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Friday, December 5, 2025

Dear Readers It's Been A lot of Sacrifice and I Feel So Alone

 After I got framed in 2016 I went seeking safety. I picked someone up dusted them off and made something out of them I never trusted them 100% however. Things were okay for many years especially since I had a sponsor helping me (Pam if you're out there thank you for getting me through those tough years I just wish I wasn't with someone who basically cost me most of my money). I was young and attractive still. 

 Even though this person that I got attached to seemed difficult and controlling it was obvious it was due to a lot of medical issues. In order for the person to stay with me it was conditional that they get some of their medical issues treated right away just to stabilize the situation. After that The medical system we were involved in just ditched us and I couldn't take care of My companion as well as my sick parent and myself still trying to rotate between Urban camping and hotel rooms and even though I can pinch a dime out of a penny I feel like I've done it for absolutely nothing all these years other than helping my mother. 

My companion has turned on me and I am very isolated and aalone. I'm really not allowed to talk to anybody and all these years I've got nothing but crap from trying to talk to people in coffee shops to family members to using Facebook. Slowly I become isolated. And this person has branched out and how has all these acquaintances and friends. 

 I Don't think this person could be trusted to begin with. However now it's clear that they fully turned on me. They first started to really misbehave and act aggressive after the money ran out in 2022 and my ever patience ever helpful sponsor ddisappeared. I warned my companion did I had less resources and more responsibilities because I had a parent who had a stroke after me having to take care of that that parent every surgery which she had multiple over many years time since I was back in touch with them.

My companion seemed to understand but it was all just a smoke screen. Then I even subjected myself to living in a completely inappropriate place where I appreciate an older gentleman helping us out who has a home that we stayed in but My companions long time friend his son was into drugs and we never should have lived there because he was abusive to me and even to him. And after that that's when things change ccompletely. I'm now being ignored I'm being gaslighted constantly that he does absolutely nothing wrong and is absolutely nothing wrong with him. And I'm even being gaslighted into the fact that I'm mental I just laugh at but the problem is is that this might actually work. 

I'm in menopause and in menopause I wish somebody had told me that The aging of your face aaccelerates very quickly which I was not prepared for. 

All these years I could have been taking care of my skin I didn't have any face cream I wasn't taking care of myself all because I was working really hard for us because I believed in our ffuture. 

I think at some point as I got old I lost sight of the fact that I couldn't trust this person and that was foolish. 

They've done so many embarrassing things and been so rrude now it's come to the chopping block.  Now I'm isolated and alone in a relationship with a person wants to get away from me everyday as much as possible they make me do all the work they sneakily spend their money on stupid stuff when they're not around me whine about having to spend any money at all in the relationship and they make me do everything of course this is all to make sure that I can't free myself up from the relationship and get on my own. They also keep promising me if they going to do what they have to do with that medical stuff and I've seen nothing but them trying to get out of iit ever since they decided to turn on me. 

Unless I'm in an area where people know me and I'm the one has a history there this person acts as if I've already lost  and I have absolutely no Hope it all. 

There are a few people that know what's going on but most people ddon't and I think that a lot of his friends and acquaintances are probably people that don't like me very much. It's like he's being rewarded for being a handler. 

Don't you love when somebody won't even let you touch their phone even for a practical reason but then they go through your phone whenever the hell they feel like it I'm getting really tired of all of this. 

This is exactly what happened to me with my boyfriend that tried to frame me up for some drugs he got caught with back in the early 2000s. 

Like an idiot I stayed with him even though I was trying to get rid of him because I'm a stand by your man kind of pperson then you shouldn't leave somebody in a crisis well now I realize that if you can't trust them you should because they're just going to use you so I told my boyfriend to go into 12 step meetings because it would make his case look better. What's the first thing do you think that happened in those meetings? Every person that hated my guts or had something against me or wanted to come after me for whatever the reasons are political friends of friends , me being targeted people that my family has pissed off whatever it is-they basically just abducted him the second he went into the meetings. They grabbed him and they just turned him against me. And I have to learn that this is what the system does. 

There was always something strange about the person I'm with now though. People almost seem to be shaking his hand years aago I thought it was very strange that a lot of people were patting him on the back. 

One reason I couldn't trust him was that and I should have stuck with that. 

I definitely should have gotten out of this years ago. but it seem like I was in control of the situation. 

I am so nervous now and I am so menopausal that I've taken to talking my way through sstuff when I'm out because I can't handle being nervous anymore like I used to. Ladies you have no idea how much estrogen makes life livable in this world until you don't have it anymore. 

And they're probably trying to say that I'm not because I'm doing that kind of stuff. 

So the person I thought was going to be supportive is now probably the worst thing I have going. 

I worked really hard to make something out of my blog and I worked really hard all those years traveling and I deserve respect. 

Years ago I got that respect even from my companion. I don't expect him to be involved in my activism or my bblog but now he's specifically picking on it saying that I'm a joke it's a joke and he's even calling it a cult. 

Well he certainly didn't call it those things when he was getting $2,000 a month out of it of My money that I was ggetting. 

I'm going to get out of this just like I get out of everything and I'm going to get back on top where I bbelong and no amount of nobodies they're not happy smart as I am are going to gang up on me and take me down. The problem here is that I'm being taken down softly and quietly. Nobody's like framing me and dragging me off like they did in 2016. Everyone's being sneaky. 

I don't mind associating with people who don't really know what my blog is about or know that I do my blog or  if they do they don't mention it but I don't like being around people who think that they're smarter than me and I don't even know what the blog is about but they're going to help hold me hostage? 

The level of human being that I have had to deal with in the last 5 years is a complete moron who's local because uunfortunately staying with my companion I've had to stay in one place for too long and that's also been my undoing. It's given the local community a sense of control over me which I never wanted that to happen. 

Basically many years ago I had townies started telling me that my blog was a place where it seemed I talked a lot of shit about people on there. This is what these people think of it? I think the problem here as I'm being surrounded by local people that are iidiots cuz I haven't traveled and stayed among my own element which is the colleges and people outside of the system or people that have enough money to not be part of the system. And I think these people have become really comfortable with this handler and sort of depending on him to deal with me and keep me down and then they can just be satisfied that they're somehow in on it when they're not even smart enough to understand the blog at all. 

I'm getting really fucking tired of this. 

I was an idiot to take this person on to begin with The person has made it so I can't pay attention to my mother I should have taken all that money and paid for stuff from my mother and me not for this person. Every single time I help somebody I always end up creating a monster who just turns on me or doesn't appreciate what I do for them. My parent is also obnoxious but at least she's my parent and I have an obligation to take care of her. 

Once your parents are gone that's it. 

But this is what happens from being framed. I was so desperate for security that now it's become a fucking pprison. I never get to do anything to do with my blog because I swear this idiot keeps me busy all the time by making sure he doesn't have to do anything. 

This is going to change pretty soon I'm not going to keep putting up with this. Either things go the way that I planned or it's very easy for me to just finish up my business and leave. 

I'm not going to stay around people that don't believe in what I'm doing. All the system is doing now is using all these idiots to neutralize me. So basically it's not set out loud but basically everyone is greased that I'm crazy and out of my mind and I'm a loser and I'm a jerk he Even told me that everyone around Harvard says I'm an aasshole. 

I think I've had enough of this crap and I think I've sacrificed this crap long enough. 

The person doesn't even tell me about their life anymore they don't even share anything with me anymore. Why do they pay out thousands of dollars. I thought it was an investment and I didn't mind when I was going to get some kind of payoff on my iinvestment. But now that I'm weak and I'm in menopause and I'm getting old and my face doesn't look good anymore this person thinks they can just walk all over me and do whatever they want. 

I didn't invest in this so I could get this as a result. No one's going to waste my fucking time like this. 

I didn't travel all those years so that somebody can make sure that I don't write my book and I just slave for them all the time. 

If I want that I'll go be around my parent all the time she's enough of a pain in the ass. But at least her I understand there's a reason she's the way she is and I am obligated to take care of her since she took care of me. 

They don't tell you about perimenopause when your traveler or when you're homeless. The doctors didn't even test correctly or take care of iit The medical care when your homeless is horrible it's like they want you to die. Now I'm in menopause nobody told me about this either. 

I know one thing I don't want to do now that I'm in menopause waste my time with a bunch of fucking people who are my enemies. 

Tuesday, November 25, 2025

 I only unpublished a recent post because it gives too much of my book away. Also I'm delirious from a fever and nasty virus. 

I'm really sick. Sorry to have given anyone any false hope lol.

I'm sooo sleep deprived. Slept all yesterday and nothing today or tonight. Ugh. Head hurts. 

Fever and more fever.  

 

The Origin of the Expression " Blow Smoke Up My Ass"

 Ok so I probably won't utilize this phrase so much anymore as I had used it in a more broad sense and also did not know about its origin.

https://gizmodo.com/blowing-smoke-up-your-ass-used-to-be-literal-1578620709

I heard it from one of the generational Irish here, someone of descent maybe definitely a tough woman from the working classes. In the past they actually had a lot more useful common sense information about life than people I knew. Well, after my difficult situation started. 

