I was feeling very suicidal tonight very bad. I started my period (TMI?) and things have not been fun here at all lately. just a grind realy.

i was doing one of those long stares in the mirror of this place, like when you want to look for a reason as to why it might not be worth it....then a woman came in to the bathroom. I was doinng something and something about her presence just clicked. I realized that all the women in my life have been taken from me. And my dealings with women latley have been freindly but men have been my companions. Lost all my women friends and all my relatives.  So if you are trying to subjegate a woman who is seen as too agressive and to destroy a strong dissedent who is female to disuade activism then rip her apart from the women in her life, especially if she comes from an environement where females where the nurturing faction in her childhood.

Intimate things along the gs campaign like she likes to be the baby all the time..make it about her having to grow up..thus be subjegated b men.

I realized there wsa nothing wrong with me all this time that this was part of my gs syndrome of my tailored campaign.