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Friday, August 27, 2010

After a day in the gang stalking prison/ a post from ONMC.Wordpress

Its 12:40 am in Boston. Of course my senses have fully returned, my circumstances seem normal again and I have returned to my sense of Self. This will end at approx 6am, 6 hours from now. One should not live thier life out truly only between the hours of 6 am to 12 midnight. A prison and we are supposed to go crazy inside of it until we reveal everything about ourselves to everyone in cyberland. Most likely to create and be part of this new world, where disconnection creates so much imaginary 'danger' in the minds of guilty men of power. Knowing everything about everyone, even if it destroys who they are as a total human being, is worth the price of constant 'people management' and interrogation.
Until all there is left is the information and nothing left of the person. I wonder if this information is so important as to create the best AI possible or some sort of other creation. To not be allowed to live normally during normal daylight hours and to be squeezed to death for information has got to be more than just the cost of powerful men's paranoia. Its most likely a way of ensuring that someone unsuitable for power, never gains any position of power becuz power is ultimately secrecy. Everything I post about myself, if I was so not denied a private existence, I could easily create a very interesting existence for myself just on the info I have access to from internal programming as well as life experiences. Whatever is happening right now, people like myself seem a threat that must be managed.

I recall once a woman who obviously knew some of my situation, looking at me drawing. I have seen this look before a few times and its this look that says a few things:
-this girl is incredibly intelligent
- this girl must be kept from knowing how intelligent she is and what value that has
-this girl must be kept down
-this girl is kept stupid by circumstances that keep her controlled
-I enjoy the control that the situation and controllers have over her as it renders me powerful
-I am afraid
Its one of the creepiest things you will ever experience in a situation like mine. And then one thinks back to my father's supposedly insane claims pertaining to a secret govt project which includes my mother, her family, the military and the CIA. Then I recall my mother discovering she was a documented survivor of human radiation experimentation- which is connected to many sub projects that were 'secret' projects documented to be sponsored by the military and the CIA.
This is why I never fully believe things that come to mind that are not from my own recall directly connected to my own life in the here and now. All of the things I mentioned above could be just manipulative. Its been said by at least one survivor that the New Age movement is actually a disinfo campaign. That its run by covert factions connected to Dirty Tricks, social engineering and programming. So what should one think of past life memories in such a case?

I know I dont imagine feeling totally messed up until approx 12 midnight and I didnt imagine the psych warfare campaigns.

Its so obvious what is going on. Music the way its made now, the content as well as the tech like HD radio, its meant to create a comfy prison not anything where one can get energized. TV the content is just as hollow and if one looks at the difference between digital and the old VCR or VHS taped content there is a warmth to the analog. The human mind is too perceptive for these tricks. I know damn well I am watching pure numbers, my mind registers that. And its a joke when they do computer animation that is plainly NOT in real time with the actors presence- they dont even do a good job of pretending they are looking at something real.

My life is so opposite to that experiment I was going to try, living in only real time no dead time, not Pre Recorded Light and Sound Images. Its sad to think I will never know genuinely what that is like. Even if I did such a thing now it wouldnt be a true test. In fact the presence of whatever is so active in our society now as far as tech makes it totally compromised. I was even going to not use electric light. Imagine how peaceful that would have been. I had just learned to love being with myself after years of what most people would refer to tastelessly as 'a hard life'. Now I am being hounded until I give up any memory or any impression of who that person was or anything about that life or any of its content. Its like this system wants to create such a drastically new Self that my true and original identity is akin to a past life- one that I will not be allowed to remember once I give in to behavior modification totally.

It will never happen. I will hold onto my true Self even if it burns my mind out completely. All that I write in these blogs and all that I recall is mine. I wont bury it for anyone or any force.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Where I'm at, they started with the extreme pain at 6AM. That was June of 2006. The torture involved a very sharp directed pain to the left testicle. After they worked on that, then they started on the right one. I remember thinking, "these people can't be this sadistic"? I could not believe it. It was around the time they were going covert, and I finally figured out I was targeted, and what was happening. I could not believe such a program was in existence. And I was also shocked to learn that there were sheeple that laughed at this whole thing and got off on me getting tortured. When I was little, and growing up, all I remember reading about was how wonderful America is, how when stuff happens, like Kennedy getting blown away, or the likes of John Lennon, it's just because some deranged wacko was soley responsible, along with other stuff, like he was extremely delusional, detached from himself, and needed to identify with his victim. So hence, his victim needed to go, so the shooter could be at peace with himself. That's how Hinkley Jr. was described.

So this really was the shocker: being told all my life about how America is the land of the freedom, we are a true democracy, how criminals are always brought to justice. So that amplified my pain even more: the fact that I felt powerless, that sadistic powerful a-holes were getting off doing such a thing covertly, while Peanut Gallery gangstalking weaklings laughed about it. That's what stressed me out: I knew right away what this was all about, money and power and sadism for the powerful covert factions, and I really felt helpless. Because everyone is told the same all their lives here, this is the land of the free, only brave people live here, criminals are brought to swift justice, assassins who kill presidents and dangerous rock stars are deranged wackos acting out fantasies (with no outside controlling help), so therefore this thing can NOT be happening to isolated targets. In fact, there could NOT be such a horrible thing as isolated targets of harassment and torture.

