Becoming person i dont recognize. Cant stay focused.or remenber tasks to get things done.
Im falling asleep alot randomly like narcolepsy. After food at certain fast food places or on certain bus routes here in Austin.
Dont know cause or if perps are causing it somehow. Started in Richmond Hill GA been a problem ever since.
Anti homeless laws and ordinances havent helped and actually may be responsible for this condition developing if its neurological. Havent rested daily like i ussd to for past year or so.
Gang stalking psych harassment is so frequent now Im unable to retain control. Anti homelessness and gang stalking destroying my confidence.
Im not alllwed a moment's peace or to be left alone.n
Im being discredited heavily on a daily basis. Im being forced into reacting to being harassed by appearing crazy in public.
The interface mentally is unbearable. Its pure torment and it's now in most places a homelessness person is now allowed or tolerated.
Truman Show Effect (illusion) has also become unbearable.
It feels like I have nothing to hold onto anymore.
Im being COMPLETELEY marginalized from society completely.
I was allowed some connection just a year or so ago. (Why did i just get a vision of Bobbi N this older lady from Harvard Sq having something to do with my going downhill?).
Im also very worried about that woman Bunny commiting suicide in jail this year.
Its like this is something that someone is trying to cause on purpose with her and now me. Whats the motive?
I only get telief from the tech so things make sense or i can reason clearly in specific locations: a government building, a certain restroom in random locations or an emergency room.
Its shocking how disconnected im getting. Of course that ensures i keep up my friend networks and form new ones.
Dint know what to do.
Internet (smartphone wifi) hacked like Bush era making hard to work on blog and adding stress.
Wrote this after clarity gotten in a certain restroom in decent neighborhood not usually frequenting.
Sleep outside not giving body rest. Compared to rest gotten while sleeping in emergency room vast difference.
No deep rest or..genuine healing.
Whatever allies I had seem gone. Met a few people down South made me feel whats gping on has positive outcome. Not where I am now though.
Must recall those conversations about positive outcomes.
I think i comprimised myself with associating wirh last two companions.Seems they feel this in part makes it OK to allow enemies to move in on me.
Circumstances beyond control forced me live and travel this way past years.