I just want to clarify some things that I've heard whispers of or that I feel like is being deducted or there's a smear campaign out there with rumors and whispers.
I've always been dedicated to this blog and my situation is very complicated and I'm lucky enough to know why this may be happening to me in theory of course. I have a pretty clear picture which means someday I have to try for some sort of illegal resolution and of course writing books because the former probably won't work until I'm very old and then it's pointless to salvage whatever life I was going to have it's already too late I'm already 54 this system in our society this shadow system has already taken the best years of my life away from me and denied me a life so the only thing I can do is try to leave behind information for others as my life's work.
So it's time to clarify some things because it's not for me it's for my readers I don't want people to believe smear campaigns cuz it only interferes and what I'm trying to accomplish.
-I don't drink. There's been a lot of rumors and people especially in Boston or Cambridge for some reason working for the public transportation system don't know why that is I can guess but I won't get into it here we're walking by me and saying that I drink or making gestures like somebody drinking. In the suburbs here I think it's just assumed also I think it's assumed because of the company that I keep and where I live now. I don't drink what people might be saying is that I've had multiple concussions from car accidents and other things that have happened and I recently was told a couple of years ago I have post-concussion syndrome. And I recently got whiplash 2 years ago and the post concussion syndrome has not gone away and it comes and goes which means I need physical therapy and a neurologist to follow me now for the rest of my life because if your post concussion syndrome doesn't go away within a reasonable amount of time after the injury it's never going to go away. I've also lived in the Northeast for far too long and I live inside now which means unless I live in a really gorgeous Victorian that's been totally demolded and renovated in a nice upper middle neighborhood like Newton or Melrose or something I'm going to be mold sick it's not as bad as a hotel room cuz those things are deadly but I've been exposed to mold in hotel rooms and apartments just too much since 2016 when I was framed and my wings were clipped and I had to stay here so my health has suffered. Not only am I not traveling which kept me healthy and fit but I'm also not going to desert areas which dried out my mold exposure issues which began in the early 2000s when I was exposed to mold and it almost killed me and it made me sick and gave me permanent damage neurologically into my lungs into my eyes and my nose. Therefore from two reasons number one ongoing low-level mold exposure and number two neurological damage such as head injury which is what concussion is I often walk with an unsteady gait I trip over things I can't catch myself when I walk I used to fall a lot after the last injury and that's a purely neurological issue from post-concussion syndrome. Possibly it could also be from mold exposure because I know when I had my first mold exposure and I left town to save my life and move to Arizona very briefly in 2006 to dry out if you will I was very frightened of the way I was walking was with an unsteady gate and that means I couldn't walk straight because of the neurological damage from the moldy apartment in the early 2000s so I recognize these symptoms. So I walk unsteady and I walk funny and can't keep my balance because of neurological issues not because I'm drinking.
I've been in recovery since 1996 approximately. I quit opiates and that was a huge problem it was a huge problem for a lot of us in the 1990s which is annoying that it's a huge problem now because it should have been dealt with in society already and at this age you realize that it's all on purpose it's by design and they could stop it if they wanted to but they're not going to it serves as suppression of certain demographics social control and well black market economics people make money off of it. So drugs are not going anywhere. I did have a relapse in the late 90s which is normal for early recovery, somewhere around 98 or 99 due to fraternizing with the wrong partner who was still living a lifestyle of nightclubs etc and after a few drinks and relapses on some things that were not my main addiction I realize that my health at that age couldn't stand up to even having a couple drinks and I also realize it just didn't do anything for me anymore so I just put everything down and moved away to the Southwest when I came back basically by recovery started again. So when people ask me what my recovery date is I would have to think about it and I would say if I went to 12 step meetings in those meetings it would be the late 90s like 98. But I tell people I've been in recovery over 30 years because to me the main problem was solved in 96 and I even quit smoking I believe at that time maybe a year or two afterwards so all of the heavy duty stuff and all of the behaviors that were connected to addiction were pretty much gone. And by the way early recovery is not a year you're kidding yourself if you think it's a year early recovery is 3 years. And you don't have a good stable base of recovery until about 5 years. After 5 years pretty much are going to be safe if you keep doing what you're supposed to be doing which is going to the meetings or whatever you find works. If you relapse you just have to get up and start all over again. so non addicts aggravate the hell out of me and everybody else when they sit there and whine and say isn't early recovery one year or oh my brother is in early recovery and he should have gotten it by now and the person's only been clean like a year people are very fucking stupid when whatever the condition is doesn't affect them. Being nasty to somebody who's trying to get into recovery and taking it seriously and going to the meetings and saying that they didn't get it right in the first 3 years or 5 years or year it's like telling a cancer patient that they're a complete asshole for not going to remission in the beginning of their chemo treatment. Very few people that are genuinely addicts are going to get clean in the first year it's kind of like homelessness yeah there's people that are temporarily homeless and houseless they go to the shelter they get into the program whatever it is they go to HUD whatever it is and they get the housing and they go back inside that is not somebody that's lived the lifestyle and been in the subculture of houselessness in the United States that's somebody that was experiencing homelessness as that ridiculous stupid phrase from the industry comes from.
