I am now in a phase where I am most likely more estrogen dominant. It would explain why I am wanting to nest alot, wanting the people I camp with to be more like a family, more maternal, worrisome, insecure, weak etc. I no longer feel I can travel like I was doing and I have gotten fat, lost muscle strength.
And this happens every time I come back to MA and live within the Cambridge area. I also have never experienced as many problems with endometriosis as I have here in my lifetime. I also become sexually aroused in a submissive way almost constantly in this.location which is part of my overeating.
This article made me realize firstly that my theory concerning that gang stalking is to tame or break warrior women or strong women who are strong by genetic birthright or psychicly powerful especially when sex is involved as in women who can produce alot of orgone.
Secondly it tells me what I couldn't figure about this location: its estrogen dominant.
Its either in the environment via water, air or other delivery as in pollution from waste, its produced naturally in this location or its put into the environment purposefully to control the population.
It explains why I always get sick of living here and want to leave and never return. I sense the danger in such an environment and.naturally want to flee. Becuz this place makes me weak, tired and deconditioned every single time I come back here. Its destroyed my mother's health and I don't want to end up like that. Where we live affects our health. And my body does much better in dryer desert type places, higher elevations like mountains or in cleaner environments like on Canadian border.
MA never was good for my genetic health and my ancestors probably didn't know that..or it could be due to my grandfather from New Orleans who never fared well here and my mother takes after him healthwise.
It could be that my genetic makeup, the combo between parents I ended up.with or that my generation was one of the first to really be hit with the realities of pollution as bad as it is now. People don't want to think about it but the environment is pretty bad at this point and the results are starting to show as many of us look on in awe as humanity slowly goes insane but no one understands that's what it is.
At least we live and die understanding why the world os f*cked.
Its hard to not tell people why the country re elected Bush a second time. They are so confused and lost..I just tell them there are reasons for it, that people were forced into it..I just don't tell them exactly how.
Its better to die knowing how it all works.
What I wonder about most is my mothers radiation exposure. I have wondered often outside of the damages it did to her and I were there any advantages? Could it be that like superheroes in comics..(ooohh excuse me 'graphic novels) we have some strength or advantages resulting from radiation exposure? I wonder if it ties into the psychic abilities or the strong constitution? Perhaps that is why they come after us and destroy our health and destroy our hormone balances and sap our strength and sexuality: becuz we are superior. They must break us down and make us average and sickly. Or average intelligence and sex drive anyway which they definately attempt to do with the behavior modification programs.