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Please be advised that this written work is theory. It's theorizing, pondering and amateur research. For legal reasons I state that I have no actual belief in these theories as fact, if I did I would have sought legal recourse. Until that occurs this blog can only be considered theory. If it does then any and all actions PAST AND FUTURE that have been taken against me during the years producing this work will be labeled war crimes under international law and any other legal protections that apply.
I am a writer, an activist and artist. I claim my RIGHT TO EXIST legally under US Constitution and international law.

This is an educational blog for awareness as well as sometimes a telling of candid personal experiences to demonstrate theories as they might be experienced by a person who theoretically is existing under such conditions. Thus the 'candid' expression, poetic license and marketing myself as product or character. This is NOT a journal or diary.
Being a reasonable person of sound mind if I had concerns for my safety or others I would take responsible action for self care as my established medical history can demonstrate.
Any actions taken against me by others questioning my sanity or competence based on my produced work will be construed as activist/dissident intimidation and whistle blower retaliation and proper legal action will be taken against you by my family and support system.

Be warned that no further interference with my production of meaningful work as an artist and activist will be tolerated.

Sunday, October 30, 2016

Psych 101-Mindset Of Lone Shooter Article: More Profiling That DOESNT APPLY TO ME

Another article that shows this frame up for what it is.

http://www.officer.com/article/10249728/psychology-101-the-mind-of-a-shooter

My planning ahead has always been for my project nothing else: writing two books-one on the non profit industrial complex that exploits The Homeless and a sci fi/auto biographical work about these years of odd experiences.
And a trip to Europe to see if I want to relocate there. Those have always been my main plans and they are all I talk about with people I've met over these past ten years around this country. That is what I live for and anyone who's discussed this with me as well as my readers knows it. Besides, my committing crimes would prevent me from producing what I want to establish my power in the world. After so many years of selfless hard work WHY would I want such a thing to happen?

"The shooting becomes a statement of whom they want to be," Welner adds. "These are crimes in which the perpetrators aim for immortality and spectacle and see the shooting as their crowning achievement. After that, nothing else matters, including living."

I have a strong sense of Self as well as my books and activism is 'who I want to be'. Also being a woman ultimately my womb is immortality. I think men struggle more with feelings connected with this not women.

Secondly I am not too concerned about my manhood, lol. Nothing has occurred to make me feel like less of a man in life becuz I happen to be a woman. And my possessing a womb and a vagina and other assets means I will always be able to create life as well as have things to negotiate power with, as well as guarantee my well being either temporarily or long term.
These blogs are babies becuz I have no children. Keeping me from creating and working on them through silencing me with intimidation and threats is actually what this past two years have been about.
The article mentions masculine power being defined in the USA as potential to destroy. My work has been about trying to preserve and save. The work speaks for itself. That also isn't how female power is defined and I'm female-why would I seek male status. As far as the warrior concept goes I believe this is in the DNA or it's not and frequently female warrior ship is defined differently than male.


Next I was never isolated from society. After the first horrible experience in this frame up I was temporarily trying to find a new home base as an activist and Traveler, being confused by the changes in Cambridge after so many years there. Being scared, wounded, confused, in increasing ill physical health and sleep deprived does not make one 'a loner' or dangerously cut off from civilization. In transition perhaps.

Then there's the creepy part about shooters imitating scenes in movies. I'm far too adept as a painter, writer, music lover (with many musician friends) and generally creative artistically inclined person to want to imitate other people's creations. My ego as an artist is way to big to tolerate that-a character trait that is frequently used against me as well as one I'm readily despised for. (Too bad.)

I also have no knowledge of or experience with guns except for having been in a home where such weapons were used for hunting, responsibly of which I never took part or viewed first hand.

Again, it seems in a corrupt, broken system, all you have to do is put someone's name on something and they can be found guilty without even a proper trial.

Here's more:

http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/2331236

The 'outcast' crowd I am part of is a subculture that's rooted in Americana if not human primitive history. Also I've always taken pride in the fact that in the Traveler subculture, we all come together yet we range from coming from abject poverty to trust fund kids to people who's parent(s) are billionaires. We dress alike and crave the same experiences or express the Traveler Gene http://elitedaily.com/life/culture/wanderlust-gene-people-born-travel/953464/
by being part of this culture and don't readily focus on differences as defined by the mainstream.

Why Female Lone Shooters Are Rare:
http://www.livescience.com/53047-why-female-mass-shooters-are-rare.html

"As more details have come to light, it's become apparent that the San Bernardino shooters probably thought their violence was righteous. The FBI is investigating the case as an act of terrorism, making the shooting different from many mass shootings in the United States."
Religious brain washing seems at work here.


"It's important to remember that shooters don't "just snap," O'Toole told Live Science. The San Bernardino killers had likely been planning their attack for years, investigators have found. Chillingly, many people are very good at mimicking normalcy as they go about their deadly preparations, O'Toole said. The trappings of a happy family life — a marriage, a new baby — could have been, in part, props to maintain that illusion, she said."

The only evidence of my planning anything in any and all record of my affairs is of writing books and leaving the USA.

And I certainly wasn't playing 'keeping up appearances' very well by being part of a subculture society, dressing in outrageous clothing atypical of the culture, urban camping and traveling cross country every year and begging if I ran out of money like a gypsy. That's not quite hiding. Not that I care about what people think of my choices (also works against me probably).

