Okay here we go again this is a rumor that has been used against me for many many years I was walking through Berkeley California and some idiot in people's Park who looks just like a park would look turns around and says something about homeless you know what a word that isn't nice for a working girl. And I just let everybody get to know me and I let everybody know if it was ever brought up which of course people don't bring this up they just spread rumors and smear so people got to know me and realize I'm not doing anything because I'm too busy panhandling doing my blog and traveling.
The problem here is that people don't even know how those businesses work. And rumors it's easy to just spread them but you have to think this is what I mean about the video that I posted in the blog post about my first experience with someone being mobbed in a narcotics anonymous meeting and Watertown with the sponsor of a well-known rock band being the perpetrator. And rumor has it that the victim killed themselves but we don't know that see that's the thing again it's an example of in science classes in the old days they had a box and it said dead cat enclosed well how do you know there's a dead cat in there? And the professor would challenge the medical students first year medical students and say you don't know there's a cat in there or not just because the label says dead cat and close because they were doing research where they would you know cut up the cats for biology study whatever it is. So the kids assume that if it says dead cat in clothes then there's a dead cat in there but you don't know that there is somebody could have taken it out somebody could have stolen it they could have not delivered it properly so this is something they teach even in first year medical school do you have to think critically and you have to think about things very clearly before you believe something and if doctors didn't do that and learn that in their first year we'd all be dying from malpractice.
So just because somebody says something doesn't mean that it's true also it doesn't make sense at all why would you want to work doing that for a living if you could get a rich guy to put you up? That's why none of it makes any sense it doesn't make any sense to be homeless and doing that unless you are absolutely on drugs and have a huge habit and even then if you're young people will take you in probably and young people tend to live together and cohabitate rich and poor so if Rich kids want to party they'll have their poor friends stay with them at least that's how it used to be.
So I heard this again today I think I heard it from some African-American kid that goes to this local school and I think I heard it behind me but I'm not sure I thought they said I'm a hoarder instead of that bad word so I turned around in the store I said did someone say I was a hoarder because I don't have a home I can't be a hoarder just to correct the problem that I'm not going to be talk to you like that even if I didn't directly address what I thought I heard just to let them know that they can't go around speaking to me like that behind my back in line in a store.
So I'll make a video and I'll point out the reasons why that doesn't make any sense especially because I'm old now if I was younger if I was traveling and going to truck stops or if I was dressing nice around you know the Boston area that might make a sense that that's a rumor because I would be younger being older and doing that for a living makes absolutely no sense there are people that do it but women that work in that business that are older above 40 and above they have cars they have jewelry they have money they have a condo you're not homeless and doing that kind of stuff I like again like I said unless somebody is taking their money from them and it's really severe and usually if they have some kind of person like that taking their money they'll put them up in a hotel or a house to avoid detection because he doesn't want to get in trouble for pandering etc or like I said you have to have a really big drug habit and I don't do drugs or drink.
So if I was working in the sex industry in any capacity then where is my money going and how come I'm not inside paying rent? Also 25 years ago you might be able to rent an apartment with illegal money you can't do that now they asked for IDs they want to see where you get your money because of 9/11 you can't just run around and have under the table jobs anymore you have to now launder your money through other places give it to somebody who has money so that they can hide it you can't just go around doing that I'm assuming of course because I used to know people that would tell me how this stuff works years ago but I haven't known anybody in recent years so I don't know how it works but I'm assuming because I know I've tried to rent apartments and they want all this identification and evidence of where you get your money so it wouldn't make sense to be outside with all that money and where's the money going?
This is an easy rumor to spread about a woman also I panhandle a lot and it's part of my subculture as a traveler why in the world would I be busy going to do calls or see guys or whatever for money if I'm busy panhandling? I would just go disappear somewhere for a while in a nice outfit and then come back again and you wouldn't know where I went and I mean like disappear into a hotel or a house or something which I don't do clearly I'm outside clearly I'm flying a sign clearly I'm moving around to different sleep spots clearly I'm using the library clearly I'm using coffee shops I'm getting stuff done I'm making phone calls I have a life actually at this age and I have three people I need to take care of me and two other people that depend on me.
If I was working in that capacity the people that I'm taking care of would have everything they need I would be able to get some kind of help for my aging relative I would be able to get a condo for everybody even if it was done through whatever laundering of the money which I don't know how that works anyway but nowadays people have to do that stuff because no one's going to put up with the legal money like 25 years ago.
So it's just a rumor about among a bunch of kids but the problem is is that it's a very harmful rumor because it makes it even more difficult for me to do what I do which is I'm actually an activist and a writer and a traveler and it makes it so that people don't want to get to know you and I think that's what the system is doing with putting that poison into a community as a smear campaign.
if people don't know you and they don't see your schedule then they absolutely will not know what you do and you're coming and goings and then they can assume things like that as a rumor because they don't know what you do.
Like I challenge anybody to find any evidence how's me doing anything like that.