What surprises me is how intense these programs are: I mean they REALLY REALLY come after targets here, like prisoners in a Gulag or something. So everyone is just so in denial, because what they've been programmed to believe about in America is just so polar opposite of what is really happening. So they just brush it aside, while the ones who truly know what is happening to us just get off on it, like it's a good thing. Or they think we have it better than they do, like as targets we get pampered, so we deserve to be harassed harder because of it.

One guy from Russia visited my school back in 1988 or so, and he said he really doesn't think we have it very good here in America. In fact, he said we were worse off than Russia at the time. He saw us as being oppressed, not his homeland.

Anonymous said...

Where I'm at, they started with the extreme pain at 6AM. That was June of 2006. The torture involved a very sharp directed pain to the left testicle. After they worked on that, then they started on the right one. I remember thinking, "these people can't be this sadistic"? I could not believe it. It was around the time they were going covert, and I finally figured out I was targeted, and what was happening. I could not believe such a program was in existence. And I was also shocked to learn that there were sheeple that laughed at this whole thing and got off on me getting tortured. When I was little, and growing up, all I remember reading about was how wonderful America is, how when stuff happens, like Kennedy getting blown away, or the likes of John Lennon, it's just because some deranged wacko was soley responsible, along with other stuff, like he was extremely delusional, detached from himself, and needed to identify with his victim. So hence, his victim needed to go, so the shooter could be at peace with himself. That's how Hinkley Jr. was described.

Anonymous said...

Despite having one of the best justice systems in the world, I believe that all of this "land of the free home of the brave" is just a nice PR campaign to get our peoples comfortably numb to what is going on here. All of this crap we've been reading in schools about how wonderful it is in America, how only other countries do sh*t like this, is nothing more than MARKETING by the PR dept. of a powerful country. I think we the US is a monopoly, much in the same way Microsoft is. Both insist on buying off or bullying their competition out of the market, to make themselves look better. Both have to be controlling of their customers, to make them think via their ad campaigns that their products are wonderful and easy to use. Meanwhile, there are security holes that are dangerous and easy to compromise.

Like Microsoft, they just steal any knowledge from others, and everything we believe to be good about their product is the result of a clever PR campaign, not reality.

Think about it: if this country truly had everything going for it that they say, then powerful criminals would be caught and brought to justice. Period. There would be no covert warfare with easy cowardly compliant sheeple being so very easily manipulated. And I'm amazed at how easy it is to manipulate sheeple. I'm not sure what's going on here. I've lived here in this town for 30+ years. The neighbor across the street from me, I've known him since I was a small child. Always been good to me as a kid, always friendly. The creepy part is that only recently he has been going along with the harassment, just another puppet on a string like the many 100's of people I encounter in this town. Another puppet on a string, person melting into the stream of faceless anonymity flowing through the corrupt system.

Anonymous said...

True, you might want to think about not using any electricity as a target. They can superimpose a number of signals on top of the power they are delivering via the powerlines. A good example of this is that powerline networking stuff.

http://www.pcworld.com/article/85003/just_plug_it_in_networking_via_power_circuits.html

Anonymous said...

I've been thinking about that remark you made on the ONMC blog, where you said perps are one dimensional and live in an alternate reality. So true, and I've noticed that not only does that seem to be very true, but also, they try to drag me into this little world of them, where I am the inferior and they are rulers over me. Make sense? All these perps and handlers we encounter, they all seem to have the same, connected vibe to them, like I'm supposed to accept this world where I am enslaved by their perceptions. It's like this world consists of their perceptions of me, and that's how my life is supposed to be and my role in it, but only if I 'agree' to be dragged into this world. It seems there are higher up perps (controllers) that probably designed this world for me, and I'm supposed to live in it.

And if I don't agree to live in this world, they can always do things like interfere with my bodily functions in various ways, with their big fancy toys. They also claim I have conditions like diabetes, and have actors in commercials playing up to me in particular it seems. Well, they like to do this with targets, because they know we know about their big toys, and so they can say they know what's in our future, or we have these illnesses that they detected with their fancy toys. Some of this may be true, some may not. You never know about the perps: they may have access to some pretty sophisticated tech., but just remember these points.

1.) No matter how big fancy or expensive these toys are, they can still be wrong.

2.) You don't have to agree with anything. Since they are always trying to drag you into false realities, just tell yourself and them that these readings are false.

3.) a lot of psych. warfare seems to have evolved very far beyond what we have read about gaslighting: it seems light years more sophisticated than that, but gaslighting is still gaslighting.

4.) Don't trust anything or anybody anymore. You have no idea who's lying or if they believe they are telling the truth but are manipulated.

5.) The human spirit has something far more powerful than tech., so our own senses can provide more info than their expensive piles of sh*t toys ever will.

On that last point, I love how perps just are so enslaved to their junk technology. It's like a lot of them are druggies and smokers, but most of all, they are tech. junkies. Everything they do relies on stalking and torture via their big fancy toys. One dimensional pieces of crap is all the perps are.