Just a basic note to everybody I had a meeting today with this place that I'm staying at because I need it a little bit of a help with a medical issue. Everything was done amicably and we came to an agreement or we made a deal as The assistant in charge described it 

. There was no threatening behavior or language and I am not mentally ill nor did I behave that way or did I show any signs of being anything other than a reasonable person in charge of my faculties by legal ddefinition. 

I do not trust the staff however because as I  I have Said these places are being run like jails in a way. 

The attitude of the assistant was like a warden in a jail I was treated with ddisdain and a bit of unfriendliness is if I have done something horribly wrong in life and should be in a jail and I'm a horrible person. And the guy in charge you can tell he used to be an old hustler because he kept trying to talk over me and twist things around but eventually with the help of the assistant from a different generation and plus two women in a room is always better to get things done Even if they don't agree or like each other with that condition it got done. 

But I don't want any crap from these places at all. I already got the women starting to spread rumors and talk shit about me and I must have done something in the last few years because everywhere I go in the past couple couple of years people treat mme like a monster. 

Ever since we stayed at that house in the North shore 2024 and 2025 ever since then people have treated me is if I've done something horribly wrong. 

But just because it's getting tougher with people's opinions of me doesn't mean anything I'm going to continue to try to fix the shelter system start meetings down in the drug areas and do this book and get it done as well as do my book on homelessness and other things that need to be written about. 

It hurts me because it's not the same place it used to be this place that I'm saying. It's interesting to think that way back when this whole thing started after 9/11 and I started to have to go back to this place cuz I had gone there in the early '90s and gotten clean and sober with the help of staff I had to start going back there again in the early 2000s. it hurts me it hurts my heart to think that the same people that were there then are not there now because the people that were there then had heart and humanity and I think they had an idea about the real story because they actually used to try to change my name on the slips of paper so whoever was going through the nnames couldn't find me. So this same shelter used to protect me or try to. 

The story of how this all happened to me even the local cover story has been lost. And it's been replaced by rumor and everything you can think of that I've had to go through in the past 20 years since I started this blog. In other words in a situation like mine The old saying war makes strange bedfellows applies. 

I may have to fraternize with people or even have people around me that I would rather not I might have to do things and go places and live a certain wway in order to fight and keep my part of the war going. 

This can seem like bad behavior or bad choices to people on the outside that you not understand the core situation. It doesn't matter what they think. I know what my mission is I know that those books are getting the information out matter more than anything. And it matters a hell of a lot more than a bunch of people who are finding anything that they can to make me sound like a bad person probably they just either don't want to go to jail for 30 days or they're getting paid. 

Another words the perps have more material to work with now a lot mmore. 

But that's all right because they were fair and they worked with me.  

A relative turn to me and said it doesn't matter you got what you needed. 

It just hurts to be in a city that's my hometown and I don't have one friend and everybody hates me. 

But that's this job this is what I do this is what I was recruited for this is what I've chosen to take on. Out of a moral responsibility to humanity and out of revenge for my family. 

And when the book is written people are going to apologize and they're going to say they didn't know and they didn't understand and I'll ignore them just the way that I ignore them nnow. Because I know that they don't know what they're doing and what they're talking about how can they? 

Maybe the universe had me take time away from a relationship that became abusive because maybe I need to see what homelessness looks like now for a single ffemale opposed to how I remember it 10 years ago. 

It's all about getting this done