The Subtle Process of Being ' managed out'

 https://www.newsweek.com/managing-out-signs-boss-what-do-1813613

educated people that the public will listen to are finally talking about the effects of personal tech on humans and the breakdown of society

 I guess you have to have big impressive degrees and of course probably be a man to have people listen to you about this stuff. Hey at least somebody is doing it. It's a good article and I'm glad that people are finally looking at this after years of us warning them about it now you still have to meet people aware of what they don't know in the extreme potential for abuse of power in other horrors with growing progress and technology. 

 https://news.mit.edu/2026/personal-tech-social-media-and-humanity-decline-0306

Personal tech, social media, and the “decline of humanity” In Compton Lecture at MIT, social psychologist Jonathan Haidt warns of dramatic global decay in cognition, attention spans, and civic life, and urges curbs to tech use. 

 

Remember the world economic forum has actually said outright that did they want us to become virtual and for the world around us to become virtual.  

 

Perhaps all of these things that we see the same dangerous are priming for just that. Which is why we have to pay attention and not let that timeline occur. 

be aware of some creeps in front of the supemarket in Somerville on McGrath highway

 A couple of days ago this revolving group of individuals showed up that seem to be selling something but they are blocking the door to the supermarket. They also interact with every single person and it's almost like harassment because  if you're not interested they seem to physically get in your way and try to say hi and talk to you. And of course there's another problem I'm not going to mention outright but yeah they're doing that too and it's really aaggressive. 

There's usually two males and then in the evening there's this girl she has her boobs almost totally exposed in this really tight outfit that reminds me of my mom working as a bartender in the 1970s wearing a ddanskin with her double D's. But the girl at least was friendly and didn't do any dumb shit but but it was aggressive and a little shocking.. 

So what pisses me off about this also as someone who's been houseless for a while and does a lot of panhandling this would be considered really aggressive soliciting if they were panhandling they would have gotten kicked out by now. 

They're also not on city property they're on the stores property I hope they gave them permission. Too bad they didn't realize they gave permission to assholes. 

And I don't want to see any kind of email under my name or any of this nonsense framing me and shit because a I didn't mention the store and be I don't even know who these people are who they work for or what they're selling they could be selling telephone service they could be selling medical they could be selling anything I have no idea what they're selling because I don't want to talk to them because they're obnoxious and I don't need to buy anything right now anyway and if I did I wouldn't do it from some people in front of a ssupermarket. 

Now if they were panhandling I might give them a damn dollar. But I wouldn't give anybody anything that's that obnoxious walking in people's paths when they're talking to people they're walking in front of the door you can't get through there's already crap sitting there from some construction that the store. Anyway try to avoid them but they make it very difficult. 

 Wow sleep deprivation does not come easy at this age lol

Making Daily Life As Difficult as Possible in Nazi Germany

 https://hcofpgh.org/revolving-doors-jewish-life-under-the-nazis/

Jewish Life in Ghettos During the Holocaust

 https://encyclopedia.ushmm.org/content/en/article/life-in-the-ghettos

 Can someone please get that fat black bitch off my ass and off my d*CK in the supermarket? Where are these people coming from? Geez.. have some fuckong finesse and decorum when you fuck with people. I see more class and better carriage down at Mass Ave with homeless and drug addicts. Probably because they aren't playing 'g uard the big house for the man'. 

Before people like this get overzealous let me remind people who's family owned and still owns lots of property here. Bring back the old mayor please at least I knew who I was dealing with. 

Great now gentrification is going yoeas to a horrible have/have not system complete with gate keepers. I don't need to be minded. If you want I can get nasty about certain issues and send you home crying but then I would probably be barred. 

Do we have to start underground organizations again in order to protect ourselves? I thought we could all move beyond this and evolve even with dark sky disrupting tall buildings going up etc.. 

This morning crew hasn't dealt with me before but obviously they know 'of' me. Well children, things are different in real life than you imagine. 

You can imagine me going to corporate like I always do complaining about overt discrimination and I can get nastier  .

Back off bitch..go eat something... again 

update on vioent incident today

 In my last post I repeated what a witness had told me that it was a man came in stabbed an employee and then stabbed himself. 

I was simply repeating what this woman told me who were standing outside. 

The news stories are claiming that it was a domestic incident between two people who knew each oother a man and a woman. 

This is a very different story than the one that I hheard but that's why we have investigations and investigators. 

That still doesn't change the strange conditions in the environment I experienced right before the violent action occurred. And it doesn't explain the presence of the strange man in Grey and then the extremely strange Man in Black with sunglasses I have video of. 

I'm still going to take it seriously. 

there is a city councilor who is now saying that the National Guard should back up the police dept. 

I've been out here on my own since May. What I have seen is that the police stand down even if there is police they just don't take action they're told to be overly tolerant is the problem. And if you don't like the fact there's not enough policemen then maybe you the public should have thought about this before you did something stupid where you would manipulated into defunding the police as well as making it so people go up and punch cops out of nowhere so that nobody wants to become a cop because they have a bad name. 

And now you're complaining that you want the national guard to come back up the police?

