Finally took what I had and left. Besides it being the middle of winter in MA..there has been something that has come over MA in the past month or few weeks. A darkness and a cold. It has a stillness to it. I should have left in Nov and as this darkness came over MA I should have left right before then --that would have been last month when I was trying to leave.
As I travel I realize that life in these little small town or other regions like SC for instance...things are much less expensive. The pace is slower. One's stress levels just start dropping as one leaves the Northeast. Wal Mart in MA doesnt carry all that the ones in the south and midwest carry I notice. It was so inexpensive here I could actually buy pants as well as some lunch and still have money to travel. People are polite.
And I realize that to them all the protesting and arguing and fighting probably makes no sense about anything..the war, or whatever. The problem I have consistently seen in the USA is that the regions are cut off from each other and the news tells people whatever it wants. Local nightly news up to more involved news outlets.
Would anyone in a small town in the Carolinas know anything about human experimentation up north? What MIT it up to?
NYC sucked. Ever since being yourself, being free to express yourself and partying became illegal and somehow against social norms that city has become a pit of paranioa and hate. It always had those elements but it was balanced by other things. The mood just sucked all around. A big bore.
As I left that region my stress melted away and I am sure that certain issues will become unimportant as I get further away.
Besides the fact that Boston is so heavily saturated with...lets say the means of remote influence its unlivable. As I got further away I started to feel better and my body and mind have begun to repair..if that is ever possible.
I can imagine the party they will have there now I am gone again. Just like I wonder about the one they will have when I am dead. Probably just pat themselves on the backs and get back to work..
As I stopped in a small city in the Carolinas all I have gotten is a wave from some local cops parked in a lot which I ignored becuz its too confusing to respond to.
-are they crooked/perps and trying to psych me out or get me going?
-are they just friendly here and wave at everyone?
-are they cops who admire my work and thats why they are waving?
I am never as stupid as I am gaslighted and traumatized. Dont think TI's are stupid...they are just never allowed to be outside the prison that is constructed for them. Percieving them as stupid is not only cruel but untrue. So much damage has been done to targets and many are mc survivors to begin with so will have limited knowledge of the outside world or 'normal' life and reality.
Unfortunately after all that is done to targets there is often brain damage and other physical damage. That is alot to deal with as TI's go along.
Its nice to think that the cop was waving due to me being brave, not giving in and being dedicated. However, it could be that he is partaking in torture as he is a tool of people in power. The police have always been the hardest to figure out. They are conflicting in their motives and their actions as well as some are helpful and others are partaking in the harassment and stalking.
Again, I dont get it. Perhaps they feel they are more highly intelligent than the average citizen and therefore play games with the superior intel and knowledge that they have access to. Cops are...bizarre to say the least. Perhaps this is the continued game...that you never really know where you stand from place to place and that is unerving.
Someone who is put through this is not stupid..they are expendable. They are kept down.
Diagnoses:Greed.. sounds more sensible..yet its inconvenient I know.
I just wonder as I look at some of the homeless in Boston....what the hell is thier story?! They must have been normal at some point.
THAT is when thinking about that becomes scary.
I couldnt get anything done in Boston..not a thing.
Continue to understand that you are fighting a death sentence by a bunch or greedy impatient people. The only reason you are nothing is becuz you were allowed to be nothing. And if getting rid of you is so important then why didnt they just get rid of you then?
I am tired from travel . I will post again soon.
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