Ive been runnimg myself ragged takimg care of this boyfriemd out here just so I,domt have tob alome. The gs system forced me into this servitude. I look old and tired, hes so detached that I spend all my energy tryimg to b a good xa re tKerto get his attwntiom I think.
I have lost my independence. I dont work on my blogs or my book.
Tonight this kid from years ago came into harvard sq. Uswd to be a peacable occasional heroin user, stole to make money.
He was acting crazy tonight trying to get into a fight with just anyone based on race.
I prevented it and told him he was getting that look when a guy goes to prison too oftwn and to get out MA.
After this he left but I heard he came bCk again and did fight.
Poimt is that after this just now when walkimf to use barhroom before bed I had the experience of feelimg an authoriry behind the FS system 'give' me back my full emotional memoriws Md emotionL connections to people in my prjor life before becoming targwted.
And took away my being posessed , owned by or having connection or association with satanic forces...the ones ive been brainwazhed and conditioned to feel think and believe am associated with through this long term alking gang stalking campaign.
All it took for me to b free of non stop torment and spiritual bondage from years of non stop torture was for me to become old looking, physically worn and sick, lose most of my sexual prowess and stop give up my own .eeds and concerns to become a caretaker to males mostly resembling a wife and mother. Being with this guy lately haz had a dumbdown eccfect.
I refuse to b modified internally by whats ob iously been a long process of conditioning to bring me down to a average persons level and rendwd me completely harmless and neutralzed.
Go fuck yourselves. I still hate the US and know Americans suck. People in on thiz have been jealous cowards who could ne er b as exemplary as Survivors are.
I refuse to change or b altered.
Theyve only dwatroyed a potentially happy, well adjusted person who had artistic talent. And helped the system of RA and programming to cover its ass.
Youve helped the bad guys..greaf.