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Thursday, September 25, 2025

Be Aware of Dark Web Exposure of Target's Lives

There seems to be a trend recently where unscrupulous people are using home video camera and/or audio equipment to secretly record unaware people and post these documentations of their lives on the 'dark web'.  The dark web is a name used to describe an underworld of the internet. People can view things and purchase things that are illegal, extreme, hardcore, immoral etc. 

The dark web has been around always. Years ago it was usually only accessable to hackers or expert criminals or other savvy people who found it interesting or useful. 

It seems now that your average person is now comfortable with accessing this underworld and it's mostly younger people that seem involved. Also a larger percentage of petty criminals and addicts etc seem to have familiarity and ease of access. Young immigrants also seem to have no problem understanding it. 

What used to be sophisticated spy craft or blackmail or entertainment for the elite is now in the hands of the public and as we've seen over the past 20 years society is slowly being dismantled and rebuilt in the form of loss of civility, civic mindedness human dignity, decency and genuine humanity. 

What used to be only the realm of street life or poverty or dysfunction is now normalized in legit society. 

As long as people consume and have an internet presence it seems they don't notice the degeneration of their culture and the world around them. 

The kids don't even know anything any different and are being raised in a world where lowered quality of life is normalized. 

With the passing of the BLM era no one even seems to notice they've been scammed as it's leaders buy 6 million dollar houses with public donations. 

One thing that this era did was produce a generation that perceives spying, surveillance and mobbing/harassment as a legitimate form of activism. Which it is not but now we can theorize why it was allowed and encouraged by the corporatocracy.

Therefore if someone is a Targeted Individual it may not be understood by people who become familiar with the person as a character put on display in media resembling a reality show on the dark web that this is the case and there's a pre existing situation that's been going on life long even intergenerationally. 

What people are doing is taking a person who's under immense stress in a crisis situation and recording them in this state then putting them on display to a portion of the public who aren't upstanding or savvy to begin with. 

Wrse theres been cases where people are actually playing long drawn out games with these targeted people by tormenting them and manipulating them so they react and behave ever more outrageously so they can get more content to post on the dark web that's more and more extreme. Whereas if the person was left alone or not mistreated they would not be acting in such a way.

It's unclear if this is just another way the Dirty Tricks Dept is creating a new branch of operations to target people but without the public understanding that's what's going on and the public act as useful idiots or force multipliers because it appears that many people are mobbing individuals with a sense of self righteousness or like an angry mob dishing out justice. 

It could also be that people are aware they are involved in organized stalking of Targeted Individuals but they just don't care about the moral aspect or they now realize that unlike years ago they no longer have to hide their actions because it's not so overt nor is it being done by traveling groups that existed to perform these actions after 9/11.

If it's put on the dark web as an employment opportunity or marketed as mobbing an individual who is presented as deserving to be mobbed to get 'justice' then they could get the public to partake in gang stalking much more easily especially if it's now set up as an East German Stasi type structure as opposed to traveling groups that had a cult type structure to maintain control. 

These theories have more credibility as I've heard first hand that drug dealers or horrible people in places like Ivy League college areas etc have been making money by ordering addicts and petty criminals to injure or kill people just to record it and PUT IT ON THE DARK WEB AS A SNUFF FILM.

(since the Old Guard retired in the mid/late 2000s, people have been coming to the area from all over the country because word is out there's drugs especially meth and the authorities won't do anything. To be fair it has been being cleaned up as of Trump).

I did a blog post years ago titled 'Gang Stalking is MURDER' and it has one of the highest stats of views of anything I've ever created. So in a way this is like a snuff film but it's ongoing. GS is generally designed to stress and isolate someone to death anyway and cause early death, illness etc. 

So if people can document violence and murder as a form of revenge or to control someone's behavior then why wouldn't you be able to spy on people and act as if you are exposing them, when in fact their behavior is due to a pre existing high stress situation that most people DO NOT SURVIVE (being targeted especially those surviving for decades) and that the poster of the spying surveillance most likely is exacerbating their condition by playing games, manipulating the targeted person or causing more stress to essentially get sales or ratings etc?

