Why am I very nauseous suddenly? And why am I experiencing a twinge hitting my right front ankle that then goes up my leg to hit my groin which is very unpleasant?
MA has been notorious for this kind of use of physical pain to get me as a Target under control. Every time I come back here I experience this. Being treated like a mere animal. This happens no where else in the country. Intermittent specific physical pain that resembles being shocked.
They definitely use the fact we live in mammalian bodies to thier advantage. This kind of intermittent torture will cause a human being to give up what they are doing or forget or even fall into a lulled feeling.
Was being hit with ideations that I should just give up and leave the USA as I have been planning. That staying in MA for health issues is useless and I should just take myself sick over to Europe. Yeah, thats a real practical idea.
That Boston hates me anyway, so why stay in a place where you are hated.
It doesnt matter where I go. Its the same all over the US. Every place you end up no matter who nice the people are you meet theres always the issue of whatever is being pumped out through the environment. It makes each place one goes to the same- a prison. With only freedom on Sundays, holidays and after 12 midnight to 6pm. So why travel???
And whos to guarentee that going to another country is going to solve the problem? What if its worse?