I find if I do something charitable I feel the effects of.the gang stalking and pain /suffering subsides.
This must have been what was the purpose of hitting me hard and very loudly with "Serve humanity".. which is unusual but St Louis was wired to kill or severely torture anyway.
I was going to help people anyway by becoming a councelor. This system of totally destroying someones potential, talents and lowering their intelligence then guilting and blaming them til they feel humiliated, helpless alone and without recourse THEN only 'rewarding' them when they give to others or caretake people is totally unethical and if its not it should be illegal. Who do they think they are trying to beat and guilt a person down who wanted to help people to begin with?
Fuckin manipulative and this system will get no cooperation from me until that expose is written. THEN if I do service work with other human beings I can always point to that book and show that I am doing so upon my own Will not the Will of the state.