The person who's genuinely been out there and been homeless and heartless and lived in the subculture for a long period of time regardless of what level or what demographic you are or were he's going to have a lot more difficulty acclimating to being inside there's actually biological physiological biochemical reasons why that person would now have a hard time being inside.
-I am not mentally ill.
Yes we all know that people that are mentally ill sometimes do not admit that they're mentally ill and not going to say they are. However regardless of what was attempted during the frame up with the emails if I had money for a lawyer and this state was not corrupt especially the small little city with all that money and power packed into a small area with all those lap dogs those judges and lawyers there's nothing but lap dogs for the system and the kangaroo Court that's there in a county that makes most of its money off of academia the military industrial complex and prisons and now big Pharma and biotech in the city I'm speaking about where the frame up mostly happened, if the power was equal like I had enough power to fight the corrupt power that was coming after me they would never have been any question about my sanity because the way that the frame up was attempted was absolutely ridiculous and nobody in the right mind would believe it. I have evidence to prove that everything that was done the way it was done was done illegally it was done incorrectly and so it's all no and void another words if I brought everything to a judge who wasn't corrupt because he's being blackmailed or whatever the hell it is in this damn State all the time and believe me there's way too many of them, I would be able to prove plainly that this was all done incorrectly and it's fabricated but because I'm poor and I have no money and because people see me living a certain way of course the bad guys take advantage of it and they smear me and people are going to listen to their brother's cousins Uncle who knows somebody in whatever authority or whatever it is and they listen to that person when that person's either number one compromise themselves or number two misinformed by somebody else higher up.
So if you want to believe this shit go right ahead there's no evidence of it. Again if I had a lot of money a lot more than the conditions I just discussed above I would need a lot more money to prove the entire conspiracy but if I had a million dollars or a billion dollars or save 500 million dollars would be safe maybe, maybe a little bit less but a lot more than a million dollars if I had a lot of money or backers with a lot of money I could prove the entire conspiracy and I could afford to bring forth all of the things that make it so that it's reasonable to assume that I would actually be a targeted individual. I know the words I can't say on this blog all the things that make it a lot more feasible that I would be targeted opposed to me being delusional that I am not really targeted.
I might put it into my book but I'm not going to put it on this blog and I'm not going to talk about it publicly. But believe me if everything was revealed the family I come from both sides of my family people used to associate with etc you would say to yourself why aren't I targeted opposed to why do I think I'm targeted. It's just easier for me to appear to be normal and nobody and I like my life as a traveler and alternative but believe me I would have chosen something else.
So if you want to assume that I'm delusional or crazy or imagining things then go ahead but that's why we have laws against people saying somebody's crazy and making it fact or even a doctor who has not assessed a patient saying that in their assessment the person is mentally ill because there was a presidential candidate decades ago who wanted to get the better of their opponent and they accuse the person's wife of being mentally ill using a doctor who was working for them and the person actually got sectioned the woman got put away just because a doctor who had not examined her said she was not so there's a law now that says that you can't assess somebody without actually seeing them first if you're a doctor and this is why people saying Donald Trump is mentally ill did not work because it's specifically designed to protect presidential candidates this law that I'm speaking about so Donald Trump I think had somebody examine him and the person went in front of the public and said that he's mentally fit I think. Believe me if we could have every world leader and candidate for world leadership tested for psychopathy sociopathy murderous fucking intentions sexual perversion and other things the world will be a better place but at this point that's not going to happen.