Lastly, I don't hear voices telling me to commit violence. Most of my life I've heard music often and it's either something I've heard on radio or when younger-things I probably should have written down becuz they were original creations but unfortunately I didn't know how to read music or play an instrument.

I dated someone once who admitted to me that he heard voices like this, that instructed him to harm and he claimed he resisted but he knew of cases where a person had snapped and given in to such instructions. Needless to say I stopped being around this person. I've worked too hard to die in such a manner.

This snippet of the article mentions this condition:
"Culture interacts with mental illness in surprising ways. For example, researchers reporting in a 2014 article in the British Journal of Psychiatry found that 70 percent of Americans with psychoses who heard voices reported that the voices urged them toward violence. In India, that number was 20 percent, and in Ghana, only 10 percent.

"People who we think of as being 'crazy,' how do they absorb the larger cultural messages and scripts that are out there?" Garbarino said."

What's interesting is that Americans who have this ancient delusion condition are prompted to violence whereas other cultures are not.

This country keeps refusing to evolve and doesn't want to look at the sickness it produces in its people or the sickness from other countries.

If Americans were realistic about the true price of our quality of life, sickness or extremism within and without the US would be more readily understandable.





Psych 101-Mindset Of Lone Shooter Article: More Profiling That DOESNT APPLY TO ME

Another article that shows this frame up for what it is.

http://www.officer.com/article/10249728/psychology-101-the-mind-of-a-shooter

My planning ahead has always been for my project nothing else: writing two books-one on the non profit industrial complex that exploits The Homeless and a sci fi/auto biographical work about these years of odd experiences.
And a trip to Europe to see if I want to relocate there. Those have always been my main plans and they are all I talk about with people I've met over these past ten years around this country. That is what I live for and anyone who's discussed this with me as well as my readers knows it. Besides, my committing crimes would prevent me from producing what I want to establish my power in the world. After so many years of selfless hard work WHY would I want such a thing to happen?

"The shooting becomes a statement of whom they want to be," Welner adds. "These are crimes in which the perpetrators aim for immortality and spectacle and see the shooting as their crowning achievement. After that, nothing else matters, including living."

I have a strong sense of Self as well as my books and activism is 'who I want to be'. Also being a woman ultimately my womb is immortality. I think men struggle more with feelings connected with this not women.

Secondly I am not too concerned about my manhood, lol. Nothing has occurred to make me feel like less of a man in life becuz I happen to be a woman. And my possessing a womb and a vagina and other assets means I will always be able to create life as well as have things to negotiate power with, as well as guarantee my well being either temporarily or long term.
These blogs are babies becuz I have no children. Keeping me from creating and working on them through silencing me with intimidation and threats is actually what this past two years have been about.
The article mentions masculine power being defined in the USA as potential to destroy. My work has been about trying to preserve and save. The work speaks for itself. That also isn't how female power is defined and I'm female-why would I seek male status. As far as the warrior concept goes I believe this is in the DNA or it's not and frequently female warrior ship is defined differently than male.


Next I was never isolated from society. After the first horrible experience in this frame up I was temporarily trying to find a new home base as an activist and Traveler, being confused by the changes in Cambridge after so many years there. Being scared, wounded, confused, in increasing ill physical health and sleep deprived does not make one 'a loner' or dangerously cut off from civilization. In transition perhaps.

Then there's the creepy part about shooters imitating scenes in movies. I'm far too adept as a painter, writer, music lover (with many musician friends) and generally creative artistically inclined person to want to imitate other people's creations. My ego as an artist is way to big to tolerate that-a character trait that is frequently used against me as well as one I'm readily despised for. (Too bad.)

I also have no knowledge of or experience with guns except for having been in a home where such weapons were used for hunting, responsibly of which I never took part or viewed first hand.

Again, it seems in a corrupt, broken system, all you have to do is put someone's name on something and they can be found guilty without even a proper trial.

Here's more:

http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/2331236

The 'outcast' crowd I am part of is a subculture that's rooted in Americana if not human primitive history. Also I've always taken pride in the fact that in the Traveler subculture, we all come together yet we range from coming from abject poverty to trust fund kids to people who's parent(s) are billionaires. We dress alike and crave the same experiences or express the Traveler Gene http://elitedaily.com/life/culture/wanderlust-gene-people-born-travel/953464/
by being part of this culture and don't readily focus on differences as defined by the mainstream.

Psych 101-Mindset Of Lone Shooter Article: More Profiling That DOESNT APPLY TO ME

Another article that shows this frame up for what it is.

http://www.officer.com/article/10249728/psychology-101-the-mind-of-a-shooter

My planning ahead has always been for my project nothing else: writing two books-one on the non profit industrial complex that exploits The Homeless and a sci fi/auto biographical work about these years of odd experiences.
And a trip to Europe to see if I want to relocate there. Those have always been my main plans and they are all I talk about with people I've met over these past ten years around this country. That is what I live for and anyone who's discussed this with me as well as my readers knows it. Besides, my committing crimes would prevent me from producing what I want to establish my power in the world. After so many years of selfless hard work WHY would I want such a thing to happen?

"The shooting becomes a statement of whom they want to be," Welner adds. "These are crimes in which the perpetrators aim for immortality and spectacle and see the shooting as their crowning achievement. After that, nothing else matters, including living."

