Well if youve read yesterday's posts you now have experienced the 'candid' part of this blog.
Though it makes me look awful or has readers drop this blog its purpose is to illustrate the difficulties involved in daily life as a TI.
To map out how the tech and chemical influence effect a targeted person and to illustrate how a person full of love and care for humanity can be tormented into hate, lone shooting, racism as self defense (racial awareness) or other things coming from being isolated and tormented while working tirelessly to get information to people who would rather not know the truth.
I've had a tooth in my jaw that broke and the hole is exposing nerve I believe as my jaw hurts. This plus heavy destructive and dumbing down tech and chemical influence (creating conditions that make the in person stalking and harassing psychological warfare more effective than it ever would be under normal conditions) were what was behind yesterday's posts.
I walked around on the defensive all day yesterday.
I am so damaged by years of being harassed by the medical professionals that Im conditioned to be afraid of going to the hospital.
I did a lot of writing aloud last night and somehow finagled a promise to myself I will go today. I dont want to. I know people at whatever hospital I go to will mess with me.
But at least its Saturday and the electromagnetic influence or pollution is lessened making the harassment less effective.
(Panhandling in this weather is crappy also.)