I've also heard horrible things about how this space exploration is nothing more than the militarization of space like that's what we need more militarization. 

If you haven't noticed we already live in a culture now in America that's basically a soft core military dictatorship through cculture an ideology and identity politics. 

Let's fix the misery here before we bring everything out into space. Because just like the Tower of Babel in the Bible you won't be able to reach God up in the skies because you're not building it rright. perhaps you should start thinking interdimensionally instead of mechanically. and the portals to those dimensions begin with facts and wisdom about science nature being fused with technology. 

I'll miss the moon giving me comfort. I'll just now have to depend on the open ssky. Hopefully they can't take that away.