It's easy to say somebody's this or that or the other and it's easy to believe it and for some people it's fun that's why I don't pay attention to it because most people that are not key players in these games they don't matter. They're like zombies in that video game that you play they're just kind of in the way and you have to kind of get them out of your way while you go towards the actual Target on your mission but there's hundreds of them and they keep coming at you all the time so that's kind of what the general public are they're nothing but zombies in a video game they just served to kind of get in the way they're not really part of the objective the prime directive the mission they're just a pain in the ass while you get to where you're going I just ignore it and I kind of laugh at them because they really don't know what's going on if they did did they certainly wouldn't be irresponsible towards me the good guy but that's because the public are misdirected by bad guys who appear to be members of their community people they can trust the same old story. So you believe whatever you want because I don't really care because I'm just going to brush you off.
-I must be mentally ill because my father is mentally ill and recently committed a violent crime in this past year.
This really doesn't affect me and I could feel the heat when my dad who I haven't seen since I was one years old by the way when he committed a violent crime I knew people were going to see how I reacted and I knew that it was going to be trying to use it against me and I just ignored it because I don't really know the guy. My father is what you call an acid casualty. We used to see them around a lot in the 1980s and '90s and then they kind of fell away and you didn't see them much anymore because a lot of them died off or got old. But you'd see them around a lot back then and they had interesting stories and they were a little crazy and a little off and sometimes they be paranoid and just old crazy heads from the 1960s. Well the problem with these people is that they actually were suffering from brain damage from LSD which is actually a mold called ear got and it is synthesized mold and when it gets into your brain it can stay in the folds of your brain. One of the reasons that a lot of us survived a little better is because our parents told us horror stories about these LSD trips that people would take I mean they would not stop warning us and telling us about one guy my mother said when she was younger took LSD and he started seeing windmills you know those windmills in Holland those big windmills or the ones they use now for wind power he kept seeing razor blades attached to the pedals of the windmill and they were coming at his throat and he couldn't stop seeing it cuz he couldn't get out of the trip and he went into a mental institution and nobody knows what happened to him I never heard the end of the story probably they treated him but he's probably going to be damaged for the rest of his life. One woman I knew in recovery was my sponsor made a joke pretty much about the same condition which is that she knew a guy that took an acid trip and he thought he was an orange and then he went into a mental institution and he still thinks he's an orange I mean I don't know if that's the exact circumstances I think she was trying to make a joke very sarcastic dry humor joke but that's kind of what happened to people.
And my father's family may have some kind of imbalance or predisposition that makes them a little more susceptible to something going wrong if they do something like take too much acid but I distinctly remember my mother telling me that my father was tripping every single day when I was a little baby and it was the 1970s it was Cambridge Massachusetts MIT Harvard that's where either people were making this stuff or pushing it the two colleges respectively and people were feeding him acid and that's one of the reasons that she left he picked up my little baby chair I had a little baby rocking chair it's in photographs of me as a baby and he took it and threw it against the wall in a acid rage some kind of fit he was having and she just left to never went back then of course he got pissed off because she left and kind of moved on with his life and after that he was so traumatized he would say things to my aunt his sister who I have spoken to off and on throughout the years he would say things like I had a baby daughter once with the police came and took her away. My aunt would question him about me being present in her life as I had tracked the family down when I was 18 and started fraternizing with him and speaking with them and she told him about me and he said oh no no that's not my daughter that's my brother's daughter I had a daughter once but the police came and took her away. And that's the end of it that's what the guy thinks the guy is actually so damaged and so messed up that he wants to believe I am someone else's kid and that that memory of that day when the police came and took us away is what he chooses to be the end of that chapter of that story. So I've always just left him alone and let him have his story because obviously the man's brain is fried and he doesn't have any kind of quality of life so just leave him alone.
