I have been neglecting you, On_Gangstalking. I had been diverted by a male of course which happens sometimes but due to being a TI- not as much as it should probably.
Of course my erratic behavior and tortured soul ruined it very quickly and he was just too young I think. 9 years does make a difference.
How long would it have lasted with a Christian anyway? Right.
It was interesting how respectful he was in keeping his belief system to himself but southerners can do that I guess. Dont worry I felt a dear punishment for this one from forces beyond. But who can resist a cute southern blonde..(eww, that rhymed.)
I almost got myself hurt. Why? becuz I didnt listen to The Guidance System. Last week I was being bombarded by clear visions and ideations to get my ass out of here and go to the southwest, as if I was missing out on some scheduled travelling. This is what happens when one does not listen. It has always been that way with me. Only since 2003 has the system been so jammed that I cannot make decisions based on such intuitions.
I have been avoiding the guy as he has a very possessing spirit and I have come under his power. Its definately critical time to leave.
He is here now. I had been avoiding him. He found me at one of our regular places. I wanted to handle this like an RA survivor..I wanted to cut him out of me emotionally then compartmentalize the whole thing, and forge on as if it never happened. He is not allowing that.
He is such a good man he deserves someome young, healthy and of similar religious preference and goals.