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Friday, September 18, 2009

a TIs clothing/ do abusive men have special pheromones that give them an edge as predators?

There is much involved in organized stalking and harassment that only TIs can relate to its so complex. Its best just tell the rest of the world that its a sophisticated psychological warfare system and its about stalking and harassment.

If those of us with really horrible experiences told the world about human experimentation as well as poisoning and gassing it would really be 'unbelievable' for them.

I have no scientific or medical experience but it occurs to me certain things about being targeted that just make sense. 
For instance being targeted is like being hunted. Due to fear and the actions of the gang stalkers a TI, I am sure, goes through biochemical changes as well as adrenal etc. You can feel it.

I think that this is all known by the perps and the system. Its probably an ancient system improved on now with tech as well as improvements in chemicals.

I have experienced that clothing in my case has an effect on my health as well as being targeted.
If I wear the same things too long I can feel something on the clothing that is detrimental to my well being especially depending on where I travel.
It could either be pheromones or something that humans excrete off thier skin. It could also be pollutants from wherever I am traveling.  I  speculated at one time maybe it could be somehow related to the tech but I know so little of how the different parts of that work.

There is something that remains on clothing and its not good.

I know from experience that pheromones play a part in how an abuser keeps hold of a female.  I personally could not get away from one real idiot I dated who was in on this and sent to get info out of me for a fed investigation going on around friends of friends..he served some sort of purpose like that becuz the cops of the same precinct I think sent someone similar another time years later upon my return but it didnt magic tricks all of these tactics, once they are revealed, become useless as the victim now knows how the trick is done.  This moron was the text book abuser and I was vulnerable. Anyway, he was controlling  but what made him effective? My situation, my conditioning and programming, his tactics and technique- all true. But there was something else. The way he smelled. It was like a sedative at times. I would think of getting away from him and would end up getting near him or leaning on him and the very thought of leaving would subside.

I had an idea for a comical but still effective to invent called ' ManAway'. A woman could spray it on the abusive male or in an area and his pheromones would no longer be effective. Like the Simpsons episode where Lisa has the anti bully spray (which turns out to be salad dressing to mask the nerds smell that angers bullies so much). 

I borrowed a friends leather once and felt better after just sleeping in it.  I read an article that claims that pheromones stay in leather especially and that females can actually have brain cell growth from the pheromones of a dominant male.

The effects of the chemicals that a TI puts off thier bodies has to be looked at.
My friends all think I am some sort of clean freak but I know what works for me for my level of health, age and my being targeted.  Some people I am meeting in certain circles seem to like dirt and being dirty as part of thier way of life. They claim thier clothes feel better on them.  I have gone without showering for a few days and it just makes me depressed.
A TI is not a healthy person by the time many years of this have occured.  TI's often stay alive due to sheer Will power and a natural reserve of energy...most likely thier vital life energy. People like me look eerily young into thier older years..I wont get into why this is becuz I am not really sure.  But if you target someone like me you can see from photos that aging becomes evident and accelerates. Why? Becuz we are no longer relaxed or healthy. We are not longer saving that reserve for old age.
Its like Gattica...saving nothing for the swim back is how you achieved what was supposed to be impossible.
TBMC survivors often have alters or fronts that can appear calm when all else is true under the surface.  The gang stalking makes extra stress on someone who is already handling a heavy stress load from internal issues.

I think the point in trying to destroy survivors is to overload thier systems.

So just a curiosity and another lead. I dont have enough knowledge about the subject and I cant do research right now. If you as a TI notice that your clothing is affected by wearing it after a few months then its an important part of your preserving your health.  You may be housed and its not an issue as you dont travel alot..however it could be from coming off a TIs skin itself like pheromones or other things excreted, and that makes me wonder what one would be excreting when one is under stress and being hunted or has lost alot of vitality due to being targeted.

Thats the best I can explain it as far as being a TI. As far as being a victim of domestic violence I would suggest taking note that it might be for that reason that its hard to get away from certain men.


  1. Long term stress shrinks your hippocampus, which has the effect of reducing your ability to learn. You also crave sugary and starchy foods when you're stressed, and maybe that helped when people were living in caves, but it's really bad news for your body over years of gang stalking.


  2. Could that explain why perps are so compliant with the system? Because they have been kept stressed by their handlers, the consequence of which they are more compliant to the system because they haven't "learned" a "way out".

  3. Do you find that polyester garments (and sheets) trap (or attract?) more of whatever it is?

    That would suggest something about the chemistry of whatever, quite what, Medawar isn't yet sure.

  4. Thank you for sharing this blog with us. Just messaged you on YouTube about correspondance and you referred me to this blog. Often thought about the physiological pheromonal changes coming from being a TI. You're the first person I know of bringing it up. It's true. I think we've all had confrontations with people before in which we "lost" and afterwards you reek of something, not fear, rather something off putting. If gangstalking was about power, domination, and control then perhaps the perps are addicted to the "lift" they experience, like kids and video games, something like that. obviously they don't give a shit about u. People can pick up on the long term stress i've been under that's for sure be it the smell I give off or just a vibe. I think the good news is this, to an extent we can lessen these effects by changing our perception on the direness of our situation. Your body responds to ur interpretations. Hopefully i can do this without burying my head in the sand and still be able to document these experiences. Looking forward to more great posts from you.

  5. I think that the use of pheromones was described in the Stasiland book about East German Stasi practices. If you are younger than forty or fifty of course you are more vulnerable to this dirty tactic. I've read that artificial pheromones may have been used as well ... In some ways I am happy that I am older now ...

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