I have a 6th grade education in math and I'm at 11th grade dropout and I could have told you already and I think I've mentioned it in my blog post before that defining the police is manipulative and it's only going to lead to something like this..

There's other ways to fix the situations that we're occurring that cause these things to happen. I just haven't had time to do blog posts on it. 

Don't you see what's happening the national guard? 

What you need to do is make it so that the police are not overly tolerant and that people enforce the laws that's what I've seen out of the street we have seen it for months as a couple and I've seen it staying in shelters unfortunately because there's no DV beds for women. And people are just not making these people do what they're supposed to do or people are not putting down their foot and enforcing the laws and it seems like the laws are lax now anyway. 

Another thing is once again they're taking advantage of the fact that you're not thinking straight about the situation the way it's being marketed in the papers and the way it's being framed. It's perception management straight out.

How are the national guard supposed to prevent a couple from having a domestic dispute in North station behind a dunkin' donuts hhallway? 

And how are the police supposed to prevent someone from getting into an altercation with someone on an escalator that would be the MBTA police not the Boston ppolice. 

The problem is is that over tolerance enabling drug addicts and calling "harm reduction"  when really you're just allowing drug dealers and cartels to make money off of these poor sick people and then all the first responders get to have multiple calls a day from these people who they give them narcan and they do it all over again and they're suffering I've seen it firsthand. 

There's a guy down at Mass Ave in Albany that has a seizure every single morning he must be taking some bad shit now if this was the old days the old cops and their buddies if you know what I mean would have found out who this asshole was and taking them out of circulation from dealing drugs to anybody. What the hell is this guy taking that every single morning he's hitting the telephone the face and rolling around on the ground down at Mass Ave near the hospital? Every single morning police have to deal with them the police from the health department and The bu police and then an ambulance and a fire truck have to be ccalled. 

How much is that costing the taxpayers?  

The problem is much bigger than just adding more police the police that we have are standing down and I've also seen it in Cambridge and every other place you can imagine and this has been for years now. 

You report something to them you stop them in their car like in the old days they would respond and take it seriously I've had cops just look at me like yeah whatever. You're being told to stand down so that we can have something crazy like this happen which is akin to martial law or something. 

So don't fall for this 

And there's also that thing that I mentioned about when I was right in front of the building when that stabbing happened yesterday I've told you that the environment was not normal and the conditions were strange. 

Something is definitely going on to cause things to happen is the conspiracy theory. Have any taken of enough of your liberties away since 9/11 and then the Boston bombing hoax or whatever the hell it was false flag or whatever? 

I don't trust the Boston herald as far as I can throw it. You should use it to line your bird cage people been saying that for like 10 years. 

I do not want a stupid email sense of them either I should be able to say what I want oh by the way I'm getting a media lawyer so I can say whatever the hell I want on here and start dumping massive loads of information here without being framed or without getting taken away or without being fucked with or sued..

So even if you don't believe conspiracy theories look at what I'm telling you about how the police are standing down and that you cause this with your ridiculous left-wing woke policies. 

Do you know that in the old days in Boston you had to have family members that were policemen if you were even allowed into the academy I think that was a really good system.. it may promote nepotism and corruption don't understand is that you seem to live in a bubble especially here in the Northeast. Some kids today do not understand even what real adversity and corruption iis. 

They would break in half and probably have a mental breakdown if they realized what we knew as an Open secret when we were growing up. 

The way the world works is there's always going to be some bad guy you want the bad guy who's going to protect you and make it so you can live safely and pretend that there are no bad guys. 

And when you have an elite system like in this area with very little land to share they're going to have to have somebody give something up at some point to the elite can continue to dominate no matter how hard they try to market will policies and helping people and all this other stuff we do have a lot of good programs I'm not saying that this is not going to be Texas or California where I've seen that there's a little more of an equal footing and everyone has a job and everyone has a chance.. just that's just the way this place is going to work because of the way that it's physically laid out and the things that are here like powerful institutions. 

If you really want to help people who are suffering from nneglect and over tolerance causing an ebling and to stop crying downtown why don't you just retrain everybody and make it so that they enforce the law well somehow still being progressive if you like and hire more police or higher I don't know what to tell you I'm not in law enforcement and don't do criminal sciences. But if you're not letting the police you already have do their job what good is it going to do to have the national guard come in I think that's a bunch of bullshit and I think we can all see that it's a scam. 

if ever i was in doubt if my work is important I know now that it is

 I needed to be here today in this specific location. All I wanted to do is get some quick breakfast before going  to get dressed. 

Had to stay inside location last night because it was going to rain very early in the morning around 4:00 a.m.. I asked people on the trains if it rains so I wouldn't feel ffoolish having stayed sort of environment last night unnecessarily. I have to pack another backpack and a whole set of gear differently than I do for urban camping. 

I'm trying to drink just coffee in the morning and make that a meal and then eat a big meal in the middle of the day and nothing at night. Maybe breakfast food at night. I can't get down from 185 lbs and I do a lot of stress eating there's no need to have a big meal at night. The stress eating is a lot better now that I'm on my oown. 