Two things they might be running on is the fact I wear pretty dresses and I wear my traveler battle vest with it but that's just part of my subculture I wear men's work Boots it's very common for travel or girls who wear cute clothes and then the rest of their gear is all men stuff. That's if you're traveling with someone or in a safe area if you're traveling alone you certainly aren't going to wear cute dresses you're going to wear men's bibs and maybe you have a skirt when you go to a hot area it's 90° or whatever and it better be a long skirt and you better have one of those boyfriend t-shirts on that covers you especially down at the border of Mexico.
the clothing that I wear the cute dresses and stuff that I wear in my hometown where it's a safe college area it's very safe here are definitely not the clothing that I would wear say going down to the border in El Paso or San Antonio or even California I would be grabbed immediately or constantly bothered and harassed and propositioned.
This is the same thing going on is trying to say that I'm dangerous for me and my partner are dangerous. Everybody that's actually part of the legitimate authorities knows damn well that everybody that was a Harvard square scene Street person was evaluated and psychologically profiled years ago and some people did come out as being a threat because they did things that occupy that were extreme and other people got profiled as just being mouthy but they wouldn't do anything.
Now the people that got profiled is being potentially violent or they would talk about something and actually go through with it we're genuinely good kids anyway it's just what the authorities did to profile people for a threat with terrorism. So what the police would do who knew these people pretty well and didn't feel threatened by anybody in this crowd of people what they would do is they would turn to the kid who was deemed a threat on paper during an event like the regatta or something like that in Cambridge they would tell him to go away from the area for the day and go drink someplace else and he would comply and that was the nice little agreement that everybody had and he can come back after the rich people left and after the event was over. I was never approached on any of that I was never told I had to leave during the regatta or anything else so obviously I wasn't profile this dangerous.
By the way the other day I was in a different part of Metro Boston a nice rich Jewish suburb and I was reacting to someone's dog barking at me and this gentleman told me that the dog didn't like my black outfit and as they were looking at me with Leary eyes and I felt very out of place and mobbed this little group of dog walking people in the park this one awesome dog is great dog this I think it was a collie or some kind of dog one of those really big friendly awesome dogs comes right over to me and pushes up against me for me to pet him. And nobody can say anything to me at that moment because of the dog is coming out of a crowd of people being mean to me to make me feel better to let their owners know that I'm okay by pushing up against me and sitting down in front of me and licking me they know damn well that that means that I'm not a bad person. However what bothered me is the guy who had the poodle that was barking on me because he had the poodle off the leash in the park which he shouldn't have when I came out of the bathrooms so I'm wondering if it wasn't a setup to begin with but I can handle pretty much anything cuz the one thing that people hear don't understand is I traveled the country and the rest of the country is very different than here and I seen a lot of stuff and handles a lot of situations.
So the guy that had the poodle in the beginning that said that his poodle didn't like my black outfit with his poodle off the leash when I came out of the bathroom which I wasn't scared anyway it's just a goddamn poodle and it's a tame dog it's not a guard dog which I've had to deal with by the way in other parts of the country.,
He turned to me during the whole interaction and at some point he said well she doesn't look like somebody planning a mass murder but you never know and I think that's when Otis the dog came out and was wonderful enough to brush up against me and almost knock me down for me to pet him and show everybody in the crowd that I'm okay
While I was petting Otis the dog I I replied to the gentleman's comment about me planning a mass murderer with I don't have the energy for that and he said that's what they all say in a snide joking manner that there was all this venom and poison in it and these people knew they were full of shit and they knew that they were wrong and everything that they do. But Otis the dog I just focused on him and petted him while they looked on that their little plot didn't work or that I didn't look like a jerk or I didn't react badly or whatever it was and the fact that the universe will take care of you and nature will take care of you. That's what Otis the dog was he's part of nature and when you travel long enough and you get pushed out of society long enough you become part of nature and nature takes care of you the world outside of the man-made world and that includes animals.
So these rumors about me plotting a mass murderer or me being a working girl and all that you got to stop it you got to come up with something else don't quit your day jobs because you make horrible writers and I'm actually really tired of all the rumors in the smear it's getting really obnoxious I'm a traveler I'm a houseless woman I'm a writer I'm an activist I'm a caregiver and I have things I need to accomplish and their big great things.
And I feel bad for people that fall into stupid rumors.
By the way if you want to use the w word can I use the n-word? Cuz I've seen some slack jawed motherfucking DNA up in this mother ffucker! I don't care how you dress it up for wealth in the future. Nurture might be money but nature I'm I'm telling you those breeding programs were rough and some things cannot be corrected.
See I can get more ill and send you home crying then you can actually imagine I just remain civil because that's what you supposed to do in society remain civil and everyone supposed to be tolerant of each other it doesn't mean the people actually like each oother.
Remember that next time you think you have power because I can take it aaway. That's rich poor black white men women everybody because I know where your weaknesses are just by looking at you and I hold my fire every day in this world. I'm nice because I choose to be nice because I could be a destructive bitch if I wanted to be and get away with it as well which I don't cuz that's not what I'm here for.
Set of focusing on other people once you fucking find out where the fuck you're here? Maybe motherfuckers are getting paid off who knows who cares don't fuck with me is all I have to ssay
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