There's a push now, a consistent and strong one to force me to give up advocating for justice.
Pretty much every city I travel to seems to be pumping out a brainwashing campaign daily consisting of the following material in order to coerce me into abandoning this project, writing my book telling my story or even continuing to acknowledge any of it happened to begin with.
-I'm 'old' now and am no longer relevant to society or the all important younger generation, who seem to be an obsessive focus of the people running this system.
-that my health will prevent me from traveling any further especially abroad, so its done no matter what I do anyway.
-that in the massive ocean of people on this planet-do I really matter all THAT much? (This suggestion or coercion was almost heard directly as a spoken sentence internally as opposed to being a mere ideation usually which utilizes visuals to be effective. This too used a slight and quick internal visual). This is especially damging as it takes me away from my sense of Self internally and recalls the traumatic incident in earlier gang stalking where I had that awful nightmare my 'self' or consciousness was physically taken out of my body and forced into a pair of virtual reality goggles or glasses. That incident was one of the worst tortures I ever experienced being a Target and experimentee and it occurred while in deep sleep which may be why it was so damaging.
Unlike a dream one has where one is flying or out of body there was no safety, no spirit world, no sense of connectedness to something...that holds one safe when experiencing out of body.
The difference could be described as the difference between getting healed from loving care or acupuncture or message and being awake during invasive surgery.
This tactic seems to be to remove a person from being connected to their sense of self, grounded in their own consciousness and force the person to percieve their 'selves' as simply a part of a collective of humanity-like a school of fish.
Perhaps this is why the ocean image was used in the suggestion).
-its too late now for my writing to have any effect, its been too long since the original events occurred.
-to make me feel basically useless and insignificant and incapable of finishing this project.
And to get me to conform, to be like every other washed up loser in their 40s in this country who's youth was wasted.
The problem is that my youth was taken by this system and THESE WERE NOT, ARE NOT NORMAL CIRCUMSTANCES.
So why should I become 'normal', act normal, dress normal or pretend life has been or the results of my life has been normal at all?
Its ridiculous and I am not going to allow this interference. Just like ive been doing for years.