So my cold brew is smaller now. And just some hard boiled eggs and a sausage biscuit will do. And then I can have a bigger meal at 2:00 and then eat hardly nothing for the rest of the day. 

I'm trying very hard to stay on top of things and take care of my health. The liptospirosis that I ccaught wasn't treated intravenously I was only given antibiotics I had to fight for them I could hardly get them and I'm having residual effects from that like depression and hopelessness. Plus the environment out here is a lot different than it was in 2016 the last time I was on my own. . 

I've been in doubt especially the last few days my motivations been ddeclining. In doubt about all that I'm doing and if it's worth it and the world is so big now with so many people and an ocean of people on the internet on One Small voice what do I matter. And my mother's voice in my head as well as the sentiment of every doubter long ago she said to me in the very beginning of this you can write a book but no one's going to believe you. I forgiven her for this as she's old now and she's a victim herself, however having invested in a 9-year relationship hoping that it would save me or protect me and give me something of meaning in old age, and being in menopause having gray hair it's all made me feel a displaced and out of sync with the timeline especially the one that I was in that I had predicted with last for me until my dying days. 

I was on my way to go get dressed and decided that I would have the breakfast that I chose and I decided to sit down in a place I used to know many years ago when there was a punk rock club upstairs and a friendly heavy set guy named Chet used to come to all the parties in the early nineties. Asked about him he sent passed on but there's a movie about him which I'm going to check out. 

I sat down and realized that my sausage biscuit with soggy and didn't smell right before I went to get up to get another one at the store one block away. 

All these first responders showed up like many many of them. Enough of them so that you know it's not something small that it's something much bigger going oon. 

Couldn't get enough internet right there where I was sitting in the North end in order to use my police scanner so I couldn't tell what was going on. 

If you witnesses that were there in the building and in the office when it happened said that they were there and a man came in and stabbed an employee and stabbed himself. A little while later as police were lleaving had taped off the area as a crime scene you could hear one of them say it's now under homicide case, so somebody must have died. 

One interesting thing that the Spanish girl had said with her friend is how she didn't understand that the other employee in the office was not reacting or doing anything while the poor person was getting stabbed she said they were screaming loud enough and everybody could hear it. She could not understand why the person in the office didn't do something as it's clear that their co-worker was being attacked. Well we can chalk it up to sometimes people freeze under pressure. Even though we want to idealize the soldier it's documented and I've heard from veterans that some people just freeze up some people piss their pants and some people go hhide from noise and things that can kill you. That's why people get purple hearts and awards and stripes not because they're especially brave because they didn't run away and they actually ran into action successfully completed a mission of some kind and then got out alive. DNA upbringing and luck I would say. 

So we don't know why she was doing nothing. Then again there could be something more sinister at wwork. Seems to be a growing problem in the last many years since 9/11.

Being around this today and having this just behind me where I was eating, made me realize that my work is actually important and I have to keep going. That I haven't gone through all this just to give up and abondon my work or what I believe is important.

I had begun to prioritize other things due to the influence of people and a bad environment lately on my own

 Well that stops today as of this incident that happened right behind where I was eating. It was a strange man in the dunkin' donuts  because I had gotten coffee I believe after I had gone to the convenience store to get my breakfast. And he was in the convenience store with me and seem to be following me and then he followed me into dunkin' donuts and was standing beside me in my personal space with just this feeling of iintimidation the same way he had done in the convenience store. 

When he was standing next to me and Dunkin donuts I got tired of it and I pushed out all of my Will and basically you stood strong and tall and dug my toes in which is my nature and I'm really good at it and refuse to budge or be intimidated. The person had this weird look on their eyes like glazed or there was a freaking alien or something just odd. Once I pushed my will out and once I was very calm which is very easy and menopause ladies very very calm. And sturdy. It's easy to deflect things sometimes and sometimes it's not. Take care of your health you should be strong. 

So this immense power that I have now to stay calm really seem to make things a lot easier in the whole entire store and the person just seemed to get tired of doing whatever he was trying to do and he just walked away with this weird looking his eyes. 

And right at that moment strangely enough during this whole entire a little episode of mine when I went to the convenience store then to Dunkin donuts with this weird guy following me I kept feeling this pressure on me. Pressure pressure pressure. And I kept feeling this strange ideation. This feeling tthat was going to be picked up today. Picked up by police for something like in 2016 during the frame up. I felt very threatened and I felt very full of fear and fear became the feeling that I felt along with this pressure that kept pushing. 

And this guy just kept following me into stores. I felt this pressure and this horrible ideation that I was going to be picked up by police today. 

Right after he left the dunkin' donuts pressure remained. The ideation remained. 

Then as the stabbing occurred the pperson leaned out the window calling for help, as first responders arrived in large numbers... The ideation and this pressure subsided immediately. 

Talking to one of the officers I was told that something like this happened at South station just yesterday. I will have to look this up. before I spoke to this younger officer I was joking with an older officer. Sometimes it's nice to touch someone from the world that we knew before where Boston was Boston. I miss it so. The other day there was a tall white man who looked like he was from the old school days working on the platform at the MBTA. He shouted out in a deep rough voice the people needed to get inside the train and get off the platform and stop blocking things. His Swift authority as well as people's immediate reaction to it made me feel safe. Old Boston wasn't perfect and a lot of these people were responsible for a lot of bad things but at least we were safe and we knew who the authority was and that we could trust them to keep us safe. Nothing anywhere seems safe anymore and there's no pillars in the structure. Some young 20-year-old somewhere probably said to themselves that that's toxic masculinity or white supremacy thus is the foolish brainwashing of the last 10 years. 