I have a strong sense of Self as well as my books and activism is 'who I want to be'. Also being a woman ultimately my womb is immortality. I think men struggle more with feelings connected with this not women.

Secondly I am not too concerned about my manhood, lol. Nothing has occurred to make me feel like less of a man in life becuz I happen to be a woman. And my possessing a womb and a vagina and other assets means I will always be able to create life as well as have things to negotiate power with, as well as guarantee my well being either temporarily or long term.
These blogs are babies becuz I have no children. Keeping me from creating and working on them through silencing me with intimidation and threats is actually what this past two years have been about.
The article mentions masculine power being defined in the USA as potential to destroy. My work has been about trying to preserve and save. The work speaks for itself. That also isn't how female power is defined and I'm female-why would I seek male status. As far as the warrior concept goes I believe this is in the DNA or it's not and frequently female warrior ship is defined differently than male.


Next I was never isolated from society. After the first horrible experience in this frame up I was temporarily trying to find a new home base as an activist and Traveler, being confused by the changes in Cambridge after so many years there. Being scared, wounded, confused, in increasing ill physical health and sleep deprived does not make one 'a loner' or dangerously cut off from civilization. In transition perhaps.

Then there's the creepy part about shooters imitating scenes in movies. I'm far too adept as a painter, writer, music lover (with many musician friends) and generally creative artistically inclined person to want to imitate other people's creations. My ego as an artist is way to big to tolerate that-a character trait that is frequently used against me as well as one I'm readily despised for. (Too bad.)

I also have no knowledge of or experience with guns except for having been in a home where such weapons were used for hunting, responsibly of which I never took part or viewed first hand.

Again, it seems in a corrupt, broken system, all you have to do is put someone's name on something and they can be found guilty without even a proper trial.

Saturday, October 29, 2016

HAARP Author Nick Begich Unfortunately Does Not Have Good Credentials

This seems to have always been one of my things as an activist in the TI community-to question its gurus.

I believe Derrick of FFCHS ran into trouble in recent years and Id discredited him and the organization long ago. My experiences with FFCHS was not good and the minute I had started questioning non sensical things about them, or just making sense I was chased out by trolls (and met a few criminal opportunist perps through them).

There IS something arrey since 9-11 or even late Clinton to be more specific but definitively since 9-11 and the war and with nasty, heavy handed attempts at censorship from the establishment like my recent situation, one has to question why such methods are necessary if one or all of us as a community is simply imagining things. Why the hatred, the lying, the crooked methods, the denial of due process.
There definitely IS something wrong.

However just like David Icke and InfoWars we have to look closely at the people guiding us.

The tech involved in this war arent my specialty-Im more a person who has deep experience with high level programming, ritual abuse,handlers, involvement of the sex industry and crooked authorities, acedemic connections and with my mother being a documented radiation experimentee both parents US Marines- MK Ultra.

Many sensitives have been effected by changes in the daily environment. Electromagnetic pollution is accepted reality in certain European countries.

To just believe an expert put in front of you isnt enough. We need strong opposition and ever since my recent situstion where authorities have acted dishonorably, subverted the US Constitution and been as viscous as possible instead of seeking justice and to protect the innocent-my position on ensuring we have solid opponents to counter our enemies and detractors.

I dont feel that Nick Begich's credentials are going to scare any of the opponents we have nor convince the American public, and this is unfortunate.

I dont understand why he didnt get some sort of legit education even if it meant being blacklisted at an institution of higher learning. If hes bright he could get through it.

https://www.metabunk.org/debunked-nick-begich.t237/


http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/thread791934/pg1

https://illuminutti.com/tag/nick-begich/


http://www.thelastamericanvagabond.com/anthony-tyler/geoengineering-in-alaska/

And INFOWARS loves to feature his videos-that right there is a red flag.

Hes very pro Russia and pro China I notice. Both very close to Alaska. Also Alaska is oil interest and right wing Conservative Republican-traditionally supporting military spending and contractors.

His suspicion about his father's death is notable-perhaps hes blacklisted and couldnt take advantage of the same opportunities and resources as a US citizen-just like the rest of us or perhaps its more complex than that-and even Nick Begich doesnt know why he does what he does...

One wants to believe but theres just too much to question about his education and educated people can dismantle his theories.

Friday, October 28, 2016

The Latest Twisted Comments From My Blog Stalker

Cant be sure if all along this has been just one person or a few but the abusiveness level and sentiment is usually similar.






(Sent comments to MYSELF? This isnt
Fight Club. Wtf?)

So...in another comment someone commenting the same way claims Im that I wouldnt be in trouble if I wasnt such gun toting right wing conservative wack job.

Now they have been lately (if same person or group) having this as content-lesbian, and child killer. But isnt THAT the opposite?

Anyone using frickin nursery rhymes should creep anyone the hell out immediately and this kind of using songs has been an ongoing standard.

So people are trying to hang me repeatedly, without trials or evidence, on hearsay (printed and otherwise) and not protecting me from the sort of person or people who've been harassing me for months.

So how is our system NOT corrupt at this point?

Oh btw for whoever is involved who thinks they are clever-Ive not been documenting and taking legal action to get justice, restitution or show the system works-Ive been doing so SO IN THE END I CAN DEMONSTRATE AND DOCUMENT THAT IT DOES NOT.

