I always will change anything on this blog if I feel that it is not content that is pertaining to the purpose of why this blog was created to educate or assist other TI's.
Also I have and will revise things if I was not expressing myself well enough to be understood on any given day due to the rigors of being targeted.
I will never, ever, be dishonest unless it is a matter of security. I may withhold information-that would be the height of my deceptions, again, for security reasons.
I will not retract anything on this blog. Not for perps, not for TI's or anyone.
Its purpose is educational. That not only includes my life experience and any info I process and filter out, it includes things that happen in real time in my life.
It is, in that sense, a journal.
If ever we have a day of justice, in court during our lifetimes or after we are very old or dead some other generation reads TI's accounts(and they are not portrayed as misguided or delusion) I take it as a heavy responsibility to be accurate...as much as I can from MY viewpoint in the midst of all this.
I have NOTHING left but information and honesty. It is why the perps hate me and fear me. It is why they feel they have an upper hand due to it probably assisting them in intel gathering on me. Ask me a question and they know it is very hard for me to lie. Now I have re-learned for safety but deprogramming is complicated and I wont get into it but my perps know exactly what they are dealing with. How to 'handle' me.
At one point in my life, being compartmentalized, it was easy to lie to protect whatever I felt a necessity. When you integrate and deprogram you have a spiritual awakening.
For whatever thier cruel reasons, they do not want a whole and spiritual person running around and they came after me with an attack so brutal, that I have hardly any energy left.
The world is lucky that I am not a serial killer or gone the lone shooter route by now...forget about being politically incorrect. The ONLY reason I am saved from the aforementioned is becuz of estrogen..I am a female plain and simple.
It is highly suspected that male tbmc survivors and male harassment Targets often snap when they are pushed too far. I wont get into it but women often survive the abuse better, with more clarity and self control.
I feel so deeply for our male counterparts, becuz they are truly motherless children, alone and scared in all of this. Women always have their own maternal sides for self mothering as well as other women sneaking us sympathy, favors or just a small smile and sad look.
Men feel so ripped of their pride and manhood often the axis of murder suicide is their final end...far too often.
Anything can happen to a TI on this path, and humans will find creative ways to cope with trauma.
It has been a feat of human Will as well as inner spirit to keep from hating humanity completely...mostly out of my sense of justice: I know that so many of the population do not know this is happening to us, also its what the perps want. Any result they are looking for cannot be good.
I will not accept judgements from anyone. There is no real future for TI's. What we go thru and the reactions we have are out of the norm...I will not be judged by the norm. And in case you didn't know this is war...not peacetime.
If I have a vision and it comes out in almost trance I am not going to argue with it. I am also not going to comment on it at all. I dont care where it comes from, where it goes or who does what with the info. I just a vessel at that point and it doesn't happen very often...that process, of channelling something like that is so painful and so tiring..and scary that I will continue to ignore it as I said I would. But NOOOOO dont think about ME!! Dont think about what I went thru for hours after HAVING to type that message against my Will.
Some of you have alot to learn about mediumship...or whatever it is. Forget it, unless the message means something to YOU. If it dont apply let it fly. End of story.
Usual rules dont apply. TI's are heroes doing the best they can to save the damn world at this point from oppression of all human kind, and we are using up all our energy and lifespan to do it. Stop whining about what goes down. I dont whine..perps comment on that I dont whine about how bad my life is. That's cuz they ignorant about programming it seems, alot of them, and they dont get it...that to perform a task and then snuff it is nothing to me.
The only thing as a TI you are going to die with is your integrity and the begrudging respect of the enemy, who you must make clear you dont give a f*ck about anyway at all times.
No, I will not abandon those who depend on me to document how weird this gets, how intense, how painful and disturbing. To illustrate how much loss, tragedy and to show, in the end that you can study humans or experiment on people all you want. You will not define Love or find the cure for the human urge to seek Freedom at the cost of one's life. There may be an equation for it, but what is the equation for 'up yours!' to the oppressor? Find out what it is and put it in your findings, you bastards.
If the public ever found out about this and it was validated for them by 'credible' sources they would be so outraged and it wud be outlawed and even policed...obviously we are all doing the right thing. Even at the cost of our own lives and sanity.