Also complained that they found a dead body in North station but I made it clear to him that that's probably not the same thing as a violent action he said yes it's an overdose but I think he was just overloaded he was young and it seemed like he was more of this progressive policing type person cuz he was the guy that was talking to the public. And when I spoke with him he didn't have a policeman's wall I call iit.  He didn't have that training that experience and that compartmentalization that hard wall that you slam into when you try to be friendly with cops no matter how friendly they are and how much they talk you know that they're keeping mental discipline because that's their job. If they didn't keep things secret and private we wouldn't be safe. 

So I sat down to finish my food realized I had forgotten to go get another replacement for mmy sausage biscuit went over did so and came back and sat down and ate. 

Estranged tall man arrived in black with sunglasses on. Very intimidating but also very capable of blending in and also of looking like a policeman which is very brilliant because there's nothing but policeman around. He was being annoying and I'll get into that at some point later-maybe. Maybe I'll post a video I have maybe I won't maybe I'll wait till I write my book I don't know. He was being really annoying and it was really over and if there's news cameras there which there were I will laugh my ass off if he's on a news camera doing this dumb shit on camera. he came over and talked to the cop for a minute walked away I was getting up to film the scene some mmore and someone and said do you have me on your camera a joke and said no I'm filming him instead the guy in black with the sunglasses is who I was referring to. Because might as well make a joke out of it he was inappropriate for someone to say that to me anyway it's a public space. As I said that to make a joke out of the whole thing and to make people more comfortable which I try to do, the man in Black reacted very extreme. Or simply making a joke  because he reacted that way I actually did start to film him. He made me feel very unsafe when you started saying things like you're crazy you belong in a mental hospital.  For filming when there's an incident? 

And making a joke? 

On the video you can clearly  hear me saying that the guy that just went in and stabbed somebody and stabbed himself belongs in the institution not me. 

One person in authority said that he was a cop then later on said he wasn't I wanted it to be clear because I don't want to be filming or posting anything with police because we all know what happened in 2016 when I did tthat. I will bring it to internal affairs instead and keep it private. because this way then there is no material online for them to use to frame you and say that you had means and motive and opportunity. 

Going through legal channels in the proper system instead. 

So I asked a cop who seemed much calmer and he seemed to be on the up and up and he looked at my video and he said no that is not a cop that's a ccivilian. So it made me feel a little better. 

I know one thing from being there today: there's definitely questions that need to be answered. 

And I know one other thing: the number one thing 

Nothing can get in the way of my work nothing is more important than my work and it's what I should focus on and nobody should be convincing me that they are more important or that my personal life is more important. 

Id be curious to see is that strange man in the gray outfit suit but almost like an 80s members only jacket but a modern version of iit with gray pants be interesting to see if he is the suspect that entered the building and did that. What a horrible thought I had that it might have been that same strange man. 

I'm going to do research and find out. 

What interests me most in my work, in my writing and this blog is what I was experiencing and feeling right before the act of violence committed just one building over by another person. 

I wonder if they were experiencing intense pressure on them. If there were strange people around making them feel intimidated. If there was horrible thoughts or feelings that caused fear may have made them it may have pushed them into a violent action. 

It's too much coincidence. 

This is why the internet activism is so important. This is why it's so important to have awareness especially among those people that are feeling as if they might be working with the targeted individual theory. Perhaps people can resist when there is something making them feel as if to take an aaction. 

I mean I didn't feel as if I was taking a violent action or anything I just felt like there were factors collectively that were all capturing me to feel mortally afraid which is not me by the way I don't feel afraid inside very eeasily.  If I do I have a way of containing it 

So anybody out there who reads this blog who's in this northeast area before warned. The game is getting harder. 

And I didn't write this post until later on on purpose. Why would I need to be salted like that about belonging in a mental institution when I'm just filming an incident for filming a person I didn't mention anything with strange to warrant that reaction. 

I'm in the cops on my video and I told him exactly the same thing that the guy that was in there stabbing people is the one that belongs on a mental institution he couldn't agree more. 

I think all of these strange people at the scene that I experienced should be taken into consideration just like the incident itself and the conditions that I felt in the area in the environment around me before the incident. 

Regardless of the details of this I know now that I cannot stop what I'm doing for anybody. Even if the whole world thinks i'm an old lady and I should quit

I also want to mention that in the newspaper there was an article that they had some kind of secret meeting in one of the governing bodies in some form somewhere about a secret meeting about violence downtown. Well violence downtown wouldn't be violent downtown and crime wouldn't be all that much downtown if officers were present and if people would aactually engage and fix things and tell people not to do things or to be present or to enforce the laws and no one's doing that. Kind of like this immigration thing people are pissed off about ice but that's what happens when the last administration lets people flood in here that's why we have laws in order. When you don't have laws in order and do things properly whether it's a bunch of geese or a bunch of people it's unhealthy for that population of animal. And eventually there's going to be retaliation or need to manage the numbers of that people or animal. Being over generous and over-tolerant actually hurts that group of people or animals. This is why we laws in order to do things a certain way. 

