The FBI interesting comment

We have all made that phone call...some of us were informed so the results were not so devastating. FBI Michigan: "I've never had a phone call like this before." R as anonymous: " Do you deal with gang stalking ?" FBI MI: "Well, who are you being stalked by?" anon R: "Its not me I am calling for." the person gets it I am clever. There is a change of tone, more sympathetic only by a hair. There is a simple back and forth..I then ask finally "So you don't deal with organized stalking?" FBI MI: "Nope". I recall in the conversation that the nope at the end had a bit of 'listen we cant help you' in it..and some fear.

Some time ago I was watching C-span. There was a hearing or a presentation with a governing body..I cannot recall and am very ignorant when it comes to the set up of government. Anyway the head or a high up in the FBI was there talking about terrorism related issues. He said that today there are alot of people alone, having there own private wars with the government or the world. Thats right it was on internet safety becuz he also said that the FBI wanted to make sure that these people did not get together on the internet and create groups that way.

Why would people feel that way? One has to ask why. Why would someone be having his or her own private war. Sounds like people feel powerless and helpless in the face of authority with no appeals and recourse. Hmph.

Here is what I beleive is the thing I viewed. http://www.infowars.net/articles/november2007/131107terror.htm

Economic sanctions/blacklisting

http://writing.upenn.edu/~afilreis/50s/schrecker-blacklist.html

hsi-nao

“hsi-nao,” meaning, roughly, “cleansing of the mind.”
http://64.233.169.104/search?q=cache:kyfQ_UaGCAwJ:www.religionnewsblog.com/8107/how-brainwashing-came-to-life-and-thrived+george+romney+mind+control&hl=en&ct=clnk&cd=2&gl=us

What is most annoying as usual about this issue..rather these issues is that with all the corruption all of us who can show cause or at least enough to doubt, we like all human experimentees throughout history are still referred to as "the nutters"..

Gee, that sounds like it was put out there by a real investigative pro.
What people don't know about they simply judge. It's illogical and unreasonable. Why then?Either they are mind controlled by classic social control methods mentioned in this article, no tech needed or they secretly enjoy siding with the classic slave owner mentality that has never gone away. 'We are with you, Massa, and like good little house slaves we will support u till the end' or worse people are caught up in the idea that they actually share abusive authorities power by supporting them in anything they do. (http://209.85.173.104/search?q=cache:E37BGVqnjx4J:www.americanrhetoric.com/) **some things about Malcolm X's speech may be offensive to some people. However this is a good reference to show just how people have been treated in the past and how people are still treated.**

People get to feel better about themselves, connected to something so powerful that it could do so much illegal like enslaving human beings and ignoring human rights in THIS day and age.
All they have to do is join in antagonizing the victim and/or ignoring the victim's claims.I believe there are people in the population who are rotten enough to get a perverse sense of joy by joining in on enslaving humans.
The feeling that you also share the house on the hill becuz people are being sacrificed for you, the public, via human experimentation or enslavement is irresistible. Every time someone smiles at me to minimize how my life was ruined this is what they are expressing about themselves.

There is a tactic that is used where perps pretend that they are teaching you how to be an activist. This is the real reason for ruining your life they would like you to believe. I have heard "..before someone becomes an activist they must be made into a nice person" and from an alleged activist in St. Louis to another "..we give ____ a hard time and harss him to see how much he can take". Thinking I will buy into any of this must be 'cuz another perp from a group actually claimed I had a "slave mentality"..gee, I wonder why.

They will come up with anything to validate the abuse and minimize what they have done and will continue to do.

Vigilantism- how the obsessive are used by the cunning

Its a big problem in this country. This country is prime for vigilantes becuz it regulates crime but doesnt really stop it. Drugs should be legal and regulated or not allowed in AT ALL and no one should be able to use them. The real money in this racket is made by them remaining illegal. The same goes for other crime.

All seasoned TI's by now are aware that org stalk at its top levels is protecting the huge overlapping crime games of drugs, money and sex.At the weirder end is human experimentation. Mind control plays a role in the aforementioned crimes but serves purposes in many other areas.
Some Targets focus on the top levels of alleged crime, where things get murkier and harder to prove and some can attest to it stemming from their involvement at a local level in things the public is readily familiar with.

The thing that is so frustrating is that the vigilantes are people who are after obvious unconnected criminals are also often diverted it seems to go after people who are inconvenient for criminal organizations so if targets are marketed the right way to these obsessive driven people will go after a target as if they were a true convicted criminal but really they are re-victimizing a person who may be victimized by organized crime itself.

What is so insane about the possibility of alot of organized staking perps possibly being vigilantes is that the other times perps we encounter are obvious criminals and pervs themselves.
Its no wonder TI's live in a world of confusion and misinformation.

I highly suspect that in alot of instances the person(s) are posing as vigilante minded individuals but is secretly aware that the whole point it to psych out and confuse the target as a destructive action.
This is especially obvious when you see say a security person doing directed conversation or even inferring things to the TI directly.
A security guard's job is to guard thier little area and in the event of a real emergency get the police! They do not usually have access to investigative info and if they did the last thing ANYONE in law enforcement would do is to leak it to the suspect of the crime. THAT is why alot of gangstalking is, in my observation, a set up by devious, sneaky, malicious people to destroy the person psychologically and other wise.
This is simply not the way you'd investigate someone to nail them for a crime if you were connected to law enforcement.
In fact the lack of being stealthful by a great number of perp's should let a TI know that the action of inference IS THE ATTACK/action itself and this is NOT an investigation.

Inferring that you are guilty of something and making you feel hated and eventually paranoid IS the action taken against you.

I am sure that some fraction of perps are real vigilantes who actually believe you are guilty but how do you know? How do YOU, a person out of their loop with no intel, how do u know what they are really thinking?
It's a fine line but sometimes you can tell.

One of the milder perps said "Listen, have the FBI come to your house? Has anyone questioned you? You know the FBI aren't stupid if they really thought you were guilty then they would have approached u by now." ..and she is 100% correct. And I knew that. But over time with more inferences and less sleep I got more paranoid and forgot how to make sense of it all.

This illustrates the power of psych warfare on the TI.

So as far as these people being vigilantes...as usual we dont know for sure.
Take it on a case by case basis and use this info to your advantage. If you meet a perp who seems to really believe the slander then deal with them on that level. You may be able to get info out of them if you can appeal to them..that YOU have been victimized not the other way round. If they are a perp who is using vigilantism as a front for known action/attack on a TI you will find that their true selfishness comes out and appeals don't work with these people. Their true motive is to destroy you and they do not care why or worse they know it's a front for action against you that is destructive...this leads you the TI to deduct that THEY are the true criminals and not mixed up misinformed vigilantes.

Vigilantes are extremely f*cked up people in that they commit crimes with criminal like actions to counter others crimes. The justice system just makes no impression on them..like criminals. Like abusers they only abuse power for thier ends..worse than career criminals they seem unable to make an impersonal decisions about violence as action to meet an end due to it being primarily a business decision in career crime (nothing personal).
Lines are very blurred for these people which is why they are dangerous and conversely of use to people who think very clearly about what needs to get done. They r emotional reactionaries and that is very easily manipulated by true sociopathic minds.
Vigilantes either care about issues or they are violent and wish to hurt others so are seeking an outlet.
They are, by their very nature, not about business.

For instance in my case...I much more dislike the people who did me in for reasons of maliciousness and personal hatred much more so than persons who seem to have made more of an impersonal business decision. My family for instance seems to have made a practical choice but it was always done with abuse and maliciousness though they would like to see themselves as a crime family with power they simply bartered something that gave them power and protection.
It takes a true criminal mind who truly understands business to make a decision to use violence as a means to an end. People who have personal hatred or jealousy and go after someone that is really undeserving of such an act will lose. That is one reason I am still walking around. What was done to me was executed by a bunch of weak cowards with little personal power and minor connections to crime. The one person with more connections had the most businesslike attitude towards the actions being taken against me and gave me the most warning.

An all business attitude towards violence is much more tolerable....unfortunately most TI's experience perps who seem to get very personal. The ones who do are most upsetting yet the easiest to combat..why?
Becuz every time a perp seems like they are acting out on you with a personal ax to grind I want you to scan them, read them and I want you to make like kung foo and use your enemies energy against them. Find thier weaknesses and target them as if you were plunging a knife right into that weak spot.

Then the people who seem to target you impersonally dont seem so horrible to deal with. Yes, they enjoy being evil but that's what criminals do.
The more childish and stupid the attack the more you can get over it if it was an attempt at something viscous(amateurs).

Vigilantes are the hardest to deal with becuz they give the TI the psychic impression of the TI really being guilty so its very damaging. Try to see the difference--try to sort out peoples' true motives. If the psychic impression is too strong and it's damaging get rid of it right away.

Understand that alot of this is war on psychics, human experimentation, mind control slavery. They want to torture you, lessen your power, experiment on you. Yes, the end is always to destroy the TI but if you can see into your attackers more so you may be able to quickly negotiate with them on levels they aren't readily aware of.
Understand that these people are not police. They are sloppy and not trained. Alot of perps have obvious weaknesses which is why they must attack you as they do. They know they could not win any other way.

A vigilante who has a motivation to do a wrong right may be easier to handle or negotiate with than someone who knows they are doing wrong to you and that is thier inner urge from the beginning.

The abusive perps are always acting from thier own selfish motives. They should be emotionally discarded immediately. They have no weight in this world and no staying power. These people are weak to their core and should be psychically done away with upon impact. Scan them, get a weakness and go for the core. Leave no time for self defense. Size them up and knock them down.
Their only motive is to abuse and hurt you and that deserves no consideration at all. It's not like they are acting out of being mistaken.

For those of us put into behavior modification as a means of deprogramming us so no info is gotten to incriminate anyone, part of thought reform is confession. The perps tactics of making you feel guilty is a way to get you to confess..this is part of controlling a TI.
If you know you are a survivor of tbmc or cult conditioning the bh program seems to resemble the same exact system of deprogramming that was basically done away with by the psych community years ago for being to damaging to the victim. It was finally realized that it was simply RE-programming/damaging the person. There was use of sex, rape, druggings, kidnapping, isolation. This is the same idea as the Tavistock institute utilizing trauma to cure PTSD victims (trauma victims).
So its especially important that u don't let in other peoples judgments or internalize thier value systems for you.
In the end its all about keeping you from a decent therapist, destroying who you really are and finally gaining an end result that they can live with and manage so you stay slave status..you never develop to your true potential, gain any real internal personal power of your own and you never remember or reveal memories or info.

Lahey clinic

Why did I go to the same place that my grandmother had been going to for years, also after her complaining in recent years that the service there was not like it used to be.
Becuz I am a desperate woman with a tooth extraction needed..that's why.

This tooth has been bad for years..I am so afraid of people messing with my teeth(don't know why) that I have just blocked it out for years. Now it is infected and has been since St. Louis. I have been taking many courses of antibiotics for months now. Becuz St. Louis was SO scary with how violent they were willing to be in targeting me I decided it best to keep differing the semi knock out and pulling. So I kept getting antibiotics and just froze up about the pulling.

Also I realized my insurance was only covered in MA so I came home to get it pulled.
Long time to find dentist that does semi sedation extraction. Bad references for research from insurance (big surprise) so it took longer. Went to a few places, tried to do it without sedation
but becuz of past trauma of the harassment I just cant do it. I know I no longer have the nerves intact for that sort of procedure and at this point with the abuse I have endured it would be like a scene from movie Marathon Man.
Besides the feeling of a set of pliers on your tooth is unacceptable. Its not an experience that I want to have in the files. Great more PTSD material.
And someone told me that the dentist telling me that it would take a half hour was weird..like it isnt supposed ot take that long usually.Finally after the BU dental perp show I decided to go to Lahey.

So I go there without a companion and they say maybe they can get around the rules. Doc says no, rules say someone must be with you. So I reschedule and have to cancel becuz my friend is a bit unreliable. I leave a message the night before and ask for reschedule phone call.Call never comes the side of me that likes to avoid the subject goes comfy again and I live on another run of antibiotics. It gets bad and the infection is now up my face and further up the jaw bone even with antibiotics so I call today. They strangely answer..they made a big deal over the phone message they claim never came thru. "we'll check our phone records". Then a nurse calls me back and says that becuz of two no shows the doc wont reschedule anymore. They had taken the first appointment out of existence so my insurance doesnt get charged. At least if it had for SOME sort of service then it would show that I did come in for the appointment.
Scared and just tired of this whole gangstalking lifestyle I called and told the receptionist that they should have charged my insurance, I did show up and I need this thing pulled and...just everything. I think I even said I was workplace mobbing target and that was enough stress already and the trauma from all that on top of the fear with the tooth...It was a rather long tirade..

..what amazes me is that my mother has always been a person who is very afraid of hospitals and doctors and she seems to get coddled by everyone. They send in anesthesiologists that work with children to deal with her becuz she is such a mess with hospitals. Part of my trauma as a TI is that life long my emotional state has always been ignored in relation to the medical field. They have always been mean to me in general and made traumatic things like surgeries even more traumatic.
There were a few docs in the 90's that worked in the few independent places not related or owned by teaching hospitals. once the places got bought out, they left.

Another thing is that as a child if I was scared I was intimidated with "your scaring the other children"..I have had that happen in MI as an adult recently after a nurse kept poking me with a needle in the small veins in my ankles to get an IV in. My arms are fine. It was eerie to me how similar the sentiment was to 32 years early.
This is the way you are treated as person involved in the world of human experimentation and programming. You are purposely traumatized and it is minimized or you the victim are blamed.
Its the same thing as gang stalking. We are the slave class to them. Especially someone programmed as an expendable..the suicide programming would tend to give you a clue on that status huh? (well duh).
And they can get away with it by claiming you are paranoid and people do not want to help you becuz they need their medical people to be heroes and to tend them, just like they need their police and fire to rescue them and unions to provide service for them. This is why Whoever uses these professions to keep thier own sense of societal order and hierarchy in place. The public might know about experimentation or slavery of peoples but how can they argue with the very people that keep thier world safe and running. To them, the sacrifices are worth it.

I was hoping for the secretary to say 'gee you have really had a hard time and you sound upset' and work something out...but no. I wish for too much. Immediately it was "FIRST of all..." something about me screaming at her. I was a bit above normal but if you knew my deep booming voice--if I was screaming at you you would know it. Then she said "you did not let me get a word in.." Yeah, I am upset and I am going thru so much trauma in a short amount of time I am losing my mind. I am human after all and I can only take so much..and to be quite honest the tooth issue is so scary to me..
The real reason I am working so hard is inside, subconsciously I have this hope that I can finish what I am working on so that I can commit suicide and take the bad tooth with me. It crosses my mind everyday...it would just be so much easier. Much, much easier.(medical people in eastern MA can always be counted on to treat me this way. In other states they have been kind and treat me like anyone else.)

I have to warn TI's about something with the mc tech. I was 'helped out' last nite by a fly over.
I was so miserable with my face and neck hurting from the tooth that I just kept sitting there like " I just want to go I just want to go" and giving up totally really. Then a fly over that was low came by and I dont know what happened but right after there was a blackout in the building.
At that moment it was the same as in the Radioshack during the last blackout. The infuence of what ever they use on TI's and myself in this case specifically went away..it was lifted off me.
My perceptions concerning my tooth were felt and drawn differently now. I realized that this was serious and the infection had gone too far. I felt the pain as a warning for me to take care of this problem.
WHAT I AM TRYING TO WARN YOU ABOUT IS THAT THE TECH THEY USE SEEMS TO TAKE AWAY PAIN BEING A WAY TO LET YOU KNOW SOMETHING IS WRONG. IT BECOMES THIS THING THAT IS LESSENED SO YOU CAN IGNORE IT. IT ALSO IS BEING USED I FEEL TO CONTRIBUTE TO MY SUICIDE IDEATION IN THIS MANNER.
I have blogged before that during the targeting hours that things are experienced less painfully.
If they are helping you into your grave with suicide ideation and all the other shit they do then dulling pain seems to make a cocktail where in general you avoid health issues and they contribute then to your overall misery.

I lost it and hung up on secretary...it was disappointing that it was all about her.After how hard I fight everyday to stay alive and let the world know, or at least the TI world what they are doing in this sick system of oppression.
When she dons a fucking S on her chest like me then she can let me f*ckin know until then..
kiss my ass bitch.
She wouldnt last 5 minutes in these battle like TI's do and these weak idiots know it.
As usual fighters do all they can to help the public be free by fighting on some battle field covert or other wise and the silly public, the cowardly civilians sit back in thier little comfort zones and act ever so self important.
Some warriors never get medals my dear..some never even get public acknowledgment. Which is what YOU need to respect anyone isnt it? You need the overlord authority figure telling you who to root for and who to dis.

HOWEVER-I must look at the source. This is a place my family members have frequented and I believe the targeting is intergenerational.
Also an older lady who I spotted right away as the nosy 'in on the targeting' type who has hovered around my family for years..she piped up a few months ago at Lahey and thought I was stupid like the rest of my mothers family -she goes "oh, I know a dentist who deals with tooth extraction" she mentions my grandmothers dentist up the street in Burlington near Lahey. I couldnt resist so I innocently replied "but that is my grandmothers dentist....I dont speak to them anymore".
The people of MA especially the old school ones who have been keeping my family in line for years with this b*llshit system actually believe I am as gullible as my mother's family...or as dumb as my fathers. I feel I keep getting judged by these standards.

Something tells me fellow TI's, that thier way of doing things is on its way out.
Why else would there be so may of us fighting now if not? Why are so many of us aware of our situations? The system we are fighting is very old. But they are getting greedy and sloppy.

Perhaps the self righteous a-holes like that idiot old woman can take some things in my families past and use them to judge us intergenerationally.
Now you realize that personal family hardships are nothing compared to the horrors of human experimentation that you are advocating by helping victimize the Target. Is programming and/or trafficking of children a fun fave of yours as well?

I beleive I understand now. We dont care about TI's becuz they come from horrible families and if anyone is expendable enough to do experimentation on its them.
No care for the value of someones talent or intel or that they could make great contributions to society.
These people are full of shit beyond belief.
What they want is a slave class of people to deem expendable so THE MONSTERS AT THE TOP WHO USE AND ABUSE HUMAN BEINGS DON'T COME AFTER THEIR CHILDREN.