I guess it's supposed to be used moreso to refer to compliments being insincere as opposed to just general dishonesty, 'handling' someone or blowing someone off while pretending to do your job. 

It does have a disgusting history and I wonder where she heard it. 

It's still great but I tend to lean on it too much nowadays.  

Monday, November 24, 2025

Getting viruses is really sucks when you're in menopause. I have some kind of flu or short COVID pissed and I'm sick I don't feel good I can't breathe. I have done what I can depend on everyone treats me like a jerk and I'm starting to look like a fucking old lady. 

 This is shitty and sucks. Things better improve   

Switching from Corn Syrup to Sugar isn't Healthier (but it does fulfill sugar tariffs)

 All my regular foods and juices are now SUGARY and disgusting and it's making me sick. I can only buy one brand of juice now. The HFCS in foods made me feel as if my food was being processed more quickly and sugar is a huge burden. The amount of sugar they are putting in these foods with this switch is too much. You can't even taste the fruit. 
 
Why Swapping High Fructose Corn Syrup for Sugar Won’t Make You Healthier  

If only I had realized when I was younger that flouride isn't just to dumb us down but so that marketers can have us consume lots of sugar since birth. It's outrageous how much sugar is in kids foods. 

Now there's a logical explaition as to why it's so important to change up from High Fructose Corn Syrup to sugar. It may seem healthy but in the big picture it is not. 

Coming from a generation in the '70s where our parents thought Capt Crunch was ok as breakfast and shitty Hana-Barbara cartoons were a babysitter in the 90s we became focused on positive changes like no TV sets in the home, health food and environmentally sustainable products.  That was short lived for some reason and I notice that a lot of the health and environmental movements declined with 9/11 and the war. (Sorry Greta, we did try. Someday you will experience how bad the bad guys are, probably when you no longer are useful to their agendas. Poster child today-enemy tomorrow. Just you wait and see. You're whole generation is gonna get a wake up call when you realize how you've been used by the system.)

I went into Whole Foods a year ago or so and asked why there wasnt any tofu ice cream. The grocery guy looked at me as if I was a turd in the punch bowl (which I always am anyway) and got defensive and claimed that it wasn't popular anymore and they run with trend etc. 

Decades ago when we had GENUINE health food stores there was no sugar in the entire place and certain products were healthy food staples like Amazaki etc. There were no trends just what health nuts depended on. Things weren't outrageously priced either. If tofu ice cream is a healthy alternative product then it should be available today as it is tomorrow. 

I've been eating HFCS all my life. I know it's not ultra healthy but the healthy alternatives are honey, maple syrup or fruit based sweeteners those products no longer exist. In the 90s you could easily pick up fruit juice sweetened products like yogurt etc now it's impossible.  I tried stevia decades ago and it's just as weird now as it was back then. There are some things I haven't tried like agave. 

If people tried we could find something genuinely healthy. Ever since I've been diagnosed with ulcers and I'm aging I now look at food differently. There's too many stores, there's too much waste and there's too much corruption of food. The things we do to wheat is obscene and if people don't buy it we throw it away. My stomach now rejects a lot of what I used to eat and my teeth (which were never fixed properly by a dental school just made worse) show what happens when you eat too much sugar. Maybe some of us are genetically pre disposed to crave sugar once it's introduced. I know some people who never seem to eat it, they don't crave it and I envy them. They usually have nice teeth as well. Perhaps some of us maybe most of us should be sticking to honey and maple syrup like our ancestors did. Sugar is something that's been introduced only recently into human society in our long history. 

I'm realizing that sugar is one of the most damaging substances that we are raised with as normalized and flouride is the cover up for it. I'm seeing that foods in the form they are sold is not sustainable. They want us to eat bugs to save the environment yet big companies keep polluting massively. Humans need to stop flying. It's one of the worst polluters and it's ridiculously unsafe. You can possibly walk away from a car accident, you can't parachute out of a commercial airliner. 

My body seems much happier with HFCS maybe because I've been consuming it all my life. Perhaps it is time to get it out of my diet but replacing it with sugar seems like a step backwards. I would like to see a study done on any differences in dental health between sugar and HFCS also. 

Foods are becoming unhealthier since COVID and whatever idiots caused gas to be so high and screwed up shipping overseas to make money. 

I notice companies are resorting to sneaky ways of cutting costs like claiming something is healthier when they change the formula (that's ALWAYS when you see a new redesigned label or box design, except for Aunt Jemima which was changed for political reasons not the food itself) when in fact they've taken out good things from the product. An example is Hungry Jack complete pancake mix. One of the only lower level cost mixes that had good things in it like barley and other grains and it had actual vitamin percentages on the box. It tasted good and was easy to make. 

Then they changed the box and the logo....

Sure enough, some of the vitamins were gone and others reduced to miniscule amounts. It tastes like cardboard. Yet the change was marketed as 'healthier' because they claim it is made with some sort of 'natural' ingredients now. Now I pay more for a higher end product that's probably healthier than Pearl Milling Company or Hungry Jack but doesn't taste as good. 

Another sneaky maneuver lately has been the shrinking cereal box. I was shocked by this but most people don't seem to care. That's because women in my grandmother's day would have rioted if they pulled this crap (notice how the WW2 generation all died off before they started this nonsense?). Someone told me it's called 'shrinkflation'. Cute but still unacceptable. The size of the cereal boxes is ridiculous. 

Dont even feed into this bs. Your local drugstore like CVS and Walgreens have sales on these boxes for like $2 each. BJs wholesale club has two huge boxes glued together that sells for $8 and recently with coupon, $3! Get every store flyer or ad you can  most can be gotten online and seek out deals. If you're a person who doesn't care about prices then fine but food quality should be important to everyone. 

Generic foods used to be ok but now it depends. Each market has its own good and bad about it. 

We are very fortunate to be in an area with so much food and people being generous with food. We are also very lucky to be born in a country where food is safe for the most part. Our food supply is also heavily protected by DHS which is why they trucker protests a few years ago were Canadian not American truckers because all that 70s shit like convoys and such are all illegal now. 

When COVID got really crazy I noticed that Americans fared far better than other nations. That entire situation was done badly however because there should have been an international emergency where rationing was mandated for stores as well as regulating shipping. That was wrong and people suffered due to others greed. Most people don't even understand that, which is sad.  

Also try to remember that the people working in these stores and manufacturing the food products are just trying to live and they may actually take pride in their work or their product. Alot of people I've met that are higher up in grocery really are into food and into products.  You can stand and discuss products with them and get good information. This is the difference between the craftsman and the 'corporate body' as I call them, just bodies going through the motions of a job.  People who see value in their work differ from people who show up and it's just a job. 

I think we can do better. We need to stop over producing and we need to stop making empty calories and garbage for people to eat. In the future I hope sugar is no longer for human consumption because it is addictive. In my 20s when the health food and environment movement was becoming normalized and part of our daily lives I quit sugar for a time and even though I felt much better I returned to it. 

(To be fair about dental health there is a gene that creates an enzyme in people's mouths that over a lifetime destroy teeth regardless of what that person eats. If you have this your teeth will rot faster anyway so that is to be considered.) 

Mid level to low level food is becoming unhealthy. Genetically or bio engineered food is a very bad idea and tastes like virtual food. It doesn't register in my brain at all. It's as empty as CGI in a movie where my brain is going "all I see is 1110001110011001. There's nothing ACTUALLY there". 

Don't be angry or disappointed. There might be a depopulation agenda out there and with good reason. Even the toothpaste is now less effective since COVID. Just be aware and smarter. 

Unfortunately it seems time to separate the wheat from the chaff. Again.  

Friday, November 21, 2025

loser group from Northeastern University

 Being harassed by little punks on the  bus from Haymarket. I got video! Will edit. I had to remove thr name of the college because ever since the 2016 frame up I can't SAY WHAT I WANT ON OWN BLOG WHICH IS REALLY GETTING OLD. Ita a college in Longwood Fenway area that used to be decent but has gone the way of all universities nowadays and it's  a shame. Big place too. They don't have audio on their public computers so I never used to frequent the place. 

(We wouldnt want them to send THEMSELVES emails using my name threatening students or....not again that ridiculous set up of threatening law enforcement at universities. I always wondered if they had someone send them the emails or if they did it themselves. The most hysterical example is NH where this cop coolant stop bragging about how he was formerly military intelligence and that they used to use the Internet system of hiding your real location in their operations all the time. He just couldn't resist rubbing it in that he had the knowledge of how to send his own department the emails under my name

 Asshole. Anyway...I will fix it someday.) 

It's a shame who goes to these colleges nowadays  and GS is NOT a game. Punks. There was actually an adult with them as well!  

 I'm sitting on bus trying to do a virtual 12 step meeting (as usual I'm responsw, minding my own business and doing what I'm supposed to and people who hide behind mainstream legitimacy are of course the ones who are not only working against the good fight but are up to shit that's no good. 