 

 Oh! I know why people think I'm dangerous. 

My IDEAS are dangerous!

Well true enough.  

Can You Smell The Desperation?

 O.. m... G

I'm being stalked with attempted domination/humiliation in public frickon bathrooms now! I'm being spange blocked (attempting to interfere with panhandling, soliciting or begging by some method) even by cars! 

I notice it's the end of tourist/event season maybe this has something to do with it but the bitches in the bathrooms is  not going to be tolerated. .

Stop trying to wake me up with leaf blowers and loud kids. I will try to get up earlier. But theres a guy who's there much later and his area is a permanent horrible mess but I suppose he's liked by people so he gets to leave a mess in a public place all day long and do other weird stuff. (How can you have a leaf blower and then they are still on the ground I'm noticing. It must have been something else with a motor that hovered unnecessarily right next to me for over 5-10 min)

Stop trying to get me up at 8am. Stop trying to get me up when I'm napping later in the day  I HAVE A CHEST COLD idiots  i need rest yesterday and today. Didn't you morons notice that I am usually out all day? Gee a smart person would notice I seem tired or that I'm here all day and sleeping a lot. But your not smart 

Ive been coming here as a homeless traveler for over 20 years and I've been in this area since I was born. There's no way I'm leaving. Whoever is new in office recently needs to understand that. It's YOU who are a newcomer not me. 

If I get the leave.blowr thing again or whatever it is im going to get right up and film you. Also little kids being loud doesn't bother me. It bothers my mom so of course because your lazy you think "hmm".  She's not Italian, dumbasses. That's the difference 

  Last night I was talking  to a guy who I've been chatting with casually for over a decade  but he didn't remember me has older. When I was talking to him a got a distinct impression someone saw this and had this idea that I should not be talking to him because I'm dangerous. 

If everyone thinks I'm dangerous and it's because of the behavior I had in my past relationship it's.theres legit reasons for that and it's not the way I am normally. I have multiple professionals helping me with being on my own now and they haven't seen fit to blame my difficulties on my being ddangerous. There is a such thing as reactions that begin to be normalized and that goes away when the situation changes.

I am not dangerous. If anyone says that they are making it up or being subjective due to an agenda, a personal vendetta or some other situation where they gain from making things up.

I think personali I've shown a great amount of restraint with various situations and I've been treated unfairly and unfairly and very badly over the years.  

 

Were We Safer Under The Italian-Jewish-Irish Syndicates

 Where is meth coming from in New England? 

"who is behind bringing in meth to boston    +11                    The supply and trafficking of methamphetamine into Boston is primarily driven by Mexican drug cartels working in coordination with transnational gangs, localized street networks, and independent drug trafficking organizations (DTOs).Federal and state law enforcement agencies—including the FBI Boston Division and the New England DEA—identify the following entities as the main forces behind Boston's meth supply:1. The Sinaloa Cartel (The Primary Source)The Role: The Sinaloa Cartel is recognized by the DEA as the most dominant criminal organization supplying methamphetamine to Boston and the broader New England region.The Pipeline: The cartel mass-produces highly pure crystal meth in clandestine labs in Mexico using precursor chemicals sourced from China. The drugs are then smuggled across the U.S. southern border and transported to Massachusetts via commercial vehicles, hidden traps, and mail delivery services.2. Transnational and Local Street GangsOnce the cartel's supply reaches New England, regional distribution hubs (primarily in cities near Boston like Lawrence, Lynn, and Lowell) take over to push the product into Metro Boston. Key players include:The Asian Boyz (ABZ) Gang: Law enforcement dismantled a massive ABZ network operating out of Lowell and Boston. Gang leaders and lieutenants were convicted of running large-scale pill-pressing operations, flooding Boston with tens of thousands of counterfeit "Adderall" pills laced with bulk methamphetamine.The Trinitarios: This Dominican transnational gang has a heavy presence in Lawrence and Lynn. They operate as localized wholesale distributors for cartel-supplied fentanyl and methamphetamine, protecting their drug pipelines through violent street operations.3. Interstate Mail-Trafficking RingsA massive portion of Boston’s meth supply bypasses traditional highway smuggling and relies directly on the United States Postal Service and commercial couriers.The Setup: Drug networks base operations in states like California, Puerto Rico, or southwestern border states to ship multi-kilogram packages of crystal meth directly to stash houses in Boston.Concealment: Traffickers mask shipments using everyday items (such as hiding thousands of meth pills inside children's toy boxes or disguising chemicals in commercial packaging) and coordinate deliveries via encrypted messaging apps.4. Independent Kingpins and WholesalersHigh-level independent distributors form vital links between national cartel supplies and Boston dealers. A prominent example is Reshat Alkayisi, a Turkish national who led one of the largest methamphetamine rings in New England history. Before his federal conviction, Alkayisi’s ring was responsible for trafficking and distributing hundreds of pounds of pure crystal meth throughout the Boston metro area."

