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2026 UPDATE ON VIDEOS:
PLEASE BE AWARE THAT AS OF 2026 I HAVE TAKEN DOWN ALL VIDEOS THAT SHOW MY FACE. THIS IS DUE TO ADVANCING TECHNOLOGIES IN OUR WORLD BUT IT IS ALSO DUE TO MY GROWING RESPONSIBILITY TO AGING RELATIVES AND MY DESIRE TO PRODUCE MEANINGFUL WORK THAT WILL SECURE MY FUTURE FOR THEM AND MYSELF. KEEP IN MIND THAT THIS BLOG WAS STARTED IN A DIFFERENT ERA WHERE BEING A CONSPIRACY THEORIST WAS SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE. For many years there were a few attempts to discredit the targeted individual community, such as infrequent, lone articles published by unsavory newspapers. However this was always met with resistance as well as a continued desire from many powerful factions such as academia to keep our community in a gray area. This is most likely due to the fact that back in those days academia had not been infiltrated or influenced by things like students being indoctrinated and then being used as armies against adults and institutions as well as other sordid things like the Jeffrey Epstein scandal. Educated and powerful people knew damn well that this situation is completely feasible. That level of society understood that we are victims of torture especially being aware of the exact nature of abuse of power opposed to the general public's vague impressions that they barely sense that they're being oppressed by in their daily lives anyway. Especially if it's connected to human experimentation or the theory that MK ultra is being continued under private contractors all these years academia and the powerful of all people would understand the levity of the situation. PEOPLE COULD NOT BE CANCELED AND DISSIDENT VOICES COULD NOT BE SILENCED SO EASILY. SOMEONE EXPRESSING A VERY ALTERNATIVE OPINION WOULD NOT IMMEDIATELY BE A POTENTIAL THREAT OR A DANGER TO OTHERS DUE TO CONTENT. SINCE THIS BLOG WAS STARTED, CONSPIRACY THEORY CULTURE HAS BEEN VILLANIZED AND WORSE CO-OPTED (EVEN THOUGH IT SEEMS THAT THE LEFT AND THE RIGHT POLITICAL PARTIES BELIEVE NOTHING BUT CONSPIRACY THEORIES AND THERE'S NO COMMON SENSE OR REAL POLITICS GOING ON). THERE'S SO MUCH CONSPIRACY THEORY GOING ON WITHIN POLITICS THE PROBLEM IS IS THAT ANYBODY THAT'S A REAL CONSPIRACY THEORIST THAT'S LOOKING FOR REAL ANSWERS OR THE TRUTH IS NOW BEING LABELED A PROBLEM BECAUSE SOMEHOW CONSPIRACY THEORIES ARE ONLY SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE AS LONG AS THEY FIT IN WITH...POLITICAL POLARIZATION?
 IT'S JUST A DANGEROUS TIME. I WILL ALWAYS PRODUCE WORK ON THIS BLOG UNTIL I AM INCAPABLE OF DOING SO OR UNTIL MY BOOK IS WRITTEN.  SINCE I WAS FRAMED IN 2016 IT TOTALLY OBLITERATED MY AUDIENCE BASE. I HAVE TO WORK REALLY HARD TO GET THIS THING BACK. MY PERSONAL LIFE HAS BEEN INTERFERING FOR THE PAST 10 YEARS AND THAT IS ENDING NOW.. HOPEFULLY I CAN MAKE THIS BLOG WHAT I ORIGINALLY INTENDED IT TO BE AS WELL AS I CAN FINALLY COMPLETE WHAT I STARTED DECADES AGO AS A WOMAN IN MY THIRTIES. NOW IN MY '50S I WOULD LIKE TO COMPLETE THIS AND MOVE ON. 
 
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Wednesday, July 29, 2026

Small Cities Are Becoming Globalist Mega Cities... and They Don't Want Anyone Spilling Their Secrets

 It's becme apparent that at this time one needs to be very careful. There is no more privacy. Everywhere and everyone are for sale. 

Everything you do may be scrutinized. 

Be very quiet now. Any discussions amongst yourselves should be done in private places. Use your common sense to find them. 

Places you thought were safe or private or refuge is going to become..not those things anymore.

If you push a carriage or cart or heavy suitcase through a large station people may get in your way on purpose and if you try to simply plow through them then your behavior will be assessed as dangerous or 'crazy'. 

