A Lifetime of Suffering Is The Norm For A Targeted Survivor of Programming

As usual I am stuck with someone who I cannot trust, who knows about gs but wants to avoid the seriousness of it. i am in a restaurant trying to stay up all night at , becuz no good to try to sleep here due to snakes ans other critters. I feel like this new person I am with is getting off on this as we just argued. he has been abusive by droppi g inappropriate commnts in public. only done it three times but its sniper delivery when he does do it, after hes cuddly and lo able all day and telling me i am loved and all this sort.of thing. It reminds me of when this first went twenty four/seven. these rich jerks in Newton were messing with me by getting me to pose for portraits but under very hot lights. i would sit there and struggle to stay awake becuz the lights were so hot. it wasnt real artists, it was these three people in a private office, belonging to the man who set up the gigs. he told me his two female friends found me to be a novelty becus i was so poor or from poverty. This reminds me of the same thing, only years later. In other words, here I am years later, being abused, exploited and not in control of my situation- and its due to the gs system putting me at such a disadvantage that i have little co trol over my situation, and have only to act out of survival and desperation.

How The GS Psych Warfare System Destroys TIs Future Growth

One of the psychological warfare tactics is to always make the TI feel bad. Especially survivors of mind control are kept isolated as TIs by perps making fun of every aspect of the enslavement that was necessary to create and perpetuate mind control.

Commenting that I am 'so sheltered' has always been a frequent one and working on that theme.

This of course is humiliating the TI with a condition of living originally created by the system to begin with.

It hasnt occured in some time but the memory is in there, and is triggered by my actions now. Such as trying out different radio stations internationally on an app. Shocked at how American culture saturates so much of it. Then I become self critical and self censoring, as this experience is then linked to that past perception by perps, instead of my experiencing this as discovery, expanding-learning something new.

The perps destroy a TI over time by stopping any positive future growth in this way. It takes alot of Will and some anchoring to Spirit to keep anything positive at all.

You're basically being brainwashed to hate your own Self for the rest of your life...conditioned to do so.