breaking a TI w/ public opinion

In the 1990's alot of the gang stalking activity was kept to a minumum becuz I was serving a purpose. But there was always some harassment, stalking and attempted entrapment into jail or institution, by seemingly random people. Always around me were the hounds...they never stop trying to get you jailed, killed, put away as a loony. In 1995 you could tell the police were on my ass. But that was the only new occurence. I moved and then in 1996 this new and more overt form of harassment came about....the note taking , people parking outside the house. Flashes from cameras were coming out of cars in alot of public places.

When I finally started to wake up in 2002 and really take action over the following months and years to better myself and try to find out who I was and get a plan for my lie that would work..self-reprogramming really, the gang stalking became 24/7. People sold me out, turmed on me, slandered me, you name it. There was something else going on around me and this investigation was used as a way to try to get rid of me before I woke up fully, asked questions or had memories that were embarassing. It seemed everywhere was infiltrated and I had no one. My ex was used to keep me docile..to string me along. It was so f*cking sinister.

Now my life consists of either commit suicide or go quietly. These are the two choices I am given every day. I fight daily against being targeted in beleiveable ways and unbeleivable ones. The far out stuff is the most damaging. How can I describe to you the damage done daily by what could be from a professional pscychic or tech or both? Who is going to beleive that?
I am one of the more fortunate TI's; I have a pretty good idea of why I am targeted.

The life I am left with is not acceptable to me. For me to just go away is so...predictable. Its just the most boring overdone storyline and common ending when it comes to women like me. We are much more than the labels attached to us..one must realize these are OTHER PEOPLE'S IDENTITY CHOICES. Its all perception management end of story. Its good PR for the other sides and bad for me. Its a bunch of cheap ads that sold and thats all.
And no one seems to like a woman put into this position who won't accept her circumstances and worse- wont accept thier labels. And wont just 'go away'.

You have to understand that everything that this country hates and still accepts as OK TO HATE ON is going to be used against a targeted individual. If you hate on certain kinds of people in the country its not considered a hate crime nor an abuse of human rights. People dont see this becuz they 'sell' these angles on a subliminal gut level, so that people just react and dont think.
Then if you say..'hey wait that isnt the way it is at all' becuz the puclic doesnt want to change the things they can hate on they actaully beleive that the TI is trying to get out of trouble or that they are begging for the public to forgive, understand, accept them.

For anyone else who is programmed -this is a joke. We could care less about what people outside the internal system think. They dont know a thing about tbmc survivors..why would we trust thier opinions or care what they think of a situation? But you should be aware always of what is going on outside. There are where your enemies are and they are on many different levels. Within the survivor scene and gs system there are people who know all about survivors and want to exploit us. In the ignorant public there is..god knows what but they seem bored, angry, disatisfied and petty and they hide who they really are. That they would attack a person just becuz it was consequence free or some of The Herd have broken off to join The Pack.

All this amounts to is the old slave master's trick of 'I'll show you' when the slave wants freedom or somehow gets it. People know the slave knew nothing of the outside world, so they would throw him into it without any preperation and delight in watching him sink and drown. This is what people do when they can no longer control someone. People trying to escape oppression often have to deal with a public that has been 'taught' to hate a TI for generalized reasons.

http://cghs.dade.k12.fl.us/slavery/antebellum_slavery/punishment.htm
This is a pretty accurate list of the way I was always treated, and it got worse since the gangstalking perps have had me in thier clutches. I am told to smile it could be worse, or that in order to survive this I should be 'nice'. This is all pretty accurate to what happens to those of us who want to grow up and evlolve, to get our own lives.

The parellels between actual recorded slavery and covert slavery is amazing. People cannot beleive that we are kept down by covert methods and it is actual slavery of human beings in this day and age.
What bothers me most is that our society loves pimps. All prostitutes are called hookers and everyone thinks they have these men telling then whats what. And those perceptions only change as the pricetag for the females services change.
The fact the society hides this world and population from exposure in a realistic light and hates on sex workers regularly shows there is something hidden underneath. Kinds like the serial killer who doesnt want attention brought to a certain patch of garden in the yard.

What is underneath is that this overt world of sexual slavery that the public is aware of is a doorway that leads into other worlds of exploitation. This is why this portal must be hidden from public view and the views of what goes on in this business must be skewed.