I think one time when I was 20 I attempted to call him or he called me I don't know what the hell that was about or how it even happened but the conversation was very strange he tried to treat me like a stranger and he just sounded crazy the one thing I did take away from it though was that I have my mother's deep Germanic slash Dutch tone of voice but I have my father's meter tempo and voice inflection which was a good thing for me to hear it's strange not having one parent around who you can reflect like a mirror to see where you get your traits from so I've seen pictures I've talked to his family I've observed them their behavior of their body language their features and I've heard him speak that was enough to give me a little bit of the rooting in the ground that I needed to know who I was.
But the man has always been mentally ill and it's not because he was born mentally ill it's because probably upbringing or whatever it is was not great and then he ends up just tripping way too much that's why my father is mentally ill. I've said this to his sister multiple times and she refuses to retain that information she still keeps insisting on saying things like"he was always a little different from the rest of us" what because he was creative and smart and moved away from home and decided to live like a hippie? I don't trust her opinion and my mother keeps forgetting that you even told me those stories because she's old and has health issues that affect her that way. But I remember hearing the stories and I know what medical science dictates and he is a classic LSD casualties from the 1960s and seventies it's that simple and that is what has caused his mental illness.
Which means number one I have DNA from another person that gives me a better chance of being logical insane and not being mentally ill and number two I also have not tripped on acid especially acid from that era or has a drug of choice repeatedly so therefore the same thing is not going to happen to me and I come from different parents under different conditions and it's not the same generation and all these other factors.
Also I may have inherited My Father's Love of travel and ability to travel however I'm productive with it like my mom's family I build something I run it like a business I make something out of it I have that Norman invader DNA that's entrepreneurial and takes travel seriously as a way of conquering and building not just traveling around which is probably a Slavic trait from my dad.
In a lot of the fault comes down to the States involved especially the state that he became a ward of a few years ago I think 10 years ago or something he got really crazy and he became more of the state why didn't the state retain him why didn't they give him better living conditions so he wouldn't be unhappy why didn't they force him to take his medication if he genuinely was mentally ill not being framed but genuinely needed help? Why did he even have a car how was he able to drive around if he was that crazy? I had a family member bragged to me once and he had a gun many years ago decades ago what is my father doing with a gun? And you can see the credibility of my dad's family for somebody from that family to actually say that to me which of course didn't freak me out because I was raised with my mother's family but it was still an asshole thing to do and you can see the irresponsibility of the family with that statement. My dad's family different members different people as well as his parents have money some of his family members are absolutely loaded or were loaded before that was medical issues that drain their money why didn't they just take him out of the public system that wasn't working stick him in a condo that was paid for in a place that was designed to have people watch him so he can't have all the things he liked that we keep him busy like woodworking and all this other stuff? So the family didn't take responsibility and the system didn't take responsibility and that is why my dad ended up in another state I'm committed a violent crime which has nothing to do with me because if I was in charge of guardianship of my father I would have made sure he had what he needed to keep him happy and safe and that he and everybody else around him was safe. Dad is not what happened and that is not my fault I was powerless over there my father's family has taken extraordinary steps to make sure that I never talk to him I never meet him and that I never involved in anything to do with him and they tell me very little but these are the same people that would not tell me that my grandfather work for Raytheon they keep saying he was a carpenter growing up which I find suspicious as well so I don't trust them and nobody else should either. Besides they're really stupid about legal stuff because when my dad committed that crime he was on gabapentin. That drug is known to cause aggression I have dealt with it with doing advocacy with someone that I know in their medical care and the person had to be pulled off of the medication for every dangerous aggression problem. So again another question what was my dad doing on gabapentin? There's no way that somebody with that kind of mental illness that has had his history of issues should be on that drug and I tried to tell this to my dad's family and I tried to tell them to tell his lawyer and they just don't care. These are the kind of people that grow up with money but they're not smart and they're not driven towards going to college and so they're fucking lazy and they don't know what they're doing they might work but that doesn't mean that they work at making the best life. I got what I needed out of these people I got DNA that's extremely useful to me I feel bad for my dad and if you put the theory that I work on up next to it there is some things that are very suspicious about the way he's been treated overtime and the things that he said he might too might even be a victim if you apply my theories. But there's nothing we can do about that now he's lost to me and that's the end of it but this is war so there's going to be casualties. That's always been my attitude and that's the way it has to be.