Fucking around in the bus, swinging off the bars where your supposed to hang on like it's a jungle gym (a BIG favorite of youngsters doing harassment nowadays and it's GETTING OLD). i pointed out that they are messing around in front of disabled seating (as always) and I can make them move if they are sitting there. 

Then the 'adult' with them hushes up one of the girls who started back about nowhere to sit of course this is all just to make an older woman with a shopping cart and groceries look mental for not wanting to deal with ill mannered kids who can't follow basic rules of how to conduct themselves on a bus. 

Which of course is total bullshit like every other instance this crap occurs. Even if one WASNT working with the GS theory it's easy for anyone to see they are not doing what they are supposed to be doing riding on a bus.  

This is a great way to hide harassment activities (in THEORY of course) by hiding under the overly tolerant culture this area now fosters and we are forced to live under. It's nanny state on steroids lately and there is no responsibility and no attempt at self governance. 

I wish half the shit that's now available to poor and disconnected people was available when I was young or even when this started after 9/11..but then I wouldn't be strong and self sufficient or resilient enough to fight a corrupt system. Mahnw that's why they are doing things this way now. 

 

Tuesday, November 11, 2025

anyone have a place?

 I'm with a handler who's escalating. I will eventually need a place to go

 Anyone can help let me know. 

Wednesday, October 15, 2025

The Pressures On and Bait & Wait is Abound/Newstory of Possible TI Who Lost It: DONT BE THAT GUY

 Awww.. isn't this cute? "Gangs" are mentioned by the victim.  they also just had to make an insinuation about the guy being homeless by saying the assailant presented a shelter ID card. Again very cute. a woman was walking in the south end of Boston there's been a lot of havoc lately. She was attacked by a 62-year-old man who she claims was talking to her about gangs. He said it's the only way to stop the game that they're playing with him. And then presented the police with his shelter ID card. That's the link that I read I don't know if the link below includes all of that but it's very disturbing.  

 https://www.boston25news.com/news/local/man-arrested-charged-with-assault-after-punching-woman-south-end/BIFTCFEHBNAHJBGKTTR7TJFNFU/

(I apologize I need to look up the psychological effect that I mentioned earlier it's called the something window and I heard a speaker talking about it I'll have to listen again to that speech so I can find the name of it I will fix this blog post when I find it). 

We've had desperate assholes around for a while now and with  visa issues and more pressure and people coming in who have no love or loyalty for this country or it's neighborhoods are longtime ccitizens people who are newcomers especially the young Even the old will do anything Will do anything to get what they want or need. Remember in a lot of big cities people who are to the right who are good people have left and then people who were to the left have left. Sort of a decent people flight or the flight of decent people. Now scumbags and desperate newcomers and people who need or want are the only people left. 

 

I think that's a major factor in the gang stalking theory right now. Everybody who's decent has left llol.  I don't see any solid people stand up people or genuinely wealthy people left in the cities do you? They've all fled to other areas. That's one of the reasons that we're flooded with recruits potentially. 

I've mentioned the other reasons about people coming from countries that are not America and that includes Central America remember these people are not North Americans they don't have a constitution like Mexico does Canada and America. You're dealing with people that are no longer acclimating after they arrive in this country they're being thrown right into society right into jobs and they just don't have the same sensibilities about the Constitution and living in a constitutional republic that people that have lived here for some time would or Americans who are native to this country. 

Including native Americans lol who I noticed get ignored more than anybody else of course because the United States realizes that they're an illegal entity anyway moving on from tthat because this is why of course they have to lump native Americans in with the people of color and black and brown people empowerment agenda because they don't want people actually having their own culture history and stories because that would include stuff that isn't useful to globalism which is colonialism globalism is colonialism. 

Anyway what I'm saying is that there's various reasons why there's so many assholes around right now especially where I am in the Northeast in the major college area that I'm living in. And unfortunately it's the opposite of years ago the closer you get to the college is the worst this stuff gets in the old days the colleges would protect you against the ssystem. 

But since the infiltration and corruption from within of the colleges with indoctrination etc the Obama administration threatening people suing people etc. these just aren't safe space as anymore managed by real academics who know what's going on with the system. 

Now there's a government shutdown . It's kind of the same thing the Obama administration was doing by suing people they didn't pull their agenda. Now they're not going to get funding or jobs or whatever they need if they don't do whatever it is who knows what's going on this is all theory anyway rremember.

But it's going to get worse and the news story up above is an example of what's going on right now. 

It's much as I hate left when liberalism gone crazy like woakism it was a little more easier to be protected under that because of something called The b Window. 

Basically if you put shit out there that's really crazy stuff that looks crazy before it doesn't look so crazy anymore. And unfortunately I think that was a place we're alternative people could hide but now that's gone. I think that might have been put the Biden administration may have been doing. 

 

Things are different now and the new story illustries the links that people will go to. For all we know people are so desperate they actually are putting themselves at risk for physical danger by putting themselves in situations where they could be physically hharmed. I read somewhere a long time ago in my research that there's a law enforcement agency who will use people who are targets to practice on not targeted individuals in the gang stalking theory but people that are being surveilled and followed. And new recruits will actually be told that they can mess with the person as much as possible because they only choose people for these games to train these newcomers in this law enforcement agency where the targeted person who's under surveillance anyway is deemed is not dangerous enough to actually do enough harm to hurt the person or injure the person. 

It seems like kind of the same thing with targeted individuals right now they want you to react and they want you to get physical and that is obvious. 

I've heard people also mention that it seems as if some kind of psycho management is being pumped out that causes aggression specifically sexual arousal and aggression this is an old game that people have talked about for a long time in the TI community. It seems like it's most likely being done with chemical influence but it could be anything. It's only in specific areas and it does seem to come and ggo depending on location season etc 

 

If there's this kind of arousal being used then You're going to get people being aaggressive along with the way that the

 Nonchalant attitude of perpetrators right now where people are telling me that they seem arrogant sure of themselves is if they're never going to be caught or exposed or if they are exposed they don't care because everything is set up right now so that nobody is even going to care about this stuff because there's so much other stuff going on where people are just fighting to survive and we've been discredited in a lot of ways by making conspiracy theories look as if they don't exist which is ridiculous of course but society in this country is ridiculous right now. 

 Remember the forefathers of this country were very wise in limiting a lot of key positions of power such as the presidential term in office. It can't last there could be lasting damage just like those lasting damage from during the last many administrations but what remains is the US Constitution and the recourse that we have from it freedom of speech and the voices that we've had many years and will continue to have as we try to fight for our freedom and liberty right to the pursuit of happiness as well as to warn the public about what is happening to them and to the world that we live in so that they can be aware and live their best life if you will if the circumstances be dire as well as they can decide if they want to live under such a system or fight for their freedom in the future at some point after we pass The torch as was done for us many of us post 9/11. 

The most fortunate of us found the older activists who have now given quit died or rretired there is a retirement from such a thing as this kind of activism.

 

So things are going to become harder perhaps. Don't blow your cool don't give in. Don't lose ccontrol. Don't approach anybody Don't film people and speak to them about getting stalking Don't accuse anybody of getting stalking and talk about gang stalking with people. Some people get away with saying something very short and small as a retort almost and these are seasons people know what they're doing you can read people and the situation and have great powers of observation. And even that could be dangerous right now. 

If you are just angry and victimized and you're not clever Don't even attempt to approach people and talk about gang stalking with any accusations at aall. People are starting to actually lose their cool and become physically violent.. I've mention the reasons why this may happen. 

Sometimes battles become intense in long-term wars. The battle is becoming intense storms become intense and ships have to batten down the hatches if you wwill. That doesn't mean it will last forever it's just a phase. It's like everything else that this system puts us through they keep changing the way they do things. 

The way I dress The way I live and the subculture that I am permanently part of was not natural to me and it's only bbecause of the circumstances I hide to deal with. Therefore outside forces shaped who I am today which would not have been my choices. 

It seems that now that they've created people who are living outside the ssystem with their actions after 9/11  now they seek to once again use behavior modification and to seek to once again treat people as if they have no human will of their own and no right to self-determination and to reshape target individuals once again. 

Now the push is to get housing other push is to give up and join the system now the ppush is to become so tired and worn that you'll give up and go crawling to the system for help and maybe even falsely claim that you are mentally ill or delusional just to get a place to live or safety. 

It's a shame that they didn't want people to go to sschool or to get places to live in 2006 because a lot of our lives would be a lot better than they are today. 

Who are they to dictate to us what we should be doing now because once again there's a change in the hands of power? After they've cost us so mmuch in sacrifice our positions in society that we deserved to fulfill as US citizens living under the US Constitution? 

 

Personally I'm not going to change the way I do things just because there's a new man with a new plan at the hhelm and he's turning the wheel a different way once again. 

I'm going to go on doing exactly as I've always done being the pperson that I reinvented after they took away everything that I had everything that I had been and separated me from everything I had known and everyone I had known. 

Continue to be self-programming if you will continue to be in charge of your own life and to create your own story and write your own eending. This is all bullshit intimidation as usual. 