If you are a guest in someone's space where they are established be very aware of your surroundings and don't take PRIVACY for granted. The person could start out being an ally and then turn on you either because they are being manipulated or they become offended by your behavior in an extreme high stress situation. If there's a combination of both you're doomed. Normal people would just ask you to leave. Predators will use your behavior as a rationale or excuse for their victimizing you when it's their own desperation, incompetence and inadequacies that motivate their actions. 

Privacy has become something very precious not something that occurs naturally in our environments. We have to seek it out and covet it.

One of the worst ideas ever made was to get advanced spying, surveillance, intelligence and communications equipment to the public, which our phones essentially are-without any training or wisdom in how to use these technologies or how to beware of abuse of power. 

As if humans can govern themselves or aren't easily manipulated. 

You've also got two groups in this country to be aware of: those newcomers whos culture and countries are not familiar with our US Constitution and the American youth who have been raised in a culture that subverts and disregards our Constitutional government.

This may be why it's so easy to get people to be involved in such things. They are childish and have to resort to mere bullying because they aren't genuine Americans as if they were they would understand, appreciate and live by our Constitution. 

Nothing is going to motivate people to be better or do the right things when wrong doing is marketed as justice. 

Be much more guarded in any private space even hotel rooms but especially private homes. Anything you do and say can be misconstrued and you may eventually be manipulated. 

Monday, September 15, 2025

a theory about lone shooters for 2025: yes I saw the thing in Utah

I'm going to go out on a limb here because haven't had time to write my books because of personal iissues and because the system just keeps dragging stuff on and I probably won't be able to write it until later on so if you want some information I've already written things about loan shooters before and it's almost like people aren't listening which is fine no one's going to listen anyway except probably the people who are actually involved in causing this crap cuz they want to see what people know and don't know that are discovering this stuff is happening they can get around it so it's not exposed to the public. So ever since Google stopped putting conspiracy theories in their results (use Yandex it gives you all kinds of conspiracy results a lot of it is bullshit so as usual you have to sift through it) and my blog doesn't even come up anymore, and I was framed 2016 I have like no readers left. Which doesn't mean the blog isn't valuable I just wonder what small amount of people are still reading it. 

It doesn't seem like it's people working with the gang stalking theory that are victimized I mean it might be and it might be the victimizers we still use it for practical ppurposes

 Which is not what I want. 

That being said let's move on to the point here. Which is tthat I'm going to provide some information on how probably there was a way to program people to do loan shootings possibly years ago and how that's changing now into some other method. 

Again this is all Theory I don't want some asshole in a courtroom to put my blog on trial again and say that I said this and I said that and it makes it seem this way because again I will sue you this time and everybody will lose their licenses and ppensions and their ability to practice law etc. so don't put the blog on trial it's free speech and I'm a public figure. 

Years ago the reason that so many loan shooters  were listed as taking psych meds might have been in theory that there are drugs available possibly stemming from the MK Ultra projects that you could sneak into capsules and into people's prescription drugs b that provide some kind of mind control or thought control. 

Not just for loan shootings but maybe for other kinds of brainwashing. If you wanted the person to conform if you wanted them to give up whatever they're doing up against the system it might be that if they took certain medications like psych meds or something like that you could put other things into them it would make them hear voices or would hear instructions for instance if somebody takes pills entertained with these drugs coming out of MK Ultra they might hear voices telling them to conform was it they want to conform and oobey and go with the system wants it could be that simple as trying to get rid of a dissident voice but it might also provide voices in the heads of people that you would want to act out violently. 

Just like with playing cointelepro there's most likely a psychological profile done on the person who's the potential shooter and they can already predict what will make the person snap. I may also be a genetic component makes them more susceptible to being useful in this way. 

I think the days of that happening and the human experimentation that is theorized to have gone on around 9/11 and from that time period fforward I think things are being done differently now in theory. 

Unfortunately the new Theory is that it's being done remotely  perhaps while people are sleeping. If there's other factors involved like their situation is right there's been a psychological profile there's other drugs being put either in the environment or into their personal environment. Whatever it might make them more susceptible. And I think it has to do with the new technologies and the way they're progressing. 