Just because my father was talking about things that are politically charged or conspiracy theory type stuff allegedly now remember I don't know if there was any cameras or recording equipment it's all alleged so the person who was victimized might even be lying or whoever is the witness that was saying that he was saying these things unless there's proof like irrefutable proof that words came out of his mouth about conspiracy theories I'm not going to believe it anybody can say anything anybody can make any claim, so we don't know if he was really saying those things but if you was saying things about conspiracies while he committed a violent crime there is a huge difference between somebody who is paranoid delusional and dangerous and somebody who is a victim of political oppression and just because they're related isn't mean that it's the same thing.
Again this smear campaign would probably be this really outdated theory about how if with a parent is mentally ill then the child must also be as well or something stupid like that. And in this case it does a hell of a lot more good for the bad guys and the smear campaign people than it does for me in my position but again stupid people believe stupid things and act stupidly. And again just ignore it because they can scream it to the hilltops as much as they want all that matters is a piece of paper and all that matters is proof and all that matters is what goes on in a court of law and you're dealing with an American public that would rather protest and burn cities to the ground then go face the justice system to make changes to the way that it functions and the way our authorities do things you're not dealing with reasonable people anymore so I wouldn't pay attention to anything the public say at this point. After the election they might be some common sense but it seems like it's not going to be changing the general culture in this country anytime soon.
-I just do this for attention I'm all about getting attention. My clothing that I wear is all to intimidate people.
I don't do this blog so that I can get attention and the way I dress is simply because I've adapted to my circumstances and I'm part of a subculture it's kind of like being drafted it's common for people that have been in military service to continue to wear their uniforms or still go to VFW Halls to meet with old buddies it's like an experience that you get bonded and you just can't forget it. Not any disrespect to service members who have legitimate service and legitimate military but it is similar so I'm part of like a tribe now or something and it is what I am and I'm not going to just give it up I worked really hard for it and it wasn't my choice I just kind of adapted the best I could and the reason I dress for involently is probably because I should have been dressing a flamboyantly doing something in the arts I would have been dressing flamboyantly being a painter or something anyway so this is just who I am I'm just adapted it to my current condition. And I have no time for people that are ignorant about travelers and alternative lifestyles and stuff like that either they don't know what it is or they don't respect it and then they just don't exist to me if they want to try to use that to win some kind of victory or make a judgment I'm just going to ignore them because they're not reasonable and you can't talk to them so why have them be part of your reality.
My blog is because I needed to create it out of self-defense and also to help other people because it's pretty much all I was capable of for a long time I wasn't allowed to do anything else or I didn't know how to adapt my circumstances to doing anything else especially in the very beginning when this first started you're dealing with MK ultra high level programming there's a lot of stuff going on with people that are going through deprogramming they can't concentrate on outside actions and realities and circumstances and focus on the internal deprogramming process. Maybe the best they can do is put on a backpack and run because they can't focus on the outside world and the internal world at the same time it's all very complicated and it's something that they don't want the public to know about it is a lot easier to make it look like I'm stupid or homeless by choice or something dumb like that and I just ignore it again I'm writing books that's what's going to matter that's where all the information is going to be in and people can use it for whatever they want to use it for hopefully will people will use it to fight the oncoming reality of transhumanism where they're going to try to program all of us or make us all programmable machines if anybody can leave a guidebook for this kind of thing it's those of us who have gone through stuff like this.
-she's just a scammer and wants money.
Well I did get supported after I was framed by a mysterious donor that kept me going for many years afterwards and then she fell off the face of the Earth and disappeared. But during that time I learned about a better quality of life I could have and I felt that somebody cared and it definitely rescued me from a bad faith because of what the frame of it done to me me not traveling etc so I appreciate having a patron or a sponsor at that point that's pretty much the only time I really had any substantial donations given to me. I think I've had maybe two or three donations that were substantial maybe a couple hundred bucks maybe twice the whole entire time before 2016 I think somebody sent me $300 once when I was in California from Australia and that was about it and these are just gifts so it doesn't really impact anything else and everything was done legally and everything was done with all my other affairs so that it was you know would go smoothly for my future so when I do become employed or I do become you know wealthier that I won't have problems from in the past I mean it's already as confined whatever they want but you know I like to keep my books in order if you will.