And just realize that society is falling down around your average person. Try to always remember did a lot of the good and solid ppeople or people that are wealthy enough to not have to be recruited work for the dirty tricks department have all left the cities after two polarizing administrations. There are still good people but there's less of them and you have a lot more shitty people surrounding you. Even though we get treated as if we are the cancer cells and they are the white blood cells surrounding us protecting the body, in reality they are the disease and their numbers have replicated. 

Keep your cool don't react Walk way if you have to wear sunglasses wear eearphones. Film quietly if you have to so that nobody knows you're filming Don't approach people because this is what they want right now. 

There's been good indication that they actually want you to film them. Whereas in years past they would stop their actions and turn away from the camera in fear of being exposed. 

This is a major bait and weight and fishing expedition. You got to stand ssteady and you you got to stay strong and find new ways of dealing with this new way that they're dealing with you. 

Don't be that guy. The guy in the news story up above who lost it. 

I've written before aabout disturbing trends in the last 10 years where in very specific circumstances usually relating to The Justice system, there have been TI's who have said that there are ways of forcing people to become violent even if would not be there will or thinking to do so. Now who's to say that that hasn't been somehow made available or made active to affect certain people in public spaces as opposed to very specific inside spaces? 

Also there's a feeling of being vulnerable of feeling weak of feeling picked on feeling hopeless alone focusing on your own ddeath is ad nauseam at this point in other words what you're doing isn't worth anything and you should give up cuz you're going to die someday is this massive campaign right now. People all over the globe especially Gen x are being forced to think about this crap instead of living their damn lives. 

Always remember every time there's a federal holiday in the United States you can see the difference. You can clearly see the clouds move away and the sun comes out you can clearly see that this is all bbullshit. Reality sets in on those days and over a certain age you remember this reality was available to you day to day back in the '70s and '80s and early '90s. Now everyday you live in a horrible reality not of your own making. All it takes is moving outside of certain major highway systems or perimeters if you will to stop or at least to lesson. All it takes is a federal holiday for the entire system to cease and for you to be completely free and returned to real reality is it supposed to be in the natural world. 

The theory is is that something somewhere is being done with technology chemical influence as well as human forces and that would be the gang sstalkers in to maintain a false timeline where things are altered unnaturally favor a certain outcome for certain agendas and that would include mind control of the public and the mass as well as targeting certain individuals to make sure they say separated from society the analogy of the cancer cell I gave you earlier. 

Remember none of this is real. It may be happening it's not real you're feelings are not rreal urges to become violent are not real they're being induced and manipulated by outside forces. 

This is the exact same thing that people wrote about 10 years ago there was only available very specific circumstances. Those that ssurvived have the knowledge to survive this new assault. 

Unfortunately there's many people that don't even know what gang stalking is they don't understand that it's not real it's a system and then you can beat it with a counter system full of counter mmoves. They don't understand just the basics and it seems if they do gather this small amount of information they don't handle the situation correctly and they don't use the information correctly they act out which is going to lead to us all being discredited. 

So my suggestion is just walk away or don't react. First of all it's only alleged did the guy in the news story actually said what he said. Unless there's a recording of him saying that I only believe it 50/50 that it could be actually what he ssaid. System has been framing people up and lying for years. But if he did say something like that and he did talk to the victim about gangs then it could be the person either believes these gang stalked and he's mentally ill or he actually is a targeted individual but he's not handling it correctly because of the way people  are being targeted right now in the past year. 

In other words you can't just get by anymore it's going to get harder. But it won't be fforever. 

 

I noticed males have a lot more harder time dealing with  this kind of onslaught. Where there's a lot of aggression bbeing induced.

That could explain why there's a lot of loan shootings right now but that's been going on for for a while. 

It's interesting how the system never provides a definitive answer on why loan shooters do what they do. That's the main thing they're hiding from uus. There's never a release of any interviews there's never any assessment of the person and there's never any universal answer why these people do what they do. But if you notice there's a universal blank stare and drugged look that every single one of these people has after they commit these horrible crimes. 

 Unfortunately right now there's a bunch of desperate losers around and there's a lot of them and all the good people more for the most part are gone. And the way things are being run right now in theory of course your going to be surrounded. it almost resembles a search and destroy mission in the old days. 

You have to study All the gang stalking information on the internet and everything put out by all of us activists you have to learn your job is to make sure you aren't ccaptured you don't surrender you don't get killed or kill someone else you don't reveal yourself you don't overtly reveal them unless you're clever enough to come up with something that works. 

Your job is to do exactly what you've been doing for years. 

 There's a lot of dumb young kids involved in this now. Of course this generation thinks they run the world and they don't listen to old people so they're perfect recruits for these assholes and these games. 

 And they are the last people on this planet who can understand living in a normal three-dimensional reality on the plane of planet Earth with your feet on terra ffirma. These people's minds are skewed. They were born living in the internet unfortunately their kids so they're very tribalist very easily controlled their arrogant overconfident and they've been raised to believe that bullying some sort of activism because of course they and their handlers and the indoctrination people at the schools are complete fucking idiots.. 

If you want to call it corporate Marxism or communism those are nice diplomatic words for this crap. It's all the same anyway. 

I've actually heard these kids talking about me and saying that I just don't give a fuck That's why I ignore being targeted everyday in theory of course. 

Well that's not true I work really really hard and have for years and having my armor intact. Of course there theory is stupid because they're stupid. 

But unfortunately if you're surrounded by rabid desperate stupid people actually believe they have some kind of moral self-righteous reason to do what they're doing All these excuses are giving to them why it's okay to do what they're doing or why it's actually good You're going to be drowning in a sea of iidiots. 

For instance they want to act like people I may know are associate with are immoral course while they protect people that are super fucking disgusting and fucked uup have them working for them in their ranks but that decide I was alone for 4 years traveling with a backp and then I was alone again except once in awhile I would travel with someone very rarely. So if I was targeted back then and using the gang stocking theory of being a targeted individual how is me being targeted now a good reason based on the company I may keep or the people I may associate with? Because they make excuses for themselves that's why or they're completely brainwashed one of the two. 

Racism is another issue. People want to act like you're racist it could just be they've tried to make you look racist by sending the biggest jerks have a certain demographic after you for years on end and you don't handle it 100% well all the time when in fact you're being tortured that shouldn't be happening domestically in the United States to any citizen. So disregarding the fact you're being tortured every day and you don't handle it wwell (what a bunch of assholes) they want to make it look as if you might be racist you might be sexist you might be auntie gay whatever it is they're accusing TI's of after tormenting them with those exact people for years on end, you have to remember that when we started out doing our activism after 9/11 say me for instance, there was no polarizing administration like Obama. There was no any kind of race anything on this blog and there was nothing to do with race because targeted individuals many times were black in the community we all work together. 

So how is excuse of me being a racist somehow good reason to target me now when there's no indication if anything to do with race when the blog first started and I was still targeted the exact same way probably worse because nobody had any cell phones with cameras in them back then? 

Other words all the things they're telling people now there are excuses for bullying people they are oo stupid to realize  that these are cover stories. 

And if they're young kids they're not even old enough to remember 9/11 or the fact that you started your blog in 2007 when they probably weren't even born. That's probably why they're using young kids. 

It always disturbs me when people use children or very young people for this crap and that's going to be another blog post because because kids shouldn't have their innocence taken away that's what the old mob guys used to tell us and they were very strict about it. 

To think that this system that claims to be defending everything in society against bad people like us when where the vvictims,  imagine that these people are immoral compared to the old organized crime people? 

That's what you're dealing with right now : absolute ssewage. 

To use children is absolutely disgusting. I don't care what excuse is they're giving or what reasons they're giving kids to do this stuff. Kids should not be involved in psychological warfare it's unfair to them it's extremely destructive to whoever's being ttargeted. 

It's becoming East Germany it's becoming the stasi and it's becoming RRussia. North Korea. 

This is America and this shouldn't be happening. 

Years ago they had groups of young people that seemed very intimidated and they were in small groups and they were basically cults. Believe you me they kept them hidden from the public. 

Now it's the East German stazy kind of system absolutely cannot understand how they get people to do this stuff other than cover stories that work the angle of all of the woke sstuff protests in the last six or seven years. 

That is all I can think of. If an adult of average intelligence who's basically sheltered like most people nnowadays and most people generally Even in the old days Don't have The ability to understand MK ultra high level programming SRA etc then why in the hell would children and kids and high school kids  have the ability to understand those things? 

And if they did wouldn't they they naturally side with the victim? 

Instead they're victimizing victims so they have to be working off of cover stories.  There is no other way that people would be doing stuff like this specifically not what I've seen from kids. 

I remember some ignorant stupid townies years ago commenting that my blog was just a place where I talk shit about people as they so articulately worded it. 

Now if you take that you add in being offended buy woke politics or whatever it is and you make that look like the cover story you could get this next generation of kids who grew up with massive mmobbing being called protests and activism. You could probably get these kids to become a modern day stasi army and they would actually believe they were doing something good. 

Either that you have young kids with a hell of a lot of debt or that need new cars or something and it might be the society has become the people are that greedy. 

Remember this is all happening because good people have left the cities. 

