Old Chemical Bros On Spotify For Inspiration

 If you have Spotify there's a track from The Chemical Brothers called Elektrobank and it's from the album Dig Your Own Hole 

If go to settings and you allow canvas on the songs (canvas is where an artist has picked some sort of visual or graphic that repeats in a loop while you play the song on Spotify) the video clip they have for this song is intensely useful for motivation.

https://open.spotify.com/track/7M8sOro6vmhw4gts6orQ3e?si=GXujN4irTbK4cwBSmCHwCA&utm_source=copy-link 

 The music video itself is a bit goofy and culled because you have to understand what Europe has gotten themselves into as far as self destructive policies under the banner of socialism (which it is not).

If you want to true power of the girls movement just set this up and play this on a device like a phone where you can keep glancing at it. (Don't switch to video because it's lame).

I use this because this is what I've been doing for 20 years. This is what it feels like to be trying to keep going.

You have to keep doing that flip. Youve got to keep winning. 

A gymnast works for me also because when I was younger traveling I had to land on a dime and could not afford a misstep. 

It will keep you going.

And if you want a great song to listen to find the track in its demo form it's titles Elektrobank (Demo  3/6/96) if you can't find it try it without the brackets. The vid loop doesn't work so well with the demo track it's more for listening pleasure. 

Spectors that Disrupt the Environment

 Theres this weird black woman who shows up a lot in the supermarket I eat at and charge at. Her energy is very negative and  she takes the whole place down like  a stone when she arrives and you can clearly feel relief when she's gone. 

She never buys anything and never has any groceries with her and it's at a supermarket where there's seating for the coffee cafe that's there. I literally have never seen her eating, drinking or purchasing or grocery shopping..

If there was any sort of truth to a myth or superstition about witches turning milk sour and flames burning blue or any sort of truth to the term 'spook' then I now understand it all. 

I must be psychically weakened by menopause and a person who was witj me for 9 years tearing away all those years of my experiences when his medical conditions forced us to separate.  

I remember dealing with some weird shit traveling but this is hard to deal with nowadays. Without estrogen  i just seem to have no resilience. 

You truly become a fragile person who needs  a safe environment. 

So from now on when she shows up I am going to have to leave immediately. She's nothing but bad news.

Also people start messing with me and I notice that say I'm on an important call and I just get sick of it and people are being annoying or whatever and I say something, no matter what I do or say she is almost hyper focused on making sure she's paying attention to her phone. Which is odd because she never is on the phone. Normal people would look up during some sort of disruption. Also In the past she's done whatever she can to just sit in the cafe with no one else around and make people feel totally uncomfortable-with no phone. 

Just sitting there with a shit sniffing look on her face. What's interesting is that she never has a phone. Shes usually just sitting there.... weirding out the place. 

Also it's odd that when I sit in this cafe, depending on the time or day, it's as if some sort of 'people of color' thing has to happen and it's very....like, fake. Like it's theatrical. It's manufactured.

A black guy with a white lady with ten kids. A black lady with her son sitting to eat. They always show up the same amount of time after I sit down WHEN these odd theatrics do occur. What is similar about every single bunch of people who are like this is their energy is not directed at each other and just existing like other people. They are doing some thing to the environment. It's like a performance. 

And every single one of them speaks in this weird way like it's very theatrical and it cuts through the air.  Just tonight before the Black Witch arrived (lol), there were two people and the woman made sure that she kept making it clear that the other person with whe had to stay away from me as if I'm scary. Which is BS.

These odd people always speak in ways that seem overly sugary and contrived to each other. As if they are showing off.

I'm just theorizing of course.

There are some very nice people working here now and I notice that one of them is an Muslim woman. I notice that none of this nonsense goes on when she's here interestingly. Because she's very nice, very astute, cconscientious and she's not a dead dumb and blind distracted kid. 

These aren't things you can film this is more along the theory of Spoon Benders or psychic warriors. 

Anyway when I feel uncomfortable I'm going to vacate sooner because the arrival of the Black Witch is warning enough