Yeah I was told that its Baker thats got a "focused plan" for MA so all thats happening around me that sucks is coming from higher ups.
I knew Baker was going to be difficult and I shouldn't have returned to MA.
Its a very bad habit Ive gotten into. A pattern of coming back to fight, always losing to MA and often almost ending up in jail or dead or very ill.
I must find a way of preventing myself from returning.
The one delusion I do admit to suffering from is that I can beat Massachusetts. That I can win and get justice for myself and my family. That I can take back what theyve taken from me all these years.
Thats never going to happen.
Me just writing down what happened is going to have to be enough. And I need to make myself understand that.