It's not you you're not alone just surrounded by assholes desperate people and easily brainwashed people no longer understand what reality is did they live in a constitutional ggovernment. Some people actually think this is a democracy and they're defending democracy. 

Everything we've seen in the past 10 years is now coming to fruition and this is big disaster 

You have to stay your ground and you've got to keep your cool. 

Don't be that guy in the news story. 

Don't ever act out physically. Because that is what they want so it seems nowadays right now. 

People might be so desperate you have to consider this that people might be so desperate right now that they would be willing to put them and even their children at rrisk for you acting out physically in other words if you can get the target to act out physically All you really get is a punch in the face or some physical attack and maybe you get taken care of for the rest of your life if you actually invoke one of these attacks and a TI. Some people are in so much trouble they are so desperate get what they need right now that they might actually take that kind of risk. I don't even think that they're lying to people anymore like people used to theorize in this community in the old days that they're putting gang stalking perpetrators safety at risk. I think people are up for this because they want the payoff. 

You've got to mind your own business right now and you've got to stick to the TI community and even though there's no conference calls and they've seemed to have splintered us up we're out here we're with you. You're not alone. 

And if you are correct you're not imagining things. 

Always remember you're surrounded by people that are either misguided or bad people. You are the good people. And the good people that used to connect to you are now gone to other places and you're possibly stuck in a place with nothing but bad people or mostly bad people. Bad desperate people. There's big mobs of them 

This is a horde fight my friends and you've got to be up for it. 

It's the ultimate tearing down of the individual for the hive. You see it all around you. The way they market things the way they call things to hide even in libraries. In schools where they raised these kids they're calling things the hive. 

Remember it isn't real Even though it really is happening. In other words use your ability to have self-determination and an iron wwill you are an army of one. 

You got to find a way to deflect them ignore them and realize that there's other places on this planet to go that are probably safer than this without it being as intense. 

And if you get sick of fighting there are much safer ways out of this then to act out harm someone harm yourself discredit our community. 

You can quietly disappear you can quietly give up voicing your opinions on the internet and get rid of your blogs which I don't suggest but some people can't keep up the fight I understand. You could quietly surrender and go in and admit that you're crazy get all kinds of funding showered on you and all kinds of housing. I'll never forget the time that they chased me out of my home in Brighton  and then some bitch turns to me and tells me that if I say that I'm crazy I can get housing and all this funding for everything because basically there was a federal investigation of friends of friends and they didn't want me to be able to testify that was just the cover story!! But don't you doubt that these people don't do everything they do for multi-purposes. Of course that was one of agendas at the time to make sure that I wasn't a danger to people you too much about certain stuff there's no way there we're going to tell these idiots that were doing this for they thought for that reason the real thing going on was that I'm a product of MK uultra and I'm to be disposed of before I start remembering stuff. 

These assholes thought it was all about stupid fucking local politics and your average normal stuff like investigations believe you me after what I've seen around this country especially around military bases in the Southwest this goes way beyond normal. 

But they're always has to be a cover story. 

Just like the ones that are happening now that are getting young people to come after us because they think we're old gray-haired white homeless by choice racist horrible people and they are such wonderful shining beacons of the ffuture

When in fact they're nothing more than a bunch of well-designed consumerists who are products of social engineering. 

Always remember as a side note that real diversity that is from free aassociation self-determination the will of the people and happenstance is it genuine threat to The globalist driven method of control known as diversity and inclusion which is not the same thing as humans deciding did they want to live with each other themselves. 

And a lot of the diversity that you see isn't really diversity it's ghettoization. 

It's the same people doing the same stuff they did hundreds of years ago and nobody realizes it because they're so desperate to get what they want do anything for the man. Remember all kinds of people think they're ffree. 

There's just been so much crap slung at the public I don't think they know what's going on anymore and they don't know they're being mmanipulated.  Like I said there's no good people left to even notice what's going on I don't even think they care anymore because nobody is around who's going to care. 

So you're in a dangerous area if that happens and if they have more cover stories now to cover their ass and make you look bad people are going to think they're justified in coming after you and remembelot  a lot of these people are fucking retards and you wouldn't have had to deal with them 20 years ago because college areas would have taken you in realizing You're smart and your situation is unfair. 

Those places have all been compromised now infiltrated an occupied so there's no place to hide now. 

You surrounded by mobs of idiots and I don't know how they're convincing themselves that they're right but they aare. So You're going to have to keep fighting. 

Remember two mottos. 

Gang stalking is for losers. 

And don't be that guy. Lol. 

Thursday, September 25, 2025

Be Aware of Dark Web Exposure of Target's Lives

There seems to be a trend recently where unscrupulous people are using home video camera and/or audio equipment to secretly record unaware people and post these documentations of their lives on the 'dark web'.  The dark web is a name used to describe an underworld of the internet. People can view things and purchase things that are illegal, extreme, hardcore, immoral etc. 

The dark web has been around always. Years ago it was usually only accessable to hackers or expert criminals or other savvy people who found it interesting or useful. 

It seems now that your average person is now comfortable with accessing this underworld and it's mostly younger people that seem involved. Also a larger percentage of petty criminals and addicts etc seem to have familiarity and ease of access. Young immigrants also seem to have no problem understanding it. 

What used to be sophisticated spy craft or blackmail or entertainment for the elite is now in the hands of the public and as we've seen over the past 20 years society is slowly being dismantled and rebuilt in the form of loss of civility, civic mindedness human dignity, decency and genuine humanity. 

What used to be only the realm of street life or poverty or dysfunction is now normalized in legit society. 

As long as people consume and have an internet presence it seems they don't notice the degeneration of their culture and the world around them. 

The kids don't even know anything any different and are being raised in a world where lowered quality of life is normalized. 

With the passing of the BLM era no one even seems to notice they've been scammed as it's leaders buy 6 million dollar houses with public donations. 

One thing that this era did was produce a generation that perceives spying, surveillance and mobbing/harassment as a legitimate form of activism. Which it is not but now we can theorize why it was allowed and encouraged by the corporatocracy.

Therefore if someone is a Targeted Individual it may not be understood by people who become familiar with the person as a character put on display in media resembling a reality show on the dark web that this is the case and there's a pre existing situation that's been going on life long even intergenerationally. 

What people are doing is taking a person who's under immense stress in a crisis situation and recording them in this state then putting them on display to a portion of the public who aren't upstanding or savvy to begin with. 

Wrse theres been cases where people are actually playing long drawn out games with these targeted people by tormenting them and manipulating them so they react and behave ever more outrageously so they can get more content to post on the dark web that's more and more extreme. Whereas if the person was left alone or not mistreated they would not be acting in such a way.

It's unclear if this is just another way the Dirty Tricks Dept is creating a new branch of operations to target people but without the public understanding that's what's going on and the public act as useful idiots or force multipliers because it appears that many people are mobbing individuals with a sense of self righteousness or like an angry mob dishing out justice. 

It could also be that people are aware they are involved in organized stalking of Targeted Individuals but they just don't care about the moral aspect or they now realize that unlike years ago they no longer have to hide their actions because it's not so overt nor is it being done by traveling groups that existed to perform these actions after 9/11.

If it's put on the dark web as an employment opportunity or marketed as mobbing an individual who is presented as deserving to be mobbed to get 'justice' then they could get the public to partake in gang stalking much more easily especially if it's now set up as an East German Stasi type structure as opposed to traveling groups that had a cult type structure to maintain control. 

These theories have more credibility as I've heard first hand that drug dealers or horrible people in places like Ivy League college areas etc have been making money by ordering addicts and petty criminals to injure or kill people just to record it and PUT IT ON THE DARK WEB AS A SNUFF FILM.

(since the Old Guard retired in the mid/late 2000s, people have been coming to the area from all over the country because word is out there's drugs especially meth and the authorities won't do anything. To be fair it has been being cleaned up as of Trump).

I did a blog post years ago titled 'Gang Stalking is MURDER' and it has one of the highest stats of views of anything I've ever created. So in a way this is like a snuff film but it's ongoing. GS is generally designed to stress and isolate someone to death anyway and cause early death, illness etc. 

So if people can document violence and murder as a form of revenge or to control someone's behavior then why wouldn't you be able to spy on people and act as if you are exposing them, when in fact their behavior is due to a pre existing high stress situation that most people DO NOT SURVIVE (being targeted especially those surviving for decades) and that the poster of the spying surveillance most likely is exacerbating their condition by playing games, manipulating the targeted person or causing more stress to essentially get sales or ratings etc?

If you are a guest in someone's space where they are established be very aware of your surroundings and don't take PRIVACY for granted. The person could start out being an ally and then turn on you either because they are being manipulated or they become offended by your behavior in an extreme high stress situation. If there's a combination of both you're doomed. Normal people would just ask you to leave. Predators will use your behavior as a rationale or excuse for their victimizing you when it's their own desperation, incompetence and inadequacies that motivate their actions. 

Privacy has become something very precious not something that occurs naturally in our environments. We have to seek it out and covet it.

One of the worst ideas ever made was to get advanced spying, surveillance, intelligence and communications equipment to the public, which our phones essentially are-without any training or wisdom in how to use these technologies or how to beware of abuse of power. 

