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Friday, March 27, 2009

Do you find the emotional disturbance is worse during the day when the sun is out?

Please give me short answers to this.

I find personally that after 4pm definetely 5 I feel alot of the desperation and insanity leaving me..I also have found that when the sun is out its pure torture.

In places where it is cloudy or snows unexpectedly or especially thunder storms ( like I experienced in St Louis) it seems to break whatever the disturbances are.

I am in a weird situation becuz I need sun to feel right but yet another issue seems to be whatever is going on is much worse during the day.
To be honest I was much happier as a kid in my 20's when I slept until 3 and was awake at night ( due to constant running nightmares that would wake me up, a common trauma survivor trait; so I just got into a night life schedule).

At night it is sooo much quieter and guarenteed my writing would be alot better in quality. I hate the day time in general but have learned to enjoy the benefits of the suns energy.

I wonder if it is something to do with electromagnetic disturbance or just simply people go home from work at 5 thus there is some change in energy use..I dont frickin know.

The torture is definetly worse during the day. Let me know your experiences if there are times you feel worse or better and try to let me know at least your region. thanx.

2 comments:

  1. Obviously, EMF fields are a significant contributor to those feelings of irritability. Consider all the sources we have around us, from power lines, transformers, all the electronic devices, such as LCDs, hard drives, and computer circuit boards. During peak hours, the ground-based EMF sources are clearly at a maximum. I imagine noon-5PM is the worst. There definitely is something I can feel there, although all that doesn't bother me nearly as much as gangstalkers with their stunts and harassment tactics.

    During certain hours, the properties of the ionosphere changes, and this restricts what the perps are capable of doing, assuming they are using some air-based systems (e.g. satellite delivery). They do seem to be able to deliver e-harassment at any time, day or night, but maybe the issue is how effective they are in the delivery of the 'goods'. Ah, now I just felt a quick pain to my right nut. I do seem to 'cry' unexpectedly on my right side, and my nose runs like crazy, but it seems to be controlled from tech instead of natural nose running. All these are reactions to certain thought processes, like say, the instant of realization that something must be true, like the bit about the e-hassment or EMF fields.

    I also get noise harassment from outside in the form of cars revving and rumbling down the street, or high-pitched whines of motorcycle engines in the distance when I come to 'realizations' about something. some of these sounds are coincidental, but others are deliberate mind-control conditioning tactics.

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  2. I generally feel better at night, its been that way since my late teens. I was never a "morning person" even as a young teen.
    I dont think in my case its due to any Electronic harassment or EMF, but i know for a fact i was not a 'experimentee' tbmc victim from a young age like you were. At the most i started being "watched" in the late 90's, possibly. the OS became overt in 02, and prob was mostly triggered by my being outspoken at a bar, some 'whistleblowing', critcisms of society and corporations etc.
    One thing i had been meaning to respond to is how they try to say you are a child, treat you like a child, this are all tactics as you know designed to break you down, your self confidence etc.
    Their whole purpose is induce regression, and that experiencxing some regression as a result of the stress is completely normal. this from:
    http://www.nowpublic.com/world/why-gang-stalking-works

    "This gang-stalking methodology falls under a system of psychological operations being developed and tested on American citizens by covert quasi-military law enforcement agencies. The basic process described above has been taught by the CIA (Central Intelligence Agency) since the 1950’s. “The purpose of all coercive techniques is to induce psychological regression in the subject by bringing a superior outside force to bear on his will to resist. Regression is basically . . . a reversion to an earlier behavioral level. As the subject regresses, his learned personality traits fall away in reverse chronological order. He begins to lose the capacity to carry out the highest creative activities, to deal with complex situations, to cope with stressful interpersonal relationships, or to cope with repeated frustrations.” - CIA Human Resource Exploitation Manual

    These cowards caling you a 'child' would be reduced to drooling infants if they had to face and deal with what you have for all these years. Youve hung in there and been through a lot, alot that wouldve completely broken most people. Remember that. Stay strong and keep documenting.

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