You know I have thought some supermarkets were suspect because of the unique way they do things, how cozy they are with local authorities and the people they predominantly hire. You just look at the trucks and wonder.

Also there had been a decline in the quality of people employed by the US Post Office in metro Boston within past 7 years or so (recently this has improved as everything around here does with a Republican administration in the presidency or dominance in Senate/Congress). Some of them seemed like they were just infiltrators and they were mostly diversity hires (black females). Instead of the atypical communist rhetoric where they gain power in such a system these particular employees always in wealthy neighborhoods nearby Boston would inform people that their packages were going to be late due to "we are the government so we suck, if it was corporate like fed ex it would be faster".  My grandfather came home from two wars and became a mailman in a wealthy suburb west of Boston. Seeing unqualified people being employed in a trusted federal agency we grew up depending on which defines our country was very hard to deal with. All I kept thinking is that this woman enjoys the protections of being a federal employee yet she's disrespecting herself and the privilege and authority it brings. 

It's interesting that certain people want equality yet when they are entrusted in a position of power they simply become abusive and moreso than the former oppressor. What is most concerning is that such people don't seem to be operating out of  a simple urge to protect their neighborhood or preserve civilized society or even personal or cultural/group grievances-they usually seem to be working as actors or pawns or operators in espionage or agendas in a much bigger capacity. 

It's not a revolution as it's being portrayed-its international crime and corporate greed plain and simple.

I doubt if Mexico would have had to operate out of violent cartels if our countries had merged naturally over time through normal means and ways. It's no doubt that cartels like terrorist groups are a result of shadow operators fiddling with foreign operations and causing alot of the horrors as now live with in our modern world.

I spoke with Mexican people in my travels for years. Drugs was a gentleman's business. They had relatives that used to transport bails of marijuana by riding a horse peacefully over the national border. There were no fences and certainly no walls. 

Ive spoken to Isrealis who have told me that the peoples in the area used to get along and even babysit each other's children decades ago.

I've been taken into the center of Baltimores bad neighborhoods where it became clear that it was all by design-that it didn't have to be that way, that it could be fixed if something constructive were to be done. 

It's like a cloudy day where you have to realize the sun is indeed back there. It's when you look up at the moon and you need to remain logical that the sun is out on the other side of the earth. That tomorrow is happening now and it will come to you in a few hours. Provided to you is a beautiful illusion of a silver sliver in the black sky like everything else our earth has to offer for us to enjoy while we are alive.

These things are just random. These problems begin because forces at work with the intent of creating them succeed in doing so. I don't believe average everyday people would or could be capable of creating the intense power noises of violence hate greed and extremism that now exists especially with all the things available to humans nowadays that connect us and make communication and experiencing other places and people so easy now. 

I hate when the general public speak with me about such things and repeat the parroted lines they've been given such as "there's an opiate epidemic out there now". I've been listening to this for 40 yyears. Just like I've been seeing wars go off and on incompetence and people not solving problems for 40 years. You can include the other 15 that I've been alive we're probably I wasn't paying attention to much of the outside world before the age of 16. 

The unique thing about Gen x is that we have more communication skills from a younger age but  we also saw this stuff before these things became available. We have the unique eexperience oh knowing that these things can be solved and that we have the means and seeing what it was like before nobody had the means to do so. We also have the burden of seeing wars and terrorism and drug problems in a never-ending cycles since the day we were born and hearing the stories from our grandparents about our grandparents would be the Victorian era and world war I but they had excuses and they were called a lack of communication and modern technology. 

Now there are no excuses. But people still repeat them because they ensure that the financial terrorism going on where you have to pay so much money for everything and struggle so you can't pay attention to anything social or anything political and really change anything because you're wrapped up in heavier chains than my great grandparents or grandparents were. But as long as you keep buying things you think you have freedom. 

That's why it's so important for the babysitters as I call them and all of this social change crap to make sure that it looks like problems are ssolved all it is is the same problems and they're actually worse we're just supporting international crime is all we're doing. We're enabling and we're all so putting people through probably were suffering than years ago. 

When it comes to drugs I also see a definite pulling away from things like 12-step programs in lower psychiatry and other kinds of things. This is because they don't want you to truly recover but they don't want you to truly reflect they want you involved in a system they want you indoctrinated into an agenda instead of having a horrible experience perhaps in your youth and then finding yourself and getting some solid healing that May last a llifetime. 

The amount of crap that the public put up with is absolutely amazing to me I just can't believe it most of the time but that's because history is being erased and people don't actually sit down and talk to other human beings about their experiences. Ethnic backgrounds history people's culture even their genetics has been all sort of homogenized into tthis diversity culture of don't ask don't tell about cultural experiences and that's on purpose so you tolerate each other in kind of a cold war or like you're in a prison where each of you lives in a different cell block but you have to coexist together instead of actually understanding each other because what's most important is the grand huge machine not individual people or even the people. 

And in this way nothing has changed. It's the same old thing that it used to be. The big huge machine matters more than people whose blood runs through it. And it takes the people's energy to run iitself. 