As if humans can govern themselves or aren't easily manipulated. 

You've also got two groups in this country to be aware of: those newcomers whos culture and countries are not familiar with our US Constitution and the American youth who have been raised in a culture that subverts and disregards our Constitutional government.

This may be why it's so easy to get people to be involved in such things. They are childish and have to resort to mere bullying because they aren't genuine Americans as if they were they would understand, appreciate and live by our Constitution. 

Nothing is going to motivate people to be better or do the right things when wrong doing is marketed as justice. 

Be much more guarded in any private space even hotel rooms but especially private homes. Anything you do and say can be misconstrued and you may eventually be manipulated. 

Monday, September 15, 2025

a theory about lone shooters for 2025: yes I saw the thing in Utah

I'm going to go out on a limb here because haven't had time to write my books because of personal iissues and because the system just keeps dragging stuff on and I probably won't be able to write it until later on so if you want some information I've already written things about loan shooters before and it's almost like people aren't listening which is fine no one's going to listen anyway except probably the people who are actually involved in causing this crap cuz they want to see what people know and don't know that are discovering this stuff is happening they can get around it so it's not exposed to the public. So ever since Google stopped putting conspiracy theories in their results (use Yandex it gives you all kinds of conspiracy results a lot of it is bullshit so as usual you have to sift through it) and my blog doesn't even come up anymore, and I was framed 2016 I have like no readers left. Which doesn't mean the blog isn't valuable I just wonder what small amount of people are still reading it. 

It doesn't seem like it's people working with the gang stalking theory that are victimized I mean it might be and it might be the victimizers we still use it for practical ppurposes

 Which is not what I want. 

That being said let's move on to the point here. Which is tthat I'm going to provide some information on how probably there was a way to program people to do loan shootings possibly years ago and how that's changing now into some other method. 

Again this is all Theory I don't want some asshole in a courtroom to put my blog on trial again and say that I said this and I said that and it makes it seem this way because again I will sue you this time and everybody will lose their licenses and ppensions and their ability to practice law etc. so don't put the blog on trial it's free speech and I'm a public figure. 

Years ago the reason that so many loan shooters  were listed as taking psych meds might have been in theory that there are drugs available possibly stemming from the MK Ultra projects that you could sneak into capsules and into people's prescription drugs b that provide some kind of mind control or thought control. 

Not just for loan shootings but maybe for other kinds of brainwashing. If you wanted the person to conform if you wanted them to give up whatever they're doing up against the system it might be that if they took certain medications like psych meds or something like that you could put other things into them it would make them hear voices or would hear instructions for instance if somebody takes pills entertained with these drugs coming out of MK Ultra they might hear voices telling them to conform was it they want to conform and oobey and go with the system wants it could be that simple as trying to get rid of a dissident voice but it might also provide voices in the heads of people that you would want to act out violently. 

Just like with playing cointelepro there's most likely a psychological profile done on the person who's the potential shooter and they can already predict what will make the person snap. I may also be a genetic component makes them more susceptible to being useful in this way. 

I think the days of that happening and the human experimentation that is theorized to have gone on around 9/11 and from that time period fforward I think things are being done differently now in theory. 

Unfortunately the new Theory is that it's being done remotely  perhaps while people are sleeping. If there's other factors involved like their situation is right there's been a psychological profile there's other drugs being put either in the environment or into their personal environment. Whatever it might make them more susceptible. And I think it has to do with the new technologies and the way they're progressing. 

So take that into consideration and it might not just be aabout having lone shooters with a history of all of them taking medications it might be a hell of a lot easier now and even if people aren't vaccinated cuz that could provide some I'm kind of nanotechnology there's a million other ways to nanotech microchip people nowadays even covered itself might have had an effect on people make them more susceptible to certain kinds of things considering we now know it was created in a lab. And it wasn't natural which a lot of us could tell while it was happening. 

So take that information and do with it what you will if you're fighting for the good fight. Been taken out of the fight with all kinds of personal things dragging me down. If you can use this information go for it. 

What this means is it's more important than ever to be aware of everything from the first grade level if you will of becoming deprogrammed from the environment that we live first learning about subliminals things that are hidden in your environment through years of study and research and talking to other people who are aware and awake and becoming a seasoned trained person who knows how this wworks now more than ever people are going to need to know how this works so that they can fight something like this that might come upon them that isn't their natural behavior or my cause them to do something that they wouldn't normally do. 

Unfortunately there's too many people did our vulnerable susceptible being targeted for this and now it seems there's a system that makes it very easy to ruin someone's life and take the life of innocent people just for further agendas. 

By the way I don't believe in all of this 5G covid nonsense and that there's no such thing as germs and tthat The world is flat. There's just some conspiracy theories that are disinformation or places for people to hide so no longer have to deal with the reality of their situation. It's called disinformation. 

It could be that during times of high electromagnetic activity perhaps there are more germs or plagues or diseases or something but I don't even think it's worth considering right now unless you have extra ttime.  There's stuff going on that's a hell of a lot more important than that right now. 

If you're having weird thoughts and strange dreams for your in that half sleep that we're all in now under these horrible LED street lights and remember these street lights are Wi-Fi capable and their Smart City capable, wake up from whatever is going on and put it out of your head and realize it's not your thoughts it's intrusive it's not real it's someone else's agenda not yours. 

Your life is your own to control on your own you are not part of a hive it's all an iillusion. 

And if you're reading this and you understand and you're capable I'm dealing with this stuff sorting it out and controlling your own life and your own mind you're one of the very few that's going to remain free in a world that's going to become enslaved. 

 the theory of things going on while people are sleeping it's going to be very hard to detect unless you're well seasoned and well-trained. You would have to already understand that when you're 'sleeping' at night or anytime when those LED street lights are on specially in certain specific areas and with a really bright lights you'd have to already understand fully how you're not really sleeping. Do you understand that you're old enough to remember the difference between years ago when you were actually sleeping under the old lights and now when you're not really sleeping under the new lights outside, and you have the two to compare to each other, then you would have a better chance of understanding that you're not sleeping under the new LED lights and that there's some kind of weird effect going on involving the pituitary glands it's causing weight gain heart disease overeating during the day sleep deprivation which is how everyone's been brainwashed with all these agendas since they put these lights in around 2018. 

If you understand that basically as a theory then you can be more aware while you're sleeping anything that's intrusive or weird that doesn't belong in your hhead. And you can push it out and you away with it.

Therefore it is very important to understand the effects of the LED llights outside. Even in the front of people's cars I don't think have anything to do with brainwashing or controlling people I just think to some people's eyes they're extremely annoying and aggravating and it's just adds to the discomfort nowadays generally in our environment in the city especially. 

Some of us can actually see the LED flicker out of our peripheral vision. And as you know if you're working with the targeted individual Theory you'll notice that early on in being targetedb they we'll test a Target to see how observant they are and they will test a person to see how strong their peripheral vision is and how wide. This makes it easier for them to mess with you in different ways as well as you know this about yourself be prepared because the LED lights that are in the headlights of certain cars are going to be very annoying distracting and even damaging because you're going to be able to see the flicker out of the corner of your eyes so to speak which is peripheral vision. 

 I did not see the importance of people understanding the effects of the LED street lights I thought it was an issue that's gone past because it doesn't look like it's going to change anytime soon anyway and it's worldwide. Now however it's becoming sort of obvious in theory as to why it would have to be worldwide. 

Just something to consider. And if you feel are you being victimized it's your job to do something about iit to protect yourself and innocent people. 

Getting away from the lights for a Time and comparing how you ffeel also moving away from the area to some other area that's more peaceful might be suggested. 

It's also really disgusting to think how much mental illness things like LED lights with people not sleeping as well as the electromagnetic pollution is causing so that they can sell people medication. 

I often wonder if the methamphetamine epidemic is due to the LED lights because people aren't getting proper rest even when tthey're sleeping at night. 

An easy remedy for this is to live in a place up off the ground because it isn't just the lights it's the wires under the ground as well. People don't realize there's all kinds of wires and all kinds of sensors under the sidewalks in big cities. 

Living in a cul-de-sac also seems to be a good way to avoid the effects of the lights. 

You can also go somewhere like a park or some woods where there's no lights at all to sleep and get some real rest or to make a comparison. 

Again wearing blue blocker glasses at night it's got to be the real ones STC orange gglasses they no longer sell the yellow ones I don't think. True blue blockers. They don't cure the problem but they certainly help. 

 

Vets Charities: Contractors Donations are A Small Fraction of their Profits-Why Should The Public Pay Twice?

 First women give birth to sons. Then they have those sons maimed disabled and their lives ddestroyed by war. Nowadays and the ridiculous world we live in today women our soldiers on the front lines which should not be happening. (Men start these wars let them finish it). And neither should women be in charge of contractors. I expect more of women. 

This society cannot even accept real female power and they replace it with ffeminism which only serves to further divide and subjugate women so how can we think that they're serious about the small percentage of women who are warriors/execs by nature? 