If you enter a chain that sells health or whole food the employees may gawk at you as if there is really something wrong with your dress or lifestyle yet they fully accept the whacked out homebum with no teeth who s an old drunk who's aggressively panhandling right at the exit door-as normal

Truly this is a time of being oppressed through subjective unfair biased attitudes. What did you expect in a place claiming equality?  

Wednesday, July 22, 2026

TIs May Be Being Exposed on Dark Web or Through Other Means-By Compromised Individuals or Groups (Not a True Truman Show)

 https://www.quora.com/Are-targeted-individuals-put-on-a-live-stream-for-all-stalkers-to-see

 

Psychiatrists deal with a condition called Truman Show Delusion. In our community we deal with what is known as Truman Show Effect. 

That's because in our situations it's very possible that a group of people have means motive access and opportunities to actually expose a person's private life.

As usual ultimately targeted people never really know who or what is behind the activity known as 'gang stalking' or organized stalking. Organized stalking is a step beyond workplace mobbing and community mobbing. In fact locals who take part in harassing Targets may actually believe it's only a local activity- not realizing that if the situation is severe enough then the harassment will continue no matter what location they move to even if they leave the country.

Even though the shadow system makes the harassment look harmless, localized or akin to community mobbing (bullying by local people) it is indeed very serious and extremely costly.  If a targeted person knows the motive to begin with or eventually figures it out eventually then they have won half the battle. Therein is the reason why someone or entity would spend that much private or black budget money to neutralize a person. It's a lot easier to deal with once the motive makes sense. 

One of the things many targets have spoken about over the years is strangers filming them outright, snapping pictures of them or a group recording their activities. One person actually had a camera in an attic of a nightclub across from their 3rd floor apartment recording their activities through an open window. Only later when they became aware that gang stalking existed did they understand the entire situation. 

Those examples of people filming with hand cams or snapping photos are mostly post 9/11 examples. Now the technology is much more advanced and there are more people being blackmailed  compromised and in trouble who are easily recruited.  This makes it feasible for a group masking as a social group (drug activity etc) to be used as a group of people to focus on harassing one or more targeted individuals. 

One or more of the group is usually connected to whatever powerful entity, through layers of involvement and this person may give someone without means or funds the technology and hook up to perform the surveillance necessary. 

It could be that someone a target lives with who is or becomes compromised is somehow turned and then brings something into the home where the Target's activities can be revealed either through recording then sharing or live. The content may end up on the Dark Web or other means of a network where people can listen or view the content.

This of course is simply a new form of local neighborhood harassment and of course if the perpetrator is motivated he or she can cause the target(s) distress as to cause behavior that's going to look worse or going to make the people involved look worse or the compromised person may even take things out of context to cause a skewed perception of the people being surveilled. 

Nowadays there's no lack of people to recruit. Things cost more. Taxes are going up. More people are moving into areas that are newcomers and they have no local or town loyalties and just exploit people and things in their new area as if they were opportunities in their new homeland not ruining a person's life. These newcomers may also do such things to please local authorities in their new home areas-especially if thngs like visas or immigration are part of the payoff system. 

It is extremely dangerous nowadays because the technology does exist, people are desperate and there's no controls anymore with long held institutions being destroyed-everything from civil service to government to organized crime to religion or the US military.  The private sector and wealthy individuals are now in a dangerous position of power over society. Most of our intelligence community is from outsourced PRIVATE contractors.

The public are being fed the pablum of the last century where they are still focused on civil rights and anti government, not understanding this is outdated and the private sector is what is dangerous now and that the government may just be the only thing protecting citizens from private power structures abuses. So they engineer these reductions in government power that actually protect people such as 'defund the police' which has ended up in disaster as cities are now over tolerant and where the feds and the state insist on these conditions and local police no longer have any power to protect their citizens. 

The public are now literally being brainwashed to believe these environments of chaos and filth are totally normal day to day life. 

Then people become easier to recruit living in filth and disorder with a happy face painted over it. Then it's much easier to destroy whoever is left that is a 'problem' than it was just ten years ago. 

The overdevelopment, safe spaces and special spaces further remove people from daily life in the real world. If the targeted person is left vulnerable then it's much easier nowadays then just ten years ago to do much more damage. 

It would not be difficult in such an environment to gain the compliance of citizens and of compromised people to create an entire narrative that replaces what a targets life is actually about. 