Which is reward enough.

And there NEEDS TO BE LEGAL REFORM in EVERY STATE across the country so that no one ever again can be arrested, sectioned, jailed or have their liberty taken away in any form due to a person's name being put on a threatening communication by another.


Getting Bored With Current Situation-Hope Community Enjoys Exploits Becuz Pay Later Plan May Be Costly

I am so bored with this stalker's frame ups and the community taking full advantage.

Enjoy it now becuz civil suits later on arent going to be easy.

Cheap thrills at my expense and that of my readers isnt appreciated and I am going to prosecute this personal suffering and loss as well as subversion of the US Constitution to the fullest extent of the law.

You cant just abuse someone and take their lives from them (and endanger their health) just becuz you dont like what they write, the way they dress or live or that they have strong opinions or even negative ones.

Kids Are People Elementary School Kenmore Sq Boston-Public Finally Sees Corruption

http://homelessti.blogspot.com/2016/10/the-public-finalky-seesand-tells-what.html

As usual my disclaimer applies- no threatening communications of any kind will be sent by me and if this does occur then authorities, interested parties and the public need to seek justice for the recipients as well as myself.

Its interesting that my alleged 'paranoia' thats being sited recently and attempted to be used against me in the recent three frame ups for criminal threatening hasnt caused me to act out in any similar manner over ten years time since the creation of this blog.

It is curious isnt it? But it does seem that justice eventually prevails-and corruption as well as charlatans get exposed.

For a few solid years I had to deal with the same negativity mentioned in this link, I even documented it-and I didnt retaliate, make any contact, send any nasty correspondence or take action at all.
Thats becuz my writing, my future books always have been, and always will be-my greatest weapon and solution-not threats of violence.


Kids Are People Elementary School Kenmore Sq Boston-Public Finally Sees Corruption

http://homelessti.blogspot.com/2016/10/the-public-finalky-seesand-tells-what.html

As usual my disclaimer applies- no threatening communications of any kind will be sent by me and if this does occur then authorities, interested parties and the public need to seek justice for the recipients as well as myself.

Its interesting that my alleged 'paranoia' thats being sited recently and attempted to be used against me in the recent three frame ups for criminal threatening hasnt caused me to act out in any similar manner over ten years time since the creation of this blog.

It is curious isnt it? But it does seem that justice eventually prevails-and corruption as well as charlatans get exposed.

Monday, October 24, 2016

Satanic Church Opens Quietly In Salem, MA-Leader Harvard Neuro Science Grad-False Memory Foundation Supporter

http://www.bostonglobe.com/metro/regionals/north/2016/09/20/satanic-headquarters-hopes-for-quiet-opening-salem/GcS4kooiHUCdDGdRHVq9xK/amp.html
Salem, meet your new neighbor: The Satanic Temple
By Sean Teehan Globe Correspondent
September 20, 2016


http://www.vice.com/read/unmasking-lucien-greaves-aka-doug-mesner-leader-of-the-satanic-temple
Unmasking Lucien Greaves, Leader of the Satanic Temple
By Shane Bugbee
July 30, 2013


"Not long after that Doug (Mesner) was accepted to Harvard University. He used to call me, shocked that his professors were taking him to lunch and inviting him to meet with luminaries like Richard Dawkins. Doug's studies at Harvard focused on neuroscience, and he began delving deeply—and sometimes dangerously, I felt—into the world of false memory related to ritual abuse and alien abduction, even exposing professional psychologists as culprits and forcing them to recant, retire, and even run."

So much for the "live and live" vibe in Salem, MA mentioned in the first link thats allowed him to set up his church in the area.

“Satan stands as the ultimate icon for the selfless revolt against tyranny, free & rational inquiry, and the responsible pursuit of happiness” according to the Satanic Temple website." 
Excerpt from:
http://www.cbsnews.com/news/group-unveils-plans-for-satan-statue-at-okla-capitol/
So I guess some activists arent allowed those pursuits.

Remember I and other activists are not Christians and support freedom of religion as well as separation of church and state.

http://www.patheos.com/blogs/feastofeden/2014/05/harvard-can-do-better-than-give-a-platform-to-a-black-mass-promoter-who-ridicules-sex-abuse-victims/


http://davidshurter.com/?page_id=4221
"The fact that I have to respond to someone who has done his best to infiltrate the survivor community and attack it at will- while trying to build membership to his “Satanic Temple”, I have found this boy-man to be full of hatred and contradictions. Two things are for certain though- he loves media attention and he utterly hates me and my crusade."


I have a theory that this isnt even genuine and neither are the key people involved.

People must know and remember that LaVey Satanism is just one kind of many. There are Satanic factions that reject even outright hate this kind of Satanism and it's leaders.

If you research the people behind this organization you can understand that theory.
LaVey had lots of connections in Vegas,some of these being family members.

Mesner and his mentor should be examined more closely.
Sometimes people simply want to get rid of a competitor simply by the saying 'your enemies are our friends' even if that relationship is of pure convenience. It serves its purpose.

Ritual Abuse Survivorship communities, like an activist community are rifed with DISINFORMATION agents, agitators, provocateurs etc like any other.

The theory of programming simply tries to show how ritual abuse utilizing terror and a specific belief system can be used to lay sequences of programming along with complex mathematics.