This is why if you are programmed you may secretly side with the elite at times or at least have sympathy. I never hated George Bush Jr. like everyone else becuz its obvious to me thats the game him and his people are playing. He is the target so you dont really focus on who is really horror showing for real. I dont like being manipulated like I am stupid. To be quite honest the elites values...I dont know. Most people are just such cowards, and they are so stupid. If the people wont fight and claw to get the authority figure to do the right things then how can you blame them for taking advantage?
However in this instance the odds are just too damn unfair. With the mc tech and the way its been played out its out of the public's league.
Those of us who see should say something..even for an ungrateful and aggressive public.
Think of them as dogs who have been wounded so they nip at you as you want to see the wound to fix it. They simply do not know any better.
And alot of these people do NOT think outside the little box they were raised in. To them , especially here in MA trash is to be abused and used and that is your silent status in the old New England model. My ex landlady-the sociopath claimed that the crazy across the hall who could not keep off drugs or out of jail for ripping off old ladies purses simply "came from a good family but got on the drugs and couldn't stop" and was allowed to run wild in building for years and here I am trying to go to school etc and I get targeted.
If she is from a good family why is she on drugs?
People hate critical thinking..use it as much as possible.
So people from 'good families' get away with anything (it helps when you r a rat for Brighton police as well) and people from such trash get Targeted for life.
There is a slave system in place and the system blackmails and bribes people out of their freedom, their children and their lives to serve others much more powerful and corrupt than they could ever be capable of being. Yet the outward appearance is there are good families and then there are bad families....
NO- there is corruption, blackmail, drug running money laundering, human trafficking and abuse of human rights being covered up by perceptions that belong back 30 years ago. Nobody believes this nonsense except the people it serves.

Sigh...lets hope I get lucky with a oral surgeon...and DONT wake up after the procedure a vegetable or some other nightmare.

[Also I will never kill myself so do not try to have some accident happen and say well her blog says she was..dont even think about it ..i am far too vengeful to knock off just yet. Some debts are still owed dont you know.]

Another University I use frequently finds a way out of public computer use

Well not a way out but very limiting.

This is at BU and I must say that I was told that this decision was talked about for years but it just now had been taken into action.
13 or so computers for public use were either physically moved-all were made to be only accessible by BU students.
The reference lady also said that it'll be this way "for a while".

I am sure that the people at the top levels as usual know I am going over my video and blogging all day working on exposing corruption..becuz I have been targeted here a few times.

As usual all the library staff know is that "people shouldnt sit here all day"..see how perception management works if you work it in your favor? The librarian was not saying it directly to me or as a tactic. I interjected that I am one of the people that sits here all day on occasion and especially lately but I do that becuz I know the students are not here especially. She then realized it wasnt as much of an issue then.
I am working hard becuz know they will be back soon and I wont have as much time.

Lately I have been looking a bit rough due to the workload. I look ok but I dont wash what I do have for clothes but twice a week. I have brought a blanket in becuz the ac gets pretty cold in here after a few hours. (but its a little, white fluffy Nautica a Japanese girl gave me along with some tea! Its a nice blanket and I look good in it, damn it.)

This happens every place I go across the country anyway. If I spend too long in one university library they always change thier policies after a few months to make it so public access is limited.
Some places have claimed they were thinking about it for a while and some say the decision was just made. I would be curious to see if 'a while' means after they are good and sure Rach has left the area. Wanna bet?

I am just so tired I dont even know if there are outsider artist type places with resources for me to use.
We all know that this is part of the censorship, the quiet war on people who know what is going on in this country and the abuses of human rights.
What is always of interest to me time and again is that no one who knows my situation and what has been done to me that has ruined my life-comes out and says to some key staff person 'oh she's okay, she travels and she's had a hard time. Supposedly she is writng a book or something and she will be gone soon-give her a break. Besides the students arent here yet anyway'.(BU library)
That is what would have been done in the old days with someone who was a victim of unspeakable corruption. But now, people are so swayed and intimidated into the totalitarian way of thinking that they dont realize they have become part of the problem.

aside:[Everytime I get on the computer here lately I keep getting this psychic impression, alot, that someone somewhere thinks that I should be working or worring about supporting myself and my future not doing whatever I am doing everyday.
This is all part of the general sentiment towards me-forget what happened and get a job.]
The system that is in place now in the USA perhaps the world I dont know, demands that u abandon truth and replace it with what they want you to beleive that benefits the power structure.

Back to the point with the library...why dont they just limit peoples time to like two hours or so or maybe work with people who may be working on something not just surfing?
It would make more sense.
I WAS TOLD BY A LIBRARY PATRON THAT THE REASON THAT THEY HAVE COMPUTERS FOR PUBLIC USE IS DUE TO THE FACT THEY ARE GIVEN FEDERAL FUNDS TO TO SO.
THE PERSON TO REGISTER COMPLAINT WITH ACCORDING TO THE REFERNCE PERSON IS casserly@bu.edu

this era is like some sort of cold war with the public...thank god people still talk to each other.

Workplace bullying-why better descriptions?

http://www.worktrauma.org/change/bullying.htm

I notice that there is a no 'you're crazy' attitude in reference to workplace bullying as opposed to gang stalking.
I notice that what we call "professional gang stalkers" they call "Serial Corporate Killers".
Yet a TI is always left with that familiar feeling, a mental one that maybe this really does not exist.

The only difference is that gang stalkers get to do more stuff that is deceptive and crazy. They do it in the outside world.

The much more detailed descriptions read as definitely more confident. It is officially recognized and no shrinks or assholes are invalidating people that this does not exist and they are crazy.

The guy in the infamous TI video, the typical skinny loser dressed in military fatigues with something to prove: that is definitely an example of "aggressive posturing".

The terminology is more streamlined and sounds more sensible..like the victim is more confident.

That's becuz they probably didn't have their house entered, the cops and half the nation in on it, and betrayed/sold out by thier friends and relatives.
They dont have to deal with sitting at the copy machine and getting gassed out of a vent.
Nor picking up thier capsules from the pharmacy and the clerk looking down as they hand them the bag like "please don't take these"(most people don't become medical hate people u know).

Are they dealing with mc tech?
Do they find themselves paralyzed as they are sitting ,stimulated and being told internally that "only men run the world" and "u r nothing...remember that." Over and over again?

Did this start out with co workers flash mobbing them?
Were they told in the caf that it was an investigation and it will all blow over once they find out who REALLY stole that stapler!..?

I am sorry but I am just a bit jealous. I wish I could end these problems when I go outside or enter my home.

They even get a term to decribe the effects: Work Trauma! It describes what Targets go thru all day long:
"The effects on victims-
Work Trauma has a devastating effect on the victims' productivity, emotional and physical health. The victims waste, according to research, between 10 and 52 per cent of their time at work defending themselves and networking for support, thinking about the situation, being demotivated and stressed, let alone absences due to stress-related illnesses.
More often than not, victims blame themselves and doubt their own self-worth. They feel shame and guilt and replay incidents over and over in their minds, wondering if they could have done anything differently. They are anxious and troubled. In the severe cases, victims suffer from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). "

Well, I hope this is helpful becuz its all we are going to get. Just do what u usually do as a TI and just transfer it over to your situation as a gang stalking target.

Maybe show this to someone the next time they ask what its all about.

Gruesome story..possibly MC related

The thing that is most sadistic about stories like this is not what the man did..humans have been bloodyminded and conducted war as far back as our history can recall-its the fact that always in these stories there is the inevitable 'fuck you' to TI's and other people who know what is going on with mind control, trauma based and other wise.
As I read this I just waited for some comment from a supposed random passenger; something that would indicate how 'unusual' the circumstances were.

Sure enough it was the good old ' he was just like a robot, no rage or anything' comment.
http://www.thestar.com/article/470913

(And who the hell thinks some 6' guy with a shaved head, a black tee and sunglasses on in the dark is not sinister?! That is a whole other issue. Years ago that would have registered as dangerous.)

I feel I have enough experience as a TI of org stalk and tech as well as a tbmc survivor to speak on this incident. I have done what research I can and I have personal experience as well.

I can attest from my experiences that Greyhound buses at least in the USA are heavily infultrated by the organized stalking system as well as a few experiences in the midwest that were more horrible than anything I'd experienced in the northeast.

Either this guy was a programmed person who was on a mission to kill this other passenger for reasons unknown to us or he was someone who may have been targeted for deletion. He may have snapped and gone after just anyone. Worse case would be that there were perps on that very bus and he just lost it..or he had been messed with prior and had slipped into kill mode.

( in programming there is a point you cross when killing someone is now necesarry to survival of you the machine and/or the mission. This 'area' is in the heart region, it 'feels' like, and when mentally the 'line' is crossed and you go into that mode, you feel u r entering a region of the heart that is black-totally without feeling. Killing may be performed without any emotion becuz now it is simply to rid yourself of anyone who is truly in the way of 'the mission'. There is no connection to self. It is the performance of a necessary act-that's all.
This part of programming can be phased out eventually with age and self examination, self love, love of others...this is what they set you up with in the beginning when they claim u r dangerous..afterwards the network will do all it can to try to provoke u so they can get rid of you. Deprogramming females seem alot more capable of resisting and learning to depend on other parts of programming to 'take care' of any one in the way of what they are working on.
This is why people who may be programmed while they kill would seem 'robotic'.

This guy could have been fully functional and simply given the right commands.
Or he could have been provoked into kill mode by the gangstalking networks as to go after someone becuz he is obsolete or whatever else.)
This man is also the right age to be from a common generation of allegedly programmed children with similar abilities. ( Forty years old..1968).

Who knows what his motives may have been.
It may have been an assignment or he targeted this guy for his own reasons. I notice there was a call for better, airport like security after the incident.

What the perps get away with on those buses is lawless. Drivers and passengers. I think cameras would be a good idea, but it would also make it easier to harass TI's.

I have learned however that the people who work for these groups fear being caught in the act and even though security personell are invovled as well as drivers, if there are cameras and alternate security personell to the perps the gang stalkers are more careful and CAN BE THREATENED WITH THE VERY SECURITY SYSTEM THAT THEY HAVE PLANTS IN.

If you are going to catch a programmed killer before the fact is yet to be seen.
Personally Greyhound needs to have more accountability with passengers and drivers. The most harassment I have ever encountered has been on Greyhound busses. On occasion the entire bus were perps right from the bustation.

A dangerous programmer and alleged serial killer of children once tried to access me on a Greyhound and was using some music programmed into his cell phone when I woke up out of it and he got 'interrupted'. If there were cameras he might not have dared show his face or attempt that.
I now realize that in order to balance out the abuses of power right now in this country there HAS to be cameras. I know they suck, they are psychically disturbing and intrusive. They seem to provide the perps with info and god forbid entertainment if you are being harassed on sec cam or street cam and someone accesses it for that purpose.
IN MY EXPERIENCE THESE GANGS CAN DO WORSE THINGS TO YOU WITHOUT THE CAMERAS THERE.

You need a video camera and voice recorder at all times. You need to make sure they do not steal them when u doze off. Perp authority figures will encounter u to sour u on all authority figures. YOU MUST LEARN how to quickly define the next cop or security personell who could be for real and helpful from the 'bad guy' u just encountered.

The less cameras, the more infiltrated security personell will misbehave and the more dense with perps in population. The more severe the crimes will be on TI's.

Perhaps this is all to get us to be comfortable with a constant security presence and a bit of healthy daily harassment leading to a world of conformity etc.
This would explain why these gangs are not readily stopped or investigated. After dealing with them you'll gladly do whatever to minimize the harassment.

Or in this case, the Jason takes Greyhound type violence.

Remote Behavioral Influence Technology Evidence

http://www.slavery.org.uk/RBITE.htm#_edn1

http://www.nwbotanicals.org/oak/newphysics/synthtele/synthtele.html

http://sci.tech-archive.net/Archive/sci.electronics.equipment/2005-06/msg00031.html

'gangstalking' in politics/Frame up for trauma based mind control survivors

'Gang stalking' is much nastier than everyone thinks.

An example is the man who is suspected of murdering that former spy/Kremlin critic in London.

http://www.usatoday.com/news/world/2007-09-16-lugovoi_N.htm

I recall a story on tv. It was British so of course viewers get treated more like adults in thier ability to comprehend.
It said that he wanted to be more visible and seek public office and intimated that he was doing so due to activity we TI's have dubbed 'gang stalking'. I have often heard from other TI's who are more seasoned that running for office of mayor is a good move becuz it puts the Target out in the public eye and "let's the people make up their own minds about the person".

What was more interesting was a man from the Kremlin they showed sitting in a chair as he commented on the situation. He had his hands intertwined and in front of him high up leaning on elbows. 'I am hiding and I have the power' sort of body language.
Arrogant but insecure (who could be secure in a world such as this were it seems everyone is expendable?)
With a muted, perverse joy he spoke of how this man who is the main suspect in the London murder must live under the gun- for if he is not guilty then he would be forced to say who IS...
it was so obviously the same game that alot of us TI's are in.
We are made the focus of attention and we suffer yet we face greater peril at naming those truly guilty of crimes.

Its a prison you can never get out of.

I have noticed also that Putin says that the dead spy 'said everything negative he could about his service so he had nothing new to say' . I am taking that to mean that he exposed all the info he could and once he did they got rid of him becuz nothing he said was all that incriminating and he was ineffective and worst of all they found out everything he knew so they could neutralize any threat from the info.

http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/news/world/europe/article1312871.ece
"Mr Putin said: 'He got a three-year suspended sentence and there was no need for him to flee. He had said all the negative things he could say about his service, so there could not be anything new in his actions.' "

I have heard from other tbmc survivors that a certain agency wants to know all that the survivor knows so that they can erase files or thier connection to those activities.

Really, its a way of erasing the person as well all info that they have. A lifetime that doesn't matter or exist.

But I want the family of the poisoned man to know something. Even though no one believes alot of mind control survivors stories there is something going on with the trafficking of children and the programming of people for use in all sorts of capacities.
We do not imagine the stalking and harassment. We do not imagine strangers knowing way too much about us or that we are treated like mindless toys our whole lives. The whole thing is creepy and a living hell.
True insanity would be much, much easier.

I want you to know that there was something in that man's death. When he died it was like a signal was given out. A warning: the system is getting rid of people ...and its the beginning of something awful: Its On.
I will leave it at that.

I dont know what the real story is or who really poisoned him or for what motive..as usual the circumstances are not important. Its the same old story anyway.

Remember no matter what the outside world does, programmed people have a link with each other. Like we are really each others only true family. We can sympathize with the abuse, being treated like a work horse your whole life and the having all of it stay in the shadows forever. No one knows no one cares and the men who play the chess games seem to never have to lose except to each other..even then you suspect they go off together as friends in private.

I have heard and read that a common set up to get rid of tbmc survivors that the system is trying to liquidate is of course to get you labeled, often when you haven't acted out at all and before you realize you are being set up and gang stalked.
Another common but more complex game is to set up the survivor and get them to become rats or witnesses, then when they are killed in supposed retaliation-its a familiar story. One that the public can digest readily and no one is the wiser.
I feel this is what was done to me and it was done so sloppily that it was obvious.
Why would I be "running from the FBI?" I was never subpoenaed. Nor was I questioned.
I was told by an alleged Target who acted like a perp in the end, to make a video tape as a witness. Of course this is when I still was just taking it all in and didn't react to people knowing my situation when they should know nothing about me at all.

The system treats you like property and your right to privacy is a joke to them.

If you are 'gangstalked' and have unusual circumstances then try to find out what the true motive is. And always beware of traps. They will set them for you to stumble and bumble into. they will set up circumstances and then engineer it so you go the way they desire.

add on to last post

Oh dont get confused..this includes my family's dirty laundry as well. ALL of it. Both sides. ( well i know little of the Cedrone's but what I do know may serve as slightly amusing.

I said EVERYBODY's everything.

I will never forgive the fact my family KNEW what was happening and still helped the system destroy my life. My uncles guilt in his voice on the phone was enough. Wassa matta? Trying to make sure my little cousins car doenst ever blow up again? With the people he used to know, he's lucky thats all that happened.
A mere exagerated claim that I am 'crazy like Danny' from old woman and a fat dicontent like my mother is not enough to quite squelch how obnoxious the sordid details of my story are.

So go fuck yourselves. You took advantage of someone who was a good person and was a mind control victim waking up....you all took full advantage of that. Now the whole system can rot for all I care.
How DARE you put yourselves all of you above me so I am your little sacrificial lamb and you all get to have good lives while I suffer?

A set up for mind control survivors

'Gang stalking' is much nastier than everyone thinks.

An example is the man who is suspected of murdering that former spy/Kremlin critic in London.

http://www.usatoday.com/news/world/2007-09-16-lugovoi_N.htm

I recall a story on tv. It was British so of course viewers get treated more like adults in thier ability to comprehend.
It said that he wanted to be more visible and seek public office and intimated that he was doing so due to activity we TI's have dubbed 'gang stalking'. I have often heard from other TI's who are more seasoned that running for office of mayor is a good move becuz it puts the Target out in the public eye and "let's the people make up their own minds about the person".

What was more interesting was a man from the Kremlin they showed sitting in a chair as he commented on the situation. He had his hands intertwined and in front of him high up leaning on elbows. 'I am hiding and I have the power' sort of body language.
Arrogant but insecure (who could be secure in a world such as this were it seems everyone is expendable?)
With a muted, perverse joy he spoke of how this man who is the main suspect in the London murder must live under the gun- for if he is not guilty then he would be forced to say who IS...
it was so obviously the same game that alot of us TI's are in.
We are made the focus of attention and we suffer yet we face greater peril at naming those truly guilty of crimes.

Its a prison you can never get out of.

I have noticed also that Putin says that the dead spy 'said everything negative he could about his service so he had nothing new to say' . I am taking that to mean that he exposed all the info he could and once he did they got rid of him becuz nothing he said was all that incriminating and he was ineffective and worst of all they found out everything he knew so they could neutralize any threat from the info.

http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/news/world/europe/article1312871.ece
"Mr Putin said: 'He got a three-year suspended sentence and there was no need for him to flee. He had said all the negative things he could say about his service, so there could not be anything new in his actions.' "

I have heard from other tbmc survivors that a certain agency wants to know all that the survivor knows so that they can erase files or thier connection to those activities.