In fact someone could actually create a whole new hate and bullying campaign against a targeted individual and the people involved might never even know what the original story was that got them targeted in the first place. You could even get people to work for free if they believed the Target deserves to be bullied based on moral judgements etc. 

The public would never realize the person may have been put under extreme duress for years or forced to function in a part of society they would not normally have chosen (homelessness, unsavory people etc) of they had not been forced to do so.

How the pubic cannot realize that targeted people do not get to exercise free will do not get to engage in free association and totally lose their ability for self determination is beyond my understanding. 

I think that the harassment comes to a level where it becomes normal for this person to be oppressed and the public think it's normal. Then again it could just be if you gentrify a City enough you have so many have nots and compromised , desperate people that everyone else doesn't notice who isn't involved.

It would be easy to manipulate then expose a person to the public and then validate why they should be harassed further. 

It's frightenly easy to record people or even broadcast live but as the thread says it would be a  harassment group not a centralized Truman show type live stream.. 

It is completely possible and the human behavior is totally feasible especially if there's no consequences but there is reward. 

Monday, July 20, 2026

Commentary On The Vids in Last Post

Yes, lately this is what they are trying to make us out to be or so it seems. I don't know about other people but I get that distinct impression. So watching an actual dangerous person should give you some perspective on it. 

The bottom line is this: it's war now. 

They want to play games? Good then we can play games. 

Observe the person being interviewed in the first video. 
Notice his necklaces. He hides them, then makes sure they can be seen for the interview. However you can't see them due to the camera just giving you a headshot. Then for one part of the he's filmed from an angle where you can clearly see the necklaces. As the interview finishes, he makes sure he puts them away under his shirt. 

I'm wondering if the producers wanted this as part of the video. 

Regardless I don't think that should be the focus for the purposes of this blog and the reader. 

Notice how different the attitudes are between American and Canadian handling of a person with a mental illness that results in murder or violence. 

In the first video everyone is berating the psychopath. Being critical of him, blaming him and constantly making him seem as if he could be doing better somehow. It almost seems from the beginning of the video that everyone involved is jealous almost. Maybe of his intelligence levels. We know Morgan is a journalist and he can be difficult but ive always found him fair. All TV people seem ratings or whatever it is nowadays, I'm writing more about the doctors involved and his family members also.  If you notice the next video the patients we fear the Canadian nurses involved are much more down to earth and realistic about who they're dealing with. Even the family says that there's two victims in The situation where the sun was schizophrenic and killed his mother there's the mother who lost her life says one of the brothers and then there's their brother who was a victim of his mental illness. 

These are two completely different ways of looking at somebody who is sick and does some kind of violent action. 

And what's most disgusting is the way that the doctors are behaving in the first video. 

From the way the kid is talking I would safely say that we're dealing with another case of people involved in psychiatry that will do anything possible to not admit that there's a such thing as programming satanic ritual abuse and most of all in this case split personality disorder or at least dissociative disorder. 

The fact that a person who claims to be a medical professional actually comes out with the sentence saying about how the psychopath can fake some tears that's extremely critical and it's very unprofessional. 

But the public have to perceive these people as monsters not part of mother nature's plan or some process that made them that way. 

I wonder about this family the little girl is just a little too attractive and cute and pretty for a girl of her age and the brother is a little bit too 'evil'. It follows  the standards for alot of what we've seen in SRA families or at least programming or experimentation

The mom if you take a good look at her she's narcissistic her damn self. If he was lonely as a child because he's psychopathic and feels alone and whatever else is going on in his head but look at the way she talks about him and herself and her parenting. I'd like to see who the father is and if he's the one that was carrying the gene but it could be her for Christ's sake and the Father's DNA just made a really bad combination and they lost out on that particular gamble. 

 Every time you have a child it's like a DNA crap shoot. That's why some children look like an uncle and some other children look like a grandfather and some other children look like the parents. I've seen people that have like three children and then they have grandchildren and they look like all kinds of family members not just the parents. sometimes with certain circumstances these DNA combinations just don't come out right two parents have a gene that just comes out a certain way and with the wrong conditions or the wrong parenting or the wrong situation or the wrong time period in history whatever the factors are it turns out like this and it can't be helped. 

At least she's humane and says he's a human being and she is sticking with him and being in his life it is a weird situation when you're a caregiver of someone you can't just let them ggo and I think they're being a little bit ridiculous about the safety of her second child. 