Wouldn't it be nice if tyranny could be effectively fought against? Like special interests and agendas hiding in the damndest places utilizing deception?




Saturday, October 22, 2016

Boston Is No Longer Safe For Anyone Who Believes In The US Constitution-Law And Order..

What used to be genuinely elite, I now fully grasp has been degenerated into a city that educates average people and celebrates mediocrity.

Everything you can imagine has been done over the past decade to ensure theres nothing elite or special remaining in this place, probably to perpetuate the survival of the institutions.

The place has become so bloated with power, so catered to the hive and so arrogant that not only does it seem those in power and a compliant public frame up whoever they want, the public think its funny.

This is the general intelligence level that locals now have to deal with in the 'new' Boston and Cambridge areas.

Ive never seen a larger group of morons take up residence and the reigns of power in such a short period of time and with such a damaging effect-unless you judge success simply by monetary gain, profit and numbers-then I suppose out shell of a city is 'doing well'.

Nothing like a little Necromancy to gain complete control of a once living, spirited entity. Just destroy and kill its spirit completely then animate the cadaver and you've got SUCESS!

And guaranteed control....dont insecure, loser serial killers who cant get it up with the living f*ck dead bodies?

I'd say thats an accurate description of what we are now dealing with in this area.

Why respect law and order or the US Constitution when you can just lie and frame and decieve your way to your goals?

I have never in all my years seen this area THIS corrupt...and I was young when ethnic organized crime overtly ran these areas. This is much worse, much more indecent, without a moral code and hiding under a psuedo rule of law.

Its unbelievable and thats exactly what they are depending on.

Many years ago, someone talking to me warned me about this system: "they are trying to bring you down to their level". Thats for damn sure, especially in the past year.

I was recently warned by street friends that this system is trying to demonstrate I have a criminal record as well as make me flip out so that I forfeit my right to legal recourse and justice in the courts.
Sounds about right.

If I understood that this area of the country was to become completely indecent and lawless while somehow re inventing its EXTERIOR so it appears almost sterile, I would have left a few years ago.

I always seem to try to leave and come back, probably simply out of not knowing the proper, practical way to change residency permanently.

This time I will succeed in getting out of the northeast entirely and ensure I never return. The place is rotted to the core and for every nice person you meet, theres ten-fifteen who are assh*les and its intolerable.

Im sick of being nice to people I dont actually like and tolerating assholes becuz Im afraid of getting framed up for criminal threatening again. All becuz NH terrorized me and MA is so sneaky, I have to humble myself when Im the victim??!!

This place is completely rotted, beyond help and I never want to know this place exists after this case is over.


Boston Is No Longer Safe For Anyone Who Believes In The US Constitution-Law And Order..

What used to be genuinely elite, I now fully grasp has been degenerated into a city that educates average people and celebrates mediocrity.

Everything you can imagine has been done over the past decade to ensure theres nothing elite or special remaining in this place, probably to perpetuate the survival of the institutions.

The place has become so bloated with power, so catered to the hive and so arrogant that not only does it seem those in power and a compliant public frame up whoever they want, the public think its funny.

This is the general intelligence level that locals now have to deal with in the 'new' Boston and Cambridge areas.

Ive never seen a larger group of morons take up residence and the reigns of power in such a short period of time and with such a damaging effect-unless you judge success simply by monetary gain, profit and numbers-then I suppose out shell of a city is 'doing well'.

Nothing like a little Necromancy to gain complete control of a once living, spirited entity. Just destroy and kill its spirit completely then animate the cadaver and you've got SUCESS!

And guaranteed control....dont insecure, loser serial killers who cant get it up with the living f*ck dead bodies?

I'd say thats an accurate description of what we are now dealing with in this area.

Why respect law and order or the US Constitution when you can just lie and frame and decieve your way to your goals?

I have never in all my years seen this area THIS corrupt...and I was young when ethnic organized crime overtly ran these areas. This is much worse, much more indecent, without a moral code and hiding under a psuedo rule of law.

Its unbelievable and thats exactly what they are depending on.

Many years ago, someone talking to me warned me about this system: "they are trying to bring you down to their level". Thats for damn sure, especially in the past year.

I was recently warned by street friends that this system is trying to demonstrate I have a criminal record as well as make me flip out so that I forfeit my right to legal recourse and justice in the courts.
Sounds about right.

If I understood that this area of the country was to become completely indecent and lawless while somehow re inventing its EXTERIOR so it appears almost sterile, I would have left a few years ago.

I always seem to try to leave and come back, probably simply out of not knowing the proper, practical way to change residency permanently.

This time I will succeed in getting out of the northeast entirely and ensure I never return. The place is rotted to the core and for every nice person you meet, theres ten-fifteen who are assholes and its intolerable.


Paid Internet Trolls Breaking Down Society, Blocking Constitutional Rights, Preventing Law And Order

http://m.dailykos.com/story/2016/4/21/1518537/-Clinton-SuperPac-Admits-to-Paying-Internet-Trolls

http://www.businessinsider.com/russia-internet-trolls-and-donald-trump-2016-7

https://stream.org/astroturf-outrage-machine-of-paid-trolls-floods-social-media-to-counteract-negative-news-about-hillary-clinton/

http://21stcenturywire.com/2014/03/01/paid-govt-and-corporate-internet-trolls-are-real/

http://www.newstatesman.com/politics/politics/2012/10/china’s-paid-trolls-meet-50-cent-party


Thursday, October 13, 2016

Its unfortunate that in the new way of doing things, a person defending themselves from corruption and arrogance from those in power abusing their power, with total disrefard for any human decency -far too common nowadays- is percieved as challenging the system, disrespecting authority or getting out of line.