Really, its a way of erasing the person as well all info that they have. A lifetime that doesn't matter or exist.

But I want the family of the poisoned man to know something. Even though no one believes alot of mind control survivors stories there is something going on with the trafficking of children and the programming of people for use in all sorts of capacities.
We do not imagine the stalking and harassment. We do not imagine strangers knowing way too much about us or that we are treated like mindless toys our whole lives. The whole thing is creepy and a living hell.
True insanity would be much, much easier.

I want you to know that there was something in that man's death. When he died it was like a signal was given out. A warning: the system is getting rid of people ...and its the beginning of something awful: Its On.
I will leave it at that.

I dont know what the real story is or who really poisoned him or for what motive..as usual the circumstances are not important. Its the same old story anyway.

Remember no matter what the outside world does, programmed people have a link with each other. Like we are really each others only true family. We can sympathize with the abuse, being treated like a work horse your whole life and the having all of it stay in the shadows forever. No one knows no one cares and the men who play the chess games seem to never have to lose except to each other..even then you suspect they go off together as friends in private.

I have heard and read that a common set up to get rid of tbmc survivors that the system is trying to liquidate is of course to get you labeled, often when you haven't acted out at all and before you realize you are being set up and gang stalked.
Another common but more complex game is to set up the survivor and get them to become rats or witnesses, then when they are killed in supposed retaliation-its a familiar story. One that the public can digest readily and no one is the wiser.
I feel this is what was done to me and it was done so sloppily that it was obvious.
Why would I be "running from the FBI?" I was never subpoenaed. Nor was I questioned.
I was told by an alleged Target who acted like a perp in the end, to make a video tape as a witness. Of course this is when I still was just taking it all in and didn't react to people knowing my situation when they should know nothing about me at all.

The system treats you like property and your right to privacy is a joke to them.

If you are 'gangstalked' and have unusual circumstances then try to find out what the true motive is. And always beware of traps. They will set them for you to stumble and bumble into. they will set up circumstances and then engineer it so you go the way they desire.

Police St. Mary's

Police around this country as I have traveled have been involved in repeatedly, without end, trying to set me up with ongoing harassment. Thier biggest ploy was to have men constantly stopping in front of me and opening the car door, with repeated intimations of prostitution for years on end. After a while of repeated harassment I am sure they are hoping that the TI will break and just get in the car one day..that is how bad the harassment was say, in St. Louis. I had the urge to just give in to the repeated attempts, so this sort of activity becomes intimidation and brainwashing.

Now it is the repeated cruising of me by officers in cars. As if I am such a suspicious character. I cannot even start my day without some move that is intimidation within the hour of me walking out the door.

I stopped to sit down and get something in my purse on St. Mary's street near Brookline. A cruiser went by from BPD and I got the 'officer leans over passenger side to look at what you are doing' routine. Then a Brookline cruiser came by a minute later driving the other direction. He was smiling a bit, friendly like...so its bad cop good cop I guess.

Every time I am harassed in an obvious manner as such a client will be outed and all the sordid details of thier private lives as well. These are the wealthy men who pay your salaries...most likely they and their fat bitch madame want me harassed until I am lableled or commit suicide.

Or maybe I got it wrong. Maybe the harassment is a message...for me to go to the FBI or something much higher and less out of reach of Boston's bribing hands and tell everybodies everything. Maybe that's what the harassment is about..do they want me to go public or just to a task force that will at least take a statement?

Holocaust survivors and TIs

I know that we are not being starved or rounded up physically. I understand the Holocaust crimes were much more overt and physical in nature.

http://news.ncmonline.com/news/view_article.html?article_id=52fd2ae3128d761fa5c3aa401e968081

The thing I notice about this article is the similarities in psychological damage that victims of organized stalking have when compared to Holocost victims.

In a quiet way, they do 'kill' family members and as well we have to deal with them living on physically knowing they betrayed us. Dealing with people in uniform has become horrid for alot of TI's becuz its never clear whether you'll be harassed or not. And alot of the uniformed members know of the others activites even though theymay not engage this is also stressful.

Likewise for us there is no privacy.

"Holocaust survivors, who felt so deprived, often cannot adjust to living with a roommate, whom they may believe is plotting against them or stealing their possessions.
Some are very distrustful."

Targets also have to become distrustful for the same motives.

I know no one beleives us about the sprayings and the gassings. But the fear is always going to be there.

Fear of retaliation of complaint.

I notice the timing of intensifying targeting or newly targeting people is convenient. If the organized stalking system had pulled this 20 years ago the survivors of the Holaust might have recognized it for what it was and had something to say about it or supported TI's and thier claims.
THESE BASTARDS MADE SURE THAT THE ONLY LIVING WITNESSES TO A FULL SCALE VERSION OF WHAT THEY ARE DOING ARE TOO OLD TO HELP CURRENT VICTIMS OF CRIMES WITH SIMILARITIES.

And whatever is not done to targets overtly is now pulled of covertly via tech and chemicals.

And no one is taking this seriously and everyone is either ignorant or playing ignorant.

Then again....I heard a story about a criminal in NY on the show "Masterminds".
In the clothing district. He started as a janitor and worked up to getting his own shop via lone sharking outside the mobs pocket.(work w/ but not part of). He had a brilliant plan to steal clothing from other shops, he only went high end and only took a few dresses off each rack. They would get out before the cops answered the alarm so it seemed like a false alarm. This went on for years and no one ever took notice becuz among the high number of items he only stole a few from each rack. He got busted only becuz of drug addiction and sloppiness ensued. whydou a holes think i know stuff when i dont? why arent you harassing mny mother who claims to have dealt with the synadacate? why arent you bustein julie? why arent you busting jakes newtioon connections? why arent uyou busting my dads family that calims some guy works for them who sorkes for kennedy? that theyare mafia? why does this always revovle arounf me? why is the boston fbi still hiding evidence for a 911 coverup?

Its the same system for TI's. If the system destroyed a mass of people it would be noted. But who cares about ONE person in this town and a FEW PEOPLE in this neightborhood of that city?
No one notices for the same reason. The numbers of humans being destroyed is most likely negotiable to the total population.
This is also society's little box they can stand on and use a the typical arrogant rationale we have all become used to : 'You're just one person, this does not exist and really- its not hurting you.'

Ensuring memory loss-get diagnosed w/PTSD and then gangstalked

I knew the cortisol issue and the adrenal burn out for women of 30 and up. I knew that the org stalk was being intensified at just the right age to take away from me what I had left to build a life that would be wonderful in my 30's.

But I also knew for certain, after I was discouraged from seeking a hypnotist becuz "that would bring up much memory for you" by a psychologist in 2005. I was deprogramming and recovering memories all on my own. I swear it was from the mold exposure, it seemed to make compartments start leaking memories. I was putting things together.

How do you ensure that no more memories come thru...that the leaks stop? Destroy the persons mind as much as possible.
http://www.sciencedirect.com/science?_ob=ArticleURL&_udi=B6TBX-4FXWWY7-1&_user=489277&_rdoc=1&_fmt=&_orig=search&_sort=d&view=c&_version=1&_urlVersion=0&_userid=489277&md5=cdc4360a591a6359ebd413f49f7068e2

I had an idea that this was one of the main reasons for constant daily stress. And all TI's have noted a campaign to up stress levels via classical conditioning/sensitizing and noise campaigns.
It really seems like the whole process is not only a mind wipe effect but a wipe of the person completely....this is why in so many TI's video's you see people who look docile and lacking in aggression, it also serves the system for us to not be believed.
When you are repeatedly stressed from abuse and no one seems to notice or care then that's invalidation-add to that the perps constant 'be a goo little victim or you'll get labeled for telling' and especially if your family helps intimate your might be nuts.
That is ALOT of stress.
Eventually with the whole formulated system that is used TI's suffer from an almost vegetative state where compliance is now the norm. No one cares or seems to notice your cries for help so your become a compliant victim and NO human mind can keep recalling those memories everyday over and over..so you just 'forget' and 'give in', you lose conviction and confidence .

I always had a theory that people with PTSD were especially targeted.
Becuz I know from my programming that PTSD is what serves to keep important memories or commands alive in a victim day after day year after year. I was always recalling memories but it was hidden, covered up by a pleasant faced alter on the surface. This is one reason why victims cant stay clean..the hidden memories become too much and you feel you need to reach for something to 'stop' the feelings connected to memories.
I am one of the most fortunate people on earth. I will die knowing the truth about myself and my own life. Most people find anyway they can to run from having to deal with these memories ALL THEIR LIVES. Thus they are easily controlled.
(also a doctor who had previously stood up to the gs system by telling me that "they need to know someone is advocating for you", unfortunately she had to become part of the activities and in the end of a ten year relationship wrote a letter directly diagnosing me with PTSD where prior it seemed as if she did not want to discuss it with me for years.)

Unfortunately for TI's they utilize PTSD against us. The perps work off the PTSD system as to add memories to the gallery of hell and thus they have an 'inhouse' system of perpetual gang stalking IN THE TI'S OWN MIND to assist the other parts of the formula that is used on the outside as stimuli.
Having PTSD helps the perps becuz a Target will internalize more trauma.
The Tavistock Institute uses organized stalking-like methods to 'cure' shell shock (PTSD) in soldiers.
Its inhumane becuz wiping someones mind and personality is not the way to cure them.

Cortisol from stress assists in memory loss making the prisoner/TI docile.
Its especially helpful for them to be able to get you to forget all that has happened during the activites against you.

A bit of validation of police, fire, utility worker involvement (finally)

http://pupaganda.com/2008/07/02/utility-workers-hired-as-stasi-informants-in-colorado-california-arizona.aspx

http://www.prisonplanet.com/utility-workers-hired-as-stasi-informants-in-colorado-california-arizona.html

Well, DUUHHHH.

All TI's who are genuine could have told you this years ago but nooooo, no one listens to the alleged crazies who claim that police, fire and city workers seem to be surveilling and harassing us.

It's like the disclaimers I saw on taxi's recently here in Boston and Brookline. " video camera is in cab"..blah blah blah. When I asked the cabbie if the cameras were present years ago (when I was slammed in 2003 to 2006 ) he seemed surprised I would have thought of it and resorted to the reliable one liner " if you have nothing to hide you have nothing to worry about" which I destroyed, with the critical thinking.

We TI's have been spied on and that info has been abused. Alot of us have been exploited beyond belief with the advantage the system has by being able to gain superior knowledge.
We know damn well that our situations are due to plots of evil design if not conspiracy.

So that means that everyone who ever denied us will now possibly be accountable as part of these activities becuz now its admitted to that such activity exists...so who is to say that it did not exist before if enough people give testimony and can show financial loss/ gross negligence etc?

In 2005 Boston Globe had story on school bus drivers and truckers being also given these privileges.

We all know the 'perps' are commonly union types, police, fire.
What makes no sense is if thier job is to watch us, why must they harass as well? And why do they use info obviously gained from a massive investigation into the Targets life?

We have all experienced this and the activity is to persecute the target until they start reacting in such a way that they would be acting suspiciously.

By the way, with the network all TI's have experienced in existence crime as well as terrorism could be wiped out. We all know this..obviously the system is abused to get rid of people who are not convenient to those that support the system, have enough to pay off the system or are simply connected enough to things the system finds important enough to cover up.

Any and all black market activity like slave labor, human trafficking, drugs, the international kiddie network, and I an imagine other stuff you wouldn't want know about.

YOU CANNOT STREAMLINE A SYSTEM OF CONTROL THAT IS CORRUPT TO BEGIN WITH. THIS WILL ONLY LEAD TO A POLICE STATE OR ENSLAVEMENT.
If everyone is being watched and 'we have nothing to worry about if we have nothing to hide' then how come a madam, a drug dealer, a woman with repeated crooked lawsuits, a real estate company with a history of screwing tenants and gross negligence/breaking contracts who are funded by HUD, and every other bad guy is having a great life but I, a woman who was preparing to go to school, doing art work and getting ready to take part in life changing therapy and having a spiritual awakening was not only treated just like a terrorist suspect but has a horrible life due to organized stalking?

Well, its interesting that all the activites that makes people terrorist suspects were done to me as a target; people photographing me with no apparent art value, taking notes outside house in Waltham, people posing as panhandlers that are new to the area (I love that one) etc.

The system is corrupt from the inside..as long as true criminals continue to set up innocent poor helpless women for scapegoating and entertainment of the spineless masses then the system will fail...always. Get it? 33.3_ ad infinitum. The flaw is there and it will not go away and just becuz you cover it up doesnt mean it is not in existence.

I was no more a terrorist than anyone else in my group who sold me out.

And the system has too many anchors anyway..."boyfriend revenge service" "running from the FBI" simply "in trouble" " your with them or against them" (define 'them').

Everybody knew what was going to happen to me and no one helped me..everyone sold me out.
This goes deeper than just the current 911..I mean 9-11 security measures.

The new world order is believed by many to be the solution to world wars. They actually trust the system to give them a fair deal as long as they help them clean house.
Perhaps they will be taken care of..if they provide proof of compliance.

When I leave the college I utilize research anyone leaving has to open their bags even though it could be just a small opening and not all bags are searched. There is a machine like in the store that to prevent stealing, so the books must be tagged. I guess some people steal books (Losers w/ capital L)...anyway, I asked once why the ineffective search.
I was told " We are simply looking for compliance".

That is what the system is looking for in everyone nowadays. It wants everyone to be a kind of reservist, like of the military. We want to know we can trust you in the event of...
What? Corruption? So being a good citizen now means not questioning corruption.

An actual legit use of the term 'Targeted Individual'

http://www.boycott-riaa.com/article/14753

The article says " targeted individual" and "people targeted by.." a company.
What is so rediculous about our situation is that even if no one admits to what seems like remote influence and claims to only be targeted by stalking and survaillence the person is still not beleived yet this article shows that there is such a thing as being targeted or bullied by someone who wants very badly to win or get rid of you..for whatever thier motive.

I guess it pays to know exactly who is targeting you however...this seems to be the main difference.

Its used against us that our targeting is done without any notification.
Soooo lets get this straight..human beings would never do anything in a sneaky manner under the radar?

O-kaaaayyy.

oppression..it just feels good to have it spelled out.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oppression

"Oppression is noted by living with constant fear"...sound familiar TI's?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Police_oppression


"Police brutality is the intentional use of excessive force, usually physical, but potentially also in the form verbal attacks and psychological intimidation, by a police officer.."

Lost Cause

Please do not be afraid of or look down on TI's or mind control survivors.
In actuality alot of tbmc survivors really feel superior to the rest of the population becuz they have more ability, talent intel and looks than average people. Targets dont need more ignorance that can be used by the perps against us as fuel.

You know the public looks down on victims and hates 'losers'. Secretly they see these people as damaged and worth less than other people. I dont buy all that 'you are a survivor' bullshit.
Nobody likes a victim. It bothers people. Really victims are seen as trash and vulnerable easy targets.

But programmed people have different parts to them and alot of them do not even acknowledge the outside world as valid. This is why people hate our independence, strength, fierce force and utilization of drive. They hate our aloofness and attention to self.
If I am self repairing machine I have an obligation to keep myself up. Its my job. Its my job to look deeply within always to be systems manager.
Yes, I see alot of mc victims or people I suspect are and people are so mean to them "she has to be perfect all the time!" Well asshole, how would you like to face a fate worse that death or anything here on earth if you DONT look perfect all the time. I stopped looking perfect(over 29 according to the system-of course mc slaves look 23 at 29 anyway) and my suicide programming kicked in!
One of the layers of mindless self suicide commands consisted of informing me it was 'time to go' becuz I didnt look model flawless anymore!
Now there is an incentive to keep one's looks up!!
SO dont bitch about people you know nothing about-outsiders!!!
Alot of the celebs and beautiful people you see who have a hard time are mind controlled and are most likely covertly terrorized so stop judging from ignorance.

Actually the human spirit wants to repair itself so there is a strong attempt to become whole and help others...this seems absolutely abhorrent to the system. They hate this and will pull you down before you know what is up.

People who are programmed are not lost causes. They are not weak victims. In fact if allowed to decompartmentalize and grow to thier proper size and intel level they would be pretty powerful and this seems to be one of the main reasons for the targeting campaign.

All TI's are not lost causes and I think this is a cowardly reaction from society. The last perp that intimated that everyone thought I was a lost cause was a former fatty who could not stop looking at my stomach and sighing jealously.
Fuck all these people. The public should feel gratitude for all we've been put through for them and what activism most recovered people do afterwards as well.
Its always the urge to help humanity that seems the constant...but they exploit us and hate us and treat us like dirt.

Intelligent people might feel that humanity or the public is a lost cause becuz of how stupid they act repetitively throughout history or how dumbed down they have become or how ineffective they are at truly making sacrifices and making thier leaders do thier will.

The lost cause is just another tactic by the perps and I bet if the average person really knew about these atrocities they would sympathize with us in a minute...that is why the enslavers have to keep a ring around us, surrounding us at all times and messing with us so we turn on ourselves.

Self harm/Motives for being Targeted (long post)

I always have examples on here of how society just overlooks torture and abuse and its affects via an abusive system of multiple abusers and technology.

http://boston.craigslist.org/gbs/etc/796691434.html

People with PTSD start self harming..usually victims of multiple rape.
It makes me wonder about the electrical part of the study..are these people hip to the fact that some people who self harm are targeted by influencing tech.

I have to admit here, even though it might be to the perps advantage, that my abuse has been so bad and the targeting thru tech so severe in the Boston area that I have off and on very occasionally done self harm. One can only hope it is in private but unfortunately some displays have been public....I am sure the gs system loves this becuz this is a sure fire way to get someone labeled.

I make sure it is very short lived and I notice that if I engage in this behavior and I am alone that all of a sudden people show up.

The reason I engage in this is purely becuz I am targeted to do so. And it IS a result of multiple rape as psychology would suggest but not as outright physical rape.
I still have enough of my self analyzing skills left in me to 'scan' myself as the urge to self harm is happening to me.
I have noticed that it is due to whatever tech or influence that the system has but it would have no effect at all if I had not been tortured for years with classical conditioning attached to my sexual drive and desire along with shaming and humiliation concerning my sexuality.

