Throughout my campaign I have for some reason seen deeper into things than other TIs. This may be due to the fact that by nature or by upbringing I am much more leary of people being what they appear to be or claim to be. Due knowing bs when I see it I knew something was wrong with some of the TI acivist movements.
Its either two things going on. Either I stumbled upon yet another covert network of perps or handlers which consists of operatives infiltrating these groups and claiming to be TI's or I personally had something about my story that was undesirable to the TI community, which seems to consist largely of people with ways and means.
I cannot to this day understand why I was rejected by the TI community other than it being infultrated and/or that community wanting to not lose thier credibility by having a person who was eccentric as well as dirt poor with, at the time,what seemed like little credibility.
Becuz of this I do not support any TI activist group.
But throughout all and especially lately I have lost much of what cred I did build up as keeping a level head and dealing calmly with this campaign. Lately my situation has worsened and you can see that from my work. This work always in progress, is meant to be real and to sof behe true and realistic progression of a targeted individuals situation. I WANT people to see over time what becomes of a targeted person.
This includes even my worst moments or most vulgar expressions or angry outbursts. I decided after being rejected by a crowd once again that perhaps my place in this was to stand out singularly and illustrate what occurs when a TI is alone with no support and is truly destitute.
It also gave me insight into related issues concerning homelessness and TIs being driven into such a population to marginalize them from society.
I tend to go deeply into TI experience as well as related subject matter. Most TIs keep it simple as my style is considered extreme in comparison. I admire those who can keep it together enough to
still sound like someone who is credible to mainstream society.
Lately I have gotten off track and very falling head first away from reason or relief. Probably by pushing myself too hard.
I have forgotten the simple TI stories and even that ther are other TIs out there who are also doing poorly.
Here is a blog and website I found:http://wiseti.blogspot.com/2010/01/in-news-whistle-blower-eh-targeted-in.html
Perhaps this will help me to focus once again.