What a sad, twisted reality we now live in today.

Another Shooting Prompts Me To Urge Our Community To Work On Prevention-And Take Caution In Discussing Cases

http://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news/suspect-armed-rifle-killed-after-shooting-2-boston-police-officers-n665516

Is everyone done trying to screw me to the wall now? Are you ready to stop prosecuting innocent people and hear about how the theories of my community might actually save peoples lives or are you going to continue to allow innocent people to be hurt? Its not wonder I'm being hit with multiple cases SO I CANT SPEAK OUT and my freedom of speech is totally taken from me.

Yes, many of us want to claim that 'authorities' or people with an agenda are behind shutting down a lot of activists right now. But what about these men who were injured for instance or ones who have died-on all sides. They don't benefit from any of this. You don't get much out of an agenda or conspiracy if you are dead-unless your family getting life insurance is your idea of beneficial which I doubt. Most people would rather have thier lives.
I am sick and tired of seeing this happen while my hands are tied because I'm living under threats and intimidation.

I just looked over the paperwork from two of the three cases. This has got to be one of the worst frame ups. Its all based on anonymous tips, hearsay and most of the accusations and paperwork I HAD NOT EVEN SEEN UNTIL MY ATTORNEY IN NH MAILED IT TO ME recently. So much for being able to face your accusers. All but one of the 'tips' is completely anonymous.
The authorities seem to be protecting the informant who gave the original tip to the FBI about me allegedly having a gun in Harvard Sq. It says it was anonymous but yet there's an age and address listed for the anonymous tipster.

A lot of the accusations are conflicting as well. And what was done in NH is the most illegal, abusive, outrageous subverting of the US Constitution, my human and civil rights as well as due process Ive ever seen in my life. My current attorney is still confused about the outcome of the NH case because the decision they seemed to have made would have required me to HAVE PLEADED SOME SORT OF NO CONTEST OR GUILTY which I did not. I did four months in an abusive, moldy jail becuz I would not plead out to something I did not do.

I am continuing to get abusive comments from whoever did do this, the stalker who is a reader of this blog. The person has become very crazy and is saying things like I am an evil woman who is in rebellion against god, that I am a gun toting, right wing conservative but yet then the person will write that I am a left wing lesbian and abortioness etc. Whoever they are they are getting very crazy and its outrageous that people were and are still trying to focus on my having done this when evidence clearly points to this nut job commenting on my blog WHO HAS HAD FOREKNOWLEDGE of police coming for me due to the first email sent AND MENTIONED ANOTHER INCIDENT BEFORE I KNEW ABOUT IT and I had not mentioned anything on this blog about it.

The judge in NH effectively disqualified himself btw by saying, as he put the case on a 'no finding' status for two years, by saying "I dont want to see anymore of this nonsense miss Orban" and I said " I am going to find out who sent this, believe me" to which he replied "I believe YOU sent this".
So the judge is biased...and "believes" I sent the threatening communication? Belief? NOT PROOF BEYOND A REASONABLE DOUBT??? FROM A TRIAL WHERE IT IS THE STATE'S BURDEN TO PROVE BEYOND A REASONABLE DOUBT? Is this absolutely for real?
He also threatened to push through a horrible sentence on me EVEN THOUGH IT WAS NEVER PROVED I SENT ANYTHING AND THERE'S EVIDENCE THAT ITS A READER ON MY BLOG.

Its hard to defend yourself when you are being attacked and provoked constantly in Valley Street Jail in Manchester NH and abused by officers who lie on thier reports (I've got the grievances to prove it.)

The only reason any of this is going under the radar is because someone figures that I will be so damaged by this abuse that I wont be able to function and Ill be afraid to make any moves to defend myself as well as obviously that Im going to be successfully witch hunted (historically a Boston pass time) because of the chaos going on with all the shootings.
My mother used to say, thats how serial killers think, and criminals. They blend in with the students (when she worked in a bar in Boston). That they go along with a trend of crime like crooked law suits in the 80s because if everyone else is doing it, they feel they wont be caught. That no one is paying attention.

Whoever is doing this feels that I will be lost to the pervading environment of chaos and fear as well as no one will pay attention to how corrupt the cases are becuz of everything else going on.

None of this matters anymore. People are dying due to these shootings and its been going on far too long now. Its ridiculous that I of all people would be a person to hurt others considering that my work is dedicated to nothing more than helping others and the content of my work especially BEFORE I GOT SET UP FOR THE FIRST CASE consisted of digging into a few high profile lone shooting cases as well as examining many lone shooters themselves.

My posts where I support police are many on this blog. My lawyer in NH  did not look them up and bring them to the bail hearings which is why his ass needed to be fired but its a bit hard when they have you locked up and people are messing with you all the time and you are indigent becuz you cant get to your money so no phone calls, no paper, envelopes etc. Law Library and newspapers is all I had. I now understand in this country why we have things like Law Library and Freedom Of Speech of the printed word. I always understood but never saw something as horrific as what happened to me make an example of how oppression can make those things LIFE SAVING in a certain situation. And the help of other women in there...as usual when the patriarchy tries to crush a woman, its other women who help out.