The rapes can be of the physical body-you can be sexually aroused and the vagina is swollen and you feel like you are having an orgasm but it is very slight. You are just sitting there and usually it is in unison with being paralyzed and unable to move the rest of the body. It feels like total mind control and usually it is accompanied by put downs or commands. Its the essence of rape in a prison camp that we have all heard or read about or seen in movies. It is brainwashing and an intricate part of the classic thought reform formula.

I personally have never been raped as such outright. I have NEVER had to deal with such a lack of control and humiliation, ever. Especially without my former working girl alter ego, Rachel, years ago that compartmentalized anything unpleasant emotionally and physically.

So it seems the formula is the combination of the gang stalking tactics-especially the classical conditioning attached to sexuality and adding humiliation and shaming along with finally the technology that seems to influence behavior is responsible.

If I get out of a certain area I can feel the urge to self harm disappear.

Also I am sometimes doing this becuz it is a way of fighting the constant bombardment of behavior modification.
Remember if you do not do what the system wants nowadays you are a terrorist.
Especially someone like me who is programmed would be treated like one even though my roles were not violent towards others.
There is a military part of me that refuses failure but its 'mission' is to write a book exposing the crimes I have witnessed in the past few years and help mankind....not kill anyone or blow things up.
From what we all have seen of recent years THAT in itself is a threat to what they are trying to do in the world. High level people are being destroyed or targeted for telling the truth or disclosing information that is damning.

So whenever I have had absolutely ENOUGH of the collective effort of the network here in Boston with ideations, now nightly dreams as well as in person perp suggestions to normalize, get a real steady job, conform, forget forget forget- become a 'new person'....all this horrible thought reform..the programming part of me that will accept no defeat upon threat of death threatens to ..(do physical harm) if the behavior modification does not stop.

A few smacks to the head and I notice that interference stops. I have also banged my head as well and I believe it is done publically by me on purpose. I notice perps in cars going by with very worried looks on thier faces when I engaged in this behavior.

I will (inflict physical self harm)......and demand complete non interference in my prime directive.
Well folks, you just heard it from the most Masculine, heartless, mean ass soldier part of me..or whatever it is.
But the people who know they are dealing with a tbmc survivor know this...they purposely turn this side of the personality against the self to create self abuse and even suicide in the name of 'honour'. They know exactly what they are doing.
And also I notice that during what I call Targeting Time : 6 AM to 12 midnight almost exactly every day, pain is not as acutely felt as after 12 midnight.
I beat myself one day in a hotel room for letting the perps get the best of me a few months ago.
I noticed that the pain of the injuries was only really felt physically after 12 midnight....and it really really hurt and I wondered why I had done it.

It definitely has to do with being targeted by tech...I can feel it. Believe me I know.
The urge, even though they hook onto all the pain and shame inside of you to 'fuel' the reaction, the URGE is from the mind and it IS FALSE.
It is against my will.

Here are a few theories as to why TI's are targeted:
- It seems one of thier goals is to create sex slaves and the same system that existed via trauma based programming they want to create the same things except without the compartmentalization.
Even the hurt inside 'fueling' the self harm response is similar to what happens during suicide programming when a compartment of pure trauma and hurt and pain that the slave has been harboring all its life is used as emotional fuel to self destruct the person...which is why the slave must be gang stalked and harassed for life so that they are so miserable that the 'fuel tank' of hurt and pain is always 'full' and you WILL kill yourself mindlessly on commands that are really post hypnotic suggestions placed in your mind/memory as a child.
THE THING THAT IS WRONG AND CRUEL ABOUT WHAT THEY ARE DOING NOW IS THAT IT IS LIKE SOMEONE DOING SURGERY WITHOUT ANESTHESIA. THERE IS NO COMPARTMENTALIZATION AND IT IS NOT AN BUNCH OF ALTERS- THEY ARE DOING THIS TO THE 'REAL ME', THE CORE PERSONALITY.

I have mentioned before that the people handling survivors now seem different from the past programmers. There is no art used or images as such. There is no healing energy, that's for sure and the is the most noticeable difference.
There is sometimes this horrid, fake sense of peace in the body's center and it sucks. It so unbelievable to the human spirit...it just doesn't register as real, true love or peace.
Its like an antidepressant, its fake.

I feel whoever is doing this sees nothing wrong with making mind controlled drones in horrible ways via tech especially and torture.....and they do not see what is wrong with experimenting on human being who are:
1) survivors of trauma based mind control.
2) under the radar becuz tbmc is casually denied as existing. (there is evidence).
3) were 'expendables' any way and were going to die of suicide programming.
This is and has been pure torture. Without the compartmentalization it is pain and torture constantly which is why so many people are suiciding or going insane.
If you suicide or go insane that is pretty serious reaction to events and stimuli.

-There are mentions on the Internet of the military trying to create soldiers that can be remotely instructed on the battlefield in future via implants which would explain away the whole gs system as a war game to test .
My problem with this is that in a psycho civilized world one would not need war, and in a world where minds were joined why would fighting ever exist?
These technologies are not good if they keep people who enjoy fighting and wars going. There is no hope in that, and if there are those who enjoy war then let those who enjoy peace, art, the gods and spirit also have their piece of the world.
These people have no right to keep us all prisoner in their theatres of war.

-Alot of TI's have complained about being harassed by religious types that seems to want to see certain people 'purified'. Sure we can blame the Christian right but even this kind of torture is beyond them. This would have to be people so extreme as to resemble the Inquisition more so. And there are certain other religions that are extremists who are doing things other than blowing things up. Muslims harass gays in Holland and beat them up saying they cannot hold hands in public. They are targeting anyone involved in anything immoral. Who says extremists in other countries dont have this tech to target Americans or anyone for that matter.
Yet, I also read that a part of the Bush administration gave an interview and it was mentioned to a reporter that the Republicans and others who wont go along with thier plans will go thru thier own private purgatory...and when pressed for more detail the man said they would know it when it happened.
(I have to look this up and see if such a moment really happened or if there is record.)
That would be similar to what is happening to TI's. Its sort of like the movie "Flat liners" where you go into the beginning stages of brain death and you find yourself reliving all your sins and things you are guilty for. After you relive it thus you become 'cleansed'.
This would be the type of insane stairway to heaven /Tower of Babel action that powerful men have tried to undertake time and again throughout history.


-My last theory is the most unpleasant. That there is experimentation with a new and extremely viscous kind of parasite. It is well known that parasitic disease is responsible for alot of 'mental illness'. If it affects the brain or nervous system then you would go mad. Also, parasites have been documented to be able to release chemicals to control the hosts behavior-when to feel sleepy when or what to eat, anything to help the parasite complete its life cycle. It does not surprise me that alot of TI's have been suiciding by going into large bodies of water to drown themselves-would this not serve as the best way for the parasite to further its life cycle?

A parasite was found of the tapeworm family in the body of an AIDS patient in San Fran that had become a huge mass in the body all down his right side. It was deemed a 'new' kind of parasite becuz tests showed unusual results as to the creatures make up. It was in the Lancet before an American publication picked it up.
If its nasty and can produce the effects of mind control and eventually madness you have a great way to lower the population on your hands. I was told by a doctor years ago when I presented her with certain test results that I wanted a para test done. She whined and said the CDC would find out about it and want the results(?)..to be frank the CDC seems all in favor of erradication of disease on this planet. But if local corrupt power structures will not cooperate then it wont happen. This is the same doctor that snow jobbed me until I found out I was sick with a Staph and Bacillus species infection for a year thru some responsible medical people who actually do appropriate tests.
Untreated para disease of such a nasty sort would be a great way to get rid of a TI especially corrupting the physical health of and destruction of the mind. Why disturb a time bomb inside a person? Let it do its work! And no one is the wiser when the person suicides or goes mad. It is sick I know but there is mention of human experimentation using infectious disease so my theory is not so sinister and unbelievable.
Nothing is unbelievable when you are a TI. Its nasty and the perps are viscous killers who dont care what happens to you. Believe it.

~~Anyway, people who are targeted do self harm becuz they have dealt with such abuse and invalidation that they become angry with themselves...especially true of the gs target who is constantly denied validation everyday and made to feel that the abuse is ok'd by society or that they deserve it. ~~

ADVICE:
I have since learned to avoid the urge..I know it's the remote influence and I know it would only serve to make me look crazy so its a must to stop it.Just resist it and if you cant try going into a 'safe place'...I cannot put it here becuz I fear the perps will change the targeting to counter my counter....
Just start thinking or experimenting: Where are the locations you notice that you feel the targeting via tech stops or isnt able to reach you? There are certain kinds of buildings that will protect you.
If you are targeted so hard you are going to do something violent and stupid to yourself or others please duck into a building or some other 'shelter' and try to gather resistance. This might be especially important for men who they target alot with becoming lone shooters.
Women seem resistant to this command, I believe it is in relation to the hormone testosterone as to how men react to the system of harassment and stalking differently.
Please do not give them anymore violence for their purposes.The system is using all of us and I notice that there is a great neglect in researching why these suicides and homicides occur.

'tonnage'

I picked up a small magazine recently in Harvard station.

It was right on the money about what was going on in this country.  It also had a great article that explained how USA won WWII.

It wasn't thru superior soldiers.  Most were just kids and had a quick training.  It stated that we won through 'tonnage'. The sheer amount of soldiers as well as guns and war machinery we had.

This is the same setup of the gs networks and system. That is what intelligent, creative TI's hate about perps. That they seem so...inferior  in alot of ways. And they cant do anything by themselves.  They are exactly the same as the soldiers I mentioned above.

The new 'tonnage' is the technology that is used in targeting individuals as well as the public.

Think of it that way and as a TI you will be less annoyed at the sheer numbers of idiots sent to 'do a mans job' every....fuckin.....day,  I know.

Old perps return

I have become quite beaten down here in Boston.  As I hve written I am homeless and pan handle now becuz after being harassed on every job (or at least perps wasting my time) and that viscous campaign in Brighton years ago I will not stay in an apartment. 

I want to get a few things done and then I am leaving. Off the planet. 

Fuck the perps and I will NOT be controlled and behavior  modified.   Want to make me manageable ? Good. All yer gonna get is a dead body on yer hands which is what the system wants anyway.  Fine with me.  

I've got idiots coming up to me telling me I have to accept my circumstances.  I refuse to live a life that is less than my potential should have been. While others less talented attractive or intelligent get all the breaks usually at my expense. Go fuck yourselves. Old mind control survivors don't last long anyway and my purpose over the last few years has been to use me for whatever you can on my way out the door.   Everybody can go to hell.

Basically when you start deprogramming and having memory recall suicide programming becomes active. If you fight this-if you are informed due to the Internet, you will get such a harassment campaign and you will be framed or exposed or whatever they have to do to prevent you from going to the right therapist or hypnotist.  

I was discouraged from seeking help and stonewalled all the way so the system could get rid of me like it wants to get rid of all victim witnesses.  

Recently some people I used to know have been coming around the spot I stem. One woman is this annoying bitch who is in with the Brookline Bitches club who helped destroy me. They are also women old enough to know my family and ma warned me that they may enjoy destroying me becuz they hated her from Ken's Pub. 

I am not my family and it would be pretty ironic for my mother to get help from HER enemies to help get rid of me.  

They can both go fuck themselves and those old bitches especially. 

 

This woman is a 12 step drone who was a former cult  member (oohh more mind control, that's what I want in MY life right now). She speaks to you and does this fucked up thing with her eyes where they roll in her head.. i always wanted to see her eyes pinned becuz at least she'd be doing something normal-like taking drugs instead of this sci-fi shit where peoples minds are fried by drugs and god knows what else.  She came up to me and was with some fat chick.

 Now NA has proven helpful to get off drugs-the ONLY thing that works but as for getting deprogrammed, well yes, its a start actually. 

But the people, u get disillusioned with them. You realize they change thier habits but they dont change their insides. Thier heads. Alot of them are walking the walk but they are hiding out alot of fucked up behaviors.

Alot of NA was really snooty to me and I could never figure out why until my sponsor finally got it through my head that these are mostly the wayward trust fund children of the elite or wealthy anyway and alot simply pose like they are poor or bohemian.  

I could never figure out why they were poor- but never angry or worried.  (its a saying in advertising " angry, worried and poor" it describes the demographic well.)

So much bad came out of that program that has to do with my gang stalking and the targeting of another man I witnessed who hung himself in jail I want nothing to do with them.

She asked what I was up to and I said I was homeless she cood "oh no" and " do you want my number" and i just avoided this nut like the plague.  Then the this scalper shows up for a sports event who is also in that crowd and I have not seen these people for ages..I sight of her and turned on my heel out of there.  

Today I was getting breakfast money near Allston far from Kenmore and Miss MC shows up again  and walks by with some guy and she points me out to him and says something to him- I am sure along the line of my situation..but it was the sort of thing where you point out someone you used to know who has gone insane and lives on the streets now....under supposed mysterious circumstances.

I'll tell u one thing. These people need to work on their acting

.

My ex has gained alot of favor with some powerful a-holes in program and I was told in the midwest that he 'helped someone' if he has been hooked up like that. 

Well duh, no shit.

The network cant bust me from the outside in so they are trying to bring in people from my past to bust me up from the inside out.  The effect of my current situation being experienced by me and introducing old characters has the effect of showing me how failed I am. How they won. How the system works if you work with it and perp people.  And of courses ultimately brings back memories of how my life once was.

They are just more toys for the system to play with..more characters to play roles. More chess pieces.

Thank god the system is compartmentalized and these idiots have NO idea what happened in the midwest, so they think I am losing it instead of just coasting for a while.

Take advantage of the fact that the system seems to be compartmentalized. It gives the target a level of control thru central control of information.  Really the perps use this to thier advantage alot. Only the TI really knows all that has happened to them and no one can say any different unless they were there the whole time.

So the system fills in the blank spots with more disinfo to the different networks.  

Who can say except me why I am such a mess after coming from the mid west? Or travelling the country. Were YOU there? NO.  Did you meet and talk with the people I did ? NO you did not.

With my situation they are trying to still work on the original effort by the network here especially from my compromised family "she's crazy"...well darlings. Lets not forget who is programmed and more capable than you idiots who win by sheer numbers and 'tonnage' (nowadays 'tech').   I have a few professionals who know damn well and will attest to the fact that I am traumatized.  That's all that was ever wrong with me to begin with.

(Trauma Based Mind Control-duuh) ...

These jerks will do anything to protect the many rich connected brats who benefited from my downfall and don't want me rising from the ashes to take what was rightfully mine.

What they DO seem to want is to control the manner in which I am resurrected...remember alot of ritual abuse is connected to the gs system and the tech they are using. There is alot of occult activity in this.

I am being pushed non stop lately to get a job in the helping profession and specifically a hospital.  Once again its all about me taking care of others and no development of my own power.

I MUST be pushed into these circumstances so that the system, especially those who are guilty on paper (the negligent real estate company etc) are absolved.  

Remember a perp told me I MUST be made manageable.  Now they need to get rid of thier guilt I guess. From the beginning its been "she'll be ok" and its becuz they know they have the means thru gang stalking and technology, drugs and psy ops, thought reform and behavior modification to make it look like a victim of severe abuse and neglect is 'ok'.  

 They scare you into being 'ok' with fear and intimidation, isolation and invalidation.  You are MADE to accept the false reality that everything is 'ok'.  

Think about it. At this point what other choice do I have? My movements are restricted I am living in sheer poverty under duress and threat everyday and I am being threatened and terrorized DAILY.  

Why WOULDN'T anyone take the deal they are offered instead of suffer on like this?

Becuz I did not fight so that they could mold me into what they feel is either  best for me or safest for them.

 I will not be controlled.  

They think its all about programming that if they destroy enough of your mind and personality and give you enough brain damage -dumb you down make you weak and needy, get rid of all that internal structure and internal commands that you can be remolded. 

But only a service position is allowed. U will still essentially be a slave then..a servant. Never allowed your own power or empire built on your own energy talents and efforts.

This is another reason I beleive they had to trigger my suicide programming...becuz then they could disable the very mechanism that is the core of me acting without fear of death.  

I recall a perp in AZ telling me I  was "only allowed to grow  very conditionally" and behavior modification is specifically why.

When the system brings in old perps that hurt you originally they are trying to mess with you. Avoid these people at all costs..or at least use the bastards for anything you could get out of them without danger to yourself.

They deserve it.

Reasons why this is a hot spot

Well, I have shown I was targeted at BU medical. I have blogged on the article about BU having magically come up with the tech to read cerebral thoughts in a stroke patient. I have also been tole BU is a conservative nightmare. Yet, I utilize thier library..yes with some hacking interference but this could be simply becuz their system is not as secure as say MIT who is in the business of computers anyway and would by reasoning have a more secure system. I stay at the hostel that is BU owned as dorms the rest of the year with only recent strange occurrence which is more due to a staff change I beleive than anything else.

Also, I have been told on many occassions that the school that is on the same property as the 7-11 holds alot of power and determenes who they prefer to stem there. I have seen staff giving money to certain stemmers and being freindly with certain ones. This is after that awful letter they posted on thier door which I took footage of that told people where to put thier money instead of to stemmers. The letter has since been taken down.
I do not know if they are state funded but I will find out.
I have read that BU is a partnerhsip owner of the property.
A person I will not name who is employed by 7-11 has told me that they were threatened by the school to lose thier lease becuz they made accusations that a regular panhandler (not in the schools favor)was allowed to clean up outside for the ability to stem there.

Personally as far as I can see the no trespassing sign is used to target only certain people. Mostly women. Also, the Nazi like enforcement has only been happening since I have come to make money there.

It does not surprise me that when I stay at certain shelters I have overheard at least one conversation that consisted of someone wondering why I was not harassed out of panhandling anywhere anytime at all. The reply was " city property" by a black female.
As if it was inconvenient to the organized harassment system that I know the laws.

This is the same community where I overheard one black female say to another " ..who cares what she's putting in her drink? As long as its not illegal"...concerning me and the herbal tinctures I use.
This is interesting becuz it tells me that people believe the possible cover story that it has to do with drugs, an investigation or some covert means of keeping an eye on me so I do not take drugs or commit a crime. This is not the first time I have noticed this being used as an excuse to constantly monitor me or my activities. This was used in Buffalo NY, and it has been said by a staff member of a women's day program that I only went to once becuz it is in a moldy basement.

