There was a younger guy near the front of the shelter today. He was a resident's boyfriend. He looked very similar to my ex except shorter and smaller boned. I kept glancing over at him. I couldnt get over the resemblance. This was a totally legit random occurance I am quite sure. It wasnt creepy or seemed contrived or mathematical nor pre meditated.
It made me realize just how much the system used him and my memory of him to destroy me. To make him as a pillar that marked my entrance into this hellish existence- a marker for the end of my old life and all its hopes for the future. A future I deserved.
Seeing him brought back my old Self that was ripped from me, my true Self and the time line that was lost.
I also now recall with amusement how his likeness was utilized by whoever is behind gang stalking that sets up these games and theatres. In Burlington VT there was a near constant look alike as if he had various members of his family let loose on me as a target. All different shapes and sizes but the likeness was uncanny. I ran up there due to being so harassed in Boston area and MA has some..uh, tech lets say that makes writing papers for court cases very difficult. In VT it was fine and I got everything done in a local hospital library. I first went to Burlington during an NA convention that Scott took me too. Due to being so messed up from the exposure to mold in in that apartment as well as head gamed into a stupor at pretty much the same time frame, I regressed alot to a strange state where I just went for anything that seemed safe or that had struck me as a pleasant place. And I had not been well traveled yet so this was new. VT is unbelievably 'perfect' as far as New England states go. Nana always liked it for this reason. It was beautiful with lots of neo hippies. Even getting harassed there was not so bad.
In Buffalo NY the same thing occured walking down a main street. One of them looked absolutely guilt ridden about what was going on.
These kinds of things are not a Target's imagination. They are sophisticated mind games meant to destroy the target psychologically which in depth equates spiritual and emotional hell and over time death of the spirit.
Really a more practical purpose is to wipe the mind and the Self from memory. Very MK Ultra wouldnt you say?