I'm going to do what I do best and that's try to assist. Whats going on out there is absolutely ridiculous and probably totally unnecessary. I will not be intimidated while innocent people lose thier lives.

First thing everyone must do in the TI community is to stop being careless with what we write. Its obviously being used against us right now. There are multiple articles meant to set us up as potential nut job shooters just becuz its theorized by people in the community that the shooters may have been targeted.
We cant afford to play with ideas anymore. Its too dangerous and its being used to harm the community by mostly big media outlets. (Yes I realize one of the stories I posted was from VICE but if you read my post from a few days back it shows that VICE has basically gone big media due to selling out in the Brooklyn area as well as big media investing in VICE. The genuine Hipster community is done with VICE, that says a lot.)

Secondly we need to help others who may be at risk with prevention. Mulling over details of cases AFTER people are dead is only feeding the trolls and giving our detractors material to work with. Try to get to people at risk BEFORE they act out, make this the focus of activism now, not trying to figure out if some shooter was being harassed. Try to get the word out to anyone, TI or not, just anyone feeling desperate-that taking violent action IS NOT the way to deal with whatever is going on.

In court they tried desperately to use against me that I was mapping out just how a lot of stress and harassment can be utilized to bait people into snapping and losing it. They tried to make it look like I had sent the threatening faxes BECUZ I MYSELF HAD LOST IT AND SNAPPED and may be capable of doing something. Which is ridiculous for those of you who know me but it worked in an ambush basically where I wasn't prepared and had little control over my attorney and had little understanding of my legal rights in the situation and was victimized by intimidation, abuse and fear.
Of course I would map out that process, as my blog clearly stated at the time IT WAS A CANDID BLOG of daily experiences so people could see how this sort of thing works. It was to try to help others and a lot of it was done with my naturally sophomoric sense of humor-both dark humor and sarcasm, from my being largely from a very collegiate area, I've never left that mindset. I suppose when you are surrounded by smart people and even the hobos in the place I called home for years are good looking, talented and smart and fraternize with the college kids, you don't take things seriously and the rest of the country doesn't quite appreciate that outlook.

I discovered that even just mere miles away, right over the border of the next state, you can make the most nonsensical bunch of bullshit fly and look legit as long as everyone is scared enough, corrupt enough and willing to hang someone to get what they need out of it. That not everyplace is like Boston where there's some oversight, watchdog groups and well...intelligent common sense.

The best thing to do right now is not assume you are safe writing anything. It seems that prevention is in order. And its hard to examine a motive for a case when the shooter always ends up dead.
I'm going to do all I can to try to help which was my intent to begin with but its gone beyond just examining the shootings and perpetrators. No one is listening to that. Its just the worst news making it to people. Obviously the people losing it are where to focus on.

And why does no one see this before it happens? Neighbors or spouses or friends or co workers? Its very shady that I get caught up in the system when I'm not dangerous and there was never a chance of my doing any harm yet I'm being focused on but the people who are becoming actual shooters are somehow making it under the radar.

I feel that the only people who can actually help right now are THE PEOPLE IN OUR COMMUNITY. Think about it- no one knows more about how stuff like this works. Lets call it merely 'shady' if you will. That's an understatement but it sums it up pretty well. Maybe that's why our community and the most vocal in it is being set up for silence if you will. So we cant help.

I just had two more relatives die-one while I was in jail and the other when I got out and was too messed up from being abused to do anything but try to deal with daily survival. Now these shootings are becoming a normal occurrence in the news-as if its normal. I simply don't care anymore about being intimidated. And everyone else in the TI community shouldn't either.

The fact that our community is being vilified YET NO ONE WHO IS A TRUE RISK THAT ACTS OUT is being focused on. Someone, somewhere is much more interested in DIVERSIONS than actually solving this problem. No one knows more than we do about how cruel people can be, even just in the situations of workplace mobbing or bullying. Its time we put our expertise to work in a meaningful way in mainstream society.

Another thing this will accomplish, I've discovered in these misadventures is that this will WEED OUT THE DISINFO people or fake TIs who only exist to harm our community. There's no way such a person could set out to be helpful and accomplish anything positive. It just isn't possible. Just like anyone who's been to OCCUPY knows how to tell an infiltrator- thier prime directive is to mislead, misdirect, destroy, time waste, agitate, infiltrate, sabotage. They cant accomplish anything else-by thier task and by thier very nature I dare say.

If you are a Survivor, if you understand SMART's website, you know your true nature. Use that now and don't let anyone interfere in your connecting to what you need to defend yourself-and to continue with activism.




Book Review: PSYCHIATRY AND THE CIA: VICTIMS OF MIND CONTROL By Harvey Weinstein

https://scholarsbank.uoregon.edu/xmlui/bitstream/handle/1794/1649/Diss_5_2_12_OCR_rev.pdf?sequence=4

"Richard L. Jacobs, Psy.D., is a psychologist in Brookline,
Massachusetts.
Weinstein, Harvey M., Psychiatry and the CIA: Victims of Mind
Control, American Psychiatric Press, Washington, D.C., 1990."



