Something keeps wanting me to stay at the airport. I didn't tonight and I felt a.presence disapprove of this as.if I made the wrong choices.
I am tire of being watched all the time and having my life controlled.
What the perps or some other faction is trying to accomplish is to get me into umass under the guise of writing my book and then I am sure then keep up the behavior modification so that I forget all about what happened.
I am targeted hard here within city limits. Everyone seems to be told not to help me.in this situation beyond what is necessary thus the allergist at Tufts Medical not admitting on paper that the Bactrim was responsible for my having this allergy condition.
Constant low level sexual arousal is present and I can't fight the effects of that. Its been documented in my traveling that I am noticably more horny when I get to the east coast than anywhere in the country. Its either chemical or tech. Either way if I am not having sex yet am constantly feeling arousal even on.low.level this is perfect mind control. It creates hostility, frustration and if I don't.have some relief of aggression daily at least once self induced I get suicidal and.some days that translates into feeling aggression outwardly not inwardly.
I never got to slowly change my life it was just this tearing away of jake then scott, and a rich sex life then nothing. Its caused damage to my psyche as well as has weakened my system and of course I became sadly out of shape. While here I always compensate with food.
So its a form.of control I can't fight. I don't want to forget what happened and I do want a.lawyer.