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Sunday, February 20, 2011

Some of the Best Evidence That I and Other TI's Are Involved In Human Experimentation Involving Brainwashing

Brave, Stupid and Curious: Dangerous Psychology Experiments From the Past:
"..investigators in 1972 wanted to know how people on the street responded to being stared at. Perhaps “glared at” is a better way to describe the methods used in this particular study. In one version of the experiment, the research assistant pulled up in his motor scooter next to a car waiting at a red light and stared expressionlessly at the driver until the light turned green. In another version, the research assistant stood on the street corner, turned to face an approaching pedestrian, and again stared expressionlessly at this person’s face for an uncomfortable length of time.
As predicted, being stared at prompted people to ‘flee’ measurably faster than not being stared at. In the case of the motor scooter, car drivers who were in the staring condition stepped on the gas pedal harder when the light turned green than those in the control condition, as measured by the length of time it took them to cross the intersection. Likewise, pedestrians who were stared at also picked up their step.
...there are plenty of people out there who do not take kindly to a stranger’s agonistic stares and the research assistants in these studies could have found themselves in a serious confrontation.
The fact that most people simply looked away and fiddled with their radios may have something to with the study being done in Kansas rather than, say, downtown L.A., but still it could have easily escalated to conflict."

Top 10 Unethical Psychological Experiments:
#4-Learned Helplessness 1965
Dogs from group three were also paired up and leashed together, one receiving shocks, but the shocks didn’t end when the lever was pressed. Shocks came randomly and seemed inevitable, which caused “learned helplessness,” the dogs assuming that nothing could be done about the shocks. The dogs in group three ended up displaying symptoms of clinical depression. Later, group three dogs were placed in a box with by themselves. They were again shocked, but they could easily end the shocks by jumping out of the box. These dogs simply “gave up,” again displaying learned helplessness."
"However, not all of the dogs in Seligman's experiments became helpless. Of the roughly 150 dogs in experiments in the latter half of the 1960s, about one-third did not become helpless, but instead managed to find a way out of the unpleasant situation despite their past experience with it. The corresponding characteristic in humans has been found to correlate highly with optimism: an explanatory style that views the situation as other than personal, pervasive, or permanent. This distinction between people who adapt and those who break down under long-term psychological pressure was also studied in the 1950s in the context of brainwashing."
"No monkey has died during isolation. When initially removed from total social isolation, however, they usually go into a state of emotional shock, characterized by ... autistic self-clutching and rocking. One of six monkeys isolated for 3 months refused to eat after release and died 5 days later. The autopsy report attributed death to emotional anorexia. ... The effects of 6 months of total social isolation were so devastating and debilitating that we had assumed initially that 12 months of isolation would not produce any additional decrement. This assumption proved to be false; 12 months of isolation almost obliterated the animals socially"

"Schanberg and Field found that even short-term interruption of mother-pup interaction in rats markedly affected several biochemical processes in the developing pup: a reduction in ornithine decarboxylase (ODC) activity, a sensitive index of cell growth and differentiation; a reduction in growth hormone release (in all body organs, including the heart and liver and throughout the brain, including the cerebrum, cerebellum and brain stem); an increase in corticosterone secretion; and suppressed tissue ODC responsivity to administered growth hormone. Additionally, it has been found that these animals who were touch deprived had weakened immune systems. Investigators have measured a direct, positive relationship between the amount of contact and grooming an infant monkey receives during its first six months of life and its ability to produce antibody titer (IgG and 1gM) in response to an antibody challenge (tetanus) at a little over one year of age. Trying to identify a mechanism for the "immunology of touch," some investigators point to modulations of arousal and associated CNS-hormonal activity. Touch deprivation may cause stress-induced activation of the pituitary-adrenal system, which, in turn, leads to increased plasma cortisol and adrenocorticotropic hormone. Likewise, researchers suggest, regular and "natural" stimulation of the skin may moderate these pituitary-adrenal responses in a positive and healthful way."

I said years ago that whoever is doing this, knows EXACTLY what they are doing and they know how to cause biochemical changes in the body to affect the TI. And I was right.
The above is exactly what I have been put through in part by the gang stalking campaign. Especially the part about learned helplessness. I have an optimism that makes me ignore the circumstances- this is why perps kept saying to me "You'll be alright" and acting like nothing is wrong.

What blows my mind is that so many people are in on this. That Mitt Romney's family members were in on this. I knew that Bush approving of him could not be a good thing. For Laura, a Romney family member who was associated to my ex Jake, for her to say to me snidly "And you always WILL have to deal with the harassment" is a testament to where that family is coming from. Sounds like its still about supporting Nazi sympathies all the way.