That being said, as far as men go who are burned maimed have limbs mmissing commit suicide and all of the horrible things that occur by being put in that situation known as war early on in life especially in a society where it should no longer be happening. (If we're so technologically advanced that we had ai and the internet of things and all of this ability to look out into space quantum physics etc then why do we still have wars? As usual none of it makes any sense probably by design).

Women give up their sons. Family sacrifice a hhusband. Even gay men have lives and had them before everything was turned into rainbow colors. Which is really just so degrading, undignified and to me excuse the real view of gay people. I remember an artist's model had told an art teacher that I was working with that he didn't like going into war in the military when he was younger because "we had to kill so many beautiful men". I mean to me this is a real gay man's attitude, and it really makes an impression on the human psych when you hear that statement. Of course we can't have real human sentiment changing the way we think about things because then society would actually evolve. We have to have movements with flags an agendas and it really doesn't particularly care about people or the individual just groups and the cause so really progressive politics is nothing but more war. Which again.. makes no sense probably by design.

Military contractors do contribute to veterans causes but not enough and the public should not have to give up their tax mmoney, their sons, their family members their futures, as well as then donate to these causes that firstly shouldn't be happening anymore anyway and secondly should really be taken care of by the people who use men like pawns on a chessboard in a game. 

I am glad that people do take care of veterans but not like they should. 

If you're reading this and you're a veteran and you want to commit suicide don't do it you're probably microchipped for being targeted to commit ssuicide on top of whatever you did or saw that's driving you insane in your mind. 

Go somewhere get your head together maybe take a couple years to grow a little bit if you're young volunteer travel talk to other veterans even in other parts of the world and to anybody who ssuicidal don't bother you've got to fight it while it's happening. Find a cause. Live for that in the moment that you feel that way 

You can always teach go to some underprivileged neighborhood or some underprivage country.   Pass on your knowledge. Volunteer your strength and your time. 

That's why we can't end homelessness. A lot of veterans I've seen especially in places with all the military bases like San Diego after they come home from war they kind of live in the street scene and try to get their bearings bback

 I don't know what it's like to be a man I don't know what it's like to be put in a traumatic loud murderous situation as a youth. But there's got to be something more people can do about this sstuff then letting people kill themselves for having their lives ruined by permanent mental and spiritual disability. 

 

 

 

 

Wednesday, September 10, 2025

the rumors about prostitution absolutely need to stop now

 Okay here we go again this is a rumor that has been used against me for many many years I was walking through Berkeley California and some idiot in people's Park who looks just like a park would look turns around and says something about homeless you know what a word that isn't nice for a working girl. And I just let everybody get to know me and I let everybody know if it was ever brought up which of course people don't bring this up they just spread rumors and smear so people got to know me and realize I'm not doing anything because I'm too busy panhandling doing my blog and traveling. 

The problem here is that people don't even know how those businesses work. And rumors it's easy to just spread them but you have to think this is what I mean about the video that I posted in the blog post about my first experience with someone being mobbed in a narcotics anonymous meeting and Watertown with the sponsor of a well-known rock band being the perpetrator. And rumor has it that the victim killed themselves but we don't know that see that's the thing again it's an example of in science classes in the old days they had a box and it said dead cat enclosed well how do you know there's a dead cat in there? And the professor would challenge the medical students first year medical students and say you don't know there's a cat in there or not just because the label says dead cat and close because they were doing research where they would you know cut up the cats for biology study whatever it is. So the kids assume that if it says dead cat in clothes then there's a dead cat in there but you don't know that there is somebody could have taken it out somebody could have stolen it they could have not delivered it properly so this is something they teach even in first year medical school do you have to think critically and you have to think about things very clearly before you believe something and if doctors didn't do that and learn that in their first year we'd all be dying from malpractice. 

So just because somebody says something doesn't mean that it's true also it doesn't make sense at all why would you want to work doing that for a living if you could get a rich guy to put you up? That's why none of it makes any sense it doesn't make any sense to be homeless and doing that unless you are absolutely on drugs and have a huge habit and even then if you're young people will take you in probably and young people tend to live together and cohabitate rich and poor so if Rich kids want to party they'll have their poor friends stay with them at least that's how it used to be. 

So I heard this again today I think I heard it from some African-American kid that goes to this local school and I think I heard it behind me but I'm not sure I thought they said I'm a hoarder instead of that bad word so I turned around in the store I said did someone say I was a hoarder because I don't have a home I can't be a hoarder just to correct the problem that I'm not going to be talk to you like that even if I didn't directly address what I thought I heard just to let them know that they can't go around speaking to me like that behind my back in line in a store. 

So I'll make a video and I'll point out the reasons why that doesn't make any sense especially because I'm old now if I was younger if I was traveling and going to truck stops or if I was dressing nice around you know the Boston area that might make a sense that that's a rumor because I would be younger being older and doing that for a living makes absolutely no sense there are people that do it but women that work in that business that are older above 40 and above they have cars they have jewelry they have money they have a condo you're not homeless and doing that kind of stuff I like again like I said unless somebody is taking their money from them and it's really severe and usually if they have some kind of person like that taking their money they'll put them up in a hotel or a house to avoid detection because he doesn't want to get in trouble for pandering etc or like I said you have to have a really big drug habit and I don't do drugs or drink. 

So if I was working in the sex industry in any capacity then where is my money going and how come I'm not inside paying rent? Also 25 years ago you might be able to rent an apartment with illegal money you can't do that now they asked for IDs they want to see where you get your money because of 9/11 you can't just run around and have under the table jobs anymore you have to now launder your money through other places give it to somebody who has money so that they can hide it you can't just go around doing that I'm assuming of course because I used to know people that would tell me how this stuff works years ago but I haven't known anybody in recent years so I don't know how it works but I'm assuming because I know I've tried to rent apartments and they want all this identification and evidence of where you get your money so it wouldn't make sense to be outside with all that money and where's the money going? 

This is an easy rumor to spread about a woman also I panhandle a lot and it's part of my subculture as a traveler why in the world would I be busy going to do calls or see guys or whatever for money if I'm busy panhandling? I would just go disappear somewhere for a while in a nice outfit and then come back again and you wouldn't know where I went and I mean like disappear into a hotel or a house or something which I don't do clearly I'm outside clearly I'm flying a sign clearly I'm moving around to different sleep spots clearly I'm using the library clearly I'm using coffee shops I'm getting stuff done I'm making phone calls I have a life actually at this age and I have three people I need to take care of me and two other people that depend on me. 

If I was working in that capacity the people that I'm taking care of would have everything they need I would be able to get some kind of help for my aging relative I would be able to get a condo for everybody even if it was done through whatever laundering of the money which I don't know how that works anyway but nowadays people have to do that stuff because no one's going to put up with the legal money like 25 years ago. 

So it's just a rumor about among a bunch of kids but the problem is is that it's a very harmful rumor because it makes it even more difficult for me to do what I do which is I'm actually an activist and a writer and a traveler and it makes it so that people don't want to get to know you and I think that's what the system is doing with putting that poison into a community as a smear campaign. 

if people don't know you and they don't see your schedule then they absolutely will not know what you do and you're coming and goings and then they can assume things like that as a rumor because they don't know what you do. 

Like I challenge anybody to find any evidence how's me doing anything like that.  

Two things they might be running on is the fact I wear pretty dresses and I wear my traveler battle vest with it but that's just part of my subculture I wear men's work Boots it's very common for travel or girls who wear cute clothes and then the rest of their gear is all men stuff. That's if you're traveling with someone or in a safe area if you're traveling alone you certainly aren't going to wear cute dresses you're going to wear men's bibs and maybe you have a skirt when you go to a hot area it's 90° or whatever and it better be a long skirt and you better have one of those boyfriend t-shirts on that covers you especially down at the border of Mexico. 

the clothing that I wear the cute dresses and stuff that I wear in my hometown where it's a safe college area it's very safe here are definitely not the clothing that I would wear say going down to the border in El Paso or San Antonio or even California I would be grabbed immediately or constantly bothered and harassed and propositioned. 

This is the same thing going on is trying to say that I'm dangerous for me and my partner are dangerous. Everybody that's actually part of the legitimate authorities knows damn well that everybody that was a Harvard square scene Street person was evaluated and psychologically profiled years ago and some people did come out as being a threat because they did things that occupy that were extreme and other people got profiled as just being mouthy but they wouldn't do anything. 

Now the people that got profiled is being potentially violent or they would talk about something and actually go through with it we're genuinely good kids anyway it's just what the authorities did to profile people for a threat with terrorism. So what the police would do who knew these people pretty well and didn't feel threatened by anybody in this crowd of people what they would do is they would turn to the kid who was deemed a threat on paper during an event like the regatta or something like that in Cambridge they would tell him to go away from the area for the day and go drink someplace else and he would comply and that was the nice little agreement that everybody had and he can come back after the rich people left and after the event was over. I was never approached on any of that I was never told I had to leave during the regatta or anything else so obviously I wasn't profile this dangerous. 

