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Monday, March 2, 2009

More info on modification through gang stalking (thought reform/behvr mod/mc)/GAME NOT OVER

The more everyone systematically ignores a victim
and the fact that we have to deal with covert harassment that we cannot readily admit to under threat of labeling or other consequences
the more that the target learns that since they are not allowed to seek justice, protection or express themselves
they have to develop a quiet and silent outer self
to present to the world
and this houses
a torture victim for life
even if the active harassment and stalking stops or ceases to be so intense
there will always be a terrified and abused person
inside
waiting for the next wave of abuse
and this is the system's control
over its victim
never healed and always quiet
but always quaking and still suffering
you have now internalized
the system and its power
this is their idea of internalizing
what is normal
social norms and society's opinions
never will you forget
just who your master is

And you are expected
to answer always to this
and to keep silent and seek a quiet life out in the world

However
considering the fact that this is all a falsehood
and its total bullshit
brought on by abusive authority
which has no power
as long as it favors those who are truly in the wrong
you can disregard all its actions
and never obey
what is nothing more
than a charlatan waving false magick
through darkness and deception
the worst smoke and mirrors show
you will ever encounter
who's authority does not ring true
if put to the test
of primitive power and our ancestors protection
technology and mind games
are nothing compared to the beast within
who is the ultimate urge to survive

Recall all who have betrayed you
did so because they were afraid
or lazy
this is weakness
and cannot stand a test
of true power

Those who hide behind technology
in the face of true magick
neither have nor deserve power

Those who hide in numbers
behind a crowd
or a group
are powerless
and are not to be feared or respected
not for thier destruction
not for thier prowess
not for thier strength or energy
which is all derived from
staying hidden
and the group

They can do damage
or try to transform
but they cannot crush
the Individual

You are a pillar
scratched and cracked
but not broken
and since they have informed you
via thier attentions
that you have something they fear
or something they want
then you must be part of the temple

The psychics the artists the healers
the warriors
all frighten the sheep
and they become rabid
and seek to destroy

Destroy them

With Truth
With Power
With Beauty

Don't be reactionary
Just Be
Continue to be
all that you ever were

Know that even if you succeed
there are those who feel that
what they have done
is in your greatest benefit
and that somehow they are responsible
for your growth and your striving

Again false gods

They have no more Will
than the cult or group allows them
and to have to play games with someones life
and to cause hurt or pain or destruction
in the name of something they feel worthy
is just as insane
and selfish
as outright destruction itself

Anyone who toys with the life of another
in such a way
has either lost all that was power in thier lives
or seeks to gain power through
the collective transforming or harassment
of another

All of this is inexcusable
and should never be forgiven
Don't forget
to not forgive
ever and ever and ever
away
years from now
or in the next moment

Debt is to be paid
not washed away like blood after war

There is never any forgiveness
nor way out for those who have taken from you

They are always in the red
don't let them escape payment
thus they hide
and will keep hiding

And they are not so great
as they are numerous
never did you ask anyone to do you any favors

Show them no favor
ever.

Though the trash
gets in your way on the path
you must keep going
to your goal

Clean up time
will come someday
and that will take care of them

Those that took from you
those who have superior intel
knowledge, finances, connections
an entire nation
or large cult group
decided your fate for you

You can wipe the floor with them later
but first you must ensure
that you are preserved within
and that their influence
does not make you a prisoner
inside yourself

Interference is never to be tolerated
at any level

Recall
that most of the offenders
are cowards
and don't let that word lose its meaning
ever lose its meaning

Without the things they hide behind
and without what they use against you
they have nothing compared to your wealth
which is why they need to destroy you

Thier arrogance
should be thier undoing
but perhaps it will not be

Just focus on
their screwed up lives
thier messed up uncaring parents
thier miserable lives
and all the things they are running from
as they chase YOU down
things they are running from

Run them down
hunt them down
as time goes on
opportunities will arise
and they will fall
its all in the game
and you will win
becuz they are wrong
and unfair and unjust
to a gross and ridiculous extent

All cleansing floods
need not be made of water

They are weak
do not forget that

They only have more than you
in the things they do to you
and what they have taken from you
Still they owe payment
which will be cashed in
at a later date

We ask ourselves all the time how can this be going on in the sheer numbers that it is? It is mind boggling. And the fact that its every moron from all walks of life..that is whats most disturbing. For a cop to look as idiotic as a rich kid or college student, or a fireman to look as ridiculous as a civilian or for a gang banger to look as stupid as a guy in a Mercedes acting up (or vice versa) it makes the whole country seem like just the biggest piece of shit. And the fact that other TI's talk about this happening in their countries...all I can think is that this planet must be loser central.

