I'm in MIT using restroom. Its one of the few safe places left where remote influence doesn't seem to reach me.
Whatever is out there right now in last few months I can't fight its effects.
Its making me focus ion past memories of being harassed non stop with no hope for my future.
Urging me to leave the country.
(I am working on completing documentation of war crimes as us citizen and some important medical issues then I will leave. Just a few months.)
I am being made to feel I've failed here. I am hated now for some reason in a place I felt some support and hope for my future.
As if I did not contact lawyers or do things in a timely manner last year before leaving and that whatever I could have done for myself and my situation is now no longer possible or in my reach.
As if an open window of opportunity is now closed forever. I don't understand.
I am daily getting annoyed with black people and am being driven to psychotic levels of racism, specifically against African Americans.
Whatever the remote influence is out there its very bad. WORST OF ALL I CAN. NO LONGER TELL IF ITS NORMAL. I CANNOT DISCERN BETWEEN BEING INFLUENCED AND REALITY.
I used to be able to fight it to always know I was being influenced. To be able to tell the difference.
I don't know why its so strong now and so unable to be beaten. Only leaving the cities gives any relief or sense of reality.
There's a glass wall in one of the hallways here at MIT.
Over it someone stuck a huge collage of portraits of former students all circa mid to late 70s or very early 80s.
It makes me feel safe becuz its a collage of real peoples faces, humans not the perfect looking soulless ones that are here nowadays.
And its before the timeline got altered. A return to the past of reality. Before 9-11 and the war and all the horrors that have ensued.
Many of them resemble me. They have intelligent eyes some of them frighteningly so to an average person. Their faces lack perfect symmetry but many are attractive in a way I recognize and understand.
It makes me realize I am smart.
And I think of how many smart people like them have been sacrificed or targeted throughout all of this these years.
I do what I do for them, for myself and all the soldiers that are driven to commit suicide and have been lost to this false timeline even the horrors of experimentation as I've experienced.
For the genuine real people that once populated the earth..not whatever these things out there now are. Its like they aren't even human.
I promise I will leave USA in few months. By summer??
Also found an old apartment building in Brookline that seems safe and to hold energies of former occupants.
Getting rid of old buildings is also a way of removing safe spaces, places where electromagnetic pollution doesn't seem to permeate as easily.
I don't sleep there I wish just when I go there ican feel it.