-she's secretly a criminal and people don't change etc
I don't really understand this one I don't know what people are referring to but it had lots of weird accusations even traveling and other states like 3,000 miles from here I've had accusations which shows you the reach of this system, and even now people are stupid enough to believe rumors I guess but it doesn't matter because I am simply just trying to live on a shoestring budget as usual and find my way through the greatest country in the world where anybody can rebound or reinvent themselves or come back from a hard hit where they lose everything etc. If you can get yourself back on track in any place it would be here so I just ignore that as well because it's probably just coming from the enemy camp and they're siphoning it through the public through a grapevine of people that people trust and then people believe it because they have nothing to do they're bored they're stupid they're jealous whatever it is I just don't pay attention it does get a little annoying sometimes and it is especially heady in places outside of the city where people just have nothing better to do and they seems really jealous for some reason more so of course why would you be jealous in the city with all these beautiful college students people have money they have more stuff to do I think it's a suburban thing where people get kind of weirded out or they want to cause trouble and start rumors but I also think the people just don't have time for this shit anymore anyway. It can be annoying to get this feeling that people feel as if they hold power over you because they have a judgment handed down to them by a supposed authority or that collectively as a community and neighborhood a store whatever it is these little groups these people live in and their petty little lives that they actually hold you in some kind of suspension above the ground almost like they carry you they hold you with their judgments or their knowledge of you that they think they have I just ignore this because it's just the way humans are and it's pointless because it serves no purpose and getting the prime directive and the mission completed. An example I've given before is I was in 12-step meetings in the late 90s before this system became really over after 9/11 which happened for a lot of us which is how this original TI movement started I mean it started way before after 9/11 but it just exploded after 9/11 because so many people became victimized in ways that were really obvious and then you in hindsight you realize stuff was being done before 9/11 but you didn't really see it or you just thought it was odd or whatever it is and it was much more mild and hard to detect. So an example is I was in a 12-step meeting and someone who again trusted authority in the meeting you know wealthy suburb of Boston is trusted authority was talking about somebody in a negative way that was in the meeting saying that he had done this and that and he had you know gotten intimate with the wife of somebody in a position that he probably shouldn't have and he was doing things he shouldn't have been doing and of course instead of the wife being blamed it was all put on the man and this was given as the excuse as to why this person was being shunned and harassed and now we know it as gang stalking or community mobbing or organized stocking whatever you want to call it, but back then it's just kind of looks like he was just basically marked for death I mean marked for just being totally shunned and hate it on. And so I looked at the person and I couldn't figure out why the person didn't just move out of town if it was a local issue concerning local people and it was just local community mobbing? I also couldn't figure out why people believed this authority figure in the 12-step meeting because we're not doing a real investigation here and nobody has questioned the alleged perpetrator who's being harassed. So even then looking back one can clearly see that I looked at these issues a little more with clarity and with reason and logic and deduction instead of believing what somebody told me which is probably one of the reasons I have a Target on my own back now and probably always did.
So allegedly the person passed away according to this authority figure that was harassing him or leading the group and harassing him, but we don't know that do we? He might have just moved away who knows that's the thing about this kind of thing is that people aren't thinking clearly and you have to realize that people can get killed because of human carelessness and stupidity and human beings energy in a group being directed at somebody can be deadly and dangerous and the people involved in that group might be extremely stupid not realizing the damage that they're doing so all these fables and parables and stories and rumors and whispers you have to ignore them because they're a waste of time and energy and they could do a lot of damage and it is appalling when you are targeted and you talk to these people and they don't really know what's going on it's appalling how stupid some of these people are that are involved in these community mobbing groups that they don't know what they're doing or that they could actually cause a person's death and they don't care because the victim has been dehumanized as an enemy.
It's better to stick with the good people and just try to dissipate the groups that are being used as useful idiots and force multipliers against the targeted person.
That's all I can think of for now comment and leave a comment or email me if you can think of anything else so you've heard anything interesting or weird or any strange remorse or accusations I'd love to hear them it's almost a source of entertainment at this point.
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