So take that into consideration and it might not just be aabout having lone shooters with a history of all of them taking medications it might be a hell of a lot easier now and even if people aren't vaccinated cuz that could provide some I'm kind of nanotechnology there's a million other ways to nanotech microchip people nowadays even covered itself might have had an effect on people make them more susceptible to certain kinds of things considering we now know it was created in a lab. And it wasn't natural which a lot of us could tell while it was happening. 

So take that information and do with it what you will if you're fighting for the good fight. Been taken out of the fight with all kinds of personal things dragging me down. If you can use this information go for it. 

What this means is it's more important than ever to be aware of everything from the first grade level if you will of becoming deprogrammed from the environment that we live first learning about subliminals things that are hidden in your environment through years of study and research and talking to other people who are aware and awake and becoming a seasoned trained person who knows how this wworks now more than ever people are going to need to know how this works so that they can fight something like this that might come upon them that isn't their natural behavior or my cause them to do something that they wouldn't normally do. 

Unfortunately there's too many people did our vulnerable susceptible being targeted for this and now it seems there's a system that makes it very easy to ruin someone's life and take the life of innocent people just for further agendas. 

By the way I don't believe in all of this 5G covid nonsense and that there's no such thing as germs and tthat The world is flat. There's just some conspiracy theories that are disinformation or places for people to hide so no longer have to deal with the reality of their situation. It's called disinformation. 

It could be that during times of high electromagnetic activity perhaps there are more germs or plagues or diseases or something but I don't even think it's worth considering right now unless you have extra ttime.  There's stuff going on that's a hell of a lot more important than that right now. 

If you're having weird thoughts and strange dreams for your in that half sleep that we're all in now under these horrible LED street lights and remember these street lights are Wi-Fi capable and their Smart City capable, wake up from whatever is going on and put it out of your head and realize it's not your thoughts it's intrusive it's not real it's someone else's agenda not yours. 

Your life is your own to control on your own you are not part of a hive it's all an iillusion. 

And if you're reading this and you understand and you're capable I'm dealing with this stuff sorting it out and controlling your own life and your own mind you're one of the very few that's going to remain free in a world that's going to become enslaved. 

 the theory of things going on while people are sleeping it's going to be very hard to detect unless you're well seasoned and well-trained. You would have to already understand that when you're 'sleeping' at night or anytime when those LED street lights are on specially in certain specific areas and with a really bright lights you'd have to already understand fully how you're not really sleeping. Do you understand that you're old enough to remember the difference between years ago when you were actually sleeping under the old lights and now when you're not really sleeping under the new lights outside, and you have the two to compare to each other, then you would have a better chance of understanding that you're not sleeping under the new LED lights and that there's some kind of weird effect going on involving the pituitary glands it's causing weight gain heart disease overeating during the day sleep deprivation which is how everyone's been brainwashed with all these agendas since they put these lights in around 2018. 

If you understand that basically as a theory then you can be more aware while you're sleeping anything that's intrusive or weird that doesn't belong in your hhead. And you can push it out and you away with it.

Therefore it is very important to understand the effects of the LED llights outside. Even in the front of people's cars I don't think have anything to do with brainwashing or controlling people I just think to some people's eyes they're extremely annoying and aggravating and it's just adds to the discomfort nowadays generally in our environment in the city especially. 

Some of us can actually see the LED flicker out of our peripheral vision. And as you know if you're working with the targeted individual Theory you'll notice that early on in being targetedb they we'll test a Target to see how observant they are and they will test a person to see how strong their peripheral vision is and how wide. This makes it easier for them to mess with you in different ways as well as you know this about yourself be prepared because the LED lights that are in the headlights of certain cars are going to be very annoying distracting and even damaging because you're going to be able to see the flicker out of the corner of your eyes so to speak which is peripheral vision. 

 I did not see the importance of people understanding the effects of the LED street lights I thought it was an issue that's gone past because it doesn't look like it's going to change anytime soon anyway and it's worldwide. Now however it's becoming sort of obvious in theory as to why it would have to be worldwide. 

Just something to consider. And if you feel are you being victimized it's your job to do something about iit to protect yourself and innocent people. 

