Why do I keep getting urged to leave the country? There is work that needs to be done here.
Something about food is going to be a problem soon and the whole place is going to become really shitty and difficult. Fine so if I live in a foreign country, things are going to be easier for me? As a homeless,poor American that everyone is going to blame for things going shitty in thier country?
How the hell does that work?
It might just be a scare tactic. Its so hard to tell right now.
One day its the idea that I should stay in Cambridge and help my place of birth with the homeless situation.
Then its that I should go to UMass which I guess could be part of that.
Tonight with many cops out due to the Red Sox game its this panic almost to leave the country.
Is it a scare tactic so they can finalize covering thier asses by finally getting rid of me as far away as possible or is it that authorities know just how screwed this place is going to be very soon and after seeing their capacity to hold down martial law during the bombings, it could be a horrid future reality here that people are thinking wont actually happen.
I usually know what the right thing is to do but I dont now. Im just sick, older and really just want to die at home. And I suppose that means staying here.