What's interesting to me is that they never really revealed why he was so angry and what exactly was his motive with her. that was never revealed and I find that to be a key that's missing that we really need to find out. 

Like with every loan shooter and every murderer and every person that's like this from Ted Bundy onward and outward and upwards all over the place in America whenever these people pop up we never get a correct assessment of why they did what they did.  Especially specifically with loan shooters we never even get a psychological rundown we never get a brain mapping we never get anything of why these people did what they did. oftentimes they die through 'death by cop' so that we never find out (they purposely give authorities no choice but to shoot them other than be captured).

The attitude of the American psychiatrists in contrast to the Canadian psychiatric staff in the second video is shocking and it should be extremely telling they are hiding something and they know it. 

Why else would you be so nasty and mean to someone who has a mental disorder which is why they're in a jail? Let the public use moral judgements-these educated people are supposed to know better. 

If you can't help the way he is then why  is everybody blaming him and being nasty towards him? Interestingly in the second video the model of that hospital is what I remember about the way the medical field used to behave in the '70s and '80s and very early '90s when America and Boston was normal and reality was well real and things were as they were supposed to be in fields designed to help people. 

Now things are not the way they're supposed to be and people and the system are playing a lot of games in order to get away with a lot of stuff. 

So not only do I want you to see how bad our system has gotten with medical care, shelters, home care etc but use these examples on a personal level as a citizen.

Then anyone working with the TI and GS theories needs to look especially at the second video and be extremely grateful you didn't end up like them. This could be your future if you aren't careful and make just the right courses of action. One mistep and this could be your life. 

The cities are so clean and neat and tidy and perfect now with everybody looking as if they know they're on camera constantly that they perceive anything that isn't conformist to be mental illness or something wrong with it I hope this video opens up a whole new world of reality for people that it's really obvious the difference bbetween mental illness and people fighting political oppression or something else more sinister. 

And even though Canadians seem to have a much better more compassionate and old-fashioned sensible model of dealing with medical issues I don't want to hear about how socialized medicine is better because actually they're legalizing euthanasia up there and people are euthanizing themselves instead of getting medical care because the medical care is either bad quality or really hard to get because you have to wait so there are some positive things about our medical system and I think the doctors here not the people in the pseudoscience of psychiatry but the actual medical doctors are wise enough to understand that process that if you start getting socialized medicine then people are going to have to euthanize themselves because there's no quality medicine. I think that's why they won't legalize euthanasia here because it gives the medical system and excuse to get worse and to provide bad quality it's probably just the way humans start to fall into something that's not so great.

By the way who the f*ck are those psychiatrists to sit there and dis the psychopath doesn't like stupid people they're The ones treating someone with a disorder they can't help like crap and talking shit about him.  

It's sad that he ran to Satanism however that might just be a home for him and contrary to what other people might understand or think that might be a place where he can find safety a group of people that understand him and think like him and he might find a home there and it might actually make him better not worse in society because he has some kind of thing to give his life meaning now and he doesn't feel like he's alone. 

So I'm going to watch these videos a couple of times over and as far as I'm concerned these gave me a lot of incentive to look at the way I'm being treated and perceived or the way people are trying to make me out to be and to really take a hard look and what's going on around me right now because I found myself becoming very sheepish and very much a doormat because I feel bad about the way that I'm being treated and perceived as dangerous. 

So the minute I saw the first video I'm just not doing that anymore. You know Satan is nothing but Lucifer and Lucifer is a messenger he is an angel or was. And sometimes when you deal with Satanism more lucifer in that form he delivers information to you that you don't want to hear I think that's what Anton lavay's daughter had said and it makes more sense coming from a woman everything makes more sense to me coming from a woman and sso it's true that the information you might receive from this dark Angel might be the truth in a way that you don't want to see it or hear it. 

But we must take all information from every angle in order to get a correct aassessment of what our reality is because certainly the people and places around us do not reflect that. 

Interestingly what is most chilling to me personally was not the  person who committed murder in the first video but the second one. it's the smile and the look he gives to the camera in this end of the second video about the patients we fear. It makes you wonder what really is going to happen when he's on the outside because there is a little bit of a devious and devilishness. 

And he's such a nice person but it really makes you wonder if psychiatry is correct and saying that there's no such thing as the existence of genuine evil in humanity I think looking at these two videos we can say that there is I think science and medicine is simply trying to dissect something and put it into their own terms. It's still the existence of evil. and who knows why it comes up in certain people. 