By the way the only reason I can write anything artistic or poetic (if you can call it that above) is due to the weather being extreme here...there has been a major snow storm. This everywhere I have gone-it is a major interrupter of what most people now believe is a system of technology used to remotely influence human behavior.
Some of us have been living this everyday for years and are continuing to live it in order to bring you findings and tell you what is happening and what is possible. This is either being ignored by mainstream media or we are trying to be targeted as a group by occasional attempts by other factions to explain us away or label us with outdated means.

THIS IS NOT OVER... artists are being harassed and kept down. Victim witnesses intimidated still, and anyone who is inconvenient or a threat is 'jammed' daily.

DO NOT FORGET JUST TWO (2) YEARS AGO IN THIS COUNTRY:



Just because a new administration is in doesn't mean the ordeal is over.

THIS WILL ONLY BE OVER WHEN WHAT REALLY HAPPENED IS ADMITTED TO. WHEN IT IS NOT BRUSHED UNDER THE RUG IN THE INTEREST OF PSEUDO HEALING.
DO NOT LET THE NATION BE LIKE THE VICTIM I DESCRIBE ABOVE..DO NOT LET THE HEALING CONSIST OF THE OFFENDERS GOING QUIET AND LEAVING YOU ALONE.
AND YOU STUFFING AWAY THE VICTIM IN SOMEPLACE INSIDE YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS.

THIS IS DENIAL NOT HEALING.

IT GIVES THE OPPRESSOR CONTROL FOREVER. SILENCE IS NOT THE ANSWER NEITHER IS DENIAL.
DO NOT LET THEM WEAR YOU OUT
DISORIENT YOU
DISAPPOINT YOU
SCARE YOU
DENY YOU
INTO SUBMISSION

DO NOT LET THEM TAKE YOUR LIFE FROM YOU
AND YOUR MIND
WITHOUT PAYMENT

REBELLION IS NOT TRENDY
SO IT IS NEVER PASSE
OR DATED

UNTIL IT IS FINISHED

RESISTANCE TO OCCUPATION
WHETHER MENTAL PHYSICAL OR EMOTIONAL

IS ABSOLUTELY IMPERATIVE

LIVES HAVE BEEN ALTERED AND RUINED

NOW THEY ASK YOU TO BE QUIET
WITH THE PROMISE OF A NEW FUTURE AND A NEW ADMINISTRATION

Until this administration
votes on and makes laws concerning brain mapping, and all related technologies as well as human experimentation and in relation to wartime (out of control and unfair) use as well as an investigation into cases perhaps concerning the military industrial complex and private companies as well as individuals

until there is real protection not just a quiet as the perpetrators go off into the darkness
you will never feel safe or feel validated
do not let them walk off into the sunset with your damn souls.

You have learned how to fight them. You have co opted their tactics. You know your enemy.

STAY PISSED OFF, STAY JACKED. A CONTINUATION OF HARASSMENT THAT IS QUIET OR PASSIVE IN NATURE IS STILL A CONTINUATION OF THE CAMPAIGN AGAINST YOU AND ALL OTHER VICTIMS.

Don't be lulled to sleep after the affront. DON'T BE LULLED TO SLEEP. Don't be worn down or marginalized or shelved or become hateful for the wrong reasons. STAY ON TARGET.

As long as there is non disclosure the system is still a threat...and a bunch of liberals or Democrats might be worse due to them being able to claim they are only out for the Good or that they are harmless in comparison or that they are doing what they can.

Now its no longer "keep your mouth shut or you'll get the same"..its "keep your mouth shut cuz you'll just be handled and ignored".
This may be more dangerous because there is nothing to react to.

Look in the mirror ...are you the same person that you were in the late 1990s' or even 2001? Has your life been so altered as to not be recognizable to you anymore?

Then it isn't over.

1 comment:

  1. your writing here is poignant and uplifting.
    considering you can still think and write like this after all the years of systemized abuse, says alot about what a threat you were- and still are.

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