It also tells me the real and true purpose of all the info gathering by thier misinformed informants....they want to know what it is I use in my daily routine becuz then at some point they can use the info to gain control or work an angle. You dont want to know...but I carry my stuff with me and if it gets out of my sight I throw it away. Perps also need to know about your health status in general.
The gs system wants to know every detail of your life all the time. They figure it will help them win the game at some point.

Anyway, that is all I can think of as to why I am so targeted at this spot especially during the day. Favoritism or that someone has an interest in targeting a TI or worse my old business associates might deal with someone in power at this location. Also it might be that the smear campaign makes me look like such a vulnerable or awful person who is female that every jerk guy wants to pick on you becuz he can.

Usually the police of this department seem sort of generally uninterested in giving me a hard time... probably they have bigger, better things to do and its really a Brighton, Brookline corruption that those corresponding depts have to keep defending.

I have wasted a few hours of my day having to deal with this as you see.
Organized stalking serves to waste the time of the target so they never get any real accomplishments in life..or better yet cant gather evidence for a case. Or write a story....just keep the TI busy with daily harassment.

More Targeting By Boston Police.

[ Histroy: the first time I ever sat at this spot the same officer as today was with another younger dark haired officer. A former Marine I believe. I think it was some months ago. They approached me and asked for ID. They stated there was an ATM inside so I could not stem in front of 7-11.
In D&D later I approached them and inquired as to why others could panhandle their and not I. I was told that no one could...the younger officer stated casually that " people are intimidated by you sitting out there". I assume this is his own personal thought and not a given statement by anyone on record. I also believe its grossly inaccurate. ]

( "A."= the other panhandler so I dont have to determine gender or name)

Saturday August 16, 2008. approx. 11:30 am.

532 Comm Ave Boston MA

D4 police cruiser # 9439 . White haired officer. Male.

I came by and saw another pan handler at the location. A. was dressed casually and neatly as usual. Well mannered and sober.
A. stated A. wanted to use the restroom so I sat there to save the spot and make some money for breakfast food while I was there anyway. I had alot of video editing to do and more research also so I needed to eat now not later.

I sit down in front of the store on A. 's seat. I am there for approx 5-10 min max and a cruiser pulls up. I stand up and he comes over and says "You've been warned before and now your going to be arrested." The sense of power he got out of this at the moment of speaking was evident. "I've been watching you (ewww!) and you've been panhandling!" I said I just got there and also why is it others can stem here and not me. He became more aggressive and stated "This is about YOU. YOU'RE a trespasser." He was very...animated. (it was said like 'you're a rapist' or 'you're a burglar'..more so like a label that breeds contempt for one opposed to a judgment that a crime has been committed.)

He started "Do you..." I interrupted and tried to make a plea " I have no money for food officer".
He continued "Do you want to get arrested or leave now.." or something like that. In effect it was to scare the offender then its like 'I am letting you go'. I realize now his 'script' was to say that anyway thus the sentence he started above.

Then to solidify the power trip it was " Whats your name again?" I replied it was Rachael. "Rachel what?" I said O___. He asked where I was from. I stated I was from this area. He said "What was the town you showed me?" and made a gesture of him holding an ID. I stated that the ID was from Missouri becuz I had lost my ID from here while traveling.
[which makes me wonder if he is not targeting me simply becuz he believes me to be a transient or at least this would work as a cover story]

He then says "Take your stuff.." it was some soup given to the other panhandler, the kind that's in little styrofoam bowls that you add water to later. I informed him it was the other stemmers and he went up to the spot and started tearing up what little was there. Like a kid destroying someone's tree house. Or kicking a cat...seeing a grown man go after something so small with such aggravation creates a disproportion...it seems out of context. Theatre-like. This along with his gesture making of an ID makes me wonder if he should not have gotten a job as an actor more so than a policeman.

He kept trying to pawn the stuff on me...I suspect he did this becuz 1) it creates the status between him and his world, and the people he protects in the public and US- the 'street people' or stemmers. It was like saying ' take your brother's things.' It illustrates the US and THEM mentality.
2) It makes it so he can avoid the fact that there ARE other people who stem here, are daily regulars, one of whom was here 5 minutes before I got here.

If he wants to selectively enforce the law so vehemently then the results are on him. I kept saying "Its not my stuff". He tried to get me to take the crates, a sweatshirt and the food 2 or 3 times. He finally put it in his trunk.
I had gone to try to find the regular stemmer, to tell them to come get their stuff. I asked him if I could go inside the store and he reached his arm out pointed at me and stated "You're outta here. You're a trespasser!"
I again asked him about the other two other regular stemmer(s) in the same spot...he described the other person and stated that they had "been to jail already." (but non specific of the offense- which is vague becuz then he would not be lying if his statement was simply that the person had ever been to jail, not necessarily for pan handling.)

What kind of a man would not only target a woman in such a way but also respond as such to the statement that one has no food money?

He left just as the regular panhandler was walking up.
In describing what had happened I asked A. if A. had been arrested for panhandling at this spot, A. replied A. had not.
A. seemed surprised that today's incident had occured.
A. was upset at the missing food and clothing. I told them I was sorry and left.

Once again the law is very selectively enforced in this spot and it seems by a particular person at that.

Two men, a drug bust and a ticket to the whitehouse.

Mitt Romney was gov. of this state before running for president. In 2004 Boston got loaded with funds for the Democratic convention. This is where that rubber bullet gun came from, the one that killed the Red Sox fan. This is also when there was supposedly a federal investigation involving people around me. The one that everyone used to cover for the gangstalking activity until I got hip and joined the gangstalking activist groups and put my name out there..THEN and only then was I immediately 'crazy' or imagining things. And believe me, I made sure no one back here knew I knew it was gangstalking. Magically they collectively changed their tune...all by themselves.
My ex had been busted twice in one month in summer 2002. Once for alot of pot and then for alot of pills (idiot) that he told me he got off a pot client and I wont say who. He had gotten crazy w/ the using and I was going to leave him but stuck by him during the busts. He was scared of jail and I told him to go to AA becuz by the time he reached court, it would look better to the judge, first offense- all that. In AA he met a lawyer who was his sponsor. A former Marine who knew the Cambridge DA well. Rumour among all the druggies in NA was the laugh that he got everybody off of charges.

All his friends bailed (suburban wimps) and only I and a rich black friend of his stuck w/ him and ironically we hated each other becuz he thought girls should be dominated and...well you can see the conflict. Also, my exes friends were never happy with 'the fat kid' finally having a woman hotter than anything they could get.
My ex gets into NA and suddenly he's backing away from me and everyone w2ho ever disliked me during my NA days became involved with him. I went back as well just to re enforce my recovery. Then in 2003 the gang stalking became very bad. The ex just became a booty call and I couldnt deal with all the changes AND my internal changes at that time so I just went into denial about it all.
I caught him doing things like putting in his NA workbook that I "got him into cocaine" and all this insane blame game stuff. Real Rock n Roll evil woman crap. Always blame the women.

In 2003my apartment had become mysteriously water damaged and moldy. The company engaged in negligence and fixed nothing and wouldnt even test it. I had to fight for that for the next few years while suffering irreversible damage to my body and mind due to eventual mycotoxicosis.
The gangs talking was so bad I tried to find out about this mysterious harassment by authorities and civilians. I assumed it was an investigation becuz an ex associate of mine told me the shit had hit the fan on someone this person knew and I only knew 2nd hand by first name.
This person seemed to make it a priority to move out of the city and buy a house above all else.
This person told me to read a certain newspaper article concerning the matter. I was so out in left field trying to deal with being left that way by the ex as well as internal changes in me that I ignored this persons advice...the outside world did not exist for me anymore. And the mold exposure just made me too sick to care anyway.
I went to a PI who was a member of a 12 step group I knew. He said vaguely that "everyone is being investigated" and I asked if I should go to the FBI he said sort of intimidatingly " well do you know anything? " I said no. He said that was that and forget it. If I went in there they would start intimidating me and he imitated a fed taking notes and I was not into any more stress especially out of my league like that. When I asked about his part in this he said he had gotten a high priced lawyer and that someone we both knew set it up. He said that he "ratted on himself". He was the same person who's girlfriend I swear helped set me up as well as he said once cryptically about the harassment " your strong..you can take it".

I just left it alone...I figured they would end up realizing I knew nothing. That I had no money etc.
Still, I did not understand why an investigation should include harassment especially concerning my personal life or history.
They got me real good, when I was vulnerable and in transition as a person. I was so focused on my internal world that I could not possibly have dealt with something so confusing on the outside.
I sensed a change in NA. I was like this bad guy now and I loved the ex so much that I just took it. The internal changes I was experiencing led me to beleive I wouldnt live very long anyway..or death was something I was dealing with intensely so I let it go. If I did not know what poison he put out there how was I supposed to counter it? There seemed to be people in certain meetings who now I see resemble the worst kind of perps ever... and they were around him, guiding him.

At a certain stage of repeated entry and police harassment into my home I told two separate people I thought trustworthy whom I made sure did not know each other about the harassment. I was in fear of rape or murder and told my mother as well as my old NA sponsor so it wouldnt be a cop or a perps word against mine alone.
BOTH WOMEN TOLD ME THAT IT WAS AN INVESTIGATION AND 'THEY' PROBABLY THOUGHT I KNOW MORE THAN I DO AND IT WILL ALL BLOW OVER.

Then the kid my ex got busted with that night in the car moves in down the hall. Turns out that the lady who manages the building is his grandmother. He informs me that his grandfather used to own this building..which explains why his grandmother has an almost sociopathic sense of ownership over a low income federally funding HUD building.

Also I tried mediation before getting a lawyer. A Boston based agency was very helpful in the beginning and the worker was trying to get the management to move me to a vacant unit and test my unit for mold. I already had an allergists documentation that I was suffering form exposure now I wanted a test of the apartment. As time went on the worker helped me less and less. The most helpful thing she ever gave me was a bunch of papers that had a diagram of the cell phone repeater towers that were on top of this building and the name of the company...who of course the lawyer in Newton who represented the management had worked for in the past. She tried but I was just waaay to sick from exposure and the harassment was just too much. There was no way I could process all this in time.

Once the ex ended it with me in an inexcusable, inhumane way I went looking around and it seemed many different people were seeking my attention. A guy found his way into my life on the suggestion of a fellow NA woman who I was hanging out with.
He turned out to be somewhat violent and a stalker...BUT he had a criminal mind and was quite helpful in dealing with cops, perps, the management company and so I decided to sue them for the mold in the apartment and the way they treated me consistently pushed me to do it anyway..they asked for it.
He saw thier every move...he thought me fighting the gangstalking system was amusing and told me I was 'super smart'. He stated more than once that i was being 'kept down'. Along the way he also made remark that my ex was "stupid" and so were his little rich drug dealer buddies. I truly beleive there was an attempted frame up...for the pills he was dealing. A kid he jammed with sometimes -his girlfriend worked at CVS in Brighton MA. One day half of my Serax was not in the bottle and SHE was getting it for me. I complained and they claimed there was nothing they could do. I had known her boyfriend from a video store I worked at....one day in the mall parking lot in Watertown I told him the ex ended it for good and the relationship was over this kid who was terrified to look me in the eye said " Just watch out for the vultures".
The vulture was obviously a set up with the new boyfriend who was an interrogator and a handler.

I got a lawyer thru some NA people. He was mean to me and intimated "you never know who's watching you" and that this company would expose me..expose what? How does that change thier guilt in not honoring the contract and abusing government funding?(HUD)
I thought it interesting that the lawyer with the biggest name on the same floor as my lawyer in the same building was my ex boyfriend's life long friend and guitarist's father also the lawyer for the club at which the ex had been busted for pills that night...along with another friend of his in the car.

The harassment during the lawsuit was taken to the worst I have ever seen it. I was forced to settle out of court. I had to travel to another state and live homeless to get the final paper work done becuz the targeting was so bad...also I studied the Law books in the libraries and made sure I wrote a letter to the lawyer to make him do what little of his job he was doing anyway.
Alot else happened, but you get the picture. As I traveled people would do things like sontinue to act strangley around me with children and a perp in Freemont CA who gave out free food at a church asked " so what are you doing in Freemont Rachael? Running from the FBI?" I ignored this as usual.

The new boyfriend I now realize was sent to see what I really did and didnt know about anything and everyone. He would abuse and torture me until I talked and the only time he would stop is if I talked non stop so I would go on for hours becuz it seemed to keep him qiuet.
I now realize that the Gangstalking system was probably collecting this inf0 to bribe or blackmail anyone left araound me. Perhaps it was used for entertainment I have no idea.

I found that the harassment and interrigation was consistent. It seemed to be a game for the perps at this point.
I returned stayed w/ family waiting settlement. One older family member cryptically stated " Dont go into Brookline or Cambridge or it will just be a war back and forth" . It was anywhere I went anyway so what was she on about? I just kept it in my files internally and moved on.
My closest bio family member was acting the most erratic. She seemed to not want to deal with the harassment and said "isnt there a place for people like you? To help w/issues you have from being harassed?" It was a total fuck off.
Then I think she was so afraid I was too smart for this she slipped and in the car tried to force the idea I was mentally ill on me. I kept quite about it and waited until we were all three together and brought up what she had said to me. Pissed she'd been busted in front of the matriarch of the family she denied it. Later she came back fighting with a long winded speech complete with crocadile tears that pleaded with the other family member that she was sooo afraid I was crazy...it was hysterical to hear them in there discussing my sanity when I can out think the lot of them. I bravely walked in and stated that I did not appreciate this. She was losing control of the con and she knew it so she resorted to strong arm tactics like she always has. I just left.
By the way in the car that day before she tried to intimidate me into accepting a label she stated that when she was dealing with the syndicate(?) she always took the harassment as to mean
"know your place, bitch". I knew I had no 'place' in any crime world so I ignored this comment and told her so.


got my money from the mold settle out of court...15, 000. Spent some time w/the new boyfreind just resting in a hotel I got cheap for a while. Had trouble with Craigs list, they wouldnt allow my add on. The computer interference was very overt still. Decided to stay away from roomates, like no one wanted to deal with me.
One day I complained to a cabbie from a Waltham company about my boyfreinds abuse..he stated "dont worry that'll all be over soon. " I had become used to certain types knowing my personal business so I was sort of handled at this point. I wasnt outraged this guy knew my business. I replied something and he stated I will never forget " Oh, well, it doesnt pay to be poor". Like I was being harassed, destroyed and played with becuz I was poor.

I went to the dryest hottest place I could find on the map becuz I was experiencing an unsteady gait and other neurological problems due to mold exposure. I saw AZ was dry and winter was coming. I knew NV from before and its not a place to go. Of course the new boyfriend told me to go to Pheonix, AZ. Urged me and that that was a good decision.
I was perped at hte hotel. I found a place there , I realized my new roomate was a perp after a while-beleive me it was really overt. I was was still being harassed...people coming out of the library and saying "loser" as I walked in . Even though my health had improved, my clear thinking had returned due to herbs and dry hot weather and 20 mile a day bike rides, emotionally I couldnt take it anymore. I was looking for a suicide clinic. Suddenly I looked up 'police harassment' once more and there it was--gangstalking. Website afeter website.

I got informed and involved. The roomate seemed to react to this by becoming an overt jerk. I could not get hired as an art model if my life depended on it. I was running out of money.

After getting involved w/ the conference calls etc. the harassment got really overt. Them messing with tech when my roomate left for a job for a few days was rediculous. I should have had a camera..perps on busses were very overt asking me constantly why I came to AZ, then why not FLO or TX. I was being interrogated all the time.

Then I did some more research.
Through all this I HAD read the article my friend told me to about the federal investigation and subsequent bust.
It stated that this guy I knew only by first name, had been dealing pot and the money was being laundered through a comapny in Newton, MA. Its were the ex was from so I knew the city well.
The landlady from the moldy apartment lived in Newton. My exes lawyer/sponsor was from Newton. There were alot of people involved in what was happening to me that were from this city..a wealthy suburb of Boston. I do not know if the bust connects to them at all but I highly suspect that the people of this city stuck together during whatever was going on all around.

I looked up any articles I could find again concerning this content..an article came up that I had not seen in the results before. It stated that the money from the drug dealing in MA had been laundered through Pheonix, AZ.
Great. Now I get it. Cover up the gangstalking by making it look like I am the focus of a legit investigation and the public is none the wiser..this is why the recent boyfriend was so gung ho about Pheonix. This would also cover for any harassment there....legitimizing it.

I tried to get help from the conference calls concerning gangstalking but I realized there were perps there becuz it only made the local tactics worse. Besides, certain people on the calls were using an anchoring tactic that the roomate had used and people continued to try to use throughout..that this was an ex boyfriend revenge service and a pissed off ex was the motive/cause for my predicament.
(sorry a-holes, in 1996 is when this all started overtly. There was no boyfriend then)

I was desperate, I traveled after being perped in AZ by some people who claimed to be targets but turned on me...now I see they were trying to get me to spend money etc etc.
In MI I fell again I was just too tired. It was a nightmare..but I had time to rest and research.. I called my family after no contact since I left. I had never mentioned gangstalking or my research.
THe older family member spoke out of her usual character. She said " We miss you....well, not perfect but uh.....how about some medication?" JUst out of nowhere. Totally out of contect of the conversation. I stated that I was not ill and it was organized crime-which I guess it is.
Sadly I hung up knowing now I was totally alone.

More research more travel more getting perped in different locations especially shelters.

I settled in St. Loius for 6 mths. I had gone there becuz I wanted to write this as sci fi and there was an imformative conference there. I was still taking Serax and Elmiron (a blood thinner for a medical condition) and this kept me fairly calm.
In St. Loius someone offered me shelter..it was nice but when this person would leave perps would show up in droves. It was very hard. There was always a car parked on the next street. The situation became unhealthy and I ended up destroying all my journals and alot of video. I had to stop taking anything in a capsule for reasons I wont get into here...it was a dangerous place.
While there some of the regulars who visited there and stayed there knew my affairs and made life difficult for me. A girl showed up who perped me in nasty ways from the get go. She was bratty and annoying but the owner said anything she did was ok.
I realized that this girl might have been someone who used to hang around my ex...becuz i know i recognize her but moreso her birthday was near his which I recall him stating at one time and he specifically mentioned that same name. She kept saying things like " You'll always have to deal with the psychological sh*t (harassment) but it would be better if you'd work a little more with the system" ..also she was from Michigan. My exes buddy was from Detroit.
A whole perp group from MI and Ill showed up while she was there and she drew attention to it beleive me. They all seemed to get along with the most obnoxious guy in residence there.
After getting out of there, I was doing some research and up came a picture of Romneys wife, Davies is the maidne name. It looked just like the girl who had harassed and latched onto me I mentioned above. The eyes were exactly the same. I became curoius about the Romneys.

