I know my stalkers and perps..those who dont want me commit suicide want me to reform or conform. I know they have put so much pressure on me hoping that I will now 'rebel' becuz I was never allowed to before. Then, after this I sense the system is hoping I conform, become consertative and go straight or become good and perfect and forget what happened.
It always comes back to that. ALWAYS. I am never allowed to have free will over my own life..I would have evolved into a very spiritual person had they left me alone.
It seems they want conformity and 'peace' (silenced compliant vegatables) above all.
Always I am to become flat and...obedient. This is worse than my 20's where I was mind controlled and treated badly most of the time. Its ridiculous.
So if they put pressure on me, I can finally rebel and then be good or conform. As long as you have no life experience or knowledge of your own.
If they do not want a spiritual person they will get something else of equal value...but never will they be allowed to LESSEN MY WEIGHT OR VALUE. Which is what they try to do by cutting TI's down all the time.
You can never make me less than I was, less in size, less in weight or quality. You can only change my form...take a fucking science class in matter and mass...a-holes.