Getting away from the lights for a Time and comparing how you ffeel also moving away from the area to some other area that's more peaceful might be suggested. 

It's also really disgusting to think how much mental illness things like LED lights with people not sleeping as well as the electromagnetic pollution is causing so that they can sell people medication. 

I often wonder if the methamphetamine epidemic is due to the LED lights because people aren't getting proper rest even when tthey're sleeping at night. 

An easy remedy for this is to live in a place up off the ground because it isn't just the lights it's the wires under the ground as well. People don't realize there's all kinds of wires and all kinds of sensors under the sidewalks in big cities. 

Living in a cul-de-sac also seems to be a good way to avoid the effects of the lights. 

You can also go somewhere like a park or some woods where there's no lights at all to sleep and get some real rest or to make a comparison. 

Again wearing blue blocker glasses at night it's got to be the real ones STC orange gglasses they no longer sell the yellow ones I don't think. True blue blockers. They don't cure the problem but they certainly help. 

 

Vets Charities: Contractors Donations are A Small Fraction of their Profits-Why Should The Public Pay Twice?

 First women give birth to sons. Then they have those sons maimed disabled and their lives ddestroyed by war. Nowadays and the ridiculous world we live in today women our soldiers on the front lines which should not be happening. (Men start these wars let them finish it). And neither should women be in charge of contractors. I expect more of women. 

This society cannot even accept real female power and they replace it with ffeminism which only serves to further divide and subjugate women so how can we think that they're serious about the small percentage of women who are warriors/execs by nature? 

That being said, as far as men go who are burned maimed have limbs mmissing commit suicide and all of the horrible things that occur by being put in that situation known as war early on in life especially in a society where it should no longer be happening. (If we're so technologically advanced that we had ai and the internet of things and all of this ability to look out into space quantum physics etc then why do we still have wars? As usual none of it makes any sense probably by design).

Women give up their sons. Family sacrifice a hhusband. Even gay men have lives and had them before everything was turned into rainbow colors. Which is really just so degrading, undignified and to me excuse the real view of gay people. I remember an artist's model had told an art teacher that I was working with that he didn't like going into war in the military when he was younger because "we had to kill so many beautiful men". I mean to me this is a real gay man's attitude, and it really makes an impression on the human psych when you hear that statement. Of course we can't have real human sentiment changing the way we think about things because then society would actually evolve. We have to have movements with flags an agendas and it really doesn't particularly care about people or the individual just groups and the cause so really progressive politics is nothing but more war. Which again.. makes no sense probably by design.

Military contractors do contribute to veterans causes but not enough and the public should not have to give up their tax mmoney, their sons, their family members their futures, as well as then donate to these causes that firstly shouldn't be happening anymore anyway and secondly should really be taken care of by the people who use men like pawns on a chessboard in a game. 

I am glad that people do take care of veterans but not like they should. 

If you're reading this and you're a veteran and you want to commit suicide don't do it you're probably microchipped for being targeted to commit ssuicide on top of whatever you did or saw that's driving you insane in your mind. 

Go somewhere get your head together maybe take a couple years to grow a little bit if you're young volunteer travel talk to other veterans even in other parts of the world and to anybody who ssuicidal don't bother you've got to fight it while it's happening. Find a cause. Live for that in the moment that you feel that way 

You can always teach go to some underprivileged neighborhood or some underprivage country.   Pass on your knowledge. Volunteer your strength and your time. 

That's why we can't end homelessness. A lot of veterans I've seen especially in places with all the military bases like San Diego after they come home from war they kind of live in the street scene and try to get their bearings bback

 I don't know what it's like to be a man I don't know what it's like to be put in a traumatic loud murderous situation as a youth. But there's got to be something more people can do about this sstuff then letting people kill themselves for having their lives ruined by permanent mental and spiritual disability. 

 

 

 

 

Wednesday, September 10, 2025

the rumors about prostitution absolutely need to stop now

 Okay here we go again this is a rumor that has been used against me for many many years I was walking through Berkeley California and some idiot in people's Park who looks just like a park would look turns around and says something about homeless you know what a word that isn't nice for a working girl. And I just let everybody get to know me and I let everybody know if it was ever brought up which of course people don't bring this up they just spread rumors and smear so people got to know me and realize I'm not doing anything because I'm too busy panhandling doing my blog and traveling. 