I researched and realized that alot of what this girl said was not only true but similar to what the Davies family was about. The girl had given me too many clues while drunk as to who her family was.
I looked up Romney. Interestingly his father had alot of power over HUD as per his involvement with them.

It occurs to me that something very nasty went on in the days before he ran for president and now he wants to be VP on the ticket.
AZ and MA are the two states involved in the bust and now the two govenors want in as a team.
In MA anyway one can see how inconvenient people were gotten rid of and those who would make good friends to have were protected, kept from investigation, sentencing and had thier lives even improved.

I am very afraid after what I have been through and what I have seen over the last years for those two to get near the white house. My life will never be the same and I know that my situation started before 2003 but there is definelty something to this...
I can only tell what I know and let everyone else decide for themselves.

I also now understand why the attempted labeling was so important. And why that girl in St. Louis as well as many other people keep urging me to go get a diagnoses..any diagnoses so I can be put on drugs...any kinds of drugs--becuz it keeps people silent, discredits people and the guilt of what everyone did to me seems to concern them most. I am bribed with the idea that the doctors give 'fun' drugs as well. I actually had a perp dose me with antidepressants a few times. These people are sick and they will do any thing to control a Target and get whatever THEY need in life and screw you.

Selfish as usual.

The one thing I notice that is universal with all perps in the gangstalking system is that they have an amost obsessive need to keep the Target down. To make the target feel they are worthy perhaps of some sort of small life but never ever to thier full potential. I cannot tolerate this and I am sick of people playin with me and either acting like this is my lot in life or somehow I am so horrible that I deserve this.

Probably this story will be ignored like the crimes against me and all other Targets.
Humans have not changed very much and now they have tech to help them serve thier greed and corruption.

The work TI's do is not rewarding becuz the public feels that if it is experimentation it is in the best interest of all mankind you be an expendable sacrifice.
If its for some other reason then as long as its not happening to them or its only a few here and there it does not concern them.

Also, the gang stalking system often consists of people who are jealous, sick, or just want to be in on the games without really knowing what is the real motive. Alot of them are pathetic or seek whatever power they can get over a vulnerable person.
I have experienced a large number of these people as being in emotionally and mentally controlling families or relationships themselves.

some validation (a cop's son)

In Kenmore a man stopped to speak with me few weeks ago. Got into why I am out panhandling but he wasnt questioning to 'scam bait' me he was just curious. Eventually it came to the fact that he was a cops son and his cousin is a cop. He joked about cops for a while...there is a joke that they tell : There are two cops in cruiser, they see two homeless guys drinking in an alleyway, one cops say " Look at those two" the other replies " Those are two retired cops".
I didnt get it and he explained that they enjoy such power while on the force that they have issues later when they have to give that up. It actually made me feel bad for them but he said that they think they are better than everyone etc.
I often encounter this typically middle class attitide towards authority and cant say I share it...I am just too damn intelligent to see people and groups as that one dimensional. I am also not that petty or want me world limited as such. Cops are good and bad like everyone else. And any human being can be appealed to, manipulated or dealt with honestly like everyone else becuz people are multi dimensional.
Do not fall into Hate Traps. Manipulators try this often, they ARE jail cells.
They have tried to get me to hate cops, men, authority, rich people, blacks, Jews...the list just goes on and on. I am far to interested IN human beings as multi faceted to ever accept this badge of ingnorance. Yes, the police as a group have defined themselves as enemy to me. I have to watch them becuz they seem to be interested in helping me right into my grave or a nut house. Have I encountered policemen who do not engage? Certainly. Have I encountered cops who are helpful..yes. Some do not even seem to know what is going on. So, it would be illogical for me to judge an entire profession.
Thus we come back to the reality of the world we live in...perps-obviously part of the organized stalking system are present in high numbers, and they have infiltrated or have always resided within every profession and 'walk of life'.

This would seem more like a secret society population, like the Masons etc.
Now is organized stalking done by The Masons? Plenty of my perps were known Masons.
Yet, I have no proof. I would have to get evidence that every cop or other person who has harassed me tactically is a Mason.

More shooting in the dark. To try to make assesments without proof makes no sense.


I dont think this guy was doing that on purpose but being a TI I would just watch out for it. Its easy to slip into bitterness and then the damage to the body would be enourmous.(stress levels).

I told him I was being harassed there was police involvement. I then told him the three groups were police, fire and union workers..his eyes got a little wider and he said "You need to leave town." I informed him that I did and its the same around the country everywhere I go.
"Really?" Then he thought for a minute and said " oh, yeah...how is it that 21 meth labs get busted in one day in different parts of the country." Glad he was thinking becuz I never would have come up with that. We agreed that most likely the system that has been laid to catch terrorists and to stop legit crime has simply been used to expand the black listing system.

The greatest thing he said to me was that most people will think a person is delusional making such claims, that the public is ignorant of what goes on in law enforcement. I told him the only people who understand the 'system' I am talking about have some association with law enforcement or organized crime.

I did not use the term 'gang stalking' or any other name for the system in the conversation and no, I have no documentation of the conversation.

For me it was enough.
If we live in a world where I have to get documentation to even begin to show doubt that I am crazy, instead of people being sensible about human behavior and the opportunity for corruption in a system that is not a world that is worth my time AT ALL.

Besides, if yer targeted any documentation you have will be ignored or accidentally destroyed or...whatever.

Privacy

The nerve that perps seem to work on most with my case, anyway, is that privacy does not exist.

If they can get you to beleive that you are being persecuted for things you did in private- whether eccentric, weird or non conformist or even immoral by some standards then they can make you beleive you needed behavior modification becuz you were not living your life accordingly or better yet the attitude is that you were caught doing somehthing so you are 'busted' in some way and you are catching hell for being caught.

The thing that I stood by absolutley in the beginning that they could not beleive I would hang onto is that PRIVACY STILL EXISTS AND IF THEY BROKE ANY LAWS IN OBTAINING INFO ABOUT ME OR MY ACTIVITIES THEN ACCORDING TO MY PERCEPTIONS THOSE DOCUMENTED EVENTS OR ACTIVITIES SHOULD NOT EXIST THEREFORE MY ATTITUDE WAS : 'I have no idea what you are on about'.

Remember these people are snoopers and voyeurs.
They enjoy poking around in your life and lording it over you that they "know all your secrets"(a Greyhound bus driver who enjoyed mindgaming female passengers near him throughout the ride tortured all the passengers with this one as part of his monologue over the speaker.I did not know so much vitalis was still in fashion..well if you fancy yourself 'slick' I guess. They are very lucky not to have cameras on Greyhound buses-bring your camera and a video recorder.)

Then they act as if they are going to punish you or fix you. The biggest problem with this is that they add so much that they intimate or suggest to you that you did that isnt true that it screws up any cred they might have been able to intimidate out of you in the first place.
Remember: the gs sytem is greedy and confident in its power.

There is no way they could provide any documentation video or audio of a Target doing something they did not do. There is excellent tech out there to make fakes but there is always going to be some flaw..as in there is always some flaw that tells experts what bills are counterfeit. TRUTH is flawless. Lies take effort.

Also, if there is any question an impartial lie detector test would be in order.

They of course took full advantage of the post 911 anti privacy orders and stance for counter terrorism purposes.

Still I cannot imagine what that has to do with most TI's unless there is a frame up.
The world is run by powerful people and their friends, favor swapping is the cause of some corruption.
Having a strict code of anything in a world where some bastard can change a life through sneaky means with a phone call is a JOKE and everyone needs to remember it.

Privacy is everyones right not just those who can now afford it.
If you do not beleive that to be true then instead of hiding and playing peek a boo all the time why dont they come out and challenge it directly??............I didnt think so.

Heavy organized stalking is the best that people can do to make a case against you and you will serve a sentence for whatever you did and whatever they throw in the soup that you did not do as well without getting you arrested. Becuz in my case arresting me might lead to other people that are still useful.
Besides, any actions that a TI is lead to beleive they are being punished for rightly are usually a smoke screen for the system's real agenda...
Getting rid of you becuz you are of no more use, victm witness intimidation, human experimentation, Target practice, human sacrifice for the system or others who have to atone, a scapegoat who is innocent compared to those around them, someone that another wants to keep control of for whatever reason, made the wrong move if in important position, whistleblower, etc.

The main thing that works if all else fails for their validation of what they are doing is that your quest to gain personal power, regain your dignity and have anything in life is futile.

Even if you dont deserve this they have got thier claws in you and they will never let you go. Thus this is where they go for a version of Stockholm Syndrome.
We are your keepers, we decide what is right for you and where you belong and what you deserve. We keep you safe from physical harm that is overt. We are everwhere you are so you cant fight us.

Do you see now why thier sense of power is always intact? They are true sociopaths and the system as a whole if not the networlk itself is sociopathic.

Some actually try to convince you that this is karma. If it were true karma then they would not have to impose a false order on the earthly plane and interfere in events.

They are bullsh*itters as usual.

You deserve privacy and they have taken it away.
Its prob the case that persons who are higher up know that you are a person, for a varied number of reasons, that needs privacy to regenerate. They want you to burn out and pass away asap...not live a long, productive happy life.

It seems you are especially annoying to them if you were planning to help others or improve conditions for those they need to be perminently subjegated.

Getting into your head and everything else for that matter is a very important part of brainwashing/mind control. Invading your privacy is the first step to doing this.

Perps who were intimates suffer but the public gets it e-z./pep talk.(rewrite)

I was in a shelter in Waltham a few months ago which is my family's hometown. One of the women there was suspected by me to be a perp, she had crutches for a busted leg, she was blonde. As I was near the phone near the front entrance I overheard her telling the other women in the living room " Her mother is trying to get her labeled as mental.....shhhh, dont say anything." with the shhh! gesture-extended finger over lips.

One woman gave a quick shocked look and jaw agape...then she went all normal. She became cooperative immediately and this group excluded me from then on even out in public if encountered elsewhere.

If indeed the gangstalking system consists of getting rid of inconvenient persons by family members and friends probably for the purpose of covering thier asses for other things they have done either specific crimes or abuse of the target....then this is the most sense any of this has made since the beginning.
Perhaps they know or they dont that human experimentation could be involved.

Imagine--you could take inconvenient people who know to much, whistle blow or are of no use anymore to exploiters and send them off into this system. Make sure you attempt labeling to make sure the target is managable.

This must have been what my mother meant by " I am very curious about the way your mind works..."
Nooooo, you have always been super jealous of the fact I am pretty and built but not 6'1" so society rejects me.
I have two artistic pieces of DNA and like guns I aint afraid to use em where as YOU would rather be the pathetic blocked artist forever and hurt the people around you with unchecked creative energy.
And yes, I am just like my father. I am logical. Becuz I could always go hide in my world of big words and writing where you could never ever catch me, you resent me.
With you bragging about your military issued credit card I wonder how much else your willing to do, maybe covertly, for your country.

Even perps tell me "your mother is SICK" and that my family's cruelty towards me is infamous.

Now I look back and when I was living in Waltham in 1997 I realize the people refering to me as "Cinderella" who seemed strangers in the street were most likely gs perps, as I have heard and read that they like to have sick nicknames for Targets.

What disturbs me is not so much a family that hates me becuz they cant deprogram themselves, nor a bunch of old associates, friends and lovers who were criminals and needed to cover thier own enterprises at any cost-and frankly when the 'clock' (suicide programming) starts running, mc survivors can become very difficult to deal with indeed.
People were realizing this new era required cannabalism to survive. The listing of expendable people.
I can deal with family and friends selling me out. I know they will suffer forever on some personal level becuz they knew me personally.

THE PUBLIC however, is absolutley unacceptable. It's too easy for them and they dont have to pay any price emotionally for what they do.

Who in the fuck gets themselves together as a society and takes part in this sort of thing??
And it sounded at times like it was being looked at by the community like a drama- a story, something where they were going to watch and see what happens next.

THAT is unforgiveable. Why isn't anyone saying anything to Targets about thier situations?

It does seem that there are people who dont know what is going on or do not know who I am or who any other TI is.
I suspect that one of the psych outs of the Organized Stalking/Harassment system is to have so many people 'in on it' that seem like random memebers of the public that the TI becomes clinically paraniod and just accepts that THE WHOLE WORLD is in on it, persecuting him/her or watching.
This is why in the beginning especially, they need to have seemingly random members of all walks of life in the community appear to be informed or in on it. Then when you travel nationally, there are still lots of people who appear to know and the ratio seems the same..there are an amount of persons who I beleive are not faking that they have no idea who you are.

So its a fake out.
To make the TI paranoid and give up, etc.

Also, with certain TI situations there could have been a goooood cover story and internet exploitation.
Just like the reality shows being viewed the public would only know what they had been presented with and not the whole story or the root of it. And they would not percieve a TI's situation as anything different.
Captured video or audio is taking someone's life out of context, like sentences in a paragraph.

Why someone does NOT come up to the TI and inform them out of decency could be the following:
--ONLY the persons bound to the gangstalking system as perps truly know the most about what is really happening to the Target, though even they may not know all the whole story/true motive. If they talk or warn the TI there may be consequences like getting targeted if they interfere.

--The more hip members of the public who pride themselves in being 'in on' the latest thing that people without access dont know about might be privvy to the 'story' about the TI but it may still be cover story to ensure thier abusing the TI .(some people want to have sick entertainment anyway so will take whatever they are given and go along)

--The person ignorant of the situation completely will be told lies, more slander or the cover story about the TI on sight by the two above mentioned factions.

Either that or we live in the most disgusting society ever invented/ we truly are living in a time similar to the Stasi era in East Germany and humans are reacting the saaamme way all over again-w/no spines (big surprise).

It's hard for me, specifically to judge, becuz I am a tbmc survivor and thus may be of a slave class where everyone but me knew who I was all along anyway. It's hard to tell what most people really think or know. I suspect that a good cover is also that this is the same old story of corruption, powerful men, the system disregarding women, poor uneducated people get screwed all the time etc etc etc.

I doubt if most of those people know about trauma based mind control.

However, alot of the perps who are aware of some things related to the condition or being a tbmc survivor, seem to be new to the idea of mc survivors; like they think its cool but don't really understand what they are dealing with fully.
Like hanging the Mona Lisa inside the house of someone who's very new money. They got one, they like it, they see it but they will never, ever truly 'get it'.
You'd need to be born with the understanding of the internal codes for that....an artist.

Perhaps these juicy little energy cells to use and throw away called Targets have always been.

All sorts of producing artist's rip off TI's ideas or life stories I am sure, via the GS system which is an information/intel network essentially anyway.

And who can resist the idea of owning or being in on the owning of slaves or people as pets ...right??

I notice in general the gs system works on fear, intimidation and then reward after you go along anyway...the old 'offer you cant refuse'.

GET A BACK BONE and refuse.

Also, I am convinced that there is a human sacrifice element to this. It's an ancient human behavior and it doesnt surprise me that people would find sneaky, civil ways to pull it off. You actaully get energy from the living person that is destroyed...everyone who comes into contact with them can take thier energy, especially if people know the person is already vulnerable and wounded.
After all these horrible crimes and the destruction of your life I beleive the greatest insult is that the system and the perps push for you to get some sort of life...but its not the one you were supposed to have. They act like you are behaving in a manner they absolutley do not comprehend...like you are acting foolishly or not doing what you are supposed to. I beleive this is an act and simply more coercion..its always about control of the persons life and coercion.

Now that they are done with you and you are no fun, they have taken it as far as they can and you have gotten hip to thier game, the TI is supposed to level off somehow and make peace with the perps and the existence of the system.
IF YOU GO FOR THIS YOU VALIDATE THEM....remember, they are in actuality scared of exposure from an experienced TI, though often they are still confident they will never be caught or punished becuz the authorities ok the gs system and even take part.

Remember that they are not living gods(thats for artists and magis, not groups of losers) and they want you to percieve of them as your new god. They govern, they rule. It resembles Russia where the State was your god. This Org. stalk. system, with all its magic tricks and rabbits out of it's arse is supposed to impress upon you that they are the true rulers of the world and they create order by intimidation....uh, I mean design.

REMEMBER WHAT THEY DID IS CRUEL, ABUSIVE, UNHEALTHY FOR THE TI, AND GOES AGAINST THE CONCEPT OF HUMAN RIGHTS AND FREEDOM.

They are only validated becuz everyone is afraid of them. Becuz they have such high numbers becuz humans are greedy and corrupt and need this system does not make it right or valid.

You were robbed of a lifetime. A future, do not let them validate it.

I've had perps so crazy that they actually intimated and stated that targeting me avoided some kind of celestial catastrophe. What get's me is how they will come up with anything they can to keep validating mind control slavery...and gs is mind control. Forget if you are a survivor of tbmc as well.

They want you to believe that thier are simply people who are slaves on this planet and that's the way it is and you are unfortunate enough to be one of them..make the best of it won't you?

It is creepy the way no one else seems to be outraged by what was done to me or any other TI...and if no one else cares, hopefully the Targe will stop caring, lose perspective and write it all off.
REMEBER THAT THE PERPS SET UP SKITS AT A CERTAIN STAGE IN YOUR TARGETING IN ORDER TO CONVINCE YOU THAT NO ONE CARES AND YOU MIGHT AS WELL GIVE UP AND SETTLE. Its most likely at a time when they can tell you are tired, have been thru the activism and found it useless and now you are a prime target for pushing into getting on with living while being targeted.
Please remember that they will do this actually when you have become so knowledgable about them, thier system, have documentation and the truth about yourself that YOU HAVE BECOME DANGEROUS TO THEM. You must be convinced to back down at this critical time.
PLEASE look stop, think look listen. STOP gettng targeted and reason.

