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2026 UPDATE ON VIDEOS:
PLEASE BE AWARE THAT AS OF 2026 I HAVE TAKEN DOWN ALL VIDEOS THAT SHOW MY FACE. THIS IS DUE TO ADVANCING TECHNOLOGIES IN OUR WORLD BUT IT IS ALSO DUE TO MY GROWING RESPONSIBILITY TO AGING RELATIVES AND MY DESIRE TO PRODUCE MEANINGFUL WORK THAT WILL SECURE MY FUTURE FOR THEM AND MYSELF. KEEP IN MIND THAT THIS BLOG WAS STARTED IN A DIFFERENT ERA WHERE BEING A CONSPIRACY THEORIST WAS SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE. For many years there were a few attempts to discredit the targeted individual community, such as infrequent, lone articles published by unsavory newspapers. However this was always met with resistance as well as a continued desire from many powerful factions such as academia to keep our community in a gray area. This is most likely due to the fact that back in those days academia had not been infiltrated or influenced by things like students being indoctrinated and then being used as armies against adults and institutions as well as other sordid things like the Jeffrey Epstein scandal. Educated and powerful people knew damn well that this situation is completely feasible. That level of society understood that we are victims of torture especially being aware of the exact nature of abuse of power opposed to the general public's vague impressions that they barely sense that they're being oppressed by in their daily lives anyway. Especially if it's connected to human experimentation or the theory that MK ultra is being continued under private contractors all these years academia and the powerful of all people would understand the levity of the situation. PEOPLE COULD NOT BE CANCELED AND DISSIDENT VOICES COULD NOT BE SILENCED SO EASILY. SOMEONE EXPRESSING A VERY ALTERNATIVE OPINION WOULD NOT IMMEDIATELY BE A POTENTIAL THREAT OR A DANGER TO OTHERS DUE TO CONTENT. SINCE THIS BLOG WAS STARTED, CONSPIRACY THEORY CULTURE HAS BEEN VILLANIZED AND WORSE CO-OPTED (EVEN THOUGH IT SEEMS THAT THE LEFT AND THE RIGHT POLITICAL PARTIES BELIEVE NOTHING BUT CONSPIRACY THEORIES AND THERE'S NO COMMON SENSE OR REAL POLITICS GOING ON). THERE'S SO MUCH CONSPIRACY THEORY GOING ON WITHIN POLITICS THE PROBLEM IS IS THAT ANYBODY THAT'S A REAL CONSPIRACY THEORIST THAT'S LOOKING FOR REAL ANSWERS OR THE TRUTH IS NOW BEING LABELED A PROBLEM BECAUSE SOMEHOW CONSPIRACY THEORIES ARE ONLY SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE AS LONG AS THEY FIT IN WITH...POLITICAL POLARIZATION?
 IT'S JUST A DANGEROUS TIME. I WILL ALWAYS PRODUCE WORK ON THIS BLOG UNTIL I AM INCAPABLE OF DOING SO OR UNTIL MY BOOK IS WRITTEN.  SINCE I WAS FRAMED IN 2016 IT TOTALLY OBLITERATED MY AUDIENCE BASE. I HAVE TO WORK REALLY HARD TO GET THIS THING BACK. MY PERSONAL LIFE HAS BEEN INTERFERING FOR THE PAST 10 YEARS AND THAT IS ENDING NOW.. HOPEFULLY I CAN MAKE THIS BLOG WHAT I ORIGINALLY INTENDED IT TO BE AS WELL AS I CAN FINALLY COMPLETE WHAT I STARTED DECADES AGO AS A WOMAN IN MY THIRTIES. NOW IN MY '50S I WOULD LIKE TO COMPLETE THIS AND MOVE ON. 
 
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Please be advised that this written work is theory. For legal reasons I state that I have no actual belief in these theories as fact, if I did I would have sought legal recourse. Until that occurs, this blog can only be considered theory. In future if legal recourse is made available then any and all actions PAST AND FUTURE that have been taken against me during the years producing this work will be labeled criminal action.
I am a writer, an activist and artist. I claim my RIGHT TO EXIST legally under US Constitution and international law.

This is an educational blog for awareness as well as sometimes a telling of candid personal experiences to demonstrate theories as they might be experienced by a person who theoretically is existing under such conditions.
Any actions taken against me by others questioning my competence based on this produced work even those allegedly working for me or on any legal cases on my behalf will be sued or charged with activist/dissident intimidation and/or whistle blower retaliation and proper legal action will be taken against you by myself, family and support system. 