But it does exist. 

A side note here. How is religion coexisting with psychiatry? You know why? Because they don't want to look at religion using their criteria for delusion because they don't want to step on the toes of worldly institutions which totally makes any other judgments they have completely null and void. 

So it's subjective? This is what I mean you got to get around all this nonsense. This is just worldly power games of money land and human greed that's all it is. And my hats go off to the nurses and the people working in the institution I don't know if they're good people or bad people I don't know if they take advantage of people if they know that some of these people might be targeted or satanic ritual abuse or experimented on and they're just helping the system I don't know but they seem very strong and solid and very compassionate towards their patients and America she relearn those things. 

 

Vids: Interview with Child Psychopath and Doc on Canadian Mental Patients: See If This Changes Your Perception

Just simply watch these two videos. Then see if they make you perceive your own situation any differently. It depends on where you are at right now. 

I watched the Piers Morgan interview first but partway as the new YT is too many bells and whistles and I touched something and it skipped to the mental institution video, so I watched that in full. Then I returned later to finish the interview video which let me absorb the rest of the content after the two vids. That specific order of absorbing these vids had a certain effect. I hope it works for you also with the way things are this summer. 

Piers Morgan Meets America's Most Notorious Child Psychopath  
 
 

The Patients We Fear
 
I will do the next post with comments. Make sure you just take these in and then read my next post afterwards. 
 
I hope you 'get it' and it helps you.  

Friday, July 10, 2026

Secret Policing in Cities Now Creating a Dystopian System Complete with East German Stasi Citizen Spies (Mostly Agitators)

 https://www.aclu.org/news/immigrants-rights/boston-police-has-secret-point-system-turns-normal-teenage-behavior-gang

 so imagine the system that gets people points to claim that they're gang members by just wearing a hoodie or something. Imagine if that was supplied to people that they really wanted to give a hard time to. When you go into the airport TSA actually has an entire profiling thing going on One of the things they use you're used to use for profiling that I read about a few years ago was that people dressing age inappropriate, people dressing like they're part of an alternative scene and not mainstream. I think I posted this because the most hysterical one was people who complained about how long the wait time was for TSA getting people through the gates was considered a mark on them to watch them for terrorism which I thought was very fucking self-serving and absolutely ridiculous. 

What bothers me is that they're becoming lax on security now. They don't even ask for IDs at the shelters anymore which I think is outrageous because after 9/11 they started doing that and they still should be doing that. Also somebody said TSA doesn't make you take your shoes off anymore well let's hope they have some kind of machine that looks at your shoes. Instead of just giving up security. By the way when you take your shoes off in a government building a shelter or TSA at the airport or whatever why don't you bring two plastic bags with you to put your feet in because it's extremely unsanitary and everybody thinks that I'm nuts for not wanting to put my bare feet or my socked feet on the ground and then back into my shoes. Do you know how much crap travelers deal with with trying to avoid catching? That's why if you're smart and your long-term doing this Even if it's just local urban camping you really watch out for catching stuff. And that definitely includes taking care of your feet. If you have a $200 pair of boots and those are the only shoes you own maybe besides flip-flops for showering and if you're strong enough to still carry stuff like when I was young I would carry some decent sandals with me just for the summer. So if you're doing that and you have only one pair of shoes essentially you can't afford to get those shoes infected with fungus or anything because then you're totally screwed. Especially if you're a big person like me and you weigh a little bit or if you're older or both you need those steel shanks in those boots to hold your weight I've actually tried to carry my backpack around with just like a pair of skater shoes and it really hurt me. I might even able to get away with that in my 30s but not in my 40s and '50s. 

So it's outrageous to me that people want you to just take your shoes off and put them on the ground that is absolutely disgusting. Once again it's security theater and agendas more matter more than actual reality. SSo people have to take their shoes off in government buildings are used to have to did have problems with disability where it hurts them to keep taking their shoes off and they make them do it anyway. Then you had to have an ID years ago to start going into the shelters and now you don't all of a sudden just because of some immigration bullshit? 

They need to stop changing the rules depending on what serves their purposes. .

I was reading today about how psychiatry now is now involved in writing about targeted individuals and gang stalking and now they have an opinion whereas years ago academia had some power they knew this stuff was possible the general public is stupid it doesn't know and so therefore they just kind of made it a gray area where they didn't really say anything because it didn't want to touch iit. Because they didn't want to get workplace mobbed cuz it's we used to be very prevalent in academia but then they also didn't want to hurt innocent people because they know that this stuff goes on. 