They probably have been setting up alot of scenes where people seem to disapprove of you and your way of living(handling being a TI). People shaking thier heads. Someone going by quickly telling you u r foolish in some way. People slightly laughing at you like a gentle chuckle if you even react like you know you are being targeted and not like an uninformed person would.

They need you to feel hopeless and invalidated now as they did when the focus of the groups goal was different. Recall when they wanted you to be labeled and hopefully locked up, when you had no camera the perp activity was overt, intense and would have been priceless had it been captured on audio or video? You were smart and didnt fall into line so then they tried any other number of theatres to gain different ends....now they simply want you out of the way especially if you seek to document. They need to work on whatever weakness you have at this time.
Loneliness, poverty, homelessness, no legit job (ex: the idea of ' you are wasting your life on this you could be writing legit instead of a blog' or " Why dont you go back to school? I guarentee that u have a bright future if you do". Notice? If you comply...), etc.

At this time they will make sure especially that you know that it will not stop and that people still have a bad judgement of you and that no one really cares and everyone thinks you are silly for not complying. No one is outraged by your situation. ITS A JOKE AND SO ARE YOU.

The only reason they can pull this off is becuz they know you have no power, so you are not really a threat.
Remember that this is only select people in the gs system. Its all more theater more acting. There are people who would be outraged id they knew and there are those who do know who feel very bad about it.
THESE PEOPLE ARE THE BIGGEST ASSH*OLES ON THE FACE OF THE PLANET. Never forget the sneaky spineless losers you are dealing with.

Never forget you are dealing with crooks, child molesters (a large amount of perps I can tell and they need to cover thier asses), abusers of women, abusers of children, and women who will abuse power over anyone. And business people who put business before the value of all/any human life. Some are just plain cowards.
You are never ever dealing with people who are in the right. SO PLEASE DO NOT REACT TO THEM LIKE THEY ARE RIGHT.
They are only so arrogant and invalidate you and what you have been thru becuz they have to make sure they support the system of oppression that supports whatever wrong they do.

Also, they are in full knowledge that they will never be caught or held accountable the networks actions.
This is not your concern..Your concern is to expose what was done to you and make sure you get back what they stole that is yours.

There is nothing short of multiple murder, child molestation or purposeful destruction that you would deserve this treatment....and this country has court rooms for that.

They are hiding something. Especially if you find its intergen or life long. They are trying silence a victim.
YOU ARE NOT WRONG YOU ARE INCONVENIENT. THEY ARE NOT RIGHT OR BETTER THAN YOU THEY ARE GREEDY AND F*CKED UP.

Dont you forget it.

(long entry) travelling to avoid targeting/more theories on WHY.

I have been worn from being targeted so I tend to stay in one area to get multiple tasks done. This makes it easy for a 'build up' of targeting to happen so you it becomes like a snowball effect, you just get weaker and weaker, less and less able to go outside the targeting area that is intense.
I have been treated more severely since getting a camera and making video journals daily with some insights....also I put a vid on Youtube (under ongangstalking) few days ago saying I was org stalk target and advising TI's if they are new...I have been given alot of intense suicide ideation since then.

I wanted to give up today and yesterday. I have kept thru a few channels the means in case of an emergency where death would be preferable to certain conditions to live under. You as a human being have that right, but you also have the right to live if you want to.

I am always deterred by something.

I have also used this experience to further prove to myself that my theory that the targeting takes place intensely on a target in one place and staying in one place too long is the cause of damage and suicide.

I notice that if you frequent one area for a time there will be alot of perp activity there eventually, its there waiting for you every morning. The area becomes 'blanketed':

If you stay in area A to sleep and utilize thier computers and work in this area and frequent businesses there you will be be gangstalked in area A with an eventual rise in intensity. The longer you stay the more intense the attack will become until suicide is emminent (or other desired results by perps).
If you decide to stay in area B instead and do all your business there then perp activity will start to pool and intensify there.
If after a time, you visit area A , especially out of the your usual routine, then you will experience relief..intense relief.
Like the feeling of no targeting hardly at all. Your body and mind get a rest.

This also leads me to beleive that the tech that is being used is pumped up wherever the chosen Target goes.
Whether or not it effects all persons in the vicinity or if it just affects the target in an isolated manner is unknown to me.

All places I visit nationwide seem to have some influence being pumped out into the population.
It seems that a special program is tailored to the TI making torture and influence of the individual especially intense.

I was getting batteries to make my video for Youtube. As I walked into an electronics store the entire block got a black out....I had to talk my way into geting sold the batteries of course. I do not know if this was a coincidence or not becuz Boston blackouts due to air conditioning use are common. If it was on perpose the timing and action were overdramatic to say the least, which the perps seem to like in general. (WE are God remember-you may roll yer eyes now.)
My point was that as the power went off I felt more relief and return to normalcy than I had in years...many years. No lights, no electricity and becuz its a tech store-no equipment running. Total return to my own mind and personality. As if alot had been lifted off of me-even physically. I felt free to be myself and it reminded me of the world years ago as a kid. I had access to my own will power and thier were no ideations, thoughts or anything running thru my mind or centers in my body.

I beleive that aside from being targeted that there is sooo much electro magnetic pollution throughout the enviroment that it cannot possibly be good for humans to endure.

I hope that even if TI's do not make it that humans will see that they need to take care of this problem and limit the amount of exposure they have to endure from sources of interference.
Probably it is especially damaging for 'sensitives' or persons exhibiting natural psychic qualities in abundance. If these qualities are due to tech implanted in the person somwhere then it would be especially damaging....and also explain why certain people can be so influenced by being targeted aside from population.
(its still hard for me to accept that I could have implants... What proof does anyone have? I just dont have enough knowledge or the tech to do research.)

Having to move around ensures that the TI appears to be mentally ill (and no one really gets to know them to say any different ) or has something to hide or something they are running from.
The most annoying example is that a family member of mine coined a phrase for me, that I am a 'free spirit' . This is used by Boston and surrounding area perps as a rationale for my behavior. This of course explains away the TI's behavior whilst also minimizing the persons efforts to fight being destroyed by org stalk and tech. It also portrays the Target as a weak and foolish person- an idiot. A person not part of society..can you see how labels are sooo important for the gs system? You become controllable and managed thru labels...more marketing to the public.

Interestingly if my family member came up with that phrase/idea/image and it seemed to have originated in Waltham and migrated into the city I can now see these 'ideas spread thru words' course of travel and origin. In other words these people betray themselves by trying to control the TI thru labels becuz i can trace the label/image via its travel thru communities.
What started with my family ends up in the mouth of a stanger at a 7-11 at midnight in Boston?? How is that so? It illustrates the existence of the gs system itself, the network.
Also, not only am I marketed as a free spirit, I also "go where ever the wind takes me" which is always stated in a condesending manner.
Which serves the same purpose to invalidate the TI and make them seem purposeless, weak and makes thier actions seem invalid.

Thus I am not doing research and investigating, I am a purposeless traveller.
I have also heard it intimated that I am going thru a phase of hating society..which seems to lead to a time when I will not hate society = settle down, give in, give up, forget etc. FOR A T.I., CONFORMING MAY EQUAL A DEATH SENTENCE.
You see what happens when a TI stays in one place to long...the terrorists are trying to negotiate again...just like they did in the beginning.
Its like saying: 'If you settle down and dont tell what happened we have a nice 'save face' story line for you and your actions-would you like to select this option? We can give you a life you know...if only you work with us...'

The typical height of arrogance we have all come to expect from this system, however thier actions reek of desperation. They push and punish then ask for forgiveness and your compliance. They are practically begging for christs sake. Fuck them do no give in. After a lifetime of being lied to and handled, then the INSULT of them trying to do away with me with such ease, I cannot tolerate such deals.
They hope that as they wear you down over time, you'll settle for one of thier 'deals'.
First in the beginning it was the slap in the face of 'if you claim insanity we'll give u housing' and it was a shaky prospect at that.
Then it was 'If you claim bi polar or takes anti depressants you can have a life whilst still being targeted.' What's wrong a-holes, I thought I was reaalllyyy crazy? Oh, not anymore?
Now its 'conform and be silent and we'll be willing to forget the whole thing if you do.' And its always accompanied with this attitude of 'dont you realize what happened was so many years ago? everyone has forgotten, everyone has moved on w/ thier lives, you are STILL THERE'.

UHHH, I WAS 'STILL THERE' AS OF THIS MORNING WHEN I WANTED TO DIE AND WAS GOING TO UNTIL I LEFT KENMORE AND BU AREA AND FELT RELIEF.
Do not fall for these lifeboats...they are cons. Recall how bad the targeting is and what they do to you daily. If you really beleive that the tech torture will end if you do what they want, what guarentee do you have that they will fulfill thier end of the bargain?
These a-holes have worked very, very hard to ruin your life and get you down, they continue a campaign to murder you and incapacitate you daily.

Keep going and beleive nothing except what you see and experience. Meaningless words and deals from murderous criminals minds are just that-words.
Still it's about humiliation...the intimation that you might be that weak and stupid to take a deal.
GET REVENGE FOR EVERY INSULT. Do something against them every time they send some f*cker to give you pipe dreams and taunt you with the memory of a peaceful life you once had:
BLOG/ TELL YOUR STORY(coherently will serve us all best)/ DO ACTIVISM. These people hate exposure..it hurts them....dont you want to hurt them? I am tired of them hurting me.

What they want from you especially if you are a psychic healer by nature is to keep injuring you; you will be forced to pump out vast amounts of healing energy every minute. (a perp came up to me as a fellow traveler once in NYC and out of nowhere he stated " see Rachael, I am more calm already by just being around you".) These people are evil natured, wrong doing people who torture healers into giving them energy so they may not suffer for thier deeds and reap bad karma.
YOU have become a walking human sacrifice every day you are alive.
YOU should rightly have the choice of where to put your healing energy and who you choose to heal.
THEY force you to pump out vast amounts of this energy for thier own purposes and take it for themselves. You get nothing and you will have no life energy left for yourself becuz of it.

This is why suicide is preferable...picture what we all do with dead batteries that are not the rechargeable kind. I beleive that at a ceratin phase of life they feel you are either not usable anymore or you now seek to have control over the direction of your energies and they cannot abide this. They seem especially afraid of powerful psychically charged females coming into thier 30's and 'waking up'.

Why do you think brotherhoods are so important? A cohesive group creates one mind, one will. This group's activities -the burdens of are shared by all members.
How do you cleanse the group or heal the group so they may not faulter in thier future plans by having to pay for what they have done along the way? Human sacrifices. Healing energy gained from others will pay for the groups 'crimes'....karma would only hinder thier next project. With brotherhoods such as the police, everyday they must continue to exist, so they have no time for a break in thier activity. Here and there a few cops are thrown to the dogs for good measure but I suspect spiritually they need more than that for what they are involved in and what they cover up and assist.

Whether you want to accept it or not there is a metaphysical aspect to the targeting by the gs network via footsoldiers and tech.

Sprayed as writing last post

As I wrote that last post I had to stop and get up and come back ..got sprayed. Usually not a tactic here in Boston. Heavy perfume smell, not like a young student would wear more like old lady perfume...heavy sweet scent with some other qualities to the smell that were veiled by the heavy sickly sweet scent. Started to feel 'affected' had to get up and leave. Tried not to breath in. Looked around for wearer of perfume to see if I was wrong in my assesment of situation...saw no one around that could have spread the scent.

Looked behind me. Saw white female camoflauge army pants blonde blue eyes slim 5' 7 or so. Not young like student.
With her white male very blue eyes, shaved head beige or other clothing both blended in so well with societies clothing line that in a college setting they stood out..total conformity of dress, not collegiate.
They looked back at me became nervous and as I did not back down, the male became nervous, shifted his body positioning from formely hiding behind female then they seemed to feel usafe (made) and both left ever so casually but carfully out the door.

There was also a religoius man behind me, to my right-heavy beard strange dress but I did not get any indication of his involvement.

I felt affected mentally...I had to stop what I was writing and also could not focus as I had before. Finishing the article took much effort. I am now experienceing a bit of what feels like 'dumminess' and some slight twitching of limbs.
Whats interesting is the only time I feel completely free of the interference of perps is when I do recall my story--something that has been discouraged through various kinds of veiled threats and attacks for years now.

If you get sprayed :
try not to breath in after you realize what is happening. Go to a restroom and clean off as much skin and in your nose as possible. Clean out your airways. In places like St. Loius where the attacking of a target is more severe, spraying may result in severe itching and redness of the skin and much more severe mental impairment (like drooling and only knowing your name without any other thought in your head for many many hours- your so dosed with the 'stupid' drugs whatever they use..I have heard these are neuro interupters..look them up.)
GET OUT OF THE CLOTHING THAT IS AFFECTED...poisons and spying are humans oldest arsenals in covert activities.

Needless to say I missed out on much important work today and was so affected I almost lost my camera.
Little diversions like this over time destroy a person.

cyberstalking-how it helps gangstalking

I love how everyone will openly admit to cyber stalking but not gangstalking...its amazing what humans will do when percetion management is demanded of them.
Cyberstalking assists organized stalking in person. Also becuz a TI may be being stalked by high levels the cyber world makes it easy to enlist idiots to go along with it...

for instance, in my case perps keep dropping hints that there was some internet exposure of me and my private life....but then how do they explain the tactics in 1996? Or for years before that?
I think those of us targeted intergenerationally and/or since birth have dealt with gs that is very well hidden and appears random and 'bad luck'...like all your life no matter where you went you just happened to always get bullied, picked on or the short end of the stick...
is that why at summer camp as a child of about 7 or 8 years old older girls were telling me "your a whore"? Does that explain why at the age of 15 I was already having 'fantasies' of being a herion addict? When asked by a little boy in kindergarden what I wanted to do when I grew up I replied "I want to be a prostitute" and two little boys antagonized me, then one handed me a quarter as an insult to my answer....PEOPLE HAVE TREATED ME PRETTY MUCH THE SAME WAY ALL MY LIFE. (these are all examples or early indications of programming).

This however is for the hardcore career perps to know about you.... when its time to destroy a programmed person who was deemed expendable from birth who seems to have beaten thir suicide programming , the public will be included and led to beleive it's some scandal and the person is....whatever they can come up with or induce.

Then eveyone who does NOT know the whole story is included. All they see is a well crafted bad pr campaign. Its also a way of re brainwashing a person who deprograms and want to go thru the process of memory recall...they will turn up the heat and find a way to enlist the public so you will behave, and feel so awful you'll stop searching for the TRUTH and get some sort of 'normal' life and job always a marked woman in society (always under control).


I notice they do not do this truly becuz one needs to change...in fact if a mc survivor is trying to change and is waking up then they will foul things up and insist that they be in charge of your transformation....so the public has to be made to think you are a fuck up that needs fixing and they are going to be part of it.

The public have no idea about the complicated nature of programming. In fact the perps who are in the know depend on the public being a careless destructive mob to further help them break a survivor down.
They need to make sure that the public only knows as much as will make them hate the Target as much as possible this helps with the social isoloation as well.

I keep hearing things from peoples mouths that lead me to beleive that they base thier judgement of my lifes conditions now by the actions of some traitors some years ago. its all about the ex boyfreind or other totally topical conditions...either that or this country will help the perpetrators of mind control slavery unquestioned.

One perp that used to slip with info kept saying things about it being my ex criminal associates etc etc. When I couldnt take it anymore I went for it and said " I am a mind control survivor" and even stated I was a trauma based mind control survivor.
His words in return were "that doesnt work on me Rachael".
OK let me get this straight....
you will readily accept the existence of and will even be part of a plot of evil design/conspiracy to destroy a persons life thru covert and illegal(action) means including negligence (inaction). The motive of which is becuz of the person 'knowing to much from the inside' and other reasons that make even less sense but then when presented with other possible motives you reject these.
What pissed me off more was I am the victim and he is reacting like I am a person trying to make outlandish excuses for my situation...I am not the one who has to answer for anything.

Just another male perp who is looking for an excuse to control a female target and act in a scolding paternal way...they all act like the target did somehting wrong.

Cyberstalking is a great way to pull the public into god knows how many campaigns against someone where the motives are waayyy more complicated than it seems superficially.

Its like someone throwing the first stone...wdho threw it to incite violence against this person and why? What was the motive? We all know perps pose as nobodies and try to blend in and shit...I often wonder how many suicide victims of cyberstalking are not targeted for other reasons.
The problem is that the public are handed a way to get off thier aggression consequence free and it assists the perps in getting rid of people. It also serves as diversion so no one pays attention to matters of state and such.

Putting stuff on the internet as well as hacking a target or stalking/ mobbing on the net are waayyyy to easy nowadays and should be illegal. Peoples right to freedom of speech isnot going to be curbed if someone elses privacy is protected.

It should be outright illegal for any one to post anyone elses image on the internet if there is not written permission or if it is something that would ruin the persons life.

Can you believe the poop girl in Korea? OK lets start from a logical beginning--how is her university performance going to be judged by the fact she wont clean up after her dog.... she had to leave university right? She was denied the right to an education?
Clearly cruel and unusual punishment.

And what did a 16 year old girl do to anyone?

Cyberstalking is an aid to organized stalking in person.

Movie Review #2(The Excorcism of Emily Rose)

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0404032/

This movie has perfect timing (2005)for this older story that made the rounds 30 some odd years ago. The movie has come out during alot of people being targeted especially w/ non lethal weapons and other tech that the public really doenst know about or isnt versed in.

If you watch this movie you'll notice alot of what happens to the character resembles a person who is a TI being either experimented on or tortured.

The original true story is more classic possession...yet, studying it all made me wonder about possessions in general. Could they be targeting by tech?

http://www.chasingthefrog.com/reelfaces/emilyrose.php

Also, this woman had epilepsy.
I believe that people with these kinds of seizures might also possibly suffer from undiagnosed parasitic disease which the western medical community does not like to deal with or diagnose.

If you look at comparison photos you can see the brain damage she suffered, her face looks so different in later photos (not where she's bruised, but there is a video on Youtube that runs some photos she is young and healthy and looks attractive and then later she is smiling in a photo but she looks damaged).http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v8Qm6NVixhk&feature=related

What was most disturbing in the sites I looked at was that she was convinced she was atoning for the sins of wayward priests and drug addicts.