The problem here is that people don't even know how those businesses work. And rumors it's easy to just spread them but you have to think this is what I mean about the video that I posted in the blog post about my first experience with someone being mobbed in a narcotics anonymous meeting and Watertown with the sponsor of a well-known rock band being the perpetrator. And rumor has it that the victim killed themselves but we don't know that see that's the thing again it's an example of in science classes in the old days they had a box and it said dead cat enclosed well how do you know there's a dead cat in there? And the professor would challenge the medical students first year medical students and say you don't know there's a cat in there or not just because the label says dead cat and close because they were doing research where they would you know cut up the cats for biology study whatever it is. So the kids assume that if it says dead cat in clothes then there's a dead cat in there but you don't know that there is somebody could have taken it out somebody could have stolen it they could have not delivered it properly so this is something they teach even in first year medical school do you have to think critically and you have to think about things very clearly before you believe something and if doctors didn't do that and learn that in their first year we'd all be dying from malpractice. 

So just because somebody says something doesn't mean that it's true also it doesn't make sense at all why would you want to work doing that for a living if you could get a rich guy to put you up? That's why none of it makes any sense it doesn't make any sense to be homeless and doing that unless you are absolutely on drugs and have a huge habit and even then if you're young people will take you in probably and young people tend to live together and cohabitate rich and poor so if Rich kids want to party they'll have their poor friends stay with them at least that's how it used to be. 

So I heard this again today I think I heard it from some African-American kid that goes to this local school and I think I heard it behind me but I'm not sure I thought they said I'm a hoarder instead of that bad word so I turned around in the store I said did someone say I was a hoarder because I don't have a home I can't be a hoarder just to correct the problem that I'm not going to be talk to you like that even if I didn't directly address what I thought I heard just to let them know that they can't go around speaking to me like that behind my back in line in a store. 

So I'll make a video and I'll point out the reasons why that doesn't make any sense especially because I'm old now if I was younger if I was traveling and going to truck stops or if I was dressing nice around you know the Boston area that might make a sense that that's a rumor because I would be younger being older and doing that for a living makes absolutely no sense there are people that do it but women that work in that business that are older above 40 and above they have cars they have jewelry they have money they have a condo you're not homeless and doing that kind of stuff I like again like I said unless somebody is taking their money from them and it's really severe and usually if they have some kind of person like that taking their money they'll put them up in a hotel or a house to avoid detection because he doesn't want to get in trouble for pandering etc or like I said you have to have a really big drug habit and I don't do drugs or drink. 

So if I was working in the sex industry in any capacity then where is my money going and how come I'm not inside paying rent? Also 25 years ago you might be able to rent an apartment with illegal money you can't do that now they asked for IDs they want to see where you get your money because of 9/11 you can't just run around and have under the table jobs anymore you have to now launder your money through other places give it to somebody who has money so that they can hide it you can't just go around doing that I'm assuming of course because I used to know people that would tell me how this stuff works years ago but I haven't known anybody in recent years so I don't know how it works but I'm assuming because I know I've tried to rent apartments and they want all this identification and evidence of where you get your money so it wouldn't make sense to be outside with all that money and where's the money going? 

This is an easy rumor to spread about a woman also I panhandle a lot and it's part of my subculture as a traveler why in the world would I be busy going to do calls or see guys or whatever for money if I'm busy panhandling? I would just go disappear somewhere for a while in a nice outfit and then come back again and you wouldn't know where I went and I mean like disappear into a hotel or a house or something which I don't do clearly I'm outside clearly I'm flying a sign clearly I'm moving around to different sleep spots clearly I'm using the library clearly I'm using coffee shops I'm getting stuff done I'm making phone calls I have a life actually at this age and I have three people I need to take care of me and two other people that depend on me. 

If I was working in that capacity the people that I'm taking care of would have everything they need I would be able to get some kind of help for my aging relative I would be able to get a condo for everybody even if it was done through whatever laundering of the money which I don't know how that works anyway but nowadays people have to do that stuff because no one's going to put up with the legal money like 25 years ago. 

