Oh and anyone who says I am a coward or was sheltered or that I am dumb in the way I have handled this is either in on being a perp in some capacity or they are not in the know about the full story and only know cover stories. Becuz any reasonable person would be handling this situation in this manner. Also males have absolutely no say whatsoever as being female makes the situation totally different from being male...and if they understood the full situation they would know that being pushed to snap like I was, the chances a male would have done so by now are much higher.
And lastly no individual, without this type of programming would have been able to sustain this long or fight this hard, most normal people would be sitting in the back of a mental institution by now, banging their heads against the wall permanently.
Most of the detractors are either programmed and don't know it or involved in Jonestown like Kill Cults, or destructive cults.
Remember that next time some sh*thead throws something yer way with directed conversation or directly, concerning how one should handle being a target of psychological warfare.