The Bourne Legacy

Wow. Watching this. Never bothered with Bourne series before. Offended by them, beneath me so I felt (wheres the MK Kids' royalties? Another rip off). This IS extremely nasty, isnt it? Well, after so many years. After all this travel and the recent tasteless badly written attempted frame ups by clown(s) unknown- I realize something. Humans can try as much as they want to 'create' programming or influence of humans. Alterations. Modifications. Programming. Puppets. You arent gods. Im certain of that now. Theres a force greater than all of mankind that is the only solace that any of us have for the miserable approx 80 years we exist here. You can attempt to crack the codes of this force and the natural creation of life. Nothing is more powerful than the force that cares for this planet and it's people. I see now that the natural state of all things is like an eternal sunny day and that the clouds and storms are simply the illusions of darkness put forth by 'evil'. Oh...btw. If anyone wants to try to silence me again or block me from writing then try it. It didnt work last time. And remember this is all theorizing, amateur research and pondering. Maybe its a sci fi project...or a mind f*ck on the public-like the Beatles 'Paul Is Dead'. I do know that I wont allow anyone or anything to interfere with my writing. Ever again. Ok...just got to the motorcycle chase scene: ridiculous but funny.

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Friday, December 18, 2009

lets hope its just me that is sick and not carbon monoxide

ok remain logical.

i feel a bit better. severe headache, nausea, dry throat mouth dizzy...i looked it up and i sure hope i just caught something today becuz that is all the symnptoms for carbon monoxide. especially the sinuses..owch.. it was terrible. but i also have some chills...lets hope its just me. i am not sleeping in my ride becuz it doesn seem like when i am in there i feel worse. its something coming out of the air vents. I will be effected first becuz I am made more sensitive to chemicals or whatever becz of that stupid mold exposure. if someone sprays hairspray just near me i feel like i am being gassed. i wasnt like that before that moldy apartment.

i sure hope its not anything dangerous i dont want my host driver to become ill. k

as i sit here now i feel better.

it seems it was something temporary but the cause is still unknown

1 comment:

Back Up Against The Wall said...


You need something beautiful in your life. I pray it happens to you, and I pray it happens to me as well. Your targeting is hard to deal with, and it is really showing lately.

This thing that happens to us builds in frustration, anger, anxiety, and just about any bad feeling or emotion one can experience. I have felt all of these things myself, and I claim to be a Christian.

It is hard to deal with wanting to be like the example that Jesus made for us while also dealing with the outrage of what is being done to us.

One BIG thing that keeps me going is knowing that someday Jesus will return, and He will settle all accounts. He knows the suffering we go through.

If I didn't have my faith, I doubt that I myself would have been able to deal with this for as long as I have. Having a problem that people are unable to believe exists only compounds the negativity that we go through. I just keep praying throughout my day.

This is not to say that I am all grins and giggles and a great example for being what a Christian is supposed to be. I am not. I am human and very much subjected to the weaknesses common to humanity.

Nevertheless, I have my faith in Jesus. I too have seen too many examples of people who say they are Christians and then end up getting burned by them in one way or another.

I used to try to see too much of Jesus in my fellow Christians; however, I also recognize my own fallenness. As such, I fully realize that people will always fail me, even Christians. Jesus, however, has saved me, and despite the bad treatment I may receive from my fellow Christians, I do not look to them for my salvation.

I look straight to the heart of Jesus and the fact that he died for my sins. I may very well die as a result of whatever it is that gangstalking will eventually become, but I rest in knowing that Jesus has my soul, and he will never give it up.

Praying for you Rachel.