So it's just a rumor about among a bunch of kids but the problem is is that it's a very harmful rumor because it makes it even more difficult for me to do what I do which is I'm actually an activist and a writer and a traveler and it makes it so that people don't want to get to know you and I think that's what the system is doing with putting that poison into a community as a smear campaign. 

if people don't know you and they don't see your schedule then they absolutely will not know what you do and you're coming and goings and then they can assume things like that as a rumor because they don't know what you do. 

Like I challenge anybody to find any evidence how's me doing anything like that.  

Two things they might be running on is the fact I wear pretty dresses and I wear my traveler battle vest with it but that's just part of my subculture I wear men's work Boots it's very common for travel or girls who wear cute clothes and then the rest of their gear is all men stuff. That's if you're traveling with someone or in a safe area if you're traveling alone you certainly aren't going to wear cute dresses you're going to wear men's bibs and maybe you have a skirt when you go to a hot area it's 90° or whatever and it better be a long skirt and you better have one of those boyfriend t-shirts on that covers you especially down at the border of Mexico. 

the clothing that I wear the cute dresses and stuff that I wear in my hometown where it's a safe college area it's very safe here are definitely not the clothing that I would wear say going down to the border in El Paso or San Antonio or even California I would be grabbed immediately or constantly bothered and harassed and propositioned. 

This is the same thing going on is trying to say that I'm dangerous for me and my partner are dangerous. Everybody that's actually part of the legitimate authorities knows damn well that everybody that was a Harvard square scene Street person was evaluated and psychologically profiled years ago and some people did come out as being a threat because they did things that occupy that were extreme and other people got profiled as just being mouthy but they wouldn't do anything. 

Now the people that got profiled is being potentially violent or they would talk about something and actually go through with it we're genuinely good kids anyway it's just what the authorities did to profile people for a threat with terrorism. So what the police would do who knew these people pretty well and didn't feel threatened by anybody in this crowd of people what they would do is they would turn to the kid who was deemed a threat on paper during an event like the regatta or something like that in Cambridge they would tell him to go away from the area for the day and go drink someplace else and he would comply and that was the nice little agreement that everybody had and he can come back after the rich people left and after the event was over. I was never approached on any of that I was never told I had to leave during the regatta or anything else so obviously I wasn't profile this dangerous. 

By the way the other day I was in a different part of Metro Boston a nice rich Jewish suburb and I was reacting to someone's dog barking at me and this gentleman told me that the dog didn't like my black outfit and as they were looking at me with Leary eyes and I felt very out of place and mobbed this little group of dog walking people in the park this one awesome dog is great dog this I think it was a collie or some kind of dog one of those really big friendly awesome dogs comes right over to me and pushes up against me for me to pet him. And nobody can say anything to me at that moment because of the dog is coming out of a crowd of people being mean to me to make me feel better to let their owners know that I'm okay by pushing up against me and sitting down in front of me and licking me they know damn well that that means that I'm not a bad person. However what bothered me is the guy who had the poodle that was barking on me because he had the poodle off the leash in the park which he shouldn't have when I came out of the bathrooms so I'm wondering if it wasn't a setup to begin with but I can handle pretty much anything cuz the one thing that people hear don't understand is I traveled the country and the rest of the country is very different than here and I seen a lot of stuff and handles a lot of situations. 
So the guy that had the poodle in the beginning that said that his poodle didn't like my black outfit with his poodle off the leash when I came out of the bathroom which I wasn't scared anyway it's just a goddamn poodle and it's a tame dog it's not a guard dog which I've had to deal with by the way in other parts of the country., 
He turned to me during the whole interaction and at some point he said well she doesn't look like somebody planning a mass murder but you never know and I think that's when Otis the dog came out and was wonderful enough to brush up against me and almost knock me down for me to pet him and show everybody in the crowd that I'm okay 

While I was petting Otis the dog I I replied to the gentleman's comment about me planning a mass murderer with I don't have the energy for that and he said that's what they all say in a snide joking manner that there was all this venom and poison in it and these people knew they were full of shit and they knew that they were wrong and everything that they do. But Otis the dog I just focused on him and petted him while they looked on that their little plot didn't work or that I didn't look like a jerk or I didn't react badly or whatever it was and the fact that the universe will take care of you and nature will take care of you. That's what Otis the dog was he's part of nature and when you travel long enough and you get pushed out of society long enough you become part of nature and nature takes care of you the world outside of the man-made world and that includes animals. 

