Ive felt helpless for months becuz I cant say what I want on this blog becuz I always run the risk of having whoever framed me with threats sent to authorities with my name on them, sending more and due to the last three threats, one of them was tried in court with a total disregard to justice, laws, human and civil rights specifically my right to due process.
I have collected enough documentation to sue all parties into oblivion as as discredit the frame up but when many different institutions and agencies are abusing power in a concerted effort its very difficult to have things done properly as well as creates an extremely dangerous situation.
Im sick of being silent about this issue. Ive made a video for lone shooter prevention and will make one for this issue as well. Im not a vetran, Im uneducated and Im not a man. I have no children-Ive never even owned a home.
However, RA Survivors go through alot of survivor guilt and the cults who continue to harass and handle Survivors utilize a Survivor's past against the person to gain control.
Theres people who make you feel guilty for things that you were put into as a child. From kiddie pornography to rituals to simply being part of something evil. Remember most of the parents are either victims themselves or somehow easily controlled by other means.
Even though as an adult the Survivor may not choose the same belief system and activities that go along with that in adulthood they are tethered to the cult by the acts they were involved in.
To be exposed to such brutal violence as a youth after minimal training (bootcamp=brainwashing) without the intricate, complex system of compartmentalization Survivors have the benefit of, leaves soldiers especially vulnerable to memories surfacing and effecting them.
And one has to be realistic about potential sinister intentions of a very violent, greedy military industrial complex connected to governing bodies.
I would not rule out theorizing that targeting vets to suicide would be very cost effective and serve multiple purposes.
Cutting costs on vets benefits and care. Silencing victim witnesses to war crimes and potential anti war activists or advocates and on the lone shooter end of things-validating everything from increased security to new toys for authorities and even potentially causing the continued chaos that keeps this country in a state of emergency since 2001. (If Im wrong on that status let me know.)
Vets must realize that the potential to have been microchipped with nanotech is very plausible or given drugs that permanently effect the brain on top of the damage from battle. This is simply a theory many people have come up with and it can be further investigated. There are credible people with websites who deal with such subject matter and watch out for disinfo in this area.
Most shooters are men. Im not a man. Perhaps women are self healing. Its possible that testosterone has alot to do with the process of 'snapping'.
Whatever is happening, whatever has happened, vets who are having alot of difficulty need to factor in that theres more going on domestically than meets the eye in this country and may effect them and make it even harder to heal.
Its also not an easy society to live in as when my grandfather came home from WW2, Phillipines and Korea. People are selfish and competitive. Cowardly and manipulative. Dumbed down and ignorant. Things are expensive, jobs hard to get. Keeping up with the Joneses more expensive and ridiculous than ever.
People feel like they can be as mean and rude as possible as long as they dont break the sacred rule of Political Correctness.
The root of my story as an activist begins with my maternal grandparents being US Marines-my grandmother a reservist I believe.
Ive posted her obituary and her service is listed.
My grandfather was damaged but could function in daily life but there were signs here and there.
If Id turn on a ceiling light, where you had to pull a hanging string, the 'click' would awaken him in his recliner, and once he gave me a look as if he did not immediately recognize me.
He said it sounded just like a gun being loaded, he thought for a split second I was a German-that this was his last moment but he chuckled it off. He was from New Orleans and had a more laid back way of dealing with life than tightly wound, fretting Yankees.
He loved war movies. He had good stories about war and the bayou from what little I could get out of him.
Yet my grandfather was committing violent acts against his children and from what I know it seems he was compartmentalized when doing so.
My mother recalls my grandmother testing the beds military style after the kids made them by dropping a coin on the sheets and blanket and it had to bounce or it had to be made right repeatedly until it was done correctly. Beans, franks and toast on Saturday night for dinner and my grandmother never gave up eating SPAM (bleh).
In later years when my grandfather was given medication after a surgery he strangled my grandmother in the bedroom, which was not his typical behavior.
He claimed, with much worry on his face and distress, that he had awoken to being in the war again and he really believed he was there. He said he saw men die again he had not seen in 50 years and that he had NEVER wanted to see those things again.
These years of violence stay with men who are in combat.
It seems in every war men return to a society that has a system of romanticising soldiers but then not wanting to deal with the reality of damaged men returning as vetrans.
I find it very odd that cities like Boston are populated by men returning home from war who seem to totally have it together and yet theres homeless vets in camps outside big cities or losing it to suicide or lone shootings.
In San Diego there were street people who wanted to forget the horrors of their service by living as bohemians and smoking pot, wasting whats left of their lives forgetting. Running from memories.
Everything we do now is to basically try to cover up the fact that at this level of evolution, progress and technological advancement there shouldnt be any more wars. Look at what Boston Dynamics works on in tech or the surveillance capabilities we have. It becomes obvious that war is now for profit.
So, chaos has to be manufactured.
Someone once told me to better understand my situation that I should compare it to a budget of a major construction project. Deaths of workers are factored into the budget.
Recently a kid from the Harvard Sq street scene leaned on me the other day and told me about his one-percenter upbringing. He tried to make the point to me that he grew up in a household that was part of the 1% and told me the way that those people think is that they don't care about human life all they care about is profit and that's all that matters and that's all they want to ensure happens.
He was telling me thats who Im up against.