It seems in a way she was a ritual scarifice...alot of occult is present in the world and not readily admitted to. You never know what people are really up to or what generational line they come out of..
I beleive the technologies being used on humans now for torture are just modern day extentions of ritual abuse and human sacrifice.
I know it sounds unreasonable...but how many of us have been traded as Targets for favors to those around us? It seems we are the only forgiving ones and the whole of society victimizes us and shuns us. Why would people be so cruel?
The feeling alot of TI's get is that there is pure evil, hatred involved-being beemed at them or even going right thru them. Its not just the weapons or tech that the perps use...its something about the perps themselves. Alot of them are scary..like messed up or anchored by a sort of evil that is aggressive and scary. Alot of them are retarded, like brain damaged in some way.

This movie is interesting if you are targeted but reviewing this girls life brings targeting back to basics. This IS what they are doing to us. Just becuz alot of TI's commit suicide before it gets ugly or get institutionalized does not make it any less grim.

The perps think they are doing a great public service but they are so insane with self righteousness that they loose sight becuz they feel its all business.

Brain damage is brain damage....the problem is that thier are no videos of TI's being tortured and if there are they are enjoyed by sadistic jerks---plus the smear campaigns and brainwashing of the public makes everyone think we deserve this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x4n9vK0_mdk

Love that last post...

OUt of nowhere my post was in what looks like Hebrew but I am not sure...oh, am I supposed to blame a religion now? The perps will do anything to make one paraniod....but trust that perps are from all walks of life and that they are international. Perps are sadistic jerks and a-holes, I dont care who they are.
The post I had typed was long and very good...like yesterday here at BU, some hacker got in and just erased it all. Just like that, after which the letters turned to that language.
Lately the perps have been more active and I dont know why.....

'יט ןד איןד דאשמעק ךשמעושעק םןמ צט פםדא

איןד ךשמעושעק דוגגקמךט שפפקשרג םמ יאןד פםדא שמג ןא צשלקד מםא דקמדק שא שךךץ

still COINTELPRO?

http://www.icdc.com/~paulwolf/cointelpro/cointel.htm

You know I was doing a piece on vigilante justice..I found an article and anyway as I put in an opinion as well as sensible logical reasons why these people were wrong legally and Constitutionally, as I wrote the words .."why does the FBI tolerate these groups?" Wondering why they jsut dont report to them instead of work lawlessly and possibly become tools of corruption with NO internal affairs department and no checks and balances.....as I typed FBI the screen went blank, everything I had worked on disappeared and could not be retrieved..even though it was a draft I was working on that had been saved prior--so SOMETHING should have been left on the page from my prior session.

Either someone has just betrayed who is behind me being perped becuz of thier little ego trip power tripping motivated CYBER TEMPER TANTRUM -or- we have a Fed loving perp on our hands who has wet dreams about serving his country and doesnt like me messing with his lovers-or- some gang stalker who is clever enough to pull somehting with such timing as to make me THINK its some FBI freakaziod having a cyber tantrum.

Someone reacted for some reason at a critical time.....that shows they-are-in-control.

Who the fuck do these people think they are? I was getting jabbed and burned after I wrote down my opinions in that post and it was obvious someone didnt like my opinions...cuz when I was listing all the legalities, reasons why the vigilantes were wrong becuz we all deserve due process and its illogical for them to have an operation that might be used by crooked law enforcement and the criminals they protect-I felt the emotional signature of someone approving of me-of them puffing thier little feathers out very big. Like they were proud or it excited them.
Then when I started getting into real life stuff, life experience and advice and such not just rigid logic structures the emotional presence seemed to..like lose hope in a way and I started to get burned and it felt like someone jabbing me with hot needles- in my back. Big hot needles, but I pressed on and ignored it just to see what would happen.

Sure enough when I went back to logic and asked why the FBI tolerates such a lawless group instead of just using them as moles or informants or something, the second I sounded critical of the feds...my post got wiped.

I have been suspect for some time with all the past references from perps inferring I am running from the FBI. Which makes no sense...not that I know of.

So is this there little game to get someone to become an informant for them.. or a mole or something? Are they trying to get me to waltz in and testify ? Against whom? For what?

I have no idea still what is going on with the gangstalking but I do know that someone is trying to reform or behavior modify me and pain has been used in the past in the form of what ever they have that feels like that burning. Me being programmed however, physical pain is like a joke to me...I am trained to ignore it. However it does serve to create a wall in the cell so to speak. It keeps me occupied so I am not quite free to think as I would like. Chronic pain is definitely a stressor.

Whoever is doing this I often get indications that they disapprove of what I am doing or writing. I often sense a judgement and an attempt at correction by them.

I am tired or trying to figure out who is doing this to Targets.
All know for sure is that it is someone who wants to control a woman, wants to 'reform' me without any regard for my deprogramming process. Instead its 'break em down and build em back up in our image'.
I saw a McDonald's ad on a billboard the other day in Somerville..it had some eggs on it and it said "We break em, then we fix 'em". This is the kind of psy ops, subliminal placement that freaks targets out all the time. You had to see the add, it just came off as menacing. If I wasnt targeted, I wouldnt think a second thought about that ad...yet it does do something to subconsciously enforce what is going on in this country in the minds of people who DO NOT see directly the mechanics of it.

Could it be a favorable militant attitude towards the war? Its definitley a subliminal for all and specifically for some. I am not saying its JUST for me, as with everything the perps do it serves mutli purpose.

These letters are this way becuz one of the things this system does is to get this button stuck...even if I did not press it at all. And it wont unstick either.

PSY OPS MOVIE!! # 1

Finally, I have put one out.
The "psy op movie reviews" are a way I can expose mind games via the media..like Wilson Brian Key did for subliminals in ads. Oh, it has been a fun ride and as an artist every single one of these insults to intelligence has not escpaped me nor phased me...why should they? The one place I hold power is in the visual arts....thats why the perps had to make sure I never got there physically, especially music(has to do with programming). Its been easy for them to ruin my life in the physical realm where I cared little for security, and the emotional realm where as a mc survivor I had little experience..why they would try this on me makes no sense.

UNHOLY -2007
When I rented this it had a cover with a womans face and a pentagram. I guess the original cover was too gorey for Red Box.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0443678/
This little movie is so low budget it might be painful..and for those of you old enough to remember Ms. Barbuea in "The Fog" it may be alarming...Eat something.
That being said, I am not sure if this is a movie to mess with TI's or to give us a clue or few.

There are perps in it, well people acting just like they do. There are arm flailing 'seizures' and disturbing repetitive images flashing thru ones mind. Whats interesting is that they never make reference to any tech or druggings that may cause these affects. Its ALL occult related instead of a cocktail formula of many different things. I would be curious to view the document the movie is based on thats supposed to be in existence.

It did seem humorous to kill one's mother(ah, murder/ suicide is attractive) in this sense I wonder if matricide is being urged to TI's who perhaps have to deal with parents involved in helping perp...at any rate your parents deserve to LIVE with what they have done and if your reading this blog you are smarter than them anyway...dont do anything stupid becuz when these crimes get busted its going to be a field day on thier asses....and everyone will have to kiss up to us as the heros that we really are not victims they would like us to be.
Losers.
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Good movie for TI's who can deal with thier situation right now...I dont want anyone getting triggered or freaking out. Dont take any pointers from it however. Entertainment only.
WARNING: Do Not go around telling people to use this movie for a reference in your real life research at any time. Nor would I use it as a referal to validate your situation. If you even say you viewed the movie, the perps might acuse you of getting ideas FROM the movie/getting reality and fantasy mixed up. Judge wisely according to your own case.

NANOTECHNOLOGY

I was thinking last night...I swear all humans or certain of us have been chipped since the 1990's. Years ago I read about a microscopic robot in the form of an insect that would be used to deliver...anything small or smaller than itself into the human body-I assume by remote control.

http://www.firstscience.com/home/articles/technology/microscopic-robots_10755.html

I notice this article says " are being developed"..I recall hearing about it in 1996.

Its part of a world of tech that is the hottest to invest in right now (hmmmm):http://www.nanotech-now.com/

http://www.nsti.org/Nanotech2008/

If you put 'microscopic robots chip' into search engine you get this story first:http://www.theregister.co.uk/2008/04/25/darpa_micro_clock_plan/

It makes reference to what sounds like mc slavery below...more importantly it has links to contracts and such.

http://www.darpa.mil/

http://www.darpa.mil/mto/solicitations/baa08-32/index.html

https://www.fbo.gov/index?s=opportunity&mode=form&id=de0cacbfb2cdefe39c29d327c7219dbc&tab=core&_cview=0

Just go from there I guess.

Why wouldnt these companies use humans for experimentation if they could get away with it?

Greater Things link (site w/ links gathered info)

Aside from the religious aspect which I always find , for me, confuses things, this person has gathered alot of info I found useful. There are links to citizen spying, and most interesting how certain policies will make tech companies beyond lawsuits(!).

http://www.greaterthings.com/News/index.html

LEAVING SOCIETY TO BE FREE: I sincerely hope that if this gets worse that there will, indeed, be places you can fall off the face of the earth, live off the grid and not have to be enslaved.

Unfortunately, the security systems in most countries, historically, do not tolerate this sort of escape from slavery and if you were to create a community without the right planning for your own security-you could be a group of sitting ducks.

It would be like a bunch of us demanding to make our own country but being surrounded by the USA landwise....they could just come and wipe you out. You'd have to have some strategic position...and why, praytell ,does anyone beleive the system will leave them alone if they flee and create little groups/communes? Dont you see that is what they want probably. They push you out of society, then you gather in new communities and they have you in a group--a group of uncooperative dissidents waiting for the militant end of the rule to make your commune a prison, or if they send covert forces...a death camp no one has to even have known about.

Its a great idea but it sounds like getting baited into a trap....unless you've got some kind of power that the a-holes respect enough to leave you alone and also some diplomatic end of your community keeping some sort of communication open with the society that is bigger than you that you hate and dont want to be part of.

Beleive me, I want to go live in a place like this....but from what I have experienced as a Target, individually it just seems like they get you to leave town simply so you can be attacked more brutally somewhere that you are vulnerable and then hopefully you'll fall into disappearing...death, institution whatever they can harass you into. Why would they not try this with a group of people who will not 'fall into line' ?
Its a great plan but....true rebellion for independence is never going to be that easy. Remember that.
Maybe in the beginning they'll let it look easy, or maybe in the beginning you are not a threat..but administrations change, needs change and you may find for whatever reason you are out of favor and vulnerable.

You need a plan that will ensure your groups safety after they chip everyone and maybe decide your group is suspect. Consider it, thats all. -----------

Anyway there is much info on this site just take what you can.

human experimentation is happening illegally-just connect to legit sources

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I bet they get every idiot who thinks they are legit psychics...also, naive genuine ones without knowledge of what that power is really about. This society takes it so lightly that you've got massive energy stores inside so many people here. Also, no one in this country would even conceive of anyone using thier abilities to kill, to oppress or wage war on others.
The most legitimacy I can think of in common knowledge is the psychics who help the cops solve crimes- again they are helpful thus perceived as positive.

Still for the most part it is considered a curiosity outside the realm of everyday life 'super' natural. How annoying.

No wonder its easy to pump out false psychic type ability on the public or individuals thru tech or I have heard rumor of tech and enhancing drugs.

There are baaaaaddd people out there with psychic abilities..beleive me. The most simple example of psychic abilities I can give in society that people are familiar with but perhaps do not see is criminals..and cops.

There is a legit reason why being group stalked by both parties is so disturbing, moreso than everyone else. These two parties have superior energies as I have experienced anyway. Why do you think its so easy to 'spot' them so quickly in a crowd? Or why somethimes the opposite is true, as if they can 'cloak' themselves somehow. When I should have been able to spot a particular perp and then I realize he has been standing there waaayyy longer than an average person would have-unnoticed?
Criminals are dangerous for one reason only, they have superior psychic ability to the average person. Who can blame them? At a young age they probably started to 'grow' out of this worlds limitations and experienced other humans as stupider than they or incapable of sharing thier abilities. They got bored and angry with stupid people and add to that the natural human predatory instinct of al humans, especially if a human animal senses it has an advantage.

In a culture that does not acknowledge psychic ability but selfishly uses it only covertly abd often abuses the abilities as well as the psychics, being empowered can be frightening and confusing especially for young psychics without mentors.

I have found time and again that psychics are abused, enslaved and exploited instead of being used to heal or connect with others like them or other humans.

Perhaps human experimentation that looks to enhance these abilities thru a number of means is the reason for much of the organized stalking of targets. I can imagine you'd want to keep someone like that down...so they dont get too powerful. So only you and your people can pimp the psychic for thier powers.

Also, I believe alot of psychics are suffering greatly from electromagnetic pollution. Perhaps this is the real true reason for anxiety and other problems nowadays.

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B.U...p u

Firstly, I have to say it's nothing personal but this is covert war. The B.U. kids with good upbringings have been nothing but a comfort to me in my old age (ah, 37) and recent horrid conditions of life under duress.
Their are alot of awful kids who are really mean to me. I hope they find their way emotionally and spiritually.

I recall a friend I had years ago who told me of the frightening status consciousness of the students - that and his father pulling his funding seemed his only fears. " You dont know the BU kids, how they are".
When he took opiates the artist in him would awaken and he'd recite wonderful visions stuck in his mind. When returning to reality he would crash into the images of worldliness his father was expecting of him, "I am going to make SO much money", doing finance or something.
I dont know what happened to him. Hopefully he told his domineering father to screw and he is painting and drawing somewhere..but remembering how mercenary he was, most likely he is doing well in business somewhere in some stuffy corporate setting where as long as tribe is preserved and walls are surrounding one can readily believe the illusions.

Recently when I went to B.U. dental to have something evaluated I refused the 'cold test' on my tooth, was harassed/intimidated and pulled out the camera quietly the cell and called a private dentist I was dealing w/ and didnt cease until the dean of students came down(instead of the patient advocate I requested of course) and suddenly abusive staff were now gentle as lambs.
Me being basically a peasant to them yet possessing high intel was most uncomfortable for this lot and thier displeasure was shown the next day when a secretary called and asked "Rachael, when u were here did you accidentally take a digital blood pressure machine with you? We (NOTE "WE"...group. not alone. U the victim are isolated. WE are part of the group) thought maybe it was accidentally in your bag and maybe you could drop it at the desk"..
I asked if this machine was worth any money as to why someone would steal it (motive)...she replied "no, its not valuable"...thus intimating my motive for taking (stealing) it would be petty anger over the incident yesterday.
Thus : You are a white trash peasant who steals becuz you are so terribly helpless against us, our authority and the way you WILL ALWAYS be treated by us and persons who believe as we do...etc.
SO....my advocating for myself was totally destroyed by the veiled accusation of theft born out of pettiness/reactionary behavior towards overbearing authority...
they wish they were overbearing. Go to the midwest where basically its a 'no one can hear you scream' type of organized stalking environment. That was overbearing.

I was with an older established person when they called who immediately sighted "That was just a little too obvious." " I hope u are going down to complain to patient advocacy".

Nawww, I'd rather put it all over the world..then file one.

AHEM.

Also I was told that BU has certain persons even though retired from the trustee board they still hold influence and they are on the side of the most hideous monsters of conservatism around today.

Yet, the medical community has been mostly horrid to me all my life and a certain hospital who did a very very nasty overt set up on me in 2005 will one day have it listed in thier taking part once again in the horrors of human experimentation.

--But I am such a little nobody, a lone voice..one day I will realize the error of my ways and bow down to the monolith bureaucracy and go away as they'd like. Keep her a joke, spinning her wheels and she'll get tired and disappear....--

Isnt perception management fun? We artists however have a tendency to manage the things that manage your perceptions.
Perceptions based on falsehoods are just that. Shaky...thus the constant need for daily maintenance known as ORGANIZED STALKING and HARASSMENT to keep the lie(s) going.

Now I come to reasons why perhaps there is so much need for lies and continued captivity of a thinking nobody..
http://www.boston.com/news/local/massachusetts/articles/2008/07/27/out_of_silence_the_sounds_of_hope/
What bothers me most is that they claim he simply pulled this "unorthodox " approach and idea out of his ass. Of course they cant sight that the tech is documented and has been in experimentation for years in other forms.

Also, now the perceptions validating human experimentation by the good old 'sacrifice of a few equals the benefit of many' noble crap is solidified.
I can just hear it now ' oh, stroke victims are being helped..its for the common gooooood'.

I am here to tell you that often, very often inventions that scientist make to help people are snatched away from them by people who equate w/ being thier bully big brothers who steal thier homework--and they do not use it for 'good'. Humans can be greedy, selfish apes, no matter how civility is used to pull it off. There are very 'bad' people out there, and the public needs protection.

IF this is to continue, especially if no one reveals the accurate origins of this technology --THERE NEEDS TO BE LAWS.
Against whatever could go wrong with the abuse of this technology.
TI's have been making claims for years but a legit investigation of claims has been suppressed.

I'm done and I aint gonna tell u what to think. I'm all for free will and you make up yer own minds.

Resistance is futile!

http://nielsenhayden.com/makinglight/archives/009983.html
Either the secret service is protecting certain other candidates interests as well as thier personage long before they get elected or....I am ignorant of some othe facts.

I personally am blogging and living a horrid life becuz it seems anyone will do anything and serve up as many sacrifices as possible to get into the white house..carry over the threshold your all your new friends you aquired as well as the neutralization of thier enemies.

Yet, alot of my gang stalkers are gang members it seems. I am not too happy with this.
http://www.redcounty.com/national/2008/02/obama-watch-barack-on-crime/
Nor do I trust someone THIS liberal.

I should have moved to Europe like every other sensible person 10 years ago. Stowed away on a ship lived under the radar- ANYTHING but this ...

Which evil should we choose? I certainly do not want Romney in office...not if Mcain might keel over at any time. I actaully like Mcain-just dont like his policies.

If I choose to vote this year I will have to choose simply between two parties...one that supports one kind of criminals and one who's potential VP supports rich, affluent brat criminals. (ah...my old friends).

Vote for third party this year...at least just to take the vote away from these two.
MAY THE HEAVENS ONE DAY SEND US A CENTRALIST CANDIDATE THAT MAKES SENSE.