Be warned that no further interference with my production of meaningful work as an artist and activist will be tolerated.

Friday, April 15, 2011

An Article That Adds To My Case As A Second Generation Human Experimentee

http://my.firedoglake.com/valtin/2011/01/05/torture-linked-shrinks-army-program-labels-some-soldiers-spiritually-unfit/ http://morallowground.com/tag/dr-martin-seligman-learned-helplessness/ I posted a piece on this Dr and reasearcher- about the Learned Helplessness with dogs. And how it resembles my situation as a Targeted Individual so precisely that it really does add to my case, and the fact that this person was involved in the CIA/military human experimentation MK Ultra type breaking people down using torture and psychology. It fits too well. Now I learn that this researcher and friends have pinpointed 'spritual fitness' or strength as the key way to beat learned helplessness with optimism. If you recall the point of the experiment with dogs was to attach them to electric shockers in a box I believe and most of them got depressed as they 'learned' to feel 'helpless' from not being able to control the unpredictability of the electric shocks. But one dog did not become depressed. And somehow got control of the situation I forget the whole thing. I will see if I can hunt down that post it was just a few months ago. So they are very interested in this special dog that does not succumb to depression or learning to be helpless. This resembles my gang stalking campaign so closely I knew that it was part of the experimentation. And this researcher being connected to the radiation/MK Ultra experimentation involving torture to break down a person, my mother having both parents in the Marines and being a documented human radiation experimentee from those infamous warcrimes- sealed the deal for me as far as it being obvious it was related to my situation. Now this. What the researchers have done is to find in HUMANS obviously what quality or condition makes a human subject of such experimentation (gang stalking being the unpredictable electric shock treatment and terror) not succumb to learning to be helpless or depression. This ties in perfectly with the rest of what has been happening to me over the years if not my whole life. Things I havent put into this blog due to it being sensitive information as well as part of my inner thoughts or memories so not really pertinent. I now understand why they were playing with religion so much. I thought it was just a way to try to get a Targeted mind control Survivor under some sort of control via more cult brainwashing. It seemed that either religion would do- Satanism and Christianity were pushed heavily and at different phases. Curiously it seems there were things about me they didnt know. I mean they came at me wearing satanic t-shirts and such (often looking new like they just opened it out of a bag before doing thier perp theatres, often with folds still in the shirt- duh.). Saying things like "wheres yer god now", kids saying real stupid shit randomly as they would encounter me. It was bizarre becuz due to my programming its one large portion of Rosicrucian content and a small portion of what seems military related Satanic resulting from SRA. None of it made sense...except that everything they seemed to come up with was strictly a reaction or formed out of surveillence from within my home or phone calls etc. I know I was looking out my window alot at that apartment I had, I think one day it was so glorius out so sunny, that I looked into the clouds and exclaimed it was like looking into the face of God. Hey, Im an artist here, on Monday the world may seem that way to me, but on Wednesday Id probably be looking out the window cursing humanity and wanting to pretend to pick off the assholes at the bar across the street who were messing with me. It seems that this is where they got thier content from for thier campaign. Its as if they knew a bit about me but what they needed to know further they would send those info hounds out to corner me and interrogate- on busses or other public spaces. Now of course all they have to do is read the blog to get info about me, which I believe was on purpose and pre planned. They knew I would have to do this to defend my life so it works out for them. Now they know deep things about me, my life, my programming and the way I think. Once they realized what the programming consisted of, they seemed to switch to pushing Christiantiy heavily and especially here in Boston area are still doing so. But it always seemed like the focus was mind control, not truly religion. They only threat was any form of belief system where MY WILL was in control and not The State or society..or the gang stalking brain washing system. I now understand this better. The experiments from MK Ultra may have been to break down programmed agents who wouldnt respond to normal torture for interrigation, but its seems that the opposite was being studied this time. Those of us who did not succumb to torture, stalking, harassment etc. What was our secret. This actually explains all the torture as well. Part of my programming has within it, as I mentioned this Templar sort of content. From the root of my infancy there was anchored in me, within that portion of my programming anyway, a sort of spiritual fitness if you will. Something to keep one focused on doing good for humanity. Its like being trained to be a K-9 where you assist and dont attack innocent stupid humans unless they are a true threat. Whatever the reason, it seems this quality is what they believe makes people not succumb to depression or learned helplessness from torture and imprisonment. I am sure this is what they were doing in GITMO as well, it would make sense.

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