As far as the shelter incident the woman who is on at night alot was often really mean to me for coming in late to sleep in the lobby..yet she was actually really good with handling this situation responsibly acting as supervisor in that morning. She listened and I would not doubt if action will be taken simply becuz it was her on as super that morning...often the meanest workers with the clients are THE BEST people in a crisis. They are responsible and becuz they are sticklers for rules ALL the time when there is a wrong or an emergency they are the ones who will handle it when everyone else drops the ball. Guess they need that authority to feel like they are doing something..maybe they have low MAO levels and need to fight to feel 'normal' or something I dont know.
There has been alot of trouble for me lately with women from what seems the Virgin Islands or Africa. This is not uncommon as other TI bloggers have commented on the use of such specific foreign populations. Like all TI's most likely I will experience this and then there will be some other 'trend' in a perp specific population. Also I must consider the veiwpoint of African-Americans who find themselves being looked down upon by these same populations who seem to consider themselves 'better than' American born blacks.
To be quiet honest 'racism' is a very region, city and town specific issue.
Like when Madonna had a fit over Mark Whalberg then Marky Mark using the N word in anger. Firstly he was still young then, he's from Southy anyway. The point is that Bostonians using the N word might have black friends or even family that they dont consider N's. It was mostly a term used here to identify a black person that was offensive even to his own, who would rape steal or kill his own grandmother for a nickel. A dirty bastard if you will. Its a weapon of war here in the Northeast and we constantly had to hear them talking about 'white people' this and 'honky' that...(which we take little offense to becuz that is more of a southern insult-like as in 'honky tonk' music and culture.) Then, in the midst of some incident who do poor whites of Boston get support from? The poor communities here may classically fight among themselves but we all know that the establishent here make us all miserable. It is better now than when I was young, but humans will always be tribal creatures.
Unless you are FROM the same place that person's experience with racial/class dynamics and survival tactics are none of your business. I couldn't go down south and understand the dynamics nor have I fully understood the racial dynamics anywhere I have traveled. Why did blacks like me in St. Louis? Becuz being from Boston I can see how sneaky and f*cked the racism against them is...its still oppressive. Also, I appreciated how they did not try to come onto me every 2 seconds like they do here. ( I have been warned there was a gang who was trying to get at me..which is never going to work, and they know that now.) Whenever I return to Boston, my racism increases and I find myself on the defensive. Is it ME? Hell no, its the ghetto culture here which is privileged and always had a sense of entitlement. Also, every black guy here from 13 to 60 thinks a poor white woman really does want to get with a black dude and if they harass you long enough you'll give in..they think we are 1) stupid and weak northern yankees
2) table scraps from the wealthy white man now his culture is done with you.
Also Bostonians do alot of mouth flapping when in places like AZ where people wear guns on thier legs or openly carry there is ALOT less bs. Boston is alot of talk and it gets aggravating when you have gone to places where 'Them's fighting words" is the actual attitude and you better back up what you speak.
Boston is nice but it's people are kept petty in alot of ways. The locals poor black and whites are kept as dependent children and always the rich whites old and new money are looming over our heads, keeping us inferior always and forever. In this way, Boston is a fantasy world...there are places like Vegas and other real capitalist meccas where if you go out there with balls and some talent and your yankee smarts you can ace it where everyone else gets eaten alive.
That is the real reason for 'the nanny state'. It is the best deal you will get anywhere being poor and oppressed--but you are still poor and oppressed. Bostonians just prefer to make it nicer for you thats all. But dont ever be a real threat or upstart...then you'll see the classic 'slavemassa' behavior from its wealthy and connected populations like organized crime, unions, old and new money and the institutions that have defined this place for a few centuries.
I usually get most support from black females from Boston stock..why is that? I dont try to figure out race often...though I think about it when I have to analyze something. I just try to negotiate the waters and survive...and stay as honest as possible. White women are usually mean to me outright or they are not into being supportive. Is it my size? Is it my looks? Who gives a shit....
The pc new world order of global existence has its own cookie cutter race dynamics manual and in order to make it real and workable they have to do what they have done across the country....wipe out local population and culture and gentrify everything. Native populations around the world are being wiped out or modernized for this purpose.
Its easier to get rid of the native poor of an American city than a more obvious foreign nation...this also connects to the war on the poor.
So race has little to do with this blog, becuz we all know that the perps want you to turn hateful for THEIR purposes. And I know people read this who could be anyone...this blog is central for TARGETED INDIVIDUALS. And especially anyone who is a survivor of tbmc programming. Those are my 'people', that is my real family.
Honesty is paramount..because the perps only true power is deception.