Wednesday, October 12, 2016

Interesting Article About Fed Coercion To Become Informant

http://freedominourtime.blogspot.com/2010/10/fbi-bureau-of-frame-ups-bullying-and.html

As usual I am not responsible for the author's point of view or sentiment in relation to authorities, I am simply reposting  in the interest of exposing corruption and subverting of citizens' rights. In the hopes the post helps others.

Having Nightmares From Being Arrested And Grabbed Off The Street By Authorities

Wtf is going on? Im having nightmares theres another case and arrest! Its probably from being terrorized with being ambushed by authorities and arrested which was always a shock and surprise because of course I wasnt expecting it.

I dont usually even dream very often due to the neuro damage from that moldy apartment years ago.

Why is this happening suddenly?
Have I been THAT terrorized?

Monday, October 10, 2016

Agressive Parents Who Begin Altercations-One Solution

How to handle aggreseive, rude moms and women who start fights or threaten with kids present:

"I got CPS on speed dial,b*tch!"

Becuz good mommies...dont get into fights in public.

Sunday, October 9, 2016

Interesting How All The Difficulties Have Come Just In Past Year-When My Uncle Dies

Well, two uncles actually. Two more family members dead. Two more people I never got to see or speak to or say anything to before they passed.

http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/bostonglobe/obituary.aspx?n=thomas-e-willems&pid=180030420&

The other obituary isn't really pertinent.

I was watching out for his passing in obituaries like all older relatives but how would I have known he was suffering a prolonged illness and it was obvious he was going to pass away?

I also heard that my dad is on dialysis and he's so unstable he can't make the proper decision to get a kidney transplant. Isn't that a lovely thing to have to hear about?

He's had such a hard time.

What really happened?
No one really knows.

But I can guarantee you one thing: It isn't going to happen to me. It hasn't in fact.

NH is an odd sort of place isn't it? Maybe he went insane just from living there for too long.

In jail we saw the most INTERESTING movies. And one of them was this boring dumb made for TV movie where this woman has all this frightening metaphysical stuff happen to her in a house that destroys her family yet at the end the interviewing detective deducts that SHE killed them-probably for insurance money. That SHE is the bad guy...not this incredible force of evil no one can see. Even though the stupid idiot has videos to prove her version of events, she gives in to intimidation in the end because,as the saying that kept showing up throughout this turd film kept telling the viewer: People See What They Want To See!!!

And ALL the women in the unit in the jail were so adamant about watching this turd and so enthused about it. Which is strange because those women couldn't organize to save their lives and seemed more concerned with being divided and talking about dumb boring crap all day and night to be on the same page about ANYTHING. (Being forced to watch Lifetime Network all the time in there was torment enough.)

And we saw other turds often enough in there too but just like the last movie I mentioned, I ignored those also. I found them boring.

Gee....maybe I should be afraid that people will only see what they want to...or rather, people may feel they may now be able to do so without consequences.

If only life were like the movies, huh?

I believe in a higher order. That Truth is ultimate power. If you stand by that, you will be protected and people will have made their own consequences by their own actions.

BTW violence is a stupid persons solution to problems. The notion I would have to resort to that is as distasteful as this entire situation has been.

Thursday, October 6, 2016

Braver Than Any Man: Eileen 'Didi' Nearne

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/412290540866334598/

"Braver than any man: Revealed for the first time, the awe-inspiring courage of two British sisters who waged a one-family war on the Nazis - and were left with emotional scars that never healed"


Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Youtube published private vids as public earlier today-author's apologies to readers

YT vids meant to be by link access only came up public today- even though my default for uploaded vids is 'unlisted': by link access only.

Don't know why that happened but I'm sorry to anyone who viewed them that was not intended to.

I am very disturbed that a reader seems to have sent the three threats to authorities and I'm always the one getting in trouble for it.  I wanted a few chosen people to know the details of what's gone on with these cases. The emails with links and info I sent I mistakenly sent to a few people I shouldn't have so I pulled the vids altogether.

It's pointless to tell the public about the cases at this point as well as I know whatever scumbag has done this to begin with expected that reaction so why tell the public the details?

At least I got a better gauge of who I can trust and who I can't.

Monday, October 3, 2016

A Statement To Readers and The Community At Large-No Retaliation Will Be Tolerated

I am actively going through proper channels as well as seeking help in getting justice for myself as is my right as a US citizen. I have a right to due process and my Constitutional rights.

Any emails, faxes or communications with my name attached sent to anyone with any threatening content will be viewed as RETALIATION for my exsercising my rights as a US citizen within the United States Of America and every avenue possible of investigation and prosecution will be taken to protect me.

I am not alone. I now have family members with good standing in the community watching out for me as well as many fellow activists, legal organizations and lawyers informed of the timeline of these events as well as kept informed with updates.

As per usual I have never sent threatening communications to authorities, I've never been given proper due process to prove beyond reasonable doubt that I did so (or even a trial!) and any further activity as such with my name attached or any indication of a connection to me, this blog, my activism or my personal affairs SHOULD BE INVESTIGATED BY AUTHORITIES in order to get justice for ME as well as the parties that are recipients of such communications.

I've never had any problems connected with myself or this blog for ten years. It should be obvious that this activity is out of character for me and would be detrimental to my work, my credibility as an activist and my future as an author.

Stop protecting the predator(s) who is victimising me AND PROTECT THE VICTIM.