These perceptions are a sort of OK from the public towards enslavement of people.
The public cannot at the same time accept the presence of the sex industry and mind its own business. Yet they refuse to help sex workers only hurt them with blind, baseless moral juedgements. This tells me the pucblic is quite in agreement with human slavery. It is the same as harassing a girl who runs away from a messed up household and the neighbors can only ignore her claims and scorn her for her personal actions of acting out. The messed up family remains. The neighborhood sides with the abusers and this is common.

This is why targets who are tbmc survivors need to ignore public opinions. Alot of the public do not even know what is really going on-that there are layers of activity and deception. The pros will make sure they only know what serves them managing public perceptions.

Just stay with the truth.
And make sure you do not let public pressure crush your internal systems becuz that is one of the goals of the perps. It is one of the tactics which will be used to make sure you are socialized by force..but it will not be the real you that is presented to the public. It is a figure that is manageable to the people who want you controlled. From there hopefully you will accept this false self and get on with your new life of slavery; As a public figure of shame and hatred, of mocking and rejection. The public of course will demand you show them how good you can be and this validates what was done to you becuz if you are willing to do it thier way you must be guilty. The perps know if they isolate and abuse you long enough that you are human and you probably will give in to any conditions to be accepted.
DO NOT GO FOR THIS.
You had or have a right to form yourself as a human being of your own choosing. Do not pay attention to a really warped storyline that is totally set up to favor whoever the system has still deemed usable.
Alot of TI's are being treated like countries that were invaded and destroyed under false pretenses. You will be rebuilt and always connected to the invaders systems of judgement..of course this is really to ensure you dont tell the truth about what really happened. Acts of war in the world are often the same on individuals, scaled down.

Part of the reason the public doesnt see is that mind control is done on the public regularly through subliminal advertising and such.
My deprogramming from society's deceptions happened back in 1996 or so. Without that I doubt if I would have figured my own deprogramming out.

It is so important that you stay focused and with the Truth. You have something to give or something to say or write or do here. There is something of value under the programming. This is what the reprogramming attempts are for.. you become so brainwashed by The Public and thier collective bs, and the perps who use them and the direct gang stalking that you become a traumatized robot. Its not your business to become a traumatized robot. Its your job to find out what it is you are here for and do it.
The very fact that TI's are kept down has to make people wonder what everyone is afraid of.

The public is used becuz there are so many of them who have different motives for targeting us. And those that dont know what is happening can be drawn in to target us without knowing what is going on.
Yes, I know I have said some of this before. I say it becuz prior info becomes more clear as how it fits in with time. And I need to come back sometimes.
I never realized those shelters are such a purposeful environment. Going there is not really a good place for a TI to be. Its full of other targets which would be great if everyone wasnt afraid to speak..becuz when you do there are people who will listen, just like perps do to a TI out in public. Its really f*cked.

Its such a brainwashing environment, once you realize it could be better for homeless people who arent mentally ill or smoking crack. Then again we are the population that shouldnt even be in shelters which is why it sucks for us.

WHO 4 PREZ?

I am very confused about who to vote for.
There is so much I do not know about my own situation. Who is to blame, who exactly is involved. All I know is that all my life there has been this ongoing situation with what seems stalking and harassment by a very covert group of people who are psycho's, very mean and know alot about a person.
I study each candidate. Nader seems the only one who is against torture and the stuff we go through, but what power does he have? According to him he's been iced out since Clinton. He says he is running becuz of that. Actually he is trying to show that voices of criticism are being ignored now and that is what alot of us are facing. Its like there is this big tank just running over everything and alot of people are in its way..it will crush them. They will become part of the soil and we will cover it with concrete.
I see this in every city I have been to. In the homeless problem let loose on communities so they get annoyed and basically want these people to go to the gas chambers. With how many purposeful idiots there are in this population, I can see why. Buts its a mind game with the public. Places are being gentrified and in a way TI's are being gentrified. Personality reformatting to conformity is the gentrification of a person.
And the archetecture of that person is going to be just a hellishly drab as the crap lines and angles they use on yuppie dizneylands we see taking over every part of everywhere.
Even people who dont know about art will say "I dont like something about the way those new buildings look". You can tell everything you need to know about what a civilization is about past present future by the structures they build.
Souless archetecture is going to be a souless world.