Now because of the agenda going on and the last 10 years they've made it really really obvious that they have absolutely no problem being part of something that's disinformation and trying to neutralize and oppress anybody claiming to talk about gang stocking harassment organized stocking mind control whatever it is. 

Because now there's an agenda. 

So then they change the reality. 

But real reality stays the same. 

And I bet you 10 years from now there's going to be this gang stalking cause celeb and all of a sudden it's going to be all about us and they're going to try to take care of it and of course they're just going to do something like skim the surface leave the real problem behind and make it look like they're doing something when they're not really doing anything and then leave it alone and public will move on to the next cause. 

That's why you need to say grounded in reality. 

So I looked up on AI and AI is actually very fair when it comes to this issue it actually acknowledges that the stuff is possible due to progresses and technology etc. and the history of things like Russia China East Germany all this history that proves that this is totally possible. And it put it in a way that was very diplomatic where it said that psychiatry because of the nature of that industry and that field looks at this as delusion because that's what it comes under with their criteria. The problem is is that that's being used against us even when it deals with legal issues when it comes to law and order and investigation of crime psychiatry has nothing to do with any of that. That's the criminal sciences and you can't even exactly say the psychiatry is a science. 

So the problem here is the cult of psychiatry and how much power it has with all the money it gets from Big pharma etc. it's become like a new rreligion like the church took over Europe in the Middle ages. It had nothing to do with religion or spirituality or faith it had to do with worldly concerns like money and owning land. 

And this is what we have to watch out for if you want to truly live by the Constitution which was built on purpose and designed to prevent this kind of stuff. And it was designed to prevent the kind of stuff that you see right now with these big hedge fund companies and billionaires becoming like lords in the medieval days. And I come from the landed gentry in Ireland so I should know. It's still in the DNA. Even though our old castle Menlo is now in ruins and becoming a park for public use which I agree with fully Believe me I can still think like the people that are taking over our world and becoming oppressors. 

That's why the Constitution was created to avoid this stuff and they found every way that they can to get around it now. 

So back to the point of this post which is imagine if somebody wants to put points on you and to try to get you surveilled all the time which of course is a guys for harassment. They could say that you dress a certain way you act a certain way and then the more they harass you the crazier you act the cameras are everywhere and then it goes from there so it's really just create a problem solve a pproblem. 

So from now on it seems to me you need to watch out because it's more surveillance more spying more listening more sizing someone up trying to make them look a certain way trying to get you on a list and I think that these kids might have the idea I didn't understand why these kids don't talk to each other on the trains I didn't understand why the young kids nowadays are very non-demonstrative. I think I get it now. They know that they're surveillance everywhere and they're going to be judged so they're quiet and they try to go under the radar and I think we should take a lesson from them at this ppoint. 

I'm never going to stop dressing the way that I dress and expressing being part of my subculture however I will be a little more careful about conversations in public places. 

And trying to use spaces I think are safe as art space is for brainstorming or talking to people about the book I'm going to write because actually there's a lot of nosy fucking people everywhere. And you just ccan't have any privacy right now. 

Right now this summer partially is my own fault because I didn't really pay attention to the fact that there's FIFA The tall ships the 4th of July there's a lot of stuff around here where there's going to be people around doing security and it's been extra brutal this yyear. My intuition told me to go up to a beach that's north of here near New Hampshire Go to a hotel and get a job Make money and then come back after this is all over. Well I didn't do that and here I am suffering when am I going to learn that I cannot be in this area in the summer time? 

But I will make it work. I will however be much more aware that we don't have the freedom that we think we have to express ourselves anymore if somebody has us under a microscope because they choose to create a problem when there is no problem there for their own agenda. and then the agenda's change and the thing that they made so necessary like for instance taking IDs or whatever it is now becomes totally unnecessary but that doesn't mean that the original reason that the threat was there is gone which does it make any sense at all. 


Saturday, July 4, 2026

fireworks July 4th

 I'm so sorry. To all the animals and every veteran and all inside and outside pets. 

I'm sorry and I wish I could stop it.

Fireworks should be illegal world wide except for certain circumstances.

They also pollute the environment and aren't good for humans either.

Some day.. maybe...the world will make sense.