At least I can rest better and probably go through life easier, by realizing that it can be explained logically and that I was right about it being human experimentation or at least a gross abuse of psychology as in psychological warfare. I was right. I now know...that I was right.

(Seligman, Maier, Harry Israel (Harlow), Schanberg?? What the hell? Did some Nazi rub off or what?)


  1. I don't trust them one bit, especially when I get sentiments like you just stated there, that we'll be alright. Actually, they do things like that all the time in the harassment, like have some gangstalkers come out of the middle of nowhere, and treat me nice. It didn't even seem spontaneous, but it was designed to look that way. Like, when they are hammering with all kinds of triggers, and then they send the "we love you" gangstalkers to make nice to soften things up a bit. I just try to avoid those types, in addition to the usual nasty games they pull with gangstalkers, because I should be in control of my environment. Furthermore, I don't trust them, but I respect that they are trying to achieve some sort of results. I just try to persevere, and not pay attention to any sudden positive reinforcement gangstalking to counter the negative stuff.

  2. Interesting tidbit about Hinckley, Jr:,_Jr.

    Bush–Hinckley family connections

    From what I know and I've heard, they (the Hinckleys) are a very nice family and have given a lot of money to the Bush campaign. I understand he was just the renegade brother in the family. They must feel awful,"


    Also, there was something in the movie Taxi Driver that could have triggered Hinckley. It's interesting that Hinckley was very subdued and submitted to the arresting officers without a fight. It was a lot like Lennon's shooter. But then, Hinckley still has this obsession with Jodi Foster. Probably just an obsessive personality that was being used by some heavy factions. Also interesting that GHW Bush was running against Reagan, and Hinckley's family was a major supporter of Bush Sr.'s campaign. That seems like a missing piece of the puzzle there. I think this could be related to how some targets get selected.

    Now to see if Scorcese has any connection here to Bush. Probably not. But interesting that Taxi Driver was based on a real-life assassin of George Wallace. Now there that man could be a piece of the puzzle to which Hinckley would be linked.

  3. I gotta tell ya, GHW Bush is one scary dude. The things he was able to pull off, and manipulate his son to carry on his "work", is very "impressive" indeed. Global enslavement, that's what Bush Sr. was talking about with the NWO reference. He was one power hungry monster of a man; he knew precisely he had the backing to pull this off. There's no doubt that Hinckley shooting Reagan was fully planned by Bush and his cronies with the connections to Hollywood etc. Somehow, "they" must have known Hinckley had this obsession with Foster (or at least a character of her profile) before the movie was made. And also Hinckley's family contributing to Bush Sr.'s election campaign... that is pretty eerie when you size up the pieces of the puzzle, which would have the son of his contributor shooting Reagan. Genius is what it is; and he knew exactly how to do it.

  4. Probably the jerking is just e-harassment from their giant network. At 0507AM here, through 0511AM, I got this little stinging sensation in the right testicle. And down in the groin area, I can feel this heating, vibration feeling, like my groin is put in a microwave oven, on a low power. There is heat being generated down there as I write this, and it's 517AM. Starting to ease up a little. Now it's back up. They generally can do this in the early morning hours. Sometimes I get this around 300AM to 330AM. No wonder they are so brazen with their stalking: they have a giant hidden e-harassment network to work with, at nearly any hour. Probably it varies by location, and who is doing it.

  5. Its called high level program your kid- not manipulate your kid.

  6. Wow! This is really good info. I'm glad to rediscover your informative website. These kinds of news articles can really empower a person.

    For instance, I remember reading an article some years ago concerning a psychologist's study of how schizophrenics experience going to the grocery store. The psychologist looked at disturbing perceptions that (supposedly) only mentally ill people have while in that kind of public place.

    Years later, started I experiencing disconcerting things (following a workplace mobbing saga) during my strongest gangstalking period (and even now sometimes), such as people bumping into me (as we both "just happened" to walk around a corner), harassment by other shoppers talking about things very specific to me (to let me know I'm under surveillance) and harassing songs playing (with lyrics commenting on my life or personal secrets).

    Having read the news article, I was aware that this grocery store gangstalking could all be part of the deliberately-crafted harassment of me, not caused by mental illness. I don't even remember the article that clearly, and I can't find it online with a limited websearch (perhaps the blogger can). But armed with just that knowledge, I was able to have peace while grocery shopping, despite the harassment. Later, when I discovered that much of the gangstalking was done through mind control technologies probably as part of a nonconsensual test experiment, I was able to feel pretty confident while grocery shopping - letting the weirdness just roll off my back. Knowledge IS power!

    Kudos to the psychologists and journalists and bloggers out there who are, knowingly or unwittingly, informing and arming their fellow innocent human beings!