And if you don't give to the machine you'll be crushed or eexiled. 

That is why law and order is now being disposed of and displaced because the Constitution was created to prevent this stuff from a Christian government over in Europe from a CCatholic world of order where the Catholic Church owned all of Europe at one time and there still is Christian government over there which is why it's not a socialist Paradise that you'd want to go live in. And the Constitution is being subverted in order to create yet another kingdom with the same exact thing that goes on between the power structure and the people. 

And the public just are not getting it at all. Then there's reasons for that which is why this blog exists. 

But I don't deal with excuses. Especially because number one I don't make any for myself I work myself to death and I don't make excuses I just get things done eventually and I try not to fail because failure is not acceptable. Also I'm someone who's constantly misunderstood on ppurpose and misrepresented so that the system can put more obstacles in my way more easily using a gullible public therefore on a daily basis I appear is if I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing and I appear is if I'm making excuses for myself or actually there's legitimate reasons or certain things being a certain way. But I don't argue and inform the public because there's no point in it. 

So if the public can be governed righteously through deception then then I'm sure the power can be abused on that same public through the same kinds of deception. 

this blog isn't for everybody and unfortunately a lot of people read it that misconstrue it or don't understand it because it's not for them it's for those of you that see beyond what other people see. 

This is also why people working with the targeted individual theory need to not get misdirected. Because at the end of the path you may find that it isn't so much that you're targeted as you've been recruited into the never ending chess game between let's say good and evil to put it ssimply. Even though all those terms are relative and in the end there is no differentiation. 

Finding out why you're targeted working with these theories figuring out how to survive it and how to counter it are simply just the beginning steps it's kind of like University in the beginning you have to find out what's going oon you have to build and learn and then at a much later after many years you're going to have to find higher purpose because being targeted can drive you into other lands where most people don't find it necessary to go but you have found it necessary to climb these mountains because you had to flee lower ground. 

What upsets me most about what I copied and pasted from the the AI Google summarization which appears pretty correct is that China is behind this what they're not getting enough out of doing all of our manufacturing? And with so much American influence over there you have to wonder who's actually behind having China ship this crap over to Mexico. 

The problem with the public is that nowadays they seem to have abandoned any kind of interest in being civic minded being involved in ggovernment their own governance and even knowing their rights and the laws. The public also accept these easy excuses and rationales for the world falling apart around them but they don't even know how these things work for what really goes on behind the scenes or how these structures are set up. 

It doesn't surprise me that we have to fund the police and all this anti-police stuff because they don't want you talking to police or listening to them or even starting to figure out how your world is set up so that criminals can tear your world apart around you so that it now seeps into your daily life and affects you. At least under the old guys in the old days you could have some kind of normal llife. Even though it's true if you stepped on the wrong toes you too would be affected but the lions were much more clear. And people were willing to admit the open secrets. 

If anything people are more in denial now than they ever were. I think my grandmother was more realistic about the world around her for Christ's sake. Because that's because she could afford to bbe they may have terrorized her generation with the horrors of the depression and world war II but at least she didn't experience this kind of terrorism in her own homeland. 

The public have been so terrorized over the past 20 years they're willing to accept any excuses that they're given for everything and nowadays after covid the way it was handled so badly and greed was catered to instead of prevented people cannot even afford to think about the world around tthem. 

And unnecessary desire is created in the public to to consume and waste at a much higher rate than bbefore. If you really think about it and reflect on it if you even have time to do so your phone and all the gadgets you have in themselves is forced labor. It forces you to work constantly by managing these devices managing the electricity that's needed for them to function managing the apps managing the systems managing the bills and whistles constantly looking at the phone constantly looking at the emails constantly looking at the social media if you think about it you're being forced to work constantly you never have any rest or any time off. And that on top of caring for normal daily life like family and real work that you're actually doing to earn a wage that's going to make you want to relax and spend and eat. 

This is all by design. And the chaos being created in the streets is by design. .

 

 

 Btw theres ways of messing with people where you can be polite and pleasant. Being aggressive  smug or rude or physically intimidating (walking in front of someone loaded down etc) isn't necessary. letting people know you don't want them around or you dislike them or just messing wirj them can be done in a civil manner. That's BUSINESS and that is understandable. Making things personal or all about your ego or cultural narcissism is not acceptable in any business activity or venture. By the very nature of business you are going to lose the game entirely if you keep on insisting on having no composure in a childish effort to make someone else lose theirs. Such is a culture and a people more accustomed to fast money and aggressive quick ways of aquiring TEMPORARY wealth. 

Heavy Aggressive Harassment in Compromised Areas Lately: bait and wait

 There seems to be a bait and wait going on where in areas that are very corrupt like the BU hospital area, Barbara McGuiness and the homeless shelters are there aggressive harassment especially from people in authority. The desired result seems to be to get me to lose it and become discredited or worse. 

This is being countered with written complaints that are able to be verified with camera footage or witnesses. As well as speaking  with supervisors 

I'm also sick and tired of grown men acting as if they open a door or come upon me by surprise they are scared of me. You are grown healthy young men give it a break . 