Perhaps it may benefit vets having a hard time to realize that there may be more going on than just PTSD, brain damage or a pre existing vulnerability.
This could get me framed up again but I think its only right to reveal that Ive recently learned in the Cambridge area the act of sectioning people is being abused it seems partially to clean up certain areas valued and being marketed heavily as tourist areas. Ive discovered that multiple people not just myself have been sectioned under either false pretenses or flimsy reasonings. This reflects the stories above of punative psychiatry being used on innocent people.
Realize the system has ways of pushing people into taking violent actions, especially men
If you have any indications at all of being vulnerable you must take a stance of no matter what happens you cannot choose violence-to yourself or others.
Ive only written about the ways they seem to 'push' people psychologically, emotionally even sliritually to show example to help others. It was always assumed or a given I personally would not be vulnerable to such actions as I have been through so much for so many years and have done so much work on myself and been in contact with much of the legit Survivor and other communities that I am well above and beyond something like that happening.
But many people are snapping maybe not seeing any other way out or not seeing alternative theories for their circumstances.
You will be helping this system to harm more innocents like myself if you give in to violence. I spent four months in jail without any evidence of crime becuz of the rise in lone shootings during the past adninistration being used to manipulate and intimidate people. That was done illegally and by denying me due process throughout my orde.
The legal and medical systems are being manipulated in such an outrageous manner lately that its literally unbelievable to any American. I have never encountered this much abuse of power using official offices and institutions before in any other time period. If you feel vulnerable to taking to violence YOU ARE NOT ALONE and you are up against an astonishing amount of corruption.
Taking to violence harms other vetrans and people like myself who are family members of those documented to have been involved in unethical human experimentation utilizing military personell and their family members.
Read up on activism like mine on the internet and avoid bullsh*t disinfo. There are others, there are answers.
Its like a magician's trick-once you know how it works you can no longer be fooled.
Whatever is driving you inside, remove yourself from it. Change locations if you have to. Learn how to friendly, calm and diplomatic even when you dont want to be.
Change your friends, your life, yourself.
Network with people so you arent isolated even if they arent people you consider perfect friends for you. Avoid being a victim of cyberbullying while doing so. Theres plenty of good, nice, engaging people beyond the walls or the matrix or whatever term people choose.
One reason its easy to bait warriors with shadow games is becuz they know you will fight back. They also know sneaky, disrespctful actions from weaklings will infuriate you. The world is full of lazy, greedy pieces of shit who hang their entire lifes cred on whatever they think fools the public into believing they are better than you-and theres lots of others just like them.
If youve been to war then you know what humans are capable of. You know then the facade our latest incarnation of human society has fabricated is absolutely ridiculous. Political correctness at home and war crimes abroad? Anyone can look up the carnage caused by the complex contractors-but this is acceptable becuz the average citizens mind seperates these two as if they are unrelated.
And always take note that the same contractors who provide military services then provide domestic services and products.
Bush said the US Constitution was just a piece of paper and he is right. Bush was a friend to oppressed people becuz there's a rebel side to him that seems to want to throw it in peoples faces just how corruption is pulled off.
Theres wisdom in what he said becuz if we dont stand up and demand our rights be respected a piece of paper is just an inanimate object.
Without human energy, intention and action backing it up it is just paper and writing.
This post is the only gift I can provide to veterans. That there are alternative narratives-dont let circunstances write your ending for you. You can be in control.
As for police violence lately all I can say is that Im not shocked at whats going on becuz weve chosen to militarize some of the most corrupt and organized crime/institution serving police forces in the country however I am shocked at the potential that if the theory is plausible that certain rogue or corrupt cops are engaging in harassment of people targeted as potential shooters-it shocks me to think of their total disregard for other officers who may be harmed by the results.
The only thing that makes sense in this theory is infiltrarion by parties that arent truly a cohesive part of the force-like private corporations or even foriegn governments but Im very politically unaware so dont want to make assessments.
Ive realized I should stay out of politics as Im too undereducated and not well read enough as I spend so much time on what I specialize in.
And if Ive suffered at the hands of corrupt authority and navigated effectively then anyone can. Dont be the next useful idiot or excuse to continue the chaos in this country.
If you are experiencing harassment from authirities thats within the scope of driving you to feel desperate-you need to seek safer ground and take legal actions. Documentation will help establish a pattern of abuse not just of you but others being victimized. Manipulation of circumstances that render a person isolated from a support system make you vulnerable to various interested parties of which you can be useful to.
Instead of barricading yourself in a room with weapons fortify your life and protect yourself by surrounding yourself with support, companionship, acquantences and practical legal help.
I didnt file a complaint with Internal Affairs when a few years ago the first signs of harassment began which Ive posted on this blog, becuz an attorney working for the offending city predicted that they would just throw my paperwork in the trash.
Ive learned that legal documentation is always valuable and gives you a voice and some credibility if it escalates. If I had filed that complaint, everything that has transpired over the last year thats been so damaging may not have happened.
Dont try to take on anything bigger than you are by yourself and thats probably your nature AND IT WILL BE USED AGAINST YOU.
Dont be the next news story.
Innocent cops and citizens are getting killed. Soldiers are dying when theres so much they could do if they healed.
Whether its my theories or others, whatever is driving you, that has you, get up and walk away. Its not as powerful as you think.