So these rumors about me plotting a mass murderer or me being a working girl and all that you got to stop it you got to come up with something else don't quit your day jobs because you make horrible writers and I'm actually really tired of all the rumors in the smear it's getting really obnoxious I'm a traveler I'm a houseless woman I'm a writer I'm an activist I'm a caregiver and I have things I need to accomplish and their big great things. 

And I feel bad for people that fall into stupid rumors. 

By the way if you want to use the w word can I use the n-word? Cuz I've seen some slack jawed motherfucking DNA up in this mother ffucker! I don't care how you dress it up for wealth in the future. Nurture might be money but nature I'm I'm telling you those breeding programs were rough and some things cannot be corrected. 

 

See I can get more ill and send you home crying then you can actually imagine I just remain civil because that's what you supposed to do in society remain civil and everyone supposed to be tolerant of each other it doesn't mean the people actually like each oother. 

Remember that next time you think you have power because I can take it aaway. That's rich poor black white men women everybody because I know where your weaknesses are just by looking at you and I hold my fire every day in this world. I'm nice because I choose to be nice because I could be a destructive bitch if I wanted to be and get away with it as well which I don't cuz that's not what I'm here for. 

 

Set of focusing on other people once you fucking find out where the fuck you're here? Maybe motherfuckers are getting paid off who knows who cares don't fuck with me is all I have to ssay

Saturday, September 6, 2025

the physical movements of gangstalking perpetrators are becoming dangerous and I will take action

People are walking in my path and getting in front of me making me miss buses and blocking doorways and entrance ssquaresactually making things physically dangerous for me and everybody around me and everybody involved because they're walking in front of me just in order to be able to contact people gesturing so that I'll see them do it I understand you pieces of shit have visa issues. A lot of rich foreigners that have money doing this crap right now but it is becoming physically dangerous this is just as bad as a couple of years ago we're people running right into me a bunch of students and young people running literally running into me in the train station right away because nobody wants to be liable for that so if this continues where people are walking in the path of a woman carrying a heavy backpack and sometimes a sleeping bag in her hands in order for just to have these see them doing gesturing crap. 

If this doesn't cease I am going to film constantly and I'm going to take pictures of every single person in front of me I'm going to go through the video or the pictures and I'm going to find out exactly who's doing this crap and then I'm going to take all of the photographs of your faces or videos of you and I'm going to put them on the Internet collectively and I'm going to find someone who's willing to take all of the faces and do sometime shit or find out who you work for in that way remember it was a guy that had a case a couple of years ago or many years ago or you listening to small town and they should buy him number one number two with the flow of traffic was more control by his house cuz it wasn't a big city and he took pictures and I will find out who you work for by making sure I get everyone's face whether it's the feds the government whether it's a private security company like Stratford or blackwater I will find out because this is becoming physically dangerous and it's also making it so you get you want what you want but I'm not able to move around freely I don't even have a place to live and I have to take care of my sick mother and you're getting in my fucking way. 

So nobody needs to get in front of me nobody needs to get in my way because I don't think anybody wants to be liable for physical injury and by the way I will physically defend myself if necessary if I have to bump into people throw my backpack on them throw down the sleeping bag in front of them so that they trip so that I don't I will start physically defending myself because it's the moral and right thing to do I don't give a fuck if it's legal at this point or not. 

The other thing that people need to stop doing is fucking with me when I'm in the cash register in the store because then I can't focus and also that's wasting my time and if you want I can take your picture right next to me or stop what I'm doing with the transaction and the store and either complain that I don't know you're doing something or attract attention or I can accuse you of stealing I can start making stuff up if you want me to. So stay out of my way when I'm doing key things like trying to buy something or move around because we're not doing this because you want to get what you want because you're desperate losers.