What is up with hospitals? You can always bet on these institutions being a safe place from being targeted. Just in the waiting area eventually it becomes obvious that the TI can get a better quality sleep on a bench than youve had in months anywhere else..no matter how much sleep you get.
Its becuz you get left alone. You return to a state before the targeting became very bad and a constant reality. It may be there policy but it may also be just the structure of the building as I have mentioned before. Concrete and steel. But often it feels like its the hospitals decision to be humane. And some hospitals seem to be more apt to take on that policy than others.
That was earlier today. 2nite i went to do laungry near chinatown. latino family were nice to help me AT THIER LUNDRY (OUT IN RAIN IN FRONT OF OTHER HOSPITAL TRY TO WRITE THIS.
WHILE SITTING WAITING EXPERIENCED SEXUAL AROUSAL SO SEVERE THAT IT WAS A SDCENERIO OF A SEX ACT WITH actuql physical reactions like the real act itself. this is to break down resistance to any other suggestions. this happens frequently in boston and always has,,. once again the ideation was that i get back into adult ent industry except really humiliating this time and fully aware of it. or porn or another ideation is to befcome a mans property. to just let gfo of telling story and activism.
beat down really bad afterwards with humiliation and a sort of feeling of dumb down in general.
at laundry and often as this happens i am forced or for some reason look at my refleftion in windows and focus on how bad i look now compared to waht i used to look like this is part of a sick humiliation to really get myslefl to accpept i am trash and this is my level now and i must go along with this new life and perception of myuslef.
the other thing is the demand that i enjoy such an outlook.
i am also repeartely given the ideation i am 'the whore of babylon' and the scenes that go with that are pretty bad. its not any kind of porn movie i would choose to get off on thats for sure. and what is the boston obsession every time i come here with my belly being a bit female now? i cnat stand being out of shape but wiht my bone structure i still look ok. whoever is doing this when i am in bostgon is obsesssee with me looking like mothe4r earth and its really gross.
i get why its a turn on but its not one i would choose and its certainly not appropriate by force as itg is indicative of women being pregnant and if forced is subjegation. again it doesnt matter how primitive or erotic anhy of tghis is.some of this stuff no female could escape as it works on what makes women women.
really all this is to make a female non aggressive as you are encouraging she be mom not warrior and non athletic in build. you are also conditioning the victim of these rapes to be the cultural fantasy of motherhood, sex and everything else men need to subjegagte women.
that is all that any of this is about is once again a way to get a TI to bre submissive to society and here its very big with getting me away from being young and healthy.
its that way everty time i come back here and its alwsyt coupled with bringing me down to the lelvel of your average female.
again the syswtem will do anything and use anything to break a ti. if you are a man they will work on whatever primitive urges or psycholgy they can.
what is important is not pleasure for that is a bribe to give in. its that you firmly stick to your Will and your game plan no matter whqt that is.
ALL THESE THEATRES AND TACTICS ARE TO BREAK YOUR WILL AND BRIBE YOU INTO GOING ALONG WITH IT.
I notice that the when i logged into this network to post whawt was happenoing, a large part of the torture stopped.