I had a physical reaction to stress this morning and had to be seen by a nurse. As i was trying to get up to a walk in after turning around after leaving the bad area due to the reaction being possibly something serious, security in the facility once again has attitude with me. After I was seen and I calmed down I spoke with a supervisor and got the same attitude but at least I had it known that it's a stress reaction from a dv situation not mental illness which is rampant in the area.

Firstly whatwfer the reason is that I am interacted with in a disrespectful and aggressive manner whatever people think their legit motive is-its inappropriate for people in authority to abuse their positions of power. 
Irs also unfortunate that people who are most vulnerable have to deal with people being employed that are simpy unable to get a job in a civilized environment that requires more decorum on a daily basis.
This began to happen many years ago after the shelter near the hospital had its first renovation and became all female. They had formerly homeless people working there that were very nasty and should not have been there, just a few bad apples but still. In years prior the employees though understaffed were caring and very familiar with each person who came in. 

Let me be clear that a lot of people who are employed in this area are not only dealing with impossible odds and bad conditions they also have caring spirits and give their all every day. 

However this assumption that the area is strictly for drug addicts and they are to be favored and catered to is wrong. There needs to be much more sensitivity training towards domestic violence and people experiencing homelessness that have long term sobriety in whatever their homeless situation is. 

We must remember the Stanford Prison experiment where it showed that people dressing in uniform and people playing certain roles takes on a life of it's own and can result in gross abuse of power due to the group dynamics changing in an institutional setting with identities being re established.

Lastly in working with my theories I have to say that if indeed I have enemies or people who are misguided and decide I need street justice for whatever the slight is let me remind you that I am in a documented DV situation and I am in my 2nd year of menopause without being able to take hormone therapy 

No judge in the world or psychiatrist is going to make a judgment on a person in those conditions even if you would like them to be corrupt enough to do so and make it look like something else  .

Im not alone and it's not 2016. Anyone trying anything like that is skating on thin ice. I have nothing to fear. Theree more oversight nowadays ans more cameras  

Hope this post leads to some changes. In the future I will make sure these issues are fixed through activism. 

Red Dawn-Is It Happening Now?

 Gen Xers grew up with this movie and it's been said that programming may go on with generations not just individuals. Perhaps it was a warning that we now need to heed. 

I will write more tomorrow but there's some weird stuff going on with hacking or phones and foreign companies infiltrating our country by means of commerce which looks like normal capitalism would look. 

However alot of the conspiracy stuff people discuss on the Internet and YouTube has gone from things that the public should be warned about to bipartisan nonsense. It's a diversion. 

I will add to this later but what we writit about other countries already know obviously. 

Japan bought up all the 7-eleven convenience stores and all the Speedway gas stations/convenience. 7-eleven has replaced nice places that had healthier choices and  nice selections like Tedeschi's and any other convenience store.

We buy everything from China now. Now my government funded phone has all their customer service agents replaced with people with Russian or eastern European accents, my data is being siphoned for the past two montjs and now I've begun reporting it as fraud to many authorities now my ride service misdirects the driver to go to East Boston instead of the South end

 A ride that should have taken 12 minutes usually took 35 minutes. 

Now this would not be so worrisome if I was not having weird problems with my and another person texting each other this winter where the text kept either not showing up or repeating itself and we had to turn our phone off to stop it

This was right after a news report that Russia was hacking into people's phones and doing things like this

Now anyone seasoned should be smart enough to realize it could be a false flag  like putting out the news story then messing with people's phones afterwards and then people don't think and  tbey blame someone else

 Any further weird phone disturbances is going to then be blamed on foreign actors etc. 

It could be some private security assholes or it could be an outsourced company that does our Intel in this country it could be something from the private sector or military or....etc etc....some billionaire who the f*ck knows?

So I'm posting this only because there's been a lot of trouble with this lately also after I did that post about India call centers scamming people in horrible ways specifically elderly people a close family member got scammed right afterwards. 

But now putting it all together there are other things I've  seen and heard that are alarming. Yet I don't want to fall for the bait and seem alarmist right?

The company that provides my phone service has recently acquired a company that was caught doing just this to customers which is why they shut down-siphoning data then pushing customers to purchase more when obviously these people can't afford it and they have just ripped off federal funding. Greedy? Right? 

Well what's alarming is the other things jnvolved I mentioned. 

There's also weird people invading some of my long time spaces and making it uncomfortable for me. 

So I wonder what's going on but I can tell you that it's not all just my situation. I had a relative thaf lived right next to a company that has made cameras for many years now owned by Japan. When the company moved out I noticed a distiinct change in the environment. For years I had experienced the sensation of being watched from that building but never consciously acknowledged it. Until it was gone then I could realize what I had been experiencing for years. Mknnd you that bulokdng was empty at night and they left the lights on you could see the desks and computers

So either there is some bad shit on the way that effects all of us and we must prepare or at least be aware or more intentationallly connected entities create a power structure that is now messing with...well you know. Not everyone.

But I suggest waking up and realizing that we are in this together type mentality might mean snakes are in the pit with us also and they cannot and will not change their nature. 

Reality sets in.