To vote for Nader would be at least voting for what I beleive in.
But Obama...I like what he is supposed to be promising. I think everyone does. But the dark side is too much and I wonder where that will lead.
The connections to Kenya, Muslims, his not pledging allegance even ONCE was too much for me. There are some parts of my beleifs that are conservative and that is one of them. If you dont like your country then go do somethign about it. Flag burning might have been appropriate in the '60s. It may be appropriate for TI's now or protesters to put the flag upside down as a sign of living under duress. But the whole black agenda is not my favorite idea to vote for.
And he has some people who just are anti white and thats it. And I cant vote for him.
His comment about white women having racist fears of aggressive black men, I dont have racist fears..I got experience! They are agressive (duh). I dont need some egghead who has found a way to make logic of racial tensions to invalidate anything about women. Forget it. Just becuz the white rich have screwed us doesnt mean that the blacks will do right by poor whites, especially females.
However, he is the one who is looking to fix the CIA and I have read most likely that all actions under Bush will be reviewed. But I also read he wants more spies out there, the kind we call perps who give us a hard time the most -the union types, the blue collar types.
Mcain hates the CIA. good. He is military and I have seen him asking Cheney why he cant answer a simple question about Guantanimo and torture orders. But then what of the military who alot of TI's think are the ones testing weapons on people.
Lets say if you vote for him its an extension of Bush. I just know.

No one is coming out and saying 'We will make the targeting stop' . Or for those of us who are really being destroyed by covert actions that lead to stuff that is never going to be admitted to like trauma based mind control- who is going to stop the pervert Network that alot of TI's are aware is behind all this as well?
I just dont trust that Obama is for me as a citizen. And since alot of my perps have been the black community I am none too pleased. Also the black community in Boston seems especially threatened and pissy becuz I havent gone and blown my head off or been jailed yet. They are arrogant spoilt brats in alot of ways and white people are naive about the black community. Alot of the shelter idiots think Obama is going to make this Devils paradise where they can be as ghetto and destructive as they want. He seems to be more for progressives.
Yet, I have been supported by some of the black community. Some people will just look at me and say Hi in a way that tells me they think its so great I got the bad guys away from me.
Obama...I just wish I had a crystal ball. Maybe it will be better. Nader is what I beleive for sure.
I guess TI's are people who have to really care about who is in office and I did not realize that until Bush came in and my whole world got ransacked. I read that Bush Jr is not liked by the CIA the same as Bush Sr.
I know so little about politics but yet I know what is underneath of the whole system.
What is underneath the whole system is the system that is always there which is the one that keeps TI's down.
There is only a few days left.

At least this time we wont be mind controlled into it...like when alot of people wanted to vote for Kerry and somehow couldnt. I have heard on the radio and read that people felt 'compelled' to vote Republican. I felt..unaturally compelled so chose to not vote at all.
I am not the only one who noted this as I stated above.

Its too late now, mind control via tech is pretty much out there now and I dont think its going to go away...they really beleive that a new world order is the answer. That peace is good using remote influence. If it is good then why does it feel bad? Why does it feel bad when an ad on TV for some medical research eerrily makes allusions to the world of the future being a very different place or not like it is today-? But its not a good statement...not when you know what TI's know.
Really what this election is asking me is to sacrifice my personal beleifs (Nader) to go for the best for everyone even though I might get left out (Obama).
I have thought Mcain...just to be a chaos monger. You know, bring on the disaster. They deserve it. Let them ruin the world and prolong the war. Just to punish everone who has been horrible to me I guess.
Like neither one is a good chioce.
This election is so...insane. I mean Obama is jsut too much and McCain is too crazy. Its like someone is mocking the whole thing with how insane they can make it.

I want privacy, health, art in my life and a cheap yet not elaborate place to live and not have to have a computer or cell. This return to sanity and normalcy is considered 'old school'.

That is becuz really the technocrats are here to stay. Man will become fused with machine and people will go to cure the 3rd world but forget about Targets. They will not clean up corruption. We are left out I am afraid. Sure they'll fix the whole third world but I will never have a life.
This is part of the torture for TI's. To watch the world change and go by while we are held in suspension.
I need to rest..I am writing carelessly and not as good as I would like. I have not had a good rest for days. I will tomaorrow.