By the way the other day I was in a different part of Metro Boston a nice rich Jewish suburb and I was reacting to someone's dog barking at me and this gentleman told me that the dog didn't like my black outfit and as they were looking at me with Leary eyes and I felt very out of place and mobbed this little group of dog walking people in the park this one awesome dog is great dog this I think it was a collie or some kind of dog one of those really big friendly awesome dogs comes right over to me and pushes up against me for me to pet him. And nobody can say anything to me at that moment because of the dog is coming out of a crowd of people being mean to me to make me feel better to let their owners know that I'm okay by pushing up against me and sitting down in front of me and licking me they know damn well that that means that I'm not a bad person. However what bothered me is the guy who had the poodle that was barking on me because he had the poodle off the leash in the park which he shouldn't have when I came out of the bathrooms so I'm wondering if it wasn't a setup to begin with but I can handle pretty much anything cuz the one thing that people hear don't understand is I traveled the country and the rest of the country is very different than here and I seen a lot of stuff and handles a lot of situations. 
So the guy that had the poodle in the beginning that said that his poodle didn't like my black outfit with his poodle off the leash when I came out of the bathroom which I wasn't scared anyway it's just a goddamn poodle and it's a tame dog it's not a guard dog which I've had to deal with by the way in other parts of the country., 
He turned to me during the whole interaction and at some point he said well she doesn't look like somebody planning a mass murder but you never know and I think that's when Otis the dog came out and was wonderful enough to brush up against me and almost knock me down for me to pet him and show everybody in the crowd that I'm okay 

While I was petting Otis the dog I I replied to the gentleman's comment about me planning a mass murderer with I don't have the energy for that and he said that's what they all say in a snide joking manner that there was all this venom and poison in it and these people knew they were full of shit and they knew that they were wrong and everything that they do. But Otis the dog I just focused on him and petted him while they looked on that their little plot didn't work or that I didn't look like a jerk or I didn't react badly or whatever it was and the fact that the universe will take care of you and nature will take care of you. That's what Otis the dog was he's part of nature and when you travel long enough and you get pushed out of society long enough you become part of nature and nature takes care of you the world outside of the man-made world and that includes animals. 

So these rumors about me plotting a mass murderer or me being a working girl and all that you got to stop it you got to come up with something else don't quit your day jobs because you make horrible writers and I'm actually really tired of all the rumors in the smear it's getting really obnoxious I'm a traveler I'm a houseless woman I'm a writer I'm an activist I'm a caregiver and I have things I need to accomplish and their big great things. 

And I feel bad for people that fall into stupid rumors. 

By the way if you want to use the w word can I use the n-word? Cuz I've seen some slack jawed motherfucking DNA up in this mother ffucker! I don't care how you dress it up for wealth in the future. Nurture might be money but nature I'm I'm telling you those breeding programs were rough and some things cannot be corrected. 

 

See I can get more ill and send you home crying then you can actually imagine I just remain civil because that's what you supposed to do in society remain civil and everyone supposed to be tolerant of each other it doesn't mean the people actually like each oother. 

Remember that next time you think you have power because I can take it aaway. That's rich poor black white men women everybody because I know where your weaknesses are just by looking at you and I hold my fire every day in this world. I'm nice because I choose to be nice because I could be a destructive bitch if I wanted to be and get away with it as well which I don't cuz that's not what I'm here for. 

 

Set of focusing on other people once you fucking find out where the fuck you're here? Maybe motherfuckers are getting paid off who knows who cares don't fuck with me is all I have to ssay

Saturday, September 6, 2025

the physical movements of gangstalking perpetrators are becoming dangerous and I will take action

People are walking in my path and getting in front of me making me miss buses and blocking doorways and entrance ssquaresactually making things physically dangerous for me and everybody around me and everybody involved because they're walking in front of me just in order to be able to contact people gesturing so that I'll see them do it I understand you pieces of shit have visa issues. A lot of rich foreigners that have money doing this crap right now but it is becoming physically dangerous this is just as bad as a couple of years ago we're people running right into me a bunch of students and young people running literally running into me in the train station right away because nobody wants to be liable for that so if this continues where people are walking in the path of a woman carrying a heavy backpack and sometimes a sleeping bag in her hands in order for just to have these see them doing gesturing crap. 

If this doesn't cease I am going to film constantly and I'm going to take pictures of every single person in front of me I'm going to go through the video or the pictures and I'm going to find out exactly who's doing this crap and then I'm going to take all of the photographs of your faces or videos of you and I'm going to put them on the Internet collectively and I'm going to find someone who's willing to take all of the faces and do sometime shit or find out who you work for in that way remember it was a guy that had a case a couple of years ago or many years ago or you listening to small town and they should buy him number one number two with the flow of traffic was more control by his house cuz it wasn't a big city and he took pictures and I will find out who you work for by making sure I get everyone's face whether it's the feds the government whether it's a private security company like Stratford or blackwater I will find out because this is becoming physically dangerous and it's also making it so you get you want what you want but I'm not able to move around freely I don't even have a place to live and I have to take care of my sick mother and you're getting in my fucking way. 

So nobody needs to get in front of me nobody needs to get in my way because I don't think anybody wants to be liable for physical injury and by the way I will physically defend myself if necessary if I have to bump into people throw my backpack on them throw down the sleeping bag in front of them so that they trip so that I don't I will start physically defending myself because it's the moral and right thing to do I don't give a fuck if it's legal at this point or not. 

The other thing that people need to stop doing is fucking with me when I'm in the cash register in the store because then I can't focus and also that's wasting my time and if you want I can take your picture right next to me or stop what I'm doing with the transaction and the store and either complain that I don't know you're doing something or attract attention or I can accuse you of stealing I can start making stuff up if you want me to. So stay out of my way when I'm doing key things like trying to buy something or move around because we're not doing this because you want to get what you want because you're desperate losers.

Sunday, August 31, 2025

useful information on warfare : another challenge to readers to take information from anywhere possible by any means necessary in order to survive: another video from the history reviewed website

 https://historyreviewed.best/index.php/video-audio-gods-of-war-the-secret-to-winning-battles-and-wars/

This is another challenge to readers and people who want to survive who are using the gang stalking/ targeted individual ttheories. And those working with connected theories of perhaps being victims of human experimentation and mind control projects. 

 If you can take the information that you find useful out of this video and or aaudio and leave the rest that doesn't pertain to you, that you find offensive, or that you have no use for you're learning not only to do whatever is necessary to survive and even succeed or win but you're also learning how to sift through information and avoid disinformation and 'fake news' if you will. 

You have to disconnect your emotions from things that you might find offensive or that you don't want to read or don't want to listen to in order to get to the information oor the words that you do find that you can use. 

 Now there is a lot of things that are ssaid in the content in this video and by the way I tend to take these videos from this website and only listen to the audio because it's less distracting. In fact I highly suggest downloading just the audio for listening to just the audio. I also suggest listening to the content a few times so that you can sift through what you find useful and what parts you do not find useful whether the information be offensive or not. 

A lot of what is said in this audio of this link is very useful to those working with gang stalking Theory because it refers to how far an enemy will go to inflict pain to the extreme until you give in or break or want to ssurrender. which now gives us insight into the way that warfare would be put upon us if that was the enemy's ggoal.

It also talks about Napoleon taking no chances with enemy soldiers and after he broke up the groups of soldiers he would take each one and chase them with his men for miles and miles and days and days and keep them on the run and not give them A moment's Peace until they were killed or ssurrendered

 It also talks about low level warfare where somebody can aadapt to the things you're doing to them in war so that it becomes normal and they can survive. We've seen this over the past many years after 9/11. At first there was an onslaught where it was hard to handle then it seemed during Obama if you're working with this Theory, did it calm down and if you came to a low level where you could function and adapt and come up with countermeasures so that you could actually have a life and flourish. Unfortunately a lot of us didn't have enough time and that window and didn't know what we were doing and couldn't complete even with extra help from patrons what needed to be done before the next onslaught of intense warfare. Which is what kind of happened during the next administration but now is definitely happening. 

There's a lot that said by the person who's narrating the video and the audio that is useful to people working with the gang stalking and targeted individual ttheories for those of us that don't have any training in warfare or we have a peaceful nature and we don't really understand these things naturally. I think a lot of us would prefer peace and we have a peaceful nature but the problem the system has with us is that we will fight to survive to the end probably because of being part of certain projects like MK Ultra and/or because of genetics and upbringing.

Just because we will fight constantly to survive or fight back and not submit doesn't mean that we understand what the enemy is doing to us he was perpetrating the war against us. 

The speaking in this video will give you a lot of insight into how the perpetrators of this in theory of course, are tthinking and the things they are doing that are very atypical of warfare. 

If only you can put aside the things you find distasteful or wrong or morally incorrect or ooffensive you may gain a good understanding which will help you survive. 

And that is the thing about working with these theories you have to look for information from all places and sometimes you have to work with people that would usually be the enemy or  that you would not even consider listening to. 

I understand that some of the stuff that and some of the content on the website itself is beyond but most people want to deal wwith but some of the information is useful to anybody that wants to be aware of how truly brutal they're going to be treated